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It's a natural L-DOPA type supplement. I started taking it a few days ago and am feeling better.

But considering how variable Protracted withdrawal is it might be in my head, I was wondering if anyone else here has some experience with it.

It's a natural L-DOPA type supplement. I started taking it a few days ago and am feeling better.

But considering how variable Protracted withdrawal is it might be in my head, I was wondering if anyone else here has some experience with it.

I have been binging the seasons recently and finished S7 recently. It is terrible character-wise.

I haven't watched the show in a while and assumed it was due to the show having gone on for so long. House being so central, and six seasons of twenty four episode's wouldn't leave much character to mine.

But I'm on E7 S8, and it's so much more interesting; Park especially has more going on than all the fellows in S7.

Were there different writers? Or showrunners?

I am 8 months off escitalopram 40mg daily, cold turkey.

Recently, I have been getting these pauses where I forget what I was going to say halfway through my sentence.

I also have trouble reaching for certain words, its like there is a wall between the word I am thinking of and my ability to voice or think it.

Are these Brain freezes?

33 Male, NSW, Australia.

I am currently on 40mg Ritalin daily.

My mental and physical state:

For childhood context, I grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive household. My mother and I took the brunt of it. From this, I developed Long-term maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism when I was a teen.

This also led to me being diagnosed with depression and ADHD, whether accurately is currently in question.

Due to reasons I will get into later, I have been socially isolated for at least 10 years.

During those teen years, I was taking escitalopram (An SSRI antidepressant) 40mg for 10 years. They had a strange effect in that they never really helped as much as I wished they did.

But they made me comfortable in the isolation and circumstances that I should never have been comfortable in; I would describe it as they put a smile on my face while rolled around in my own shit.

Around December last year, I made the decision to get in shape and get my life some kind of order. I wanted to become a police officer.

Even then I knew it was an odd choice, but I felt law enforcement would be a way to help people, or at least run through red lights without getting a ticket.

I came to the belief, either rightly or wrongly, that being on an antidepressant would be a hindrance in becoming a police officer.

I made the inadvisable and life-threatening choice to cold-turkey my antidepressants, just cut them off one day completely. I expected headaches, depression, and mood swings.

What I actually got was that I felt better than I ever had in my life; I felt mentally, physically, and emotionally clear. I lost a lot of weight, about 12 KG in one month.

I was confident and creative; out of nowhere I decided to write a 96-page screenplay after never even attempting anything like it. That lasted for about a month to a month and a half.

Then things went downhill considerably, physically and mentally. I stopped eating for days; I would lie in bed, listening to music, and cry for hours. I got random aches, pains, and brain freezes.

One morning out of nowhere, my heart nearly exploded; my bpm was at 200 had to go to the hospital. They suspect an electrical issue with my heart and are investigating.

At this point, my therapist began to suspect I was Bipolar; the question is still open if I am or if this is protracted withdrawal syndrome, or something else entirely.

I am also beginning to suspect it was four days ago my mood randomly peaked; I felt Better, not as good as the start of the year. But better than any time since my crash.

Employment history, Carer aspect, Etc

I have been a personal carer for my mother essentially since my early 20's. She was in a car accident and needed help at home; for context, this is a government-paid pension sort of thing in Australia.

Her need for assistance varies; sometimes she needs a lot of help, sometimes a little. I also have had my fair share of mental issues. We leaned on each other considerably.

I have attempted to get employment outside of my carer duties, but something always came up.

In 2011, I got a Diploma in marketing and attempted to go to college; I had anxiety attacks too severe to allow it at the time.

In 2017, I got a diploma in real estate and got licensed, but before I could get employed, my mother had a complete mental breakdown.

Half her family died in a car crash overseas, and I woke one night to her locking the doors and windows, screaming about a ghost trying to SA her.

She ended up in a local psych ward for a week till what remains of her family made the hospital get her out. She has calmed considerably since then.

Since then, I have been with her. She can't drive anymore. She has her good days and bad.

The Current day:

During my early year possible Mania, I made the decision to go to TAFE (Australian trade school) to become an electrician. Due to my carer status, this was a relatively cheap course I could take, and I believed it had Yesterday was my first day, and it went poorly.

I couldn't focus. The mathematics was simple, yet I could barely wrap my head around it. Math was never my strong suit; when I did my real estate diploma, I never studied and got through fine on intuition. I assumed this might be the same; I think I was wrong.

I currently plan to defer or drop out of the course, My mind is not in a place for such a thing right now,

I don't know if this is a bipolar thing, if this is somehow my baseline, or if this is a longer withdrawal than I anticipated.

My real fear is I am 33 with no work history beyond being a carer; I need to go beyond that, I have no life beyond my mother.

I intend to keep living with my mother partially for financial reasons, and she still needs me.

I have no one to talk to about this, no one to get advice from. I don't know what to do. I am so quietly ashamed of the state of my life right now

Any advice would be appreciated.

33 Male, NSW, Australia.

I am currently on 40mg Ritalin daily.

My mental and physical state:

For childhood context, I grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive household. My mother and I took the brunt of it. From this, I developed Long-term maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism when I was a teen.

This also led to me being diagnosed with depression and ADHD, whether accurately is currently in question.

Due to reasons I will get into later, I have been socially isolated for at least 10 years.

During those teen years, I was taking escitalopram (An SSRI antidepressant) 40mg for 10 years. They had a strange effect in that they never really helped as much as I wished they did.

But they made me comfortable in the isolation and circumstances that I should never have been comfortable in; I would describe it as they put a smile on my face while rolled around in my own shit.

Around December last year, I made the decision to get in shape and get my life some kind of order. I wanted to become a police officer.

Even then I knew it was an odd choice, but I felt law enforcement would be a way to help people, or at least run through red lights without getting a ticket.

I came to the belief, either rightly or wrongly, that being on an antidepressant would be a hindrance in becoming a police officer.

I made the inadvisable and life-threatening choice to cold-turkey my antidepressants, just cut them off one day completely. I expected headaches, depression, and mood swings.

What I actually got was that I felt better than I ever had in my life; I felt mentally, physically, and emotionally clear. I lost a lot of weight, about 12 KG in one month.

I was confident and creative; out of nowhere I decided to write a 96-page screenplay after never even attempting anything like it. That lasted for about a month to a month and a half.

Then things went downhill considerably, physically and mentally. I stopped eating for days; I would lie in bed, listening to music, and cry for hours. I got random aches, pains, and brain freezes.

One morning out of nowhere, my heart nearly exploded; my bpm was at 200 had to go to the hospital. They suspect an electrical issue with my heart and are investigating.

At this point, my therapist began to suspect I was Bipolar; the question is still open if I am or if this is protracted withdrawal syndrome, or something else entirely.

I am also beginning to suspect it was four days ago my mood randomly peaked; I felt Better, not as good as the start of the year. But better than any time since my crash.

Employment history, Carer aspect, Etc

I have been a personal carer for my mother essentially since my early 20's. She was in a car accident and needed help at home; for context, this is a government-paid pension sort of thing in Australia.

Her need for assistance varies; sometimes she needs a lot of help, sometimes a little. I also have had my fair share of mental issues. We leaned on each other considerably.

I have attempted to get employment outside of my carer duties but something always came up.

In 2011, I got a Diploma in marketing and attempted to go to college; I had anxiety attacks too severe to allow it at the time.

In 2017, I got a diploma in real estate and got licensed, but before I could get employed, my mother had a complete mental breakdown.

Half her family died in a car crash overseas, and I woke one night to her locking the doors and windows, screaming about a ghost trying to SA her.

She ended up in a local psych ward for a week till what remains of her family made the hospital get her out. She has calmed considerably since then.

Since then, I have been with her. She can't drive anymore. She has her good days and bad.

The Current day:

During my early year possible Mania, I made the decision to go to TAFE (Australian trade school) to become an electrician. Due to my carer status, this was a relatively cheap course I could take, and I believed it had Yesterday was my first day, and it went poorly.

I couldn't focus. The mathematics was simple, yet I could barely wrap my head around it. Math was never my strong suit; when I did my real estate diploma, I never studied and got through fine on instinct. I assumed this might be the same; I think I was wrong.

I have no idea if I should try to tough it out or drop out and reassess.

I don't know if this is a bipolar thing, if this is somehow my baseline, if this is a longer withdrawal than I anticipated.

My real fear is I am 33 with no work history beyond being a carer; I need to go beyond that, I have no life beyond her.

I intend to keep living with my mother partially for financial reasons, and she still needs me.

I have no one to talk to about this, no one to get advice from. I don't know what to do. I am so quietly ashamed of the state of my life right now

Any advice would be appreciated.

33 Male, NSW, Australia.

I am currently on 40mg Ritalin daily.

My mental and physical state:

For childhood context, I grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive household. My mother and I took the brunt of it. From this, I developed Long-term maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism when I was a teen.

This also led to me being diagnosed with depression and ADHD, whether accurately is currently in question.

Due to reasons I will get into later, I have been socially isolated for at least 10 years.

During those teen years, I was taking escitalopram (An SSRI antidepressant) 40mg for 10 years. They had a strange effect in that they never really helped as much as I wished they did.

But they made me comfortable in the isolation and circumstances that I should never have been comfortable in; I would describe it as they put a smile on my face while rolled around in my own shit.

Around December last year, I made the decision to get in shape and get my life some kind of order. I wanted to become a police officer.

Even then I knew it was an odd choice, but I felt law enforcement would be a way to help people, or at least run through red lights without getting a ticket.

I came to the belief, either rightly or wrongly, that being on an antidepressant would be a hindrance in becoming a police officer.

I made the inadvisable and life-threatening choice to cold-turkey my antidepressants, just cut them off one day completely. I expected headaches, depression, and mood swings.

What I actually got was that I felt better than I ever had in my life; I felt mentally, physically, and emotionally clear. I lost a lot of weight, about 12 KG in one month.

I was confident and creative; out of nowhere I decided to write a 96-page screenplay after never even attempting anything like it. That lasted for about a month to a month and a half.

Then things went downhill considerably, physically and mentally. I stopped eating for days; I would lie in bed, listening to music, and cry for hours. I got random aches, pains, and brain freezes.

One morning out of nowhere, my heart nearly exploded; my bpm was at 200 had to go to the hospital. They suspect an electrical issue with my heart and are investigating.

At this point, my therapist began to suspect I was Bipolar; the question is still open if I am or if this is protracted withdrawal syndrome, or something else entirely.

I am also beginning to suspect it was four days ago my mood randomly peaked; I felt Better, not as good as the start of the year. But better than any time since my crash.

Employment history, Carer aspect, Etc

I have been a personal carer for my mother essentially since my early 20's. She was in a car accident and needed help at home; for context, this is a government-paid pension sort of thing in Australia.

Her need for assistance varies; sometimes she needs a lot of help, sometimes a little. I also have had my fair share of mental issues. We leaned on each other considerably.

I have attempted to get employment outside of my carer duties but something always came up.

In 2011, I got a Diploma in marketing and attempted to go to college; I had anxiety attacks too severe to allow it at the time.

In 2017, I got a diploma in real estate and got licensed, but before I could get employed, my mother had a complete mental breakdown.

Half her family died in a car crash overseas, and I woke one night to her locking the doors and windows, screaming about a ghost trying to SA her.

She ended up in a local psych ward for a week till what remains of her family made the hospital get her out. She has calmed considerably since then.

Since then, I have been with her. She can't drive anymore. She has her good days and bad.

The Current day:

During my early year possible Mania, I made the decision to go to TAFE (Australian trade school) to become an electrician. Due to my carer status, this was a relatively cheap course I could take, and I believed it had Yesterday was my first day, and it went poorly.

I couldn't focus. The mathematics was simple, yet I could barely wrap my head around it. Math was never my strong suit; when I did my real estate diploma, I never studied and got through fine on instinct. I assumed this might be the same; I think I was wrong.

I have no idea if I should try to tough it out or drop out and reassess.

I don't know if this is a bipolar thing, if this is somehow my baseline, if this is a longer withdrawal than I anticipated.

My real fear is I am 33 with no work history beyond being a carer; I need to go beyond that, I have no life beyond her.

I intend to keep living with my mother partially for financial reasons, and she still needs me.

I have no one to talk to about this, no one to get advice from. I don't know what to do. I am so quietly ashamed of the state of my life right now

Any advice would be appreciated.

33M, NSW, Australia. Currently on 40mg Ritalin daily.

Background: Grew up in an emotionally/physically abusive household (targeting me and my mother). Developed long-term maladaptive daydreaming as a teen coping mechanism. Diagnosed with depression and ADHD — accuracy now in question. Socially isolated for 10+ years.

Took escitalopram 40mg for 10 years as a teen/young adult. Never felt like it truly helped — just made me "comfortable while rolling around in my own shit."

December last year: Decided to get in shape and pursue becoming a police officer (partly to help people, partly to avoid tickets). Believed antidepressants would disqualify me, so I cold-turkeyed the escitalopram — no taper, despite knowing the risks.

What followed: Initially felt the best I ever had — mentally, physically, emotionally clear. Lost 12kg in a month. Became confident and hyper-creative, writing a 96-page screenplay out of nowhere. Lasted about 4-6 weeks.

Then crashed hard: stopped eating for days, lay in bed crying for hours, random aches/pains/brain freezes. One morning my heart rate spiked to 200bpm — hospitalized; doctors suspect an electrical heart issue, still under investigation.

Therapist now suspects possible Bipolar disorder. Unclear if it's that, protracted antidepressant withdrawal, or something else. Four days ago, mood seemed to lift again — not as high as the initial "mania," but better than the crash.

Work/Carer history: Personal carer for my mother since my early 20s (government-paid carer pension, Australia) after she was in a car accident. Her needs fluctuate. We've leaned on each other heavily through mutual mental health issues.

Tried to build a career outside caregiving multiple times:

• 2011: Marketing diploma — anxiety attacks too severe to continue college.
• 2017: Real estate diploma, got licensed — but before finding work, my mother had a severe mental breakdown (half her overseas family died in a crash; she had a psychotic episode, was hospitalized in a psych ward for a week). She's calmed since but can no longer drive. I stayed as her carer.

Now: During the "manic" period earlier this year, I enrolled in TAFE to become an electrician (affordable due to my carer status). Yesterday was my first day — went badly. Couldn't focus, struggled with basic math despite math never being a strength (I got through my real estate diploma on instinct without studying, assumed I could do the same here — seems wrong).

Where I'm stuck:

• Don't know if I should push through TAFE or drop out and reassess.
• Don't know if this is bipolar, a new baseline, or extended withdrawal.
• Real fear: I'm 33 with no work history beyond caregiving. I need a life and career beyond her, but plan to keep living with her for financial and practical reasons—she still needs me.
• No one to talk to or get advice from.
• I feel so internally ashamed of how far I allowed my life to fall.

Last week I sat for the suitability test for Cert 2 Electrotechnology in NSW, expecting the class to be packed. But when I got there, it was half empty.

The teacher giving the test said that for every spot open there were three applicants. So, is Cert 2 not that important in getting an apprenticeship, or was class empty because the test was at 8 am, or is there something I am missing?

Are there any more advanced version of the EchoChamber extension? It is awesome but a little finicky.

I want the characters in the Sillytavern Scenes to be able to comment within the Chat and reply to the chat.

I have recently started taking L-theanine for about one week and have had some odd results.

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After an initial super screw up with the doses on my end, I have been taking 200mg in the morning between my Ritalin doses and another 200mg before sleep.

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It has helped with mood and lethargy considerably, but has had the odd effect of increased libido. Is this common?

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Is there a consensus on l-theanine with adhd? Or l-theanine in general.

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I am also thinking about adding l-threonate? Would that be appropriate?

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For context I have adhd and take Ritalin 20mg two times a day.

I am trying to figure out a few settings when connecting to my PC through Bluetooth.

- How do I enable LDAC on Windows and Android?
- Would it add unacceptably high latency to have LDAC on pc?
I am currently using the built in windows bluetooth system.

- Is it a good idea to use EQ PC programs?
- I am currently using Equalizer APO 1.4.2 is that one any good?
- Can anyone recommend a solid EQ
- Is it better to use an EQ through the Sound Connect APP or allow the PC to do it?

- On Windows, should I turn on spatial sound?
- What format is best in Windows? Mine defaults to 2 channel, 16 bit, 48000 Hz

- I currently use the Android Sound Connect app to change the stored settings. I have turned off the " Connect to multiple devices option, but it still auto-connects to both my PC and phone.

I have been losing weight since January, my depression and Anhedonia symptoms have been fluctuating. I have been waking consistently at around 4 am for a while now also.

My blood test since the start of the year:

17th January: TSH 0.45

16th March: TSH 0.26, T4 13.5, T3 4.5

07th April: TSH 0.22, T4 13.3, T3 4.5

18th April: TSH 0.26

28th March: TSH 0.28, T4 15.6, T3 3.9

Everytime I go to my GP (General practitioner) he says that these levels can fluctuate and it is nothing to worry about. My fear is that whatever is happening with my thyroid is making my depression and Anhedonia symptoms worse.

Is it appropriate to be referred to an endocrinologist with these results over the last few months?

>!WTF happened? I thought my game glitched during that fight scene and the conversation in the office was out of nowhere.!<

This is a lot, and I doubt this is anything anyone can help with. I guess I am just looking for some perspective.

I have been Maladaptive Dreaming since I was a kid, now 33. I have also been taking high dose anti depressants for at least the last ten years.

In mid-December last year, I decided to stop the antidepressants cold turkey. I was deep into a daydream that had been going on for a few months, I believe, at that point.

I expected to feel like shit, but instead, for about a month and a half, I felt better than I ever have. I don't even know why I decided to turn the dream into a screenplay, got to page 96, and crashed.

The dreams are harder to access, like I can't feel them anymore. Part of me is glad they are gone, part of me misses them more than anything. I used them to cope with well, everything and now I am alone with my own mind with this blank space.

Apparently, this is rather normal for certain people giving up long-term antidepressants. I don't know if the dreams will return or if they are gone forever.

Has anyone else on here gone through something similar? any advice

I am applying and I wanted to know which campus is the better option between Mt Druitt or Granville.

There are 5 notifactions on the reddit chrome site, but nothing appears on the chat list. It isnt cleared by "mark all messages as read".

The android app list them requests, but nothing appears in the requests list

- Is 33 to old for something like this, I know I will need an apprenticeship after some tafe, will my age be an issue?

- What is the realistic day-to-day like for an electrician working in industrial settings versus domestic?

- How much social interaction is typically involved?

- I am looking into tafe full time, Any recommendations course wise? Which is most useful in the actual industry?

- For those who specialised in instrumentation — how did that transition happen? Did you plan it from the start or did it happen during the apprenticeship?

- What do you wish you knew before starting that nobody tells you?

- Any Western Sydney specific advice on TAFE campuses or employers worth targeting for industrial apprenticeships?

- Is the industry in a good place right now? are apprenticeship hard to find right now?

I have no experience in any field like this. Due to some family issues I am looking for a career to break into without a work history that can be of use.