u/ConfidentTank8871

We actually started out as instant besties on an app called treblo. Because we were like if you copy and pasted me, and gender swapped me.lol. I mean, ofc we weren't exactly the same, but we were alike so much that every time we had another thing in common, we were both like "ya know, I'm not even surprised" and we'd laugh about it. We also share a moderately similar twisted sence of humor!

But even before my mind knew, my heart did. It knew he was the one, the soulmate I've always wanted without knowing.

And I eventually made a confession song on treblo (it's a song making app) and god, I was nervous, blushin, fearing rejection... The whole package. I was glad he couldn't see me thru yhe screen.

(Oh, real quick, we talk on reddit too)

So when my song played, I waited nervously

I braced for rejection... So imagine my surprise when he said he felt the same! And we told our other friends, followed each other here on reddit.

Yes, we are a touch mushy and cheesey. But I'm the more cheesey and mushy one lol. We send each other selfies, and sometimes video chat.

We havent done that in a while... But he's probably busy.

I don't mind waiting.

Anyways, thanks you reading,

And babe, if you're reading this.

I love you! 🥰

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My Story

I’ve noticed that my newer songs seem to have a different energy than some of my older ones. My older songs often focused on pain, hiding my struggles, feeling unseen, and trying to keep going while hurting.

My newer songs still acknowledge pain, but they also have more strength, confidence, and a feeling of “I survived this.” Instead of the pain being the whole story, it feels more like the pain is only one part of a bigger story.

I think this could be a sign that I’m healing or changing my perspective, but it doesn’t mean I never have bad days. Growth is usually messy and doesn’t happen in a perfectly straight line.

I don’t specifically sit down and decide, “I need to write a healing song.” I just get random song ideas like normal.

That actually makes the change more interesting because my natural creativity seems to be drifting toward stronger themes without me forcing it.

My songwriting seems to have different sides:

- The side that processes hurt and difficult feelings.

- The side that creates powerful, confident songs about strength and moving forward.

My stronger songs usually come when I’m in a good mood.

When I’m in a bad mood, that’s when my depressive spikes happen. I think both emotions influence my creativity. Sadness can help me process feelings, while happiness can bring out my more powerful, hopeful songs.

My depressive spikes are usually triggered by things like:

- Being alone

- Memories

- Feeling rejected or ignored

- Stress building up

They usually happen after 9 PM, when my phone and music are turned off, which makes it harder to use music as a way to cope.

During those moments, I sometimes:

- Make things or write to vent

- Punch a Squishmallow

- Watch YouTube

- Cry until I calm down and eventually realize, “Being depressed is tiring as fuck.”

Sometimes I get thoughts like, “The world would be better if I wasn’t here,” but I want to clarify that it’s not the same as wanting to kill myself or having a plan.

Those thoughts are more about feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Even though I don’t intend to act on them, I know those feelings are still something worth acknowledging.

I also want to say that while I’m talking about this, I’m not currently in a depressive spike. I’m okay right now. I’m just reflecting on my experiences.

I want to make a small note near my pillow for difficult nights, something I can look at to help ground myself.

The message would be something like:

“This is a bad moment, not a bad life.

My thoughts are loud, but they are not always true.

I have survived every hard night before this one.

I am more than my pain.

I am the songs I create, the love I give, the things I dream of, and the person I’m becoming.

I don’t have to fix everything tonight.

I just have to get through this moment.”

The biggest thing I’ve realized is that my story doesn’t seem to be only about what hurt me anymore. My creativity is showing more of the person who survived, grew, and is still becoming who I want to be.

My songs are starting to sound less like “look at what broke me” and more like “look at what I built from the pieces.”

To anyone else who feels like me: you can talk to me. I’ll gladly listen. If you need to let out your anger, sadness, or any other feelings, I’ll be here to hear you. I know what it feels like to want to be left alone, and I don’t want anyone else to feel like they have to be alone with everything they’re carrying.

—NML

*For context on the first part, I make songs on Treblo (get in on play store(Google)*

💪 Daily Strength Routine (25–30 min)

🔥 Warm-up

Jumping jacks × 30 sec

Arm circles × 30 sec

🦵 Legs

Squats × 10–15

Lunges × 8 each leg

💪 Upper body

Push-ups × as many as you can with good form

Pull-up practice × 3 tries

🔥 Core

Plank × 20–45 sec

Mountain climbers × 20

🧘 Finish

Stretch for a few minutes

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