u/myysoul

Hi guys, Please understand my pain, am in literally not even in tears due to I suffer from PSSD but thee is deep something emotion inside me. My problem is I can't get single damn thing done, even basic things becomes super difficult for me, and most importantly when I sit at my laptop it just nothing injects in my brain, it feels like as if I just keep seeing screen and my brain can;t process any information, no creativity, no execution ability. And it's not just limited to laptop but in every arena of life. I can't get anything done. I badly need help please!!! Someone guide me what worked for you? few days ago I went to psychiatrist and he gave me "Bupropion XL 150" "clonidine hcl tablets 100mcg" please help, I will lose my onlly last job, am already failed in life!!!

Hi guys, it's my 9th day on bupropion and honestly I see no difference. Few days ago I just only see major difference like I could manage my thoughts and no negative thoughts or constant rumination but now even that is gone now, I feel again same and right now no difference.

My problem why I started this?
I went to doctor for my constant executive dysfunction, cognitive issues, memory problems, And he prescribed me Bupropion 150XL and Clonidine 100mcg.

Now, I have been facing sleep issues for past few days like literally I keep waking up from sleep and don't feel rested and honestly I even feel worse on my executive function and memory, now I even can't get task done which I could do by forcing me, it seems my memory is further went down if not up.

My queshion:
I read for past few days on this subreddit that many people facing side effects like brain fog, memory issues and these are the very same reason I went to doctor. Now what the hell should I do? Is bupropion really the right medicine for my executive dysfunction, working memory etc? Cause this badly affecting my life and am literally in lose and gonna lose my job. Should I continue this medicine? Please someone help!!!

Hi guys, my executive dysfunction costing me very badly in my life and there is nothing am able to do about it. No matter how hard I try I just fails. Just to explain you, nothing comes in my brain like not only to my laptop but in every arena of life, for example when I work on my laptop my brain can't process any information, can't learn new skill, can't get any task done, blank mind, no creativity, nothing injects in my brain, I feel totally brain dead zombie. Please someone help!!! Few days ago I went to psychiatrist and he gave me bupropion 150xl and clonidine 100mcg. It's been week and am still stuck as if my memory is gone, nothing comes in my brain and can't get any single damn thing done. But this medicine helped me improve my attention from my thoughts to present which is also very beneficial for me cause this is what i struggled a lot but still am at the same boat. What to do? should I go to my doctor again and ask him to give me some other medicine for my executive dysfunction???? help!!!! I will lose my only job and opportunities😭

Honestly, I was not expecting this, for initial few days it didn't give me any improvements and was worse, but today first time in my life I feel very lightheaded, I used to before constantly analyzing my mind, self monitoring, ruminating, overthinking, fearful thoughts and my attention used to be always in my head, but today first time my attention is present and I am very easily getting out of my head and those fearful, ruminating thoughts.

Still yet to see: since it's been just few days, it still didn't help me fix my executive dysfunction and working memory. This was my biggest reason I went to my doctor because that is what holding me in life, and then starts my rumination and pacing after seeing my failure i can't get any task done. My current problem is, I just can't get anything done no matter how hard I try, I have brutal habit of productive procrastination, perfectionism since childhood. And to make matter worse last few years It feels like my working memory is gone, like I can't hold any information in my brain, can't learn new skill and just feel blank.

Negative effects: I always struggled with gaining weight and now my weight decreasing and my apetite also reduced drastically, my sleep is also really not great, and sometimes like today I had very heart pumping in morning badly that was causing me anxiety and I was feeling very nervous.

My queshion:
If someone expert here, could you please tell me how this medicine works? does it really stop rumination, overthinking, analysis? and improve focus and attention on present? just curious cause i feel it might be also my behavioral change for past few months I was forcing my attention to present and working on myself.

My stack that doctor gave me:
Morning: Bupropion 150XL
Night: clonidine hcl tablets 100mcg

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Hi guys, I'm just ducking tired now, nothing comes in my brain, everything is difficult for me, my brain can't process any ducking information. I sit on my laptop fully focused but when I start working nothing comes in my brain, I literally feel completely blank mind, not able to process any information, no learning ability, no working memory, can't get any single damn task done no matter how hard I try. I feel ducked up. Does anyone has same symtoms? And what worked for you?

Hi guys, I sit on my laptop all day and gets nothing single damn thing. No matter how hard I try, I just can't get anything done. It's not that I can't focus, it's that I can't process any information, my brain feels blank and can't think, inject any information etc. Like if i work on my laptop nothing sticks to my mind, I even don't know what I was doing and nothing retains in my brain. I can't learn or do any single damn thing. Is this symtoms relate to ADHD? or what kind? I also started taking bupropion since past few days as my doctor prescribed them.

Hi guys, Please understand my pain, am in literally not even in tears due to I suffer from PSSD but thee is deep something emotion inside me. My problem is I can't get single damn thing done, even basic things becomes super difficult for me, and most importantly when I sit at my laptop it just nothing injects in my brain, it feels like as if I just keep seeing screen and my brain can;t process any information, no creativity, no execution ability. And it's not just limited to laptop but in every arena of life. I can't get anything done. I badly need help please!!! Someone guide me what worked for you? few days ago I went to psychiatrist and he gave me "Bupropion XL 150" "clonidine hcl tablets 100mcg" please help, I will lose my onlly last job, am already failed in life!!!

Hi guys, I sat all day on my laptop each day and try super hard and am not abe to get single damn thing done, even simple things looks very difficult and I get overwhlemed, I don't get distracted or go on other tabs but I keep focus on my client task but literally couldn't get anything done. I feel completely blank and zombie, my brain can't inject, process any information, or get any task done. Is it due to fatigue? or executive dysfunction? Yesterday I went to pshychiatrist and he gave me bupropion and clonidine hcl. I literally try super hard but I feel I just don't have anything in my brian, my working memory and execution seems lost. It's been happening since years. Please someone help!!!

Hi guys, I'm web developer and I work all day on my laptop, I am also online husler so I love my job actually and making money online. But problem is right now I have no other job except one precious client and it seems am gonna lose him as well, I am aslo not able to get anything done.

My problem: I sit on laptop and literally nothing injects in my brain, my brain can't process any information, and can't think, imagine, remember, or execute. This is very important job for me and am missing all opportunities.

My background:

1. For past 7+ years I suffer brutal addiction of maladaptive dreaming, had this habit since childhood but became intense after I falled in love with that tiktok girl in 2018, luckily this year in february I quit my habit.
2. I suffer since childhood productive procrastination and perfectionism and also executive dysfunction, If I need to work on my client site or my some important work, first I do deep reserach, then learn, then I keep looking for perfection and then never execute because I keep productive procrastinate.

My biggest problem: But now I controlled my even perfection, productive procrastination habit, I showed this year indifinite discipline after 7+ years of stupidity, but when I work on my laptop nothing sticks to my brain, I just can't get anything done. I literaly keep sitting all day on my screen, no distraction, no tab change, but I just can't get done any single damn thing, it seems I have no memory left in my brain. I can't process any information.

due to this I went yesterday to pschiatrist and he prescribed me "bupropion xl 150" and few other meds and I took them today but I didn't see any improvement. I want to ask what to do in this situation?

Hey guys! I think I'm the right person to talk about this cause I suffered with this since childhood and since 2018 I had brutal maladaptive dreaming addiction so bad that I used to walk 6+hours daily and to other part of city on highway with my headphone and literally no one in this ducking world except me. I used to completely alone and different. And not just that, If I brush, eat or do anything until my eyes are open or not but until i am taking my breath am just doing maldaptive dreaming and it's all type of thoughts be it hero, romantic, intelligence, funny, anything. I used to live in my dream world where I was loved, I was most handsome and tall, girls are attracted to me, most intelligent, am richest person of the world, doing arguments or conversations on stage, and what not.

It all started back in 2018 where I falled in love of tiktoker girl who was also actress and this is where my maladaptive dreaming brutally become addiction, infact my love for that girl fade away till 2021 when I realised she even don't know me and then I just got into this trap of this addiction. The biggest reason people do is for "coping". Basically it is just fake world.

Yes!!! hear this out, it's just your "fake world" or in other words "coping" mechanism. Because in real life, I had no friends, never had girlfriend, was unfunny, not really smart, and poor and weak I developed this habit further. It all started with that actress girl whom I liked a lot and due to my incompetence to even reach her level I started this addiction and later I used it for all sorts of thing, not used actually "my brain used it automatic".

Now come to best part, How I quit this habit?
I quit it by completely stopped thinking and taking my attention to compeltely present, literally it's that simple but it sounds simple but it is super difficult, you won't believe you have to tolarate a lot of pain and show infinite discipline. I left this habit this year february month with my final firm decision that I will stop thinking and "stop being in my head" because I had also habit of rumination, constant overthinking, fearful thoughts, self monitoring etc. I just wanted to see real world, real life but my brain learned so hard that I felt like without contemplation, without thinking, without first doing something in my head I can't take any action.

Again!!! When I took that firm decision this february I left those long walks initially and headphone, then my maladaptive dreaming didn't fade away instead it started my brain just with my thoughts instead of music stimulation but I didn't give up and me being stubborn I just kept my attention to present, keep seeing the water, if I brush so I keep taking my attention to brush, If i eat, I keep attention to eating, I force myself so hard and took decision that even if am in really serious danger I still won't think and for almost more than a month my addiction drastically reduced and now this june I feel like I have very less of it, Infact I hardly have those kind of thoughts the very second those thoughts appear I immediately take my attention to present, like fan sound, or anything, now but I still suffer now with different kind of problem called constant rumination or fearful thoughts and my other primary problem is executive dysfunction, suepr weak working memory etc, am stil fighting hard. I wish we all can get rid of these addiction.

Please!!! You have to take action, you have to take that decision, otherwise you will have nothing except those wasted years and just regret!!!

Edit: I really dont have that strong will power, self control or discipline but I had to talerate pain because 7+ years gone in front of my eyes infact since my childhood I lost everything, and I am still suffering from working memory, constant rumination, fearful thoughts, executive dysfucntion and still badly struggling but I feel I left this most brutal addiction of my life and now I can see people and little bit socialize.

Hi guys, Today my doctor prescribed me bupropion for my constant rumination, overthinking, self monitoring, obsessively analyzing brain, working memory, executive dysfunction, maladaptive dreaming.

He prescribed me:
Bupropion XL 150
clonidine hcl tablets 100mcg
kobacar ds

Now my concern is, I brutally suffer from working memory, constant rumination, overanalyzing, overthinking and constantly indulging with my thought, is this really good stack? Because my doctor didn't listen me carefully and he just rushed me and didn't let me speak even for few minutes and I waited for hours for him. I tried to explain him about my brutal addiction of maladaptive dreaming, productive procrastination, perfectionism, constant rumination, etc but it seems he didn't listen and am afraid of these medicinces due to past experience with other doctors who gave me SSRIs which gave me PSSD. Please help!!!

Hi guys, I have been struggling since childhood with overthinking, maladaptive dreaming, productive procrastination, perfectionism, and fearful thoughts. It feels that am constantly in my head. I had brutal habit of maladaptive dreaming since more than 7+ years (2018)to that extent that I used to day every single day more than 4 hours of walk on highway footpath with my headphone and walk to till another city part and used to do all sorts of imagination, this was that brutal and literally no one in this ducking world except me.

Now this year in february I took firm decision and since then I stopped maladaptive dreaming then my another problem is brutal productive procrastination, perfectionism or finding miracle cure and most importantly constantly self monitoring and fearful thoughts. Just to let you know in these past 7 years I had dream of becoming entrepreneur but somehow I got into self help industry and motivational videos and started coping with my life. Now when I sit on my laptop I get suddenly fearful thoughts of "losing self control, or forgetting about self control, discipline, anger control and being aware". It is not limiting to that but to anything, and then proceeds with analyzing that fearful thought then further analysis that "am I aware? don't think" then contemplation and then further analziss about that thinking and I never able to get things done.

But somehow I brutally forced myself since this month and took my attention to present and completely stopped overthinking to that extent that I took oath that if any bad or my life would be in danger I still won't think and I got meanwhile scammed and humiliated but I didn't think even though somehow they were still in my head but I was feeling much better but still problem was I was not able to get anything done on my laptop due to I feel I have ADHD or executive dysfunction.

Now am again in same loop of overthinking, I want perfect self control, perfect discipline and then analysis, contemplation. My brain also have brutal habit of enlightenment trap that is what is basically motivation feeling sudden crying feeling that will where I will change my life suddenly and it proceeds with contemplation overthinking etc.

Please someone help me guys, am just frustrated, I am again back in same loop of fearful thoughts, overthinking, I feel that nothing sticks to my mind and I keep fighting this. I am also afraid of maladaptive dreaming and many bad habit loops of past. Please someone help! I am loosing in every arena of life from personal life to professional life everthing. I can;t even cry cause I have no emotions left cause am suffering from PSSD due to I went to pschiatrist for my same cognition problems and they prescribed me SSRI, am just lost. Please beg you help!

I have been struggling for over 7 years with a set of symptoms that feel like a constant tug-of-war inside my head. It feels like I am just "in my head" all the time, fighting fearful thoughts and unable to live in the real world. I wanted to share my symptoms and see if anyone else has faced this and found something that worked.

My Symptoms:

• Executive Dysfunction & Task Paralysis: I have an extreme inability to start or finish tasks, especially when sitting at my laptop. I often end up in "productive procrastination," where I get obsessed with learning about the problem or self-help instead of doing the actual work.
• Working Memory Failure: I feel like nothing "sticks" to my mind. I can read something, and it disappears instantly. It feels like my learning ability has vanished because my brain is always full of noise.
• Maladaptive Daydreaming: I have an intense habit of disappearing into internal worlds or contemplations, which has been a brutal trap for years and completely hijacks my attention.
• Metacognitive Hyper-Awareness: I am constantly self-monitoring. When I try to "be present," I end up obsessing over whether I am being present enough. This "thinking about thinking" destroys my focus.
• Mental Compulsions & Rumination: I suffer from constant analyzing and fearful thoughts. I often worry about losing my self-control or forgetting the self-help knowledge I’ve learned (like discipline or anger control). I keep repeating these teachings in my head to make sure they are still there.
• The "Miracle Cure" Loop: I often find myself searching for a root cause or a "perfect" solution, which leads to more procrastination and over-analysis.

Background:

• This has been happening since childhood in some form (fearful thoughts, etc.).
• I strictly avoid SSRIs because I suffer from PSSD (Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction) in the past and want to avoid all serotonergic medications.
• I am 5'7", weigh 62kg, and work as a web developer. I’ve noticed that as soon as I start actual work, the thoughts about "self-control" and "being present" flare up immediately.

Note: I used a i to refine this post.

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I'm 21M and I feel like I've lost the last 7 years of my life.

My biggest problem isn't laziness. It's that my brain constantly pulls me into thinking instead of doing.

I sit down to work on my laptop (I'm a web developer), and within minutes my attention gets hijacked by:

• Overthinking
• Analyzing myself
• Maladaptive daydreaming
• Fearful thoughts
• Self-improvement/self-control thoughts
• Trying to figure out what's wrong with me

I can literally spend an entire day in front of my laptop and get almost nothing done. Not because I'm scrolling social media, but because I'm trapped inside my own head.

The weird part is that my brain turns everything into a mental project. If I learn about mindfulness, I obsess over being present. If I learn about self-control, I obsess over self-control. If I learn about ADHD, I obsess over whether I have ADHD. I spend more time trying to fix myself than actually living my life.

I've also struggled with:

• Severe maladaptive daydreaming for years
• Rumination and constant self-analysis
• Executive dysfunction
• Brain fog
• Poor sleep quality
• Feeling mentally blank in conversations
• Working memory issues
• Feeling like information doesn't stick

I've had extensive blood tests (thyroid, testosterone, B12, vitamin D, glucose, CBC, iron, etc.) and everything is basically normal.

At this point I'm honestly wondering:

1. Has anyone experienced something similar?
2. Was it ADHD, OCD/rumination, maladaptive daydreaming, anxiety, sleep issues, or something else?
3. What was the thing that actually helped you start taking action again instead of endlessly analyzing yourself?

I'm not looking for motivation. I'm looking for people who genuinely escaped this cycle and got their life back.

Note: I used chatgpt to write this post based on my long chat and blood test with it to share my feelings.

I'm 21M and I feel like I've lost the last 7 years of my life.

My biggest problem isn't laziness. It's that my brain constantly pulls me into thinking instead of doing.

I sit down to work on my laptop (I'm a web developer), and within minutes my attention gets hijacked by:

• Overthinking
• Analyzing myself
• Maladaptive daydreaming
• Fearful thoughts
• Self-improvement/self-control thoughts
• Trying to figure out what's wrong with me

I can literally spend an entire day in front of my laptop and get almost nothing done. Not because I'm scrolling social media, but because I'm trapped inside my own head.

The weird part is that my brain turns everything into a mental project. If I learn about mindfulness, I obsess over being present. If I learn about self-control, I obsess over self-control. If I learn about ADHD, I obsess over whether I have ADHD. I spend more time trying to fix myself than actually living my life.

I've also struggled with:

• Severe maladaptive daydreaming for years
• Rumination and constant self-analysis
• Executive dysfunction
• Brain fog
• Poor sleep quality
• Feeling mentally blank in conversations
• Working memory issues
• Feeling like information doesn't stick

I've had extensive blood tests (thyroid, testosterone, B12, vitamin D, glucose, CBC, iron, etc.) and everything is basically normal.

At this point I'm honestly wondering:

1. Has anyone experienced something similar?
2. Was it ADHD, OCD/rumination, maladaptive daydreaming, anxiety, sleep issues, or something else?
3. What was the thing that actually helped you start taking action again instead of endlessly analyzing yourself?

I'm not looking for motivation. I'm looking for people who genuinely escaped this cycle and got their life back.

Firstly I want to mention am new to this sub and posting first time. My problem is my cognitive issues. I have always felt since childhood incompetent and less intelligence. It was always hard for me to execute any task and get it done. Also since childhood I had maladaptive dreaming, productive procrastination, perfectionism habit but back in 2019 or since 7+ years I had done brutal maladaptive dreaming thinking about any bullshit and thought were any kind of be it romance, victimhood, hero, crying, etc.

I noticed my problem is even more deeper, since childhood I always used to obsess with anything like with switching on light button, checking doors frequently even though i controlled these triggers significantly and still but hardly do it since I become adult but now it is shifted to something else, now I keep contemplating about my life, fixing my mind, my cogntiive issues and have fearful thoughts etc.

Now my brain has made contemplation, thinking about self control, fixing my life and my mind important or false sense of progress basically and ultimately productive procrastination. It learned and now made it habit. And I just get obssessed with the information I learn but it really don't stick with my brain. This also is my one of the biggest problem. My brain has been tricking me for 7 years into overthinking and analyzing to fix internal mental issues like maladaptive daydreaming, overthinking, and brain fog, which ultimately destroy my focus and ability to work on a laptop. This feeds productive procrastination, making me feel a false sense of progress instead of actually doing work. When I go to work on my laptop for a client site, I start remembering all self-improvement teachings, analyzing my own brain, and then I can't focus. My brain then uses its ultimate weapon of enlightenment, an emotional crying feeling, and then I immediately leave and start contemplating, which feeds productive procrastination and avoids actual work to feel a sense of progress. This has been happening for over 7 years.

I feel less creative, no short term and long term memory, I feel totally lost. I feel my working memory is lost. I even forget what i was speaking while talking and if talkk then do excessive talks and I get easily roasted. I don't understand what people are saying.

Note: If someone can help me fix my cognitive issues, I will be lifetime thankful and supportive of that person, I will always support him throughout my life, if I become rich I make you rich, If I get something useful tip I share with you. I always support you, please I beg you, someone on this planet help me! I want to change my life, I want to fix my life, I want to be living like other people.

I have been suffering from sleep issue since 7+ years due to my intense maladaptive dreaming, now I managed to reduce my Maladaptive dreaming drastically but my sleep quality is very poor. Its take me hours to fall asleep and then I freqently wake up for urination. I also suffer from daytime fatigue, blank mind, and complete cognitive issues. Need someone who can help me fix my sleep quality. Just to let you know, I already tried magnisium glycinate and it destroyed my sleep. Also, I wake up at fixed time every single day and goes sleep at same time. I don't drink any water 3 hours before bed, and don't use screen 1 hour before bed. Let me know if someone can help me increase 8+ hours deep sleep.

I literally don't have enough energy to write this and don't know what am gonna type. I just literally for past 7+ years or to be precise since childhood suffering from cognitive issues, I always felt alone and different. For past 7+ years my symtoms increased worse due to my intense maladaptive dreaming habit and poor sleep. I suffer brutal cognitive issues.

I have brutal habit of productive procrastination, perfectionism since childhood. I feel less creative, no short term and long term memory, I feel totally lost. I feel my working memory is lost. Nothing sticks to my mind, I just become obsessed with that. I got also so many pschiological issues like: Now, When I work suddently I start thinking about self control, discipline, be aware, I use help of ai platform to find out my exact root cause and it become obsession later. I keep telling me self control, don't think, be aware and all those self control teachings, etc. No information get stick to my brain instead I get obsessed and I keep repeating but actually don't implement. I have no working memory, no short term and long term memory. I feel totally lost. I literally have no friend, never had girlfriend, and poor social skill. I even forget what i was speaking while talking and if talkk then do excessive talks and I get easily roasted. I don't understand what people are saying.

Now my brain has made contemplation, thinking about self control, fixing my life and my mind important or false sense of progress basically and ultimately productive procrastination. It learned and now made it habit. And I just get obssessed with the information I learn but it really don't stick with my brain. This also is my one of the biggest problem. My brain has been tricking me for 7 years into overthinking and analyzing to fix internal mental issues like maladaptive daydreaming, overthinking, and brain fog, which ultimately destroy my focus and ability to work on a laptop. This feeds productive procrastination, making me feel a false sense of progress instead of actually doing work. When I go to work on my laptop for a client site, I start remembering all self-improvement teachings, analyzing my own brain, and then I can't focus. My brain then uses its ultimate weapon of enlightenment, an emotional crying feeling, and then I immediately leave and start contemplating, which feeds productive procrastination and avoids actual work to feel a sense of progress. This has been happening for over 7 years.

I have so much to share literally so much, but just don't have enough energy, and don't feel like doing it. I posted countless post on reddit about this but nothing works. I feel lost!

Please see some of my this post I posted before:
https://www.reddit.com/r/BrainFog/comments/1tsilnu/whats_the_only_thing_that_worked_for_you_to/
https://www.reddit.com/r/ExecutiveDysfunction/comments/1tsydaq/7_years_gone_like_in_a_seconds_cant_get_anything/

Note: If someone can help me fix my cognitive issues, I will be lifetime thankful and supportive of that person, I will always support him throughout my life, if I become rich I make you rich, If I get something useful tip I share with you. I always support you, please I beg you, someone on this planet help me! I want to change my life, I want to fix my life, I want to be living like other people.