u/ZombiePrincesa

Genuinely curious how I do this? I just started getting back into reading and after 10 fantasy books I read my first infinity star book and im not the same anymore.. I didnt know this could happen from reading. Its all I can think about and im about to do another reread after only finishing the book about 4 days ago (the ruins beneath us - Sasha e Sloan / YA fantasy)

I tried to read a couple books after but literally I cant bring myself to care about any other book after that book.. its like I cant bring myself to leave that world and I dont want to say bye to those characters 😭 any advice from seasoned readers, I'm posting this here cause i really only read fantasy / romantasy.

Is it normal to get this attached to a fantasy book lol, I want it to go away cause I have 3 other fantasy books I wanted to get to before the month ends

Ive never wanted kids, the idea of pregnancy, childbirth, having to take care of a screaming, crying, puking child and anything else that comes with it sounds horrifying - but seeing my bisalp surgery coming up i keep getting flooded with.. idk how to explain it? worry? Like oh what if my partner decides he want kids and then leaves me cause I choose to have peace of mind? Also i guess I feel like I'll miss my illusion of choice even tho I dont want a kid and really dont want the ability to have one..

I know it doesn't make sense cause why would someone who yearns to be childfree feel this way.. Maybe some of it is deep rooted in my family making me feel like thats all im good for is child bearing and so I feel obligated.. Any advice or support would be nice.

I started BuSpar last night and in two hours take my 2nd pill but im weary about taking it.. unfortunately I found a thread of people sharing their bad side effects which i regret reading and it scared me so bad that now im not sure if what im feeling is anxiety from reading that or from the med

So with that.. maybe hearing some different experiences might help?

I want this to work cause my anxiety keeps me locked in my house and Ive failed every other med but hearing that some people stayed nauseated and very dizzy and that it didnt go away until stopping the med is really scaring me.

I have emetephobia as well and would rather not puke from this med or have permanent dizziness.

Wanting to try new products - i have sensitive, textured skin that is acne prone. Im starting to get some fine lines and seeing as I just ran out of my face moisturizer (I used the Neutrogena hydroboost and there was nothing hydration boosting about it lol) i was wondering which of the two I should go for? Im gonna start with lotion first then branch out into oils and etc with either brand, but I have to finish what I have first!

I'll keep this short and sweet and can provide more info on the idea if youre interested! Essentially I want to do a high stakes fantasy romance roleplay between a court jester (who I'll be playing as) and a princess (your oc)

They aren't supposed to love eachother but she finds a home in him, he protects her from the cruel King. This rp will be filled with emotions, sadness, anger, a sweet romance between an unlikely pair.

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A bit about me: I write advance literate 3rd person. My character sheets are minimal so that way you can learn about the oc's as the story unfolds! Im typically free all day and though I only play male characters i am a female writer.

Dont want to jinx myself but.. I think the worst is over. As of last month i started getting myself in the habit of continuing on with what I was doing even when I was nausous or redirecting the anxious energy and I find that even tho I'll remain nausous it makes the idea of throwing up much less scary cause im not giving it the power!

Some things ive been doing are:

If im nausous, eat and keep eating. I tell myself positive things like: "id much rather throw up food then just acid" or "youre so strong for eating at a time like this."

Then I'll challenge myself and approach it with curiosity which has also been helping too like "oh I wonder what it will tast like if it came up or what it'll feel like" and ive noticed that when I approach it with curiosity it seems much less daunting.

Another example would be:

The other day I was nauseous and instead of freaking out I went and did a face mask and pampered myself rather than doing my typical emetephobia panic. It felt empowering to just move on with my night like nothing was happening and I even laughed and said to my partner "it would be funny if I threw up with this mask on, id look so funny and ridiculous"

For the past week ive noticed ive gone longer gaps without nausea now like rather than everyday its been every 6 days im nausous now and it really feels like making light of it and not leaving space for the fear has really helped. Ive even been telling myself kind things like "you can do hard things and one day you'll look back and realize you kicked this fear right in the butt!"

I havent thrown up yet, but im feeling way more comfortable with the idea, ive been stopping the doubt and telling myself that just because I havent thrown up in 20 years doesnt mean anything! My body knows how to do this and my body knows how to keep me safe. Its so nice eating what I want again and not having full blown crying / hyperventilating fits!

Im still dealing with the agoraphobia part of it but have been slowly getting myself out more and more and while I fear upchucking in public ive been telling myself: "girl if you gotta throw up then you just gotta, if you cant make it to a bin and someone gets mad and disgusted thats on them, dont feel bad!"

Im scared to leave but im not scared in the sense of my physical safety, he would never hurt me physically but scared cause my health is in shambles and I have no where to go when I leave..

My fiance has been horribly emotionally abusive to me and ontop of that has constantly used weaponized incompetence. I finally opened up to my best friend and she opened my eyes to alot of things.. how he love bombed me for the first 8 months then slowly things started getting worse and worse.

I had fallen for him hard, he would always tell me how fate brought us together and how meeting me healed him. He made me feel so important when we got together, showered me in more love than I had ever received and then at the 8 month mark things started to turn. Name calling, kicking me out of the car and leaving me on the side of the road, forcing unprotected intercourse on me, yelling at me, putting us in debt then blaming me. Hes ruined my life and emotionally hurt me so bad.. im nauseous everyday, cry everyday, have no one to turn to and my health is the worst its ever been. I have no money cause im so sick I cant work and everything is his, the studio we stay in, the car everything..

I keep trying to stay cause one day he'll be so nice to me and admit he needs to be medicated and attend therapy but then within hours he switches. Hes the meanest person ive met, hes not only mean to me but to random people. Always insults people behind their back and says cruel things and his family just praises his behavior. When hes nice to me and apologizes it feels great and im so happy and then he tears it all down. I spend all day laying in bed, crying with no appetite and wanting to throw up. I want to go, but I love him and I don't want to be homeless.

The shelters near me are all full and I have no family or friends that can help me. I feel so lost and I just wanted our relationship to heal, I tried so hard and gave the relationship my all.. I mean ive been in therapy for years to try to help us workout. It sucks cause of how much I care for and love him, but if I hadn't tried so hard the relationship would've ended long ago..

I'll keep this straight to the point, Im wanting to do a romance roleplay set in one of these worlds, i love to play Canon characters but I can play an original character if you'd rather me do that. I like to do AU fandom roleplays where its ok to change thing like we can keep certain characters alive, change some lore etc.

Some information about me:

I am of the female gender but I will only roleplay male characters. I write advance literate but prefer quality over quantity and id prefer someone who can respond atleast once to twice a day at the minimum and someone who is good at communicating. Please be friendly, open minded, considerate and literate. Im someone who loves to read and write and so I can be a bit picky on quality so id like a paragraph sample of writing.

FANDOMS IM LOOKING TO RP IN:

☆ = ones im very interested in

-THE WALKING DEAD ☆

(Id love to play as either Daryl, Rick, Shane, Negan, Glenn, Carl or The Governor) Carl must be an adult

-STRANGER THINGS

(id love to play as either adult versions of Mike, dustin or Will OR Eddie, Steve or Jonathan)

-GAME OF THRONES ☆

(Id love to wither play as Jon, Jamie, Rob or a adult Tommen)

-THE LAST OF US ☆

(id love to play as either Joel or Ellie) ellie is the only female character im ok maining

-STAR WARS

(Id love to play as either Anakin or Kylo) this one would need to be a very much an AU cause Its been many years since ive seen the movies.

-BETTER THAN THE MOVIES AU

id obviously play as Wes!

Honorable mentions:

Id also be ok with a RP in modern times with Leon Kennedy ive never played resident evil but I know what he looks like and I know his occupation. Id also be ok with a magic academy rp with me playing a draco type character (havent seen Harry potter tho) or a dragon academy like fourth wing! Even something with Chief from Halo!

Anyways let me know if youre interested!

My doctor is starting me on 15mg lansoprazole once a day after I failed pantoprazole. Pantoprazole didnt sit well with me at all and gave me some not fun side effects like chest pain, stomach pain, anxiety etc We tried to manage it with pepcid which worked for a while but ultimately stopped helping me. Im miserable with my acid reflux so I was open to trying one more PPI but I read that its harsh on the body - lansoprazole specifically and im very sensitive to meds so if you've taken this specific med and have any sort of story can you please tell me! Id like to start tomorrow, hopefully

Ive tried so many medications to help my panic disorder and OCD and at this point i want to give up and try to naturally help myself but ive been told my by some people on reddit that I cant, that no amount of working out or meditation will help me.

Im upset cause every med ive tried has given me intense reactions and has made me feel worse, does anyone have advice or recommendations cause im losing hope..

Ive tried:

All SSRI

Was told SNRI wouldnt be a good fit for me since It just anxiety and ocd I deal with

Amitriptyline (or however you spell it)

Propranolol

Buspar

And like 3 other ones I dont remember the name of

This is my 3rd time trying to star lexapro but I literally never make it past day 5 except for one time I made it to day 11. I didn't take my 4th dose today cause the side effects are so bad and idk how to get myself to push past them :(

I want this medecine to work for me cause this is my last option, none of the other meds I tried helped, they gave me less side effects but didnt help.

I tried to do half of the 5mg pill this time so 2.5 but it didnt help at all. Sevre headaches, nausea thats so bad it freaks me out and I dont wanna throw up, im deathly terrified of it but my nausea on lexapro is a nightmare. Visual disturbances where my vision gets supper blurry in the corners and I can barely see, no appetite, awful stomach cramps, teeth grinding and Jae clenching to where I woke up with pain in my jaw and such awful anxiety. When I made it day 11 the symptoms still hadn't eased up and I was surviving purely off a zofran every 8 hours and 2 Tylenol every 6 hours.

Please help cause if I cant get this to work I only have one more med left to try but that one has a worse side effect list.

Any tips or recommendations would be much recommended. Im so torn on if I try again tonight :(

Ive decided after failing many antidepressants that cognitive behavioral therapy and mindfulness might be the way for me to co exist with my panic, anxiety, emetephobia and depression.

How do I go about doing this? How does one start practicing mindfulness? Any tips or simple explanations that wont stress me out would be very appreciated. I tried to read a guide but it was a lot at once.

Id truly appreciate any advice or words of wisdom and thank you for taking the time out of your day to supply said material if you do 😊

Ive exhausted so many medication options and have decided with my therapist that id likely be better off just figuring this out with no meds - ive tried so many medications and reacted terribly to them all.

Anyways..

Im in once a week CBT therapy which is helping yes, but im looking for natural ways to raise my serotonin and decrease cortisol.

My fiance said cardio really helped him so im wondering will that really help boost the happy hormones? Im also drinking chamomile and green tea and speaking more positively towards myself rather than negative. Any advice to help me naturally would be very appreciated! I know I can do this without meds (I wish meds worked for me but im so over the trial and error) I know im strong and can beat this so any tips would be very much appreciated!

What im diagnosed with:

GAD, panic disorder, emetephobia with agoraphobia and depression.

Hi im about to start my lexapro journey either tonight or tomorrow morning! I'll be starting at 2.5 mg for 3 weeks then bump up to 5 mg after if all is well. Im so excited for this but I want the best odds at succeeding. My psychiatrist said take it at night but my pharmacist said in the morning so now im confused as to which one i should go with.

I took lexapro once for 3 weeks months ago but stopped cause I was having a super rough time ontop of of other external things. I took it at night back then and remember the first two weeks how tired I was and how much of a headache it gave me. But im ready to try again and not give up this time!