thc is in fact addictive esp for people like us. i was heavily using on and off for a couple years, my use became pretty heavy this past episode which lasted almost a year. anyways, im going through withdrawal and feeling like shit. my main symptom is im feeling exhausted. so exhausted, no amount of sleep helps. i dont wanna relapse at all, i dont have any cravings like at all. just kinda wanted to complain
no matter how much sleep i get im exhausted. nothing helps, like i can't function
i have persistent mild flu like symptoms like body aches, headaches, feeling more dehydrated, extreme fatigue with really really deep eye bags, sore throat. i thought allergies but it isnt. how long do they last? i was a very heavy user
i am newly officially diagnosed, so i cant fully make a discrimination claim since i wasnt **officially* diagnosed at the time. but i knew, so i disclosed to a lead being neurodivergent/on the spectrum. that lead began to treat me differently than others. very noticeably, my pattern recognition is off the charts. she had a very condescending, rushed tone with me. wouldnt explain things in direct terms, very little praise and only criticism. rude comments, criticizing me in front of others, and clearly assuming i was being slower on the training checklist on purpose. i wasnt. i even asked please give direct answers, i may need more prompting, and struggle to catch onto things. all of this she knew from day one.
i have walked in on her gossiping about me to another coworker. i could tell in this situation because she was laughing, talking quickly, and when i walked into the room they both fell completely silent then laughed again when i left the room. as a lead this is extremely unprofessional . i have now reported her over 3 times. i dont know how much has been done, but now because i am asking to switch locations they are launching a full investigation because they realize the severity of the situation has escalated to harassment/bullying.
my coworkers arent nice to me or other autistic coworkers. i am frequently ostracized. when i say things, im completely ignored. other times, i have a coworker who will interrupt me when trying to speak and shutting me down for no real reason. i have been yelled at and embarrassed in front of coworkers. when i do something wrong, i am then treated poorly the next couple of weeks. multiple callouts in person, then on teams with passive aggressive comments attached to it. people are more rude to me than others. and they are ALL people this lead is close to so it cannot be a coincidence it is so obvious she talks about me.
i have a diagnosis of vestibular migraines w/ episodes of severe vertigo. on top of that, anxiety disorders. i went years without having really bad panic attacks to daily panic attacks. my heartrate skyrockets to 145+ when resting. i have to take panic attack meds almost daily. the vertigo only gets so severe at work ive had to go home multiple times and had to take a small LOA so the symptoms subside. unfortunately, it appears these episodes are only happening at work.
i go back monday and have no idea what to do. if my symptoms begin again, i am going to tell them switching locations is a necessity and that there is absolutely no way i can continue working at this location, the situation cannot be remedied.
if this is the wrong subreddit for this let me know. when i go on autism subreddits, they are mean/invalidating/victim blamey to me simply for being a RBT.
im also considering reporting this to the BACB because bullying a coworker as a superior is extremely unprofessional and a clear violation of ethics
ive been struggling with episodes of self harm since i was young. recently, i became completely sober and im struggling again with selfharm. on top of withdrawal for substances, im dealing with the emotional withdrawals from self harm. i dont really have any support groups for this, i attend NA for the substance abuse but i feel i could really use someone to talk to who just.. gets it. my substance abuse counselor is also helping with it with positive reinforcement and all that, but its still hard. what has helped with quitting for you guys? getting through the withdrawals because theyre unbareable
im struggling a lot through emotional withdrawal a lot and honestly, i also struggle with selfharm addiction. it has gone hand in hand, the urges for the other become stronger in the abscense of one if that makes sense. im two weeks sober and i feel really really depressed. like no matter what i do, the emptiness wont subside. also increase in anxiety and some physical illness. i want to feel better soon but i dont know when it'll be.
like youre already sensitive to light and loud noises. being extremely picky with foods and averse to major lifestyle changes. if youre like me and suffer from SIB, it makes it worse and is also what caused it 😭. stress is super hard to prevent. and i lovee my screentime for sims and all that other stuff. always had balance issues in general and now theyre worse. anyone else got this nightmare combo?
my VMs began a year ago. the first episode i had i had some mild neck pain which i attributed to caffeine withdrawal but then it worsened. i started having double vision and balance issues. at home, my vertigo symptoms began to become worse. i would have times where i couldn't walk, had to crawl/grab onto walls, severe nausea, motion sickness, doubling/spinning vision etc. for a few weeks it was episodes like this daily. the worst episode had me hospitalized for two days (partly because it was mixed with detox).
right now when i become stressed primarily at work, i get vertigo. i had to take a small LOA to wait for my qulipta to start working but im still having migraine symptoms daily. i was dxed as chronic migraines. sumatriptan doesnt work that well for me. i feel disabled. another thing is im constantly having trouble balancing and i have the craziest bags under my eyes like completely sunken in. there id mild improvements but im almost constantly symptomatic. i feel hopeless. idk what to do.
i'm on day three of quitting and earlier my mom woke me up at 7 AM*** after I've fallen asleep at like* *three in the morning.*** I kept trying to go back to sleep and I would sleep for a little bit at a time but I kept waking up and I just gave up and got out of bed and got on with my day and somehow I'm not really that tired I know I'm probably gonna crash later but has anyone else experienced this?
TW suicidal thoughts
im so sick of posting here and getting rude comments constantly. i get outcasted irl and treated differently than others. i cant handle it it's exhausting. why do i have to constantly defend myself or just cry. ive been going home crying or sobbing almost every week because the people at work are so mean to the point i began considering deleting myself (i am safe and wont do it) to the point of almost doing it but ofc im too scared. will people just be mean to me for the rest of my life? do i have to pretend to be neurotypical to stop getting treated poorly?
that may not seem like much but ive spent the better half of two years going on three years struggling with weed addiction on and off. this latest episode has been for nearly a year. im realizing i dont want to live like this anymore. im depressed, im lonely, ive lost a lot of friends, i dont fulfill my obligations, no motivation etc. i feel better while sober than i do high. i
m worried about going through the irratibility but im gonna keep my meds on me plus i'll be busy tomorrow at a carnival, which i think will help a lot. i need to go out and do something not just lay down all the time. when i came home, the cravings were really strong as thats the main time i'd use, then continue the cycle all night.
i began having vestibular migraines (i had this condition beforehand) and they began to start up again. i have to tell myself its the reason theyre so much worse now, but even then theres no way being constantly high and so high im high until the next morning is helping. im also asthmatic and its made it worse where im constantly coughing up sputum and while smoking, it was so bad i'd wheeze, gasp, spi and stop breathing for a few seconds. sometimes i'd gag and almost throw up because i was basically choking on my own spit
im trying to list out reasons to stay sober. and if anyone can add some i'd appreiciate it
so far i have
TL;DR: i am quitting weed for my mental, social and physical health. i would also like others to list reasons why they stopped/want to stop. i have a long list of reasons but the more the better <3
i overdosed on a certain legal substance i will not name and the next day had a severe vestibular migraine which at hthe time was misdiagnosed as BPPV. upon researching i found it does not cause this, and this is more of a neurological disorder you can just develop.
she said because i smoke thc, dont exercise, dont diet, dont lose weight (even though i do), etc i have this disorder but it makes 0 sense. i can understand it **worsens** it i wont say it doesnt but the onset isnt related to it
i just got diagnosed yesterday w vestibular migraines after a misdiagnosis of BPPV from last year. at my job, about half if the people at my job are awful to me. for a bit i couldn't eat in the morning because i was getting physically ill. the past few days i keep getting the migraine epsiodes w or w/o the headache then developing severe vertigo. the pattern is very obvious and consistent. has this happened to anyone else? im planning on switching locations
i have bpd and used to have the ability to let things go a lot easier. ever since my use became really really heavy, i have lost the ability to cope while sober. i cant shake off slights the way i used to. i get genuinely very upset. my meds are being upped, but after talking about this in IOP im realizing that the reason im so much more emotional now is because of my use
i have sadly been at clinics where speaking in spanish to caregivers or the children is discouraged. because it'll "confuse them", which to me makes absolutely no sense. when im with a client and they are struggling to understand, i will translate it into spanish for them. i've even been asked to "ignore the spanish", which i find incredibly unethical. i think that forcing a child into full english submersion without attempting to teach them the language (there are literally ways to do this) and what certain things mean in spanish vs english is just insane. i cant think of any logical reason for it
INSANE ACTING AND DIRECTING! holy shit. of course everyone did amazing but inde navarettes performance was so good. this could really be a breakthrough role for both of them
i think functional play programs are okay when they respect assent. what i dont like seeing is if a child likes to line up toys or shake them and they get told they have to play with it "correctly". how is there a "correct" way to play? imagine someone told you youre playing your video game wrong and then forced you to completely change how you play. you'd hate that. its the same for many of these children. theres nothing wrong with modeling it, but making it an all or nothing thing is just demotivating and interferes with the learning process provided through play. this of course does not include situations in which the toy is being played with dangerously (mouthing, throwing it, etc) or causing behaviors.
i suffer from severe cannabis use disorder. i have been smoking in heavy doses on and off for about 2 years. the use becomes daily and constant. i even get cravings before work which scares me because if i act on them, i could lose my job and my rbt license which isnt worth it. i want to quit, but the withdrawals are awful. not physically awful, but mentally. the main problem is rage. im planning to try tapering down or get help in tapering down so that the rage is less intense. but the problem with tapering down is i very much am the type to try cutting down then use even more than intended.
thc has severely affected my relationships, productivity, motivation and mental health. i dont go anywhere. my best friend doesnt want to hang out with me when im stoned. i lost a lot of friends. i cant keep friendships especially at work and before my addiction peaked, it wasnt like that. i look sick everyday with horrible bags under my eyes and overall a depressed look. i have health issues now, vestibular problems (from kratom though), lung issues, increased anxiety and depression. im not waking up with cortisol spikes every morning because of the heavy use.
about me
25f, 5'3, 175 lbs midwest.
meds i take
trileptal 450mg 2x day, lamictal 200mg 2x day, lexapro 20mg daily, trazodone 12.5-25mg as needed (psych said ok), naltrexone 50mg.
diagnoses
ocd, ptsd, generalized anxiety, major depression, bpd, bppv, visual snow syndrome, hppd. recently found out i have mild anemia + low vitamin d.
substance history
past: alcoholism, heavy kratom + weed use. marijuana abuse is still prevelent.
timeline + symptoms
last year i od’d on 7oh after abusing kratom + weed. wasn’t educated on it, took way too much. next day i had severe double vision, anxiety, and balance issues. i also had horizontal nystagmus and a dull headache in neck and temples(from caffeine withdrawal) that first episode was milder. this episode put me in the ER.
second hospitalization was worse - withdrawal + vertigo together. i had:
severe spinning, couldn’t walk independently (requires a wheelchair and two nurses holding me up) vomiting, sweating, shaking, double vision, motion sickness. stayed 2 days cuz my potassium tanked from puking. i got diagnosed with bppv there.
after discharge i had daily episodes. not as intense but still debilitating. main thing was vision: super blurry/doubled, blind spots where faces or objects vanish and i see behind them, room spinning, vision “jumping”.
now, a year later
episodes are milder + less often. but i still get:
same visual disturbances, plus at night in the dark i see strobe-like flashes with wavy vision. eye doctor ruled out eye problems. visual snow never went away
i usually have a cup of coffee in the morning then one in the afternoon with the last being around 3-4. i didnt do that yesterday so when i woke up i had that all too familiar pounding migraine except it was worse. i was over the toilet literally about to throw up until i drank some coffee and went to sleep it was awful . i dont have a history of migraines and they are mostly caused by caffeine withdrawal