(Please do not Worry about me. i don't plan on actually ending myself, plus some bad thoughts about myself i sometimes have i want to admit. yes this is at least in a way a call for help.) would You actually care if i ended my life due to being overwhelmed and just wanting it all to end?
sometimes when i am in a bad mood i want bad things to happen to me. sometimes i even wish i was ra#ed. yes i'm pretty sure i have sometimes thought about stuff like that because sometimes i just hate myself. there is a reason why i try to avoid online Christianity in a way while also still trying to be Christian. it's because of fear, worry that i am sinning, worry that i am not really saved, worrying too much. worry that i am sinning by enjoying the things i enjoy like my little pony. etc.