u/Apocolypse_tomorrow

My back pain started when i started needing to stand for long hours about 3 weeks ago and it began in my feet then lower back, sometimes i could bring my knee upto my chest and that would help but now its moved into my middle upper back and its a dull ache whenever i stand for more than 20m and doesnt go away

I haven’t been in a relationship with him that long maybe 2 months but the last 2 weeks he’s just became really mean and snappy with me, any little thing can set him off and any little mistake he makes me feel awful about, if he could just be nice to me then he’s perfect but the last time we had a big fight and I cried he made fun of me and called me immature for crying because I’m 4y older

But I only cry because I know I have to leave him if he acts angry all the time

Should I tell him I want a break and we should just be friends for a bit?

I haven’t been in a relationship with him that long maybe 2 months but the last 2 weeks he’s just became really mean and snappy with me, any little thing can set him off and any little mistake he makes me feel awful about, if he could just be nice to me then he’s perfect but the last time we had a big fight and I cried he made fun of me and called me immature for crying because I’m 4y older

But I only cry because I know I have to leave him if he acts angry all the time

Should I tell him I want a break and we should just be friends for a bit?

Im 60 days tomorrow since i last used heroin

97 days today since i used alcohol or cocaine

And since i started work nights full timeand got a boyfriend im either with him for 2 days or at worth the other 4 that leaves me with 1 day alone and recently those free days i havent had my car so unable to drive to a meeting

My bf is completly sober and has never drank

Why do they say dont get in a relationship because i love being in a relationship and its helped me better myself and keep my house really tidy

I try to meet my sponsor but he has also been really really busy

I feel 0 desire to use i spent 10y as a depressed addict with nothing in my life but drink and drugs now everything external or materialistic i feel like i have or will have

I want to keep going to aa iv just been finding it so difficult to find time for and i really really suck at praying or reading

The high isn't overpowering but it definitely makes me feel relaxed and calm and my eyes go red

And it's so extremely helpful To my medical condition. I feel like people who say it does nothing already smoke thc and have a bit tolerance

I finally got sober I'm about 50 days from drugs and 90 from alcohol I have a boyfriend I love and I got my dream job and only 2 weeks away from making real money, why am I still messing around at work or behaving like a criminal? I'm not on drugs or alcohol anymore I feel happy