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Better than every drill tune by far. Makes me proud to be a Londoner :)

I live in Milton Keynes and I just started a job in Northampton. I was browsing flats and I’ve noticed that they’re so much cheaper than MK. But I’ve walked around the town centre twice and I’m genuinely shocked at how run down it is. Boarded up places everywhere, drunk hysterical people walking around, it’s probably the worst town centre I’ve ever been to and I’ve lived in some rough places.

I’ll still give it the benefit of the doubt because I’m sure the rest of the town isn’t like this. Is it worth it or nah?

Idk how, idk why, but it was a good dream :)

I’m gonna be moving there in the next week or two. I heard it’s decent but I wanna know more about it.

I’m currently living in Liverpool but I want to move back to Buckinghamshire or London to be closer to my family. I can’t find a room to rent to save my life because I’m on UC and housing benefits. Even if the price per month is within the housing benefit range they still won’t accept me.

So if I find a job here in Liverpool, work for a bit, would I look more appealing? Or should I find a job down south before I look for a place? How do people even do this?

It feels like life since I left secondary school at 16 has gotten worse and worse each year. And now at this point I don’t even know how 2027 is gonna go. If it gets any worse I don’t know how I’ll cope. I try my best to be optimistic but when you see the people around you, especially the ones you grew up with living happy lives, progressing in life as any adult should, whilst you’re taking one step forward and two steps back in life sometimes is motivating and other times is demoralising.

Let’s start with summer-winter 2018 when I left school. Not even 6 months later my mum left my dad due to his inability to be a half decent husband to her and his alcohol issues. That led to me blazing 24/7. Pretty sure the weed I was smoking at the time was laced with heroin because the way my appearance changed in the space of a few months is crazy. Didn’t even realise how bad I looked until a few years later. I still can’t even look at the pics from that time.

Fast forward to late 2019. I’m blazing like crazy in my dad’s house without a care in the world. And then my rave phase started. Only lasted a few months but it was quite a dark period. But it does get worse. If I could I’d show u lot the pics of me high on pingers with my jaw swinging. Only done it three times but the last time was hands down the most humiliating night of my life.

The last time I took ecstasy was in my dad’s house. I had one more pill left and I decided to take it. I was sitting in front of my dad shaking like crazy. I promised myself I’d never take it again after that and I haven’t taken it since. And I never will.

2020, the worst year of my life starts. And of course covid hit. And so did my psychosis. Around summer 2020 a few months after I moved in with my mum, I was working at my uncles garage and on the last day I believed he wanted to have me killed in there. Which led to me isolating myself in my room from the crippling fear of being kidnapped if I left my house. I cut off all my friends who I thought wanted to have me killed. I used to get my dealers to drop the weed through the letterbox. Sometimes I’d order it from telegram. And this lasted until 2022 when my mum kicked me out due to me disrespecting her rules of not smoking indoors. Understandably.

I’ll admit the first half of 2022 was ok. My mum kicking me out was the best thing that could’ve happened in that time because my fear of leaving the house just went instantly. I got a job after she let me back in and life was sweet. But I relapsed again and she kicked me out for good. I didn’t speak to her for two years until yesterday two years ago after my dad passed away.

life has been difficult ever since my mum kicked me out that last time because I’m just trying to navigate through life without any proper guidance. I’ve made horrible choices since then that I won’t get into now otherwise it’ll be too long to read. But honestly I’m a perfect example of a child who was thrown in the deep end without being set up for life.

It’s like both my parents especially my mum just decided “alright, now that you’re an adult, my job is done. I’m not responsible for you anymore.” And I think that’s been the case ever since she left my dad and met her partner. But i always wonder if she regrets leaving my dad too early and focusing more on rebuilding her life whilst my life was going to shit. Because while I’ve let bygones be bygones, I still haven’t fully gotten over that. And she hasn’t gotten over the stuff I’ve done to her.

I got a therapist, I just started college to retake my maths and English GCSEs. And I’m gonna try my best to rebuild my life properly and not let my impulsive tendencies and drugs ruin my life as it has always done each time I’ve tried. But I’m 24 now. I’ll be 25 next year, I want to see myself progress just like everyone around me is. Because I’m so sick of this whole one step forward and two steps back shit. And so is everyone else around me and I know for a fact if this keeps on going, I’ll be all alone in the end. And that thought scares me.

I’ve been searching for properties all over Buckinghamshire and I haven’t had much luck as I’m unemployed and 99% of landlords require you to be employed. Even if the rent is lower than the maximum shared accommodation benefits (£500 in Milton Keynes). But I found a landlord on spareroom who’s willing to take me in, but he’s renting his place out illegally.

I’ve lived in a shared house in Harlesden where I didn’t sign a contract. And everything was cool. But honestly if I can’t find anything above board, should I do it?

Is it really that bad or does it just have a bad name?

I currently live in Liverpool. I’ve been living here for a year and three months but I have decided to move back to Buckinghamshire to be closer to my family. But due to life shit, I haven’t worked in over a year and my rent is being covered by UC.

I’ve been calling landlords all day and I haven’t had much luck. But I also stupidly sent my landlord a notice thinking it would be a better idea. But I didn’t know that once you send that notice, you have no choice but to go. I’m not very experienced in life so I’m not the least bit surprised about that fuck up.

What can I do? Please help me out guys.

Edit: managed to retract the notice. Thank you!!

Specifically Plaistow, Custom House, West Ham. I’m from north west London and I’ve never set foot in the east end in my life. So I have absolutely no clue what it’s like to live there. Can someone help me out because I’m browsing areas to live in London other than NW.

Love this one

Haven’t seen thunder like this in a long time.

Edit: in Bootle

I’m a 24 year old man. I was born in London but I grew up in bucks (high Wycombe & Aylesbury) now I’m currently living in Liverpool. But i plan to move back down south next year to be closer to my mum in ay and I think MK or Bletchley seems like the best choice. If you check my previous post I considered MK but after thinking about it I realised it’s not ideal for me until I start driving.

I just wanna live somewhere safe, chilled out and quiet. I’m not fussed about nightlife or any fancy stuff. Can easily travel to London for that if that’s what I really want. So once again, just need an honest, unfiltered opinion on Bletchley. What the people are like, how safe it is, what the pubs are like, etc. cheers! :)

I’ve lived in bucks for a good portion of my life. In High Wycombe and Aylesbury. But I’ve never been to Milton Keynes so I have absolutely no idea how it is. Please give me the unfiltered truth because I’m considering moving there next year.

My poison is weed. That’s what I’m having trouble recovering from but I’ve only sniffed coke a few times when it’s been offered to me. But for some reason I keep having extremely vivid dreams of doing it. I gotta be honest here, I loved it each time. Ofc I hated the comedown but it feels way too good for my own good. I can’t do it again coz I can see how addictive the stuff is. Weed is nothing compared to the sniff. But those dreams are not helping at all coz when I wake up I really want a line.

It goes without saying the other countries are even harder to understand but I’m currently talking to an Egyptian and I’m finding it hard to understand them. Anyone from Iraq, to lebanon, to the khaleej… it’s not an issue. But once we go past Palestine to Egypt. It just gets hard.

Bare in mind I was born and bred in the UK.

Specifically Egypt. It goes without saying the other countries are even harder to understand but I’m currently talking to an Egyptian and I’m finding it hard to understand them. Anyone from Iraq, to lebanon, to the khaleej… it’s not an issue. But once we go past Palestine to Egypt. It just gets hard.

Bear in mind I was born and bred in the UK.

My move up here was very impulsive due to my mental health issues. But I don’t regret it at all I love it up here! Best move I’ve ever made. And this city will always have a special place in my heart due to the support I’ve had from almost every scouser I’ve met. Including my therapist and care coordinator.