u/EdinburghDrizzle

As title says I have left Hinduism and Right wing. I used to be fanatic right winger. Not the one you see on internet, but one who actually had invested a considerable sum of time in studying Right wing politics. I was massive supporter of regressive Right wing politics since 2-3 years like I started at 16, now I am 19.

I used to be Anti feminist, Anti MRA cause I think they were not regressive enough. I was overwhelming Anti Reservation, despite not being Suvarna, I am OBC, too blind to see casteism at that time. I still laugh at myself.

I have overwhelming supported Trans bill, and didn't thought about my trans friends. I am ashamed to face them.

One of the reason, I left Hinduism as well theism because I am not simply able to comprehend why should I support it despite the atrocities they did against my ancestors.

I was able to turn due to my habbit about learning leftist and my left winger friends helped despite I have lied a lot to them. I feel guilty for that as well.

I don't know why but I get kind urge (jaise naasha kiya ho) to fill myself again in same RW progadanda. How can I get freedom from that urge?

I feel guilty for my LW friends. Should I confess truth even if our friendship get broken?

To be honest, I kinda depressed and I have SSC exams as well.