u/Dangerous_Poet_5831

My mind is blank a lot of the time. It used to run fast replaying memories, and facts. Something happened over a course of time and I had a couple of black outs and had a period of time where I couldn't remember anything, although I knew who I was.

Memory is a bit better now, but some memories cause me so much anger that it is as if my brain is stopping me from thinking. It is causing issues at work especially if I have any amount of stress I can forget saying something I just said.

But I don't feel detached at all. It is all memory issues.

Edited to add: If I try I can easily remember traumatic events and the adult bullying that happened over the course. I am not blocking that out.

Years ago I went into a dissociation state, and blacked out twice after a long time of bullying by other adults. My memory and thinking works at a 10% capacity to what it used to. Also have some trauma.

I was dismissed by doctor and counsellor who made out as if I was making things up put on meds and dismissed. Someone in my life to just put up with it and keep the peace. I became bitter and mean wanting revenge on everyone if someone walks into me or if someone deliberately tries to get me in trouble at work I feel infuriated, I know the latter sounds plausible but I don't deal with it healthily.

At the same time I'm very "child like". I am 31 professional and how I present myself I come across as a clown, lacking confidence, quiet, and immature. Some 15 year olds come in to open accounts and they come across as a lot more professional, and mentally stable than me. At home I complain so much because I have so many minor issues with others.

What can I do to improve?

I've also noticed some people will sometimes get defensive or make out as if I am saying things I'm not, even if it is a neutral comment about the weather or traffic. I will get comments such as "You always", or "You never", "Can't you just". I know this is more about them, but I feel knocked back.

Years ago I went into a dissociation state, and blacked out twice after a long time of bullying by other adults. My memory and thinking works at a 10% capacity to what it used to.

I was dismissed by doctor and counsellor who made out as if I was making things up put on meds and dismissed. Someone in my life to just put up with it and keep the peace. I became bitter and mean wanting revenge on everyone if someone walks into me or if someone deliberately tries to get me in trouble at work I feel infuriated, I know the latter sounds plausible but I don't deal with it healthily.

At the same time I'm very "child like". I am 31 professional and how I present myself I come across as a clown, lacking confidence, quiet, and immature. Some 15 year olds come in to open accounts and they come across as a lot more professional, and mentally stable than me. At home I complain so much because I have so many minor issues with others.

What can I do to improve?

I've also noticed some people will sometimes get defensive or make out as if I am saying things I'm not, even if it is a neutral comment about the weather or traffic. I will get comments such as "You always", or "You never", "Can't you just". I know this is more about them, but I feel knocked back.

Years ago I went into a dissociation state, and blacked out twice after a long time of bullying by other adults. My memory and thinking works at a 10% capacity to what it used to.

I was dismissed by doctor and counsellor who made out as if I was making things up put on meds and dismissed. Someone in my life to just put up with it and keep the peace. I became bitter and mean wanting revenge on everyone if someone walks into me or if someone deliberately tries to get me in trouble at work I feel infuriated, I know the latter sounds plausible but I don't deal with it healthily.

At the same time I'm very "child like". I am 31 professional and how I present myself I come across as a clown, lacking confidence, quiet, and immature. Some 15 year olds come in to open accounts and they come across as a lot more professional, and mentally stable than me. At home I complain so much because I have so many minor issues with others.

What can I do to improve?

I've also noticed some people will sometimes get defensive or make out as if I am saying things I'm not, even if it is a neutral comment about the weather or traffic. I will get comments such as "You always", or "You never", "Can't you just". I know this is more about them, but I feel knocked back.

I naturally overthink, an anxiety thing. But lately my brain feels blank, it as if in the last 3 years something happened and my brain is almost always in an off state. I don't have a sore head or anything that indicates high stress but I know it is all stress related. Later in this post - It took me 2 minutes to think of the word dishes, I had kitchen tools, kitchen bits.

My boss has suddenly changed and talks down to me - "You need to write this up, you know what, I'll just do it". I end up writing it up, then she nitpicks and sends it off. When I talk to her my mind goes blank.

A worker doesn't follow my instructions and the office becomes behind in work, she is always off doing things unrelated to work. She will just ignore me at times, - which triggers me.

I don't want to go on medication for anxiety, and feel I need to know why this is all so triggering so I can not be triggered and have a clear head.

Upon asking another question on reddit I found my brain fog maybe due to built up emotions, particularly anger. Long ago I was being bullied by some adult women, I moved away and now although I have no contact with them I still have the brain fog.

There are things in life that wake me up at night and make me angry. I run an office and we serve customers, one worker will enter the office late because she was busy cleaning the coffee machine. I've asked her not to, and will continue doing others tasks to delay completing her own and also so she can ask others to complete her tasks. I am the office lead and have found that she is asking customers to go straight to her in emails, phone calls and in person, for situations where the should be seeing me or the other office lead. She doesn't work Wednesday and has told a number of customers that we don't have the capacity to see them on Wednesday because she wants to be the 'inbetween' person. She has been making decisions out of her work-profile. She was our apprentice last year but gave up study and we hired her to serve customers and file paperwork. Whenever I address it or try work with her she becomes worse and will ignore me. I have spoken to the manager who is now pregnant, and been given huge amounts of responsibility and doesn't want to hear it, tells me to talk to the worker.

It makes me angry, which I think is making brain fog worse. I try to forget about it, but it is significant and needs to stop.

10 years ago I went through a lot of stress and a terrible time, I passed out and had a bout of amnesia. My memory went and I have been living in a state of brain fog every since. I took anti depressants for a while which helped with memory then plateaued, I've stopped these.

About a year in to this time I was being harassed by someone who was one of the people who put me into this state. I shouted at her and told her to never come to my home again. Everything became brighter, colours, sounds, I could smell again, my brain was clear my muscles were relaxed. I hadn't realised that I had been in a fog. A week later she turned up again upset, and I opened the door to her and the brain fog. Our friendship lasted a month before I cut ties for good, but the fog never lifted.

I eat well and exercise, I sleep 8-9 hours a day, and barely use devices, even for work.

I don't understand why my brain fog won't lift I have no connections with these people. Some people in my life do remind me of them, and I keep my distance.

Any perspectives on this are welcome, I want to know how to lift this brain fog and be clear headed again.

For work I have to log in to an external website to watch some webinars using a work log in and password. From my home computer.

I don't know how cookies or data works. One optional website recommended says they ignore do not track requests. I have just taken up studying to change careers and would rather my workplace not find out.

If I log into this website using work password and email, does data go back to them? Such as my course information what I've been listening to on youtube?

10 years ago I was bullied everyday for 2 years by other adults and one day one did something that gave me a huge fright. I passed out and when I regained consciousness didn't know where I was, or relatives names. I had terrible memory for years, people would leave my house and I would have to look out the window to see who had just left.

Now it is a lot better but I cannot hold any information in my head, and anything that causes me stress and my memory is affected a lot. I can remember the event in detail, and it wasn't that bad, although at the time it was.

Every other year two get in contact with people in my life and tell stories about me. Some of these are true from when I was a teen, others are made up. No one ever questions they just jump in on this gossip, and I am bullied or ignored. My head is always foggy from the stress of this, and I have recently changed jobs and worried that they will come after me again.

I don't know what to do.

I think I had dissociative amnesia, but I remember the event in detail, and had a stressful year due to adult bullying leading up to it. This was 10 years ago.

Before the event my memory was exceptionally good. For the first week after the event I couldn't remember relatives names. Since then, my memory is bad, and any stress, or conflict and it is very bad to where I have real trouble remembering anything or holding information in my brain. However I can remember these events, and words said.

I feel I am in a constant state of mild amnesia and can't get out.

What should I do?

(I had been on meds for 7 years, helped at first but no more improvement so stopped and feel the same). I want to work through it myself and not have a therapist.

I think I had dissociative amnesia, but I remember the event in detail, and had a stressful year due to adult bullying leading up to it. This was 10 years ago.

Before the event my memory was exceptionally good. For the first week after the event I couldn't remember relatives names. Since then, my memory is bad, and any stress, or conflict and it is very bad to where I have real trouble remembering anything or holding information in my brain. However I can remember these events, and words said.

I feel I am in a constant state of mild amnesia and can't get out.

What should I do?

(I had been on meds for 7 years, helped at first but no more improvement so stopped and feel the same). I want to work through it myself and not have a therapist.

I work with some sly people. And I don't always catch on to things straight away, so am easily tricked, or put into a position where I am outsmarted. Although I am a lot better than I used to be.

I get home and it just goes around in my mind, and I feel vengeful towards these people (2 people). One coworker walks off when I talk to her, listens in on conversations, and takes clear enjoyment in anything that goes wrong for me.

I know it shouldn't matter but I just keep running things over in my head.

I can spell and decode fine. My writing is good, but my vocabulary and comprehension is very poor. Also during verbal conversation. Sometimes I read text for my essay and have no idea what the paragraph means, or why it is relevant to what I am reading no matter how many times I read over or highlight. I also have poor short term memory.

I can only really understand text if it is straightforward and in bullet points.

Does anyone have any tips?

I am not tech minded.

I had to print an email and link today on a work device using my own email address. I got around this eventually. But, on my phone I cleared my tabs and history and logged into the work online site. I thought I could just send the docs and links there and log in through the work computer.

But then I am unsure how this clearing of cache and cookies work? I read somewhere that sites can still see if you clear them and collect what sites you have been to any way?

I've been sent 20 documents I have to print off and have to log into ​and have follow a​ link sent to my email. I have to open on work computer.

If I log in can work see my emails? It is my personal email. Work computer?

I signed up to Grammarly, I went into my Grammarly account and signed out. However, when writing in word and right now in Reddit, I have a lot of underlines and suggestions from Grammarly. How do I turn these off and only check once I have completed my work?

Adult can read and spell well but grasping the meaning of text is below average maybe at an 11 year old level. This is also true for spoken language. Is above average in other areas.

Is this lack of reading or another cause? ​ ​​

A group of clients got together and complained about me,​​ unfortunately this will be shared with two people who love any misfortune that comes my way. I am set that they a narcissists.

How should I respond?

I was told I need to stop wearing black as it makes me look unapproachable. I have no piercings (not even ears) or tattoos, and wear soft make up. I've been recommended to wear pastels or whites. I purchased some and when I look in the mirror feel so odd.

Does anyone else experience this? How long did it take to adjust?

I work in a social job dealing with finances etc. Feedback from clients on me is really not good 90% very bad, 10% neutral), apparently I am unfriendly, people are not confident in having me in charge (I am a supervisor of 12), that I come across as 'mentally impaired', or silly. It stems from social anxiety, and I am very friendly, I work overtime to ensure everything is done correctly and to ensure everyone gets a good deal.

I don't know what to do, I push myself to greet every person, I hold a short conversation with each person. I dress well. I also find I can sometimes say really silly things.