u/theminecraftqueen

I just reread killing stalking for the 4th time and I need more plz

Hello! So today, I went to my psychiatrists office for my quarterly check-up about my Adderall. For the past 5 months, I’ve been binging and purging frequently, and for the past two months it’s been every other day 4-5x a day. I told my psychiatrist about how I’ve been experiencing chest tightness, heart pain, and shortness of breath due to the b/p and they ended up taking me off the Adderall and prescribing Prozac. They also ordered lab work like a cmp and ecg. I have wanted to get lab work done because I’m concerned about my health and I just want confirmation that what I feel physically is real.

However, I’m really anxious because I’m afraid the results are going to come back as normal. I obviously would like to be healthy, but I’m just afraid that I’m going to relapse again if there’s no abnormalities, because then I’ve been “faking” it and there’s actually nothing wrong with me. I also haven’t lost any weight and it’s just frustrating because they’re putting me on a plan to recover but I’m still fat. This sounds horrible but I just want proof that I’m sick and I’ll be so embarrassed if everything comes back normal. This is my first time talking to a doctor about my bulimia this year, and it’s taken a lot to say something, and I feel like I’ll relapse really really bad if there’s nothing wrong with me on those tests. Also, i feel like I’m going to b/p the days coming up to the tests because I just want to see proof of what I’ve been doing on my body. I don’t know why I want to be sick. I want to be healthy deep down. I hope none of this sounds ignorant I’ve just been crying for the past hour. Any advice would be appreciated thsnk you for reading

Starting tomorrow I’m going to try to stop purging because I’m really worried for my future health and I’ve been having a lot of anxiety about potential medical emergencies and dying. One symptom that I am worried about is the heavy chest and shortness of breath that I am experiencing, what in particular is causing this? Is it dehydration or something else? If you guys have any advice to give me let me know! Lately I’ve been taking aspirin for when it gets bad. Haven’t gotten any blood work done recently so not sure about anything like that lol tysm for reading :)

If so our date is 8/9/10 and I think that’s kinda cool

I just purged an hour ago and since then I’ve been laying down and the left lower side of my stomach kind of hurts, is this something to be worried about? I know asking for medical advice isn’t really good to do on here but I’m kind of nervous. It’s not a sharp pain it just kind of aches

I see everyone talk about it now what is it and how does it happen

I feel like it’s so obvious that no one is saying no to her which clearly isn’t her fault, and people on the internet act like she’s not just a kid. I’m only 16 now, but when I was 12, I would ask my mom to get piercings that I certainly wouldn’t want now, and she said no, but I was just sad for 3 days and then moved on.
My point is that she is literally just a child, and children are influenced by things that they see, for her it’s alternative fashion & modifications, it’s not necessarily bad that she wants those things, however it’s questionable that she’s allowed to—which I see more people hating on HER for it and not her parents

One other thing I want to bring up is the conversations surrounding her hair. I always see this bullshit with young black girls having long straight hair, getting called grown, but when it’s a young white girl there’s no issue all of a sudden. I’m aware some people may be criticizing the hair color, but it’s really not an issue because there’s not really a way that a hair color can be “grown”. (That I’m aware of..) Another thing she is criticized for is the fact that she’s wearing wigs, which I am all for embracing one’s natural hair, but wigs are honestly a better option for her to express herself without bleaching and frying her hair…

If my alternative phase was documented all over the internet and criticized by millions, I’d be so pissed. I just feel bad for the hate I see her getting because she just happened to be Kanye’s daughter, she’s not like some evil entity lmfao
I really don’t care about celebrities (ik I just wrote paragraphs ab one ☠️), but I felt like I had to say something about this bc it’s getting ridiculous & I feel like this surrounds a bigger conversation than just North West

I just sometimes forget how cruel people can be I guess that’s why peoples comments about her surprise me a lot
I haven’t even begun to elaborate on the fact that she’s definitely seen some of the comments online, and how she must feel, my heart hurts for her :(. I hope she knows she’s beautiful.

Edit: I said this under a separate comment & I want to add it here ⬇️

Unfortunately, based on what we’ve seen, she won’t be viewed as a human being and rather a product to be sold by her parents. Kanye and Kim are both at fault in different ways, and they will blame their childhoods & fame for that as an excuse, but in the end they’re just perpetuating the same cycle onto their children.

I want to help & I’m unsure of which organizations to donate to. I’m aware that some organizations may not be helping as much as they should, and I would like to donate to the charities that would make the most impact for the people

I love playing on my phone because of accessibility but I wish I could play on desktop I feel like that would be so fun

I finished this book 3 weeks ago, I really liked it and it was a good read, especially after finishing AP environmental lol. But a lot of the stuff mentioned in the book is happening now, most notable being the heatwave in Europe. Has anyone else who has read the book been thinking of it constantly now?

I’m kind of basing this off of a post I just saw on this sub
Anytime I have some junk food/fast food it triggers something in me as to where I eat everything in the house and I binge so crazily
Like anytime I have anything really unhealthy it’s just wraps and I go crazy eating and then the day is ruined
As the aforementioned poster said “I can’t do moderation”, is there any way to fix this because it’s impossible to live like this forever & it’s really draining

Being scared of new things is really debilitating. There are so many things that I want to do like going out on mission trips or going to a dinner. But being afraid that i might not know what to say or how to act in-front of them makes it feel impossible to do those things.
Like for instance I think about going out with friends to dinner but I’m scared that I might quit speaking, run out of things to say & it becomes awkward, or something like not knowing how to pay the bill and making an embarrasment of myself.

It just feels like socializing comes so natural to people from things like small talk or lively conversations and I don’t want to because I’m scared
A week ago I was out with friends and I had nothing else to say and I could tell they thought I was angry or something but I was having so much fun 🫩
I only really feel confident if I’m like matching how they’re acting or if I’m talking about something I like. Or if they’re coming to me with a problem I am really good at giving a solution & comforting them cause I say whats most logical

I was diagnosed with ADHD combined presentation, and I understand many ADHD traits overlap with ASD traits but since I’ve been taking Adderall (10mg xr) I feel like I might be autistic. I was also diagnosed with MDD and GAD so this might just be anxiety
I also think that if they screened me for ADHD I feel like they might’ve noticed if I was autistic so I’m just really confused atp
For background info I’m 16 and a girl