u/dubsosaurus

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Two weeks since I left my husband. I kept my 16 year old terrier and he’s got the heeler that he brought into the marriage. I’m absolutely gutted. Guess it’s a sign when you miss the dog more than the guy.

I’ve had an ED since around age 13. It’s directly related to feeling out of control of my life, stemmed from family trauma. The last two years in my marriage my ED has been hard to control because my home life has been riddled with anxiety, complete loss of trust and never knowing when the other shoe was going to drop. So I tried to control what I could, and unfortunately that shows up strongly through my ED.
I’ve been living alone the last two weeks and can feel myself emotionally regulating. It’s been 2-3 years since I haven’t been in fight or flight mode. I went and got a chest x-ray last month because I kept thinking I was having a heart attack or had it in my head that I had cancer. Turns out it was just anxiety. Four days after leaving him it all went away.
I stayed too long and put up with too much. But the important thing is that I got out. Every day I feel my body and mind coming back to earth. I haven’t felt this much peace and calm since I can’t remember. I am back to eating, and eating healthy. My husband was not a healthy person and it was really difficult to eat healthy around him.
I feel like I’m coming home to myself. Now that I’ve burnt the whole fucking thing down I’m excited to rebuild it all new. It’s going to be so much better than before. Side note, and a personal opinion, fuck marriage and fuck the patriarchy!