u/broken_krystal_ball

In the modern era where information is more readily available, learning should be easier, however as most of us know the availability of knowledge has lead to many of us feeling overwhelmed.

For me my main goal in life is to become an animator, director, and writer. However as most people know it's not enough to just draw and write all day to make films that mean something, you need to have experience and knowledge to put into your stories and visuals. Not to mention, there are things I wish to do that don't directly relate to my purpose.

Weapons, Fashion, History, Quantum Physics, Philosophy, Anthropology, Architecture just to name a few. Not to mention how these always branch out into even more subjects, Quantum Physics I definitely need to re-examine scientific foundations to even have a chance at understanding. History, Philosophy, and Anthropology are all connected however the different eras, cultures, and figures can be dizzying.

It even effects how I consume art. I have hundred of animes, movies, books, shows, video games, albums, etc I'm interested in and I get overwhelmed by the choices. I could analyze the influences and cultural background of Yoshitomo Nara's work, or I could finish watching My Hero Academia, I could start Vinland Saga, I could replay Sally Face, get better at Hanzo in Overwatch, I could make an effort to read more than 4 Edgar Allan Poe stories, I could learn more about poetry, I could watch the rest of the Cartoon Saloon movies, and don't even get me started on the indie artists I have on my feed that I feel guilty for not giving the same attention I do my favorites.

The biggest epiphany I've come to so far is that with drawing and writing, though there are certainly intellectual aspects to it, most of learning is like a muscle, both in the mechanical skills and creative skills. Further these skills are likely to weaken without frequent use. Meanwhile more intellectual subjects like Math, Science, etc are able to be put down and returned to more easily.

Any advice would be appreciated.

So before 1967, let's say we have a person who's half black and half white. Would this person have been allowed to marry at all? I'm aware that many states were gradually implementing interracial marriage even before Loving v. Virginia, but I'm asking about states that hadn't. We're mixed race individual completely cut off from legal marriage?

My biggest problem is that even in my wildest imagination, I still can only identify myself as human, all that I look forward to is the life before me in the material and the life within my imagination. All other ideas cause me to feel dizzied. All of these are ideas I have believed in at different points in my life, now my belief is unsure though I believe in Deism.

1: Heaven

A world where suffering does not exist. That means so triumphs, no desires, no stories that make you cry, no feeling a hug of a friend who feels your pain.

2: Hell

Obviously this has the opposite problem, suffering can only have meaning if you have joy to compare it too, and just as in Heaven, there's no sense of triumph or moving forward.

3: Reincarnation

You may assume this is my ideal is this does see life as a never ending cycle. The only problem is, I fear the idea of who I am now being nothing more that a spec in an eternity of lives. Even if the soul that composing me is still there, that isn't the me that's with my girlfriend, that isn't the me who cried during Arcane, that isn't the me who is writing this post. This feels devaluing of the life I presently live.

4: Oblivion

Not necessarily an afterlife but more of the lack of one. Though many existentialists see this void as an invitation to live life to the fullest, this to has always left me with an empty feeling.

5: Ascension

I know this is a vague term that encompasses many spiritual beliefs and religions. However the idea of turning into a spirit on some plane, not quite in the world, not quite out of it, and then moving onto something that humans can't even comprehend scares me. I've even heard some afterlives like this described as a sort of adventure, however once again, I have trouble imagining not being human.

I understand some people who are deeply into the idea of the afterlife may be frustrated by this post. I apologize if I have. I spend a lot of time thinking about life, and I suppose a lot of this has to do with the fear of death. However, the humanist in me is truly in love with being human, love, art, identity, anything beyond or below this, frightens me to an almost Lovecraftian level.

EDIT: I realize the Buddhist idea of Nirvana and the Hindu idea of Moksha both don't fit into these categories, although I have believed in them before. Similar to Heaven the idea of an existence without human experience and passion is scary to me.

So I fully know there are probably many other rants you could be offering support and acknowledgement to. I fully embrace this is a dumb thing to get upset about, and maybe I'm extra emotional because I'm still haven't gotten my ritalin dosage correct. Only click the bottom if you're ready to accept the most random, stupid Trans struggle ever. Ready.....?

Miyazaki would hate me. I told you it was dumb! I saw a video early on Instagram about Miyazaki's stance on AI, and someone replied "He was raised in the right generation,", and my immediate reply was "I would be inclined to agree if there wasn't a 90% chance he would hate me for being trans,". I'm sure most people have had the experience of someone you admire being anti trans, but in this case I suppose its more knowing that statistical someone born in 1940s Japan wouldn't be open to this kind of thing. It just sucks knowing that soemone I look up to (as parasocial as that sounds) would likely be disgusted by me for wearing makeup. Miyazaki also isn'tnecessarily the best person in general so, maybe his hypothetical praise shouldn't mean much. I thank you for reading this long, have a nice day

Emilie Wapnick criticized the 10,000 hour rule as a guiding principle for every endeavor. If it's the case that this isn't and shouldn't be a guiding principle for multipassionates. I was curious of notable figures who have given less than 10,000 hours to their craft.

Now obviously with this there's no way of truly knowing how long someone had devoted to their skills, however I'm curious if anyone knows of any people who have less experience than one may assume.

The only one I can think of is Eazy E, the first ever song he rapped on was put on an album. That was in 1987 and he died eight years later. He would've needed to be rapping around 4 hours daily to reach the 10,000 hour rule by the end of his life. Which obviously means those songs weren't made by someone who had reached that hurdle, yet he's still remembered as a great for his creativity and personality.

I'm a baby when it comes to horror, there have been horror stories that caused me to barely sleep for a week, however I do like stories about Ghosts, Monsters, and the unknown.

If you're curious where my scare tolerance is, I'd say the scariest piece of media I was able to deal with was Midsommar.