u/man_onion_

I feel pretty out of it all the time. I don't think I've felt normal since I started having panic attacks about 5 years ago and developed agoraphobia which dramatically worsened in the last 1.5 years. Because my days are the exact same and all I do is stare at a screen I barely feel like a person at the best of times.

During all of this, though, I've noticed a feeling that maybe I've had for a while and never paid much attention to until things got this bad. I feel like my eyes are wrong. They're too zoomed in. It's like tunnel vision, I guess. I feel claustrophobic but from my own field of vision

I feel like I should be able to see near 360° like a prey animal or something, or I should be able to manually zoom out and see myself in third person like in a video game.

I've had frequent eye tests all my life due to needing glasses but there isnt anything actually too wrong with my vision, I'm confident this is purely a mental block. If I could just borrow someone else's eyes and see how things look from their perspective I would be fine, whether my POV is normal or not, but until the day science makes that possible I feel like I'm going to feel disoriented and trapped forever.

Long story short, I've been suffering with pretty severe anxiety/agoraphobia for maybe 4 years, which massively worsened about 1.5 years ago. I can go maybe 2 or 3 streets away from my house on a good day. Every time I make any real progress through gradual exposure, I either have to wait in for a parcel or something, so I miss a day and then backslide, or I just wake up one day randomly back to square one without any warning.

I'm taking 150mg venlafaxine and 40mg propranolol daily, with occasionally an extra propranolol or two when needed though I've never really found taking it as and when does much for me. I've also just finished about 12 sessions of CBT over the phone and am now having to wait 3 months before I can reapply.

My doctors could not be less help. Honestly they cannot get me off the phone quick enough. They constantly withhold my medication without telling me why, only prescribe 7 or 14 days worth instead of 28 so I'm spending twice as much on prescriptions than I should be and I'm constantly extra anxious because of being scared I'll be left to go cold turkey because they keep fucking up. They also refuse to do home visits for me, for the mental health stuff or for other health issues. I'm like 90% sure I have an unrelated ear infection I've just been living with because they won't accept anyone who isn't elderly can be housebound.

What are your doctors doing to help you with anxiety/depression/agoraphobia symptoms? I keep asking mine what other options I have in terms of medications and they pretty much tell me there is nothing else for anxiety than propranolol but I'm sure that can't be the case. I've already moved doctors once because my last ones were useless too but at least they were just incompetent, these ones seem to just dislike me personally.

Brand new potential writer here and I'm stuck at step 1. I've had an idea rattling around in my head for a long time now for a YA romance dystopia novel in the vein of things like Hunger Games, Divergent etc. but I feel like I can't even start until I know why the society is structured the way it needs to be to facilitate the plot. I feel like it just objectively doesn't make any sense, but the core of the story needs it to be the way it is.

To keep it brief (because to be clear I'm not expecting anyone to solve these problems for me) society is split into two groups, one is allowed out in the day, one at night. Where I keep stumbling is like...why? What problem is that solving? Why do people go along with it? And yes, a lot of those questions are pretty much the whole plot, but I hit a wall when I try to make it make sense to myself before I've even written a word.

All this to say, how much are you personally comfortable with leaving up to "a wizard did it" in your writing? Do I need to know everything that's ever happened in this world? Does the reader?

If you're being held at gunpoint and they hand you a shovel and tell you to start digging, are you really doing it? I feel like you'd either be pleading for your life, attempting to fight back or just totally giving up.

I will hopefully never be in the situation to find out, nor will any of you, and nobody who's done it can explain why, but I just don't get why you would.

Looking for recommendations for access keys for Miitopia that have Miis with minimal makeup/wigs that I can save to my Switch and import into LTD.