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Wanting to try those programs, but I really really love the brush packs I have for procreate, wondering if there’s any possible way to export them to krita or clip studio paint??

I (m18) have my first date tomorrow, super nervous. I’m afraid it might be super awkward or boring for both or either one of us, I’m afraid of making a horrible first impression or saying something weird, or me being too boring to be around

We’re just gonna do something simple, eat somewhere and grab boba tea, seems simple, but I’m so afraid of rejection that I’m close to canceling even if I really wanna go

Is there any advice anyone can give me? Like anything atp, because I feel like this anxiety might make me seem a bit forced tomorrow, if that makes sense, and that’s the least thing I want damn

I reallyyyy just need to let it out, so feel free to read it anyone, or comment on it, just don’t be mean as hell I’m aware that I fucked up already

I’m really horrible with controlling my impulsivity and emotions when I’m in a stressful and emotional situation. Today I was so depressed so so so so anxious due to my birthday yesterday being ruined by family arguments, and that alongside the feeling of loneliness combined made me message my ex whom I myself broke up a month ago. I broke up because I wasn’t feeling it anymore, I felt suffocated in the relationship and couldn’t handle it anymore.

I message her today, I had her blocked. I knew I shouldn’t have done it and knew I was doing it out of a sudden emotional reaction, I still don’t feel the same way about her as I felt in the early stages of our relationship, obviously, that’s why I broke up.
I usually can control myself, this time I didn’t, I just feel so alone I was willing to go back to a relationship I wasn’t happy in, this is so depressing.

I hurt her once, I don’t wanna hurt her twice.
I sent her a message apologizing and we talked for a bit, she told me to follow her on Instagram again and I told her I would earlier, but it’s later today now and I haven’t, in fact, I blocked her again because I’m a coward, I don’t wanna waste her time, and I’ve come to my senses again

Jesus I wish I hadn’t message her I hate myself for this I wish I had more control

Like a month ago I broke things off with this girl; I felt super suffocated, she was always asking me if I loved her, like, ALWAYS, so many times a day. She was very insecure, and so am I in other ways, but in our relationship I felt like she was very clingy and also very very negative, always complaining about everything, at the point that I didn’t know what to say to her anymore. She didn’t listen to me or ask me about my day or anything.
She was also a bit obsessed and pushy with me in my eyes, which also made me a bit uncomfortable at times

That’s the main reason I broke up, I constantly felt overwhelmed and suffocated by her questions, and I did try talking to her about this, but it didn’t change anything. Maybe I have high standards, im not sure.

Well, for this past month I’ve felt good, I didn’t feel regretful or didn’t miss her a lot, it seemed the right choice. For some reason, this particular week I’ve began feeling regretful, maybe I was unfair, I’ve began missing her a lot, maybe I had done the wrong choice.

I’ve missed her a lot recently, but at the same time I remember all the times I’ve felt bad in our relationship and stop feeling that way. It always comes back tho, this feeling of loneliness and possible regret.

I’ve wondered if I should message her apologizing and saying I was wrong and want her back, but for one, I don’t know if she forgot me already, and then I don’t know if this is what I REALLY want.

TLDR: broke things up a month ago and began feeling regretful, even tho I didn’t feel happy in the relationship

I don’t know if I’m the only one who thinks this, so let me know your opinion on this as I’d like to know more perspectives of aromantic people like me on this topic haha.

For me, romantic relationships are so tiring. It’s too much, at all times, and when it’s not, the other person thinks you lost interest in them.
When I was in a relationship in the past, I always felt so tired of constantly keeping up, constantly telling and reassuring them that “yes, I do still like you”
For me, it’s just too much, the constant messaging, the constant stress of making mistakes, I don’t know, maybe this is just a personal experience with a particular someone, maybe I’ll always feel this way towards romantic relationships

Im not disgusted by love or romance, not at all, I’m simply unable to establish a romantic relationship with someone that way, as I also don’t feel attracted to people in general (even when I was in a relationship in the past, I kept lying to both of us and denying this part of me).

So lmk what you think, I’m intrigued by the opinion of other aromantic people on how they view romantic relationships!

I’m losing interest, but I don’t want to be rude or hurt them too much when saying this, especially because they have very serious mental issues.

Many times I’ve tried talking to them about this, but we always end up reconciling because I’m too afraid to just end things permanently. One time they thought I was gonna break up with them and they said they were about to vomit and pass out.

I don’t want to keep lying to them, and I also don’t want to feel guilty or obligated to talk to them too, it makes me feel bad because I’m lying and because I’m not happy in the relationship anymore too.
How do I do this? I’m afraid for them (and for me too, I hate confrontation)