u/Haemophilia_Type_A

I've been very mentally ill for a long time, since I was 10. I'm now 26. ADHD, ASD, anxiety, suicidality, overly intense emotions, depressed mood, emotional dysregulation etc etc.

I've tried 15 medications (4 ADHD meds) and none of them worked.That's shit, but not what I'm here for.

I've tried 10+ therapists long-term (a couple short-term) and none of them have helped. I've tried CBT, talk therapy, integrative therapy, art therapy, hypnotherapy, a neurodiversity specialising therapist, and it was all useless, even when I tried it for ages.

I've wasted thousands upon thousands of pounds on all this.

But I don't know what else to do other than keep smashing my head against this wall until my skull cracks, so to speak, because the NHS won't give me rTMS.

But I cannot find a good therapist. I've searched to the ends of the Earth. I've paid upwards of £100 per hour. I've looked through every registry and I've done literally hundreds of consultations over the years. All useless, and most I could tell they weren't any good beforehand so I didn't move forward with them after the consultation.

It's just such an under-regulated field so half of them are shit and don't engage with current research or literature.

I'm desperate. I can't keep this up for much longer. I won't be able to get through this if something doesn't start helping. I can't take it anymore.

I don't want shitty mindfulness and I don't want to just talk. Mindfulness doesn't work for me but it's all half of the therapists seem to know.

Do ytou have to pay £150 p/h+ to get a good therapist if you have more complex / severe issues? I can't afford that. £200 p/h? More?

Also everyone calls themselves an integrative therapist to the point it doesn't even mean anything anymore.

I've been very mentally ill for a long time, since I was 10. I'm now 26. ADHD, ASD, anxiety, suicidality, overly intense emotions, depressed mood, emotional dysregulation etc etc.

I've tried 15 medications (4 ADHD meds) and none of them worked.That's shit, but not what I'm here for.

I've tried 10+ therapists long-term (a couple short-term) and none of them have helped. I've tried CBT, talk therapy, integrative therapy, art therapy, hypnotherapy, a neurodiversity specialising therapist, and it was all useless, even when I tried it for ages.

I've wasted thousands upon thousands of pounds on all this.

But I don't know what else to do other than keep smashing my head against this wall until my skull cracks, so to speak, because the NHS won't give me rTMS.

But I cannot find a good therapist. I've searched to the ends of the Earth. I've paid upwards of £100 per hour. I've looked through every registry and I've done literally hundreds of consultations over the years. All useless, and most I could tell they weren't any good beforehand so I didn't move forward with them after the consultation.

It's just such an under-regulated field so half of them are shit and don't engage with current research or literature.

I'm desperate. I can't keep this up for much longer. I'll be dead soon if something doesn't start helping. I can't take it anymore.

I don't want shitty mindfulness and I don't want to just talk.

Do ytou have to pay £150 p/h+ to get a good therapist if you have more complex / severe issues? I can't afford that. £200 p/h? More?

Also everyone calls themselves an integrative therapist to the point it doesn't even mean anything anymore.

I just got a Boox 10.3 Go II Lumi, and I love it! :).

The problem is, being the clumsy idiot I am, I dropped the stylus one (1) time and it messed up the nib of the stylus. It's a bit bent and, while it functions fine, it's quite annoying and I'd like to replace it at some point.

What's a good replacement? If I'm just replacing the nib, how do I do that? How do I 'register' a new pen or nib with the device? Is there a pen/stylus lid to better protect the nib?

Preferably not too expensive but I'll spend if I have to.

I just don't want my clumsiness to mean I have to spend like £30 a week lol. It's a bit frustrating how fragile it is. It's mildly annoying how it has bent and I Don't think I can un-warp the nib.

Ty in advance.