u/m_atsu5

Will solarballs actually make an arc about Chrysalis?

I really hope so

I'd love to see how they'd react with all the legends and romance of them being together lmao

I don't really know I just really feel really anxious so often.. And I couldn't find a flare for this type of questions

لا انا ما احتاج فلوس بس جت الاجازة وودي اجرب ال part time job زي الاجانب قبل ادخل الجامعة بدل الطفش اللي انا فيه 😂 ودي اعرف لو ذا شي موجود هنا

They looked like teenagers who got in trouble 😭

It was so cute and parental how the sun saved them

And held Jupiter, the oldest who was carrying the weight of all his little siblings broke down when he saw his dad who knows him the most and can take the weight of his shoulders 💔

I'd like to think that they escaped with their friends, but their friends are following a corrupted gang and wanted to make them join to rebel against the law

But the sun found them and saved them from going any further

Also I would like to point out the relationship between Saturn and the Sun

They might not be the closest father-son relationship there but Saturn goes to the Sun when life's too much vent a little maybe and ask for advices or for help like for school bullies or something

I don't know this post is pretty random

The rogue planets meeting him is gonna be so cool

Specially when they see how "awful and destructive" stars can be for planets having no respect or sympathy for the oldest planet there

I mean by that the two stars he orbits; The pulsar (PSR B1620-26 A) and the White Dwarf (WD B1620-26 or PSR B1620-26 B)

They'd meet him while the roam in space by the crazy pulsing the pulsar do and send Wise to check

Soo they find the planet there

But they couldn't approach h because of the crazy energy he's surrounded by

They'd try to convince him to become a rouge planet but he says something like (I'm too old to change who I am and What I was born for) or something like that

He's attached to his toxic "parents" who are no good to him and kicked the rogues out

Which made them realize some people just refuse to get a better environment because they think misery is their distney

Not all of them, my dad is a supporter and some of them

But the rest just think I'm stupid with no social skills or experience in life that doesn't know how to talk or to be slightly independent that I'm just a stupid emotional fatass

Why? I don't know because I make mistakes maybe?

Now I'm sick of it I can't even express my rage towards someone that hurts us and they shut me up thinking I'm gonna DEFEND HIM? I WAS ANGRY TOO

Whenever I volunteer to do something they say "nah we don't trust you with that you'll ruin it" straight at my face

And if I tried it's either I get it wrong and they act "yeah we knew it" like that's what they were expecting anyway

And If I make it they act surprised like wow the stupid one actually did something

Even the younger ones make me feel like it

Now I'm on eggshells trying not to make mistakes around them because I'm a person who loves to experience and try new things if course I'm gonna fail at them sometimes I just try not to do it in front of them

Uhm yeah I've been purging for a long while but this is the first time I actually want to purge out of rage instead of just wanting to purge what I ate

Because I can't yell I can't curse and I can't express I can't hit

I think purging is gonna be the way to let my feelings out

Black history month, Pride month, Men's mental health month, Women's day or month I forgot tbh, Father's day, Mothers day and ect

YES EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM AND THAT DOESN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH RACISM OR SEXISM THEY'RE JUST SOOOO RIDICULOUS

Can people stop making events of every single fucking thing

If you want to celebrate your history and be proud of it, do it everyday

If you want to express your feelings to your parents do it everyday because I know some of your asses only show up in mother's/father's day

I'd rather be the most boring person in the universe other than celebrating every single thing these days

Although I talked about celebration only but Ik these YOU'RE RACIST comments are coming lol

Is there a way to do self harm without the dramatic cut or scars

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I want to get something I actually feel I deserve so I'd get this pain of my chest

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I tried to swallow soap and shampoo, It was horrible

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I'm too afraid to cut and leave scars

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I tried the heat that really doesn't work somehow

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I'm not here to look pity Or because I want attention it's just

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My feelings are too much

I've been studying for like over a year and I can't focus anymore I can't understand anything I can't get anything right I'm so so drained though I have only TWO DAYS LEFT AND TWO EXAMS LEFT

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I don't think my mind is ready to swallow even more math and language exams

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I feel my mind is going NUMB

I hold my anger back so much I think it's destroying both my gut health and my mental health

I started to avoid conversion I'm becoming more introvert with the closet people so I wouldn't have to be angry and hold it back

Whenever I talk I manage to somehow get angry and hold it back even more

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And the part when I burst out after bottling it so much is the worst

I burst a little and the guilt eats me up even more

I don't know If it's academic stress

I started to feel numb even when I'm happy "I suppose"

I get sensitive over everything but I don't react

I crave sweet things to feel better

It's tasty but It doesn't lighten my mood up

I have 2 days left and 2 exams but I already feel I want to crash my head against a wall because I'm sick of it

I get happy for a while and just the feeling is back again

I'm losing myself and losing hope

I have a lot of things on my mind

I want to try sewing and embroidery

I want to tey textured art

I want to write

I want to go out

I want to do my hair

I want to meet people again

I want to meet ny my friends

I want to watch my favorite shows

But it's like I'm hoping for nothing

I hope after those 2 exams everything is gonna change

I hope I'll go to a good college

I hope then I wouldn't feel the same way I'm feeling now

I hope my life won't be over in some point even I can't kill myself in

I hate when I vent about it because they be like "we've been through that too" like I'm not supposed to be venting or to be tired

I'm sick of it and I'm sick of how my future is on edge

I still remember the words "we don't want failures in this household" that made me stress even more about my exams and if I'm gonna be actually accepted in college

And I feel I lost myself at some point

THERE SHOULD BE A SPOILING FLAIR OR SOMETHING BECAUSE I BE SCROLLING AND THE NEXT 15 EPISODES I DIDN'T WATCH ALL SPOILED SUDDENLY

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I WANT TO HAVE FUN WHEN I WATCH SOLARBALLS AFTER MY EXAMS

I don't understand him

Is he jealous or crazy or just wants friends or he has ptsd or the loneliness took a toll on him I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM

Respectfully they are stupid because planet or stars won't make someone's personality or decide their fate that's not logical or possible and I believe it's just for clout or people trying to feel better about themselves for acting like an ssa saying "S.. Saturn made me do this" Bruh

Spread awareness this spread awareness that

Unless you're going to make an actual move then post about those topics "women's rights - war victims - political opinions and ect"

Because for how long we've been spreading awareness, it's not working people

Soo stop making "awareness art" about Afghanistan women and make an actual move to save them

Or memes about how trump sucks

Make an actual movement protest donate join the actual warzone

But just posting a TikTok talking about few points just to make people feel bad and scroll isn't doing anything let's be for real when has that ever worked?

The only acceptable "spread awareness" move is when you post donation links or something of that matter

I still remember that horrific memory

I couldn't poop for like 2-3 days it was hell I asked for laxatives

I got Dulcoax

I had a pill

Nothing happened the whole day

The next day at biology class oh my god MY STOMACH WAS HURTING LIKE HELLL I WAS LITERALLY CLENCHING TO THE TABLE

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I HAD A FINAL EXAM AFTER THAT

I took it but it was UNBELIEVABLE

I WENT TO THE BATHROOM I COULDN'T LET ANYTHING OUT I WAS SCARED

I WENT TO THE SCHOOL NURSE WHICH SHE DOESN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL SHE JUST SAID GO ASK THE VICE PRINCIPAL IF YOU WANT TO CALL YOUR PARENTS

I WENT TO HER

SHE DIDN'T LET ME

SHE SAID "WHAT PROVES YOUR STOMACH HURTS"

At that point I BURSTED INTO TEARS

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"Teacher.. I CANNOT SIT I CANNOT WALK" I WAS SOBBING

She just said "yeah yeah go"

I lied and said she allowed me

I WAS SOBBING THE WHOLE DAY AND I HAD NO FRIENDS SO I WAS SOBBING BY MYSELF HOLDING MY STOMACH FOR THE DEAR LIFE

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EVEN AFTER I WENT HOME AND DID MY BUSINESS

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IT WAS STILL HURTING I WAS SHAKING I BARELY SLEPT

He uses He/him they/them pronounce HEAR ME OUT THIS ISN'T ABOUT LGBTQ STUFF

It's because there's Luna and there's the DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

SO THERE ARE TWO LIKE LUNA IS TWO PERSONS??

SO THEY CAN USE THEY SINCE THEY'RE TWO

Make the planets hear the planet record and turn it on!

Or at least make astrodude do it for them..

They'll get to know earthlings more i bet it'll be emotional!