u/crystal-dragons

I'm such a disappointment

Edit: unnatural colors I meant

Look I understand it's their roof their rules but my hair too? Come the fuck on. They threw multiple insults at me and said how retarded and slutty I looked with the ends of my hair dyed pink. Fuck my life I can't take this shit anymore and don't even have money to move out or any friends to move in with.

Title says all I'm sitting here all alone sweaty on a street corner trying to find her and her stupid guy friends that she invited along with us and I'm tired and this 4th of July has been shit. it was supposed to just be us 2 and now she brought them and I can't even find her rn because this place is so busy I'm in the downtown area right now. This 4th of July has been shit i might as well had gone alone to see the fireworks

Post history is my cry for help. I can't do this anymore. Suffering since 12, I'm 20.

Abilify, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Vraylar, Paxil, Lexapro, Seroquel, NOTHING WORKS ITS HOPELESS IM 20 AND NOTHING HELPS ITS HOPELESS the depressive states last more than the happy states I can't take it
Edit: I'm not drinking and am taking my meds consistently

Why even live

I've been experiencing with different psychiatric meds since I was like 17 and I'm 20 about to be 21 my post history is a cry for help and I'm giving up hope

I feel like I'm not even here. I haven't been "here" for the past maybe seven years I think. I feel so dead. I'm completely hollow on the inside I feel. I shower (sometimes), eat, go to work and care for all the cats there, I talk to (or try to) people at work, but inside? I'm not here. I'm the shell of a person. I am completely emotionally dead inside and my soul is gone. I feel like I will always feel this way forever. I've tried Abilify, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lexapro, Paxil, Vraylar, etc. I just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago. Maybe I should give it more time? I've been experimenting with different psychiatric meds since I was 18 though, I am 20 now.

I am not here. I am gone I feel. I am dead. I wish so bad I was normal and wasn't plagued with mental illnesses. I wanna kill myself.

I feel like I'm not even here. I haven't been "here" for the past maybe seven years I think. I feel so dead. I'm completely hollow on the inside I feel. I shower (sometimes), eat, go to work and care for all the cats there, I talk to (or try to) people at work, but inside? I'm not here. I'm the shell of a person. I am completely emotionally dead inside and my soul is gone. I feel like I will always feel this way forever. I've tried Abilify, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lexapro, Paxil, Vraylar, etc. I just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago. Maybe I should give it more time? I've been experimenting with different psychiatric meds since I was 18 though, I am 20 now.

I am not here. I am gone I feel. I am dead. I wish so bad I was normal and wasn't plagued with mental illnesses. I wish I was actually dead.

I feel like I'm not even here. I haven't been "here" for the past maybe seven years I think. I feel so dead. I'm completely hollow on the inside I feel. I shower (sometimes), eat, go to work and care for all the cats there, I talk to (or try to) people at work, but inside? I'm not here. I'm the shell of a person. I am completely emotionally dead inside and my soul is gone. I feel like I will always feel this way forever. I've tried Abilify, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lexapro, Paxil, Vraylar, etc. I just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago. Maybe I should give it more time? I've been experimenting with different psychiatric meds since I was 18 though, I am 20 now.

I am not here. I am gone I feel. I am dead. I wish so bad I was normal and wasn't plagued with mental illnesses. Yes there IS such thing as normal and I'm sick of people saying otherwise.

I feel like I'm not even here. I haven't been "here" for the past maybe seven years I think. I feel so dead. I'm completely hollow on the inside I feel. I shower (sometimes), eat, go to work and care for all the cats there, I talk to (or try to) people at work, but inside? I'm not here. I'm the shell of a person. I am completely emotionally dead inside and my soul is gone. I feel like I will always feel this way forever. I've tried Abilify, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lexapro, Paxil, Vraylar, etc. I just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago. Maybe I should give it more time? I've been experimenting with different psychiatric meds since I was 18 though, I am 20 now.

I am not here. I am gone I feel. I am dead.

I live in Florida and don't qualify for any type of insurance but apparently I need more than 1 times a week therapy which I agree but can't afford it. I truly do not think it will get better for me. I've tried having hope for all these years "it'll get better in your 20s" I'm 20 now gonna be 21 and I've tried so many things and it hasn't gotten better. I'm so fucking exhausted. Numerous therapists have quit on me. For some people it doesn't get better and I'm one of them. None of my meds work and I can't afford anymore things I have no insurance and live paycheck to paycheck basically. Please help me I want to die

My post history is a cry for help. I truly do not think it will get better for me. I've tried having hope for all these years "it'll get better in your 20s" I'm 20 now gonna be 21 and I've tried so many things and it hasn't gotten better. I'm so fucking exhausted. Numerous therapists have quit on me. For some people it doesn't get better and I'm one of them. I wanna chop off all my hair and I'm sitting in the work parking lot and I think I'm just gonna go home I don't care if I get fired anymore.

Why did god give me a brain with autism and adhd and bipolar and make me have generalized anxiety since I was 5 why couldn't I be normal like all the other kids during my school years why why why why why why why why I'm in college when it's supposed to "get better" and it hasn't it truly doesn't ever get better. I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 12 I'm 20 now it truly doesn't get better for some people

Hi I'm 20, and I've been having really horrible thoughts about hurting my mom with a kitchen knife and I'm terrified and feel disgusting. I keep imagining myself giving in and doing it and then living out the rest of my life in prison and imagining my mom dead bleeding out on the floor and I'm fucking terrified. Please help me how do I make these thoughts go away? I love my mom and don't want this.