u/Hahacz_Chungus

Okay, first a little explanation. I identify as genderlfluid, but I was born as a boy and I'm a boy for 90% of the time. I'm being a girl more or less one or two days a month. So, for convenience sake, you can treat me simply as a regular boy for the time being. Now back to the actual post...

I cannot count how many times I've made these posts, not to mention all the dating apps etc... Every time I tell myself "This is my final try", but when it ends with failure, I do it again after a few months break. But the more I try e-dating, the more I feel like I'm the only actual human on the Internet, and that it's a simulation program created in the sole purpose of making me go crazy ☠ Of course, I'm exageratting a little bit, but it's just so difficult to find a person that feels human... Everyone reples to messages with two words, doesn't ask any questions, doesn't show emotions and then they randomly ghost you and you keep wondering if you said something harmful for the next few weeks - or at least I do, lol

I know, I know, I started from the end and this whole post is very chaotic. Sorry, I have ADHD + I'm a little bit mad, please bear with me 🧸 My name is Kuba by the way. I'm a very emotional, soft and delicate person, who feels like crying when I drop ice cream on the street. You could probably call me "golden retriever type" or "loyal knight type". At the same time though, I'm a cold analyst who seeks logical connections everywhere possible and I've learned to endure A LOT (so I won't cry when I drop the ice cream on the street, even though I feel like it) and I am kinda obsessed with being independent too. So yeah, even though I'm like a very fragile puppy who thrives love and attention, I'm also a hard-boiled egg who keeps moving forward no matter what. It makes me a bit of a walking paradox 😅 But hey, who said all the bottoms need to be weak and helpless? Oh, yes, if you couldn't guess, I'm a 100% bottom. Even though I somehow manage to live on my own, I thrive to find a big spoon for myself, someone who likes to wear the pants and hold the steers, while I support them in 101 different ways and make sure they have everything necessary for their role. Do you know Eren Jaeger from the Attack on Titan anime? He's one of my very biggest kinnies hahah~

Oh, and since I mentioned anime, I guess it's time to share my interests. So yeah, the core of my person is nerdship (is there a word like that? 🤔), animanga, gaming and other forms of fiction are my biggest passions I spend most of my time on! However, I have tons of interests and hobbies I dive into depending on my mood. I love various forms of art, including drawing in sand, artistic photography and cosplay. The intellectual and humanistic part of me loves psychology, criminology, history, philosophy, broadly understood culture, debunking mysteries and conspiracy theories and much more! I also like sport, especially boxing (I never step into the ring, I just use a punching bag). Although recently, the "sport" I do the most is cleaning my city from trash! I can burn calories, while being useful to the society at the same time hahah~ My big passion I wanted to safe for the end is writing books. I have a huge problem reading anything, because of my ADHD, but I LOVE writing and am pretty good at it, based on the reviews of my works hahah~ I dream of becoming a famous novelist in the future, one whose works will change the world for better!

Okay, I think this post is long enough, thanks for reading 😇 If you have any questions, feel free to ask them! Oh, and if you intend to text me, please start your message with "Ciao" so that I know you read the whole post properly!

🌻

PS: Here are some of my favourite media, to help you break the ice:

Games 🎮 - Danganronpa (<3 <3 <3), Don't Starve, Vampyr, Hard West, Might and Magic, Ib, Witcher, most of the Zeldas, Pokemon, Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing, and some lost retro titles

Animanga 🇯🇵 - Overlord, Dragon Ball, Naruto, Aku no Hana, Shiki, Monogatari, Shingeki no Kyojin, MadoMagi, Zom 100, Non Non Biyori, KumoDesu, Vampire Hunter D and tons of others

Movies and shows 🎥 - (old) Planet of the Apes, Twelve Monkeys, Taxi Driver, Falling Down, Emancipation, Spartacus, Utopia and a lot of Polish media that probably do not have an English version

Okay, first a little explanation. I identify as genderlfluid, but I was born as a boy and I'm a boy for 90% of the time. I'm being a girl more or less one or two days a month. So, for convenience sake, you can treat me simply as a regular boy for the time being. Now back to the actual post...

I cannot count how many times I've made these posts, not to mention all the dating apps etc... Every time I tell myself "This is my final try", but when it ends with failure, I do it again after a few months break. But the more I try e-dating, the more I feel like I'm the only actual human on the Internet, and that it's a simulation program created in the sole purpose of making me go crazy ☠ Of course, I'm exageratting a little bit, but it's just so difficult to find a person that feels human... Everyone reples to messages with two words, doesn't ask any questions, doesn't show emotions and then they randomly ghost you and you keep wondering if you said something harmful for the next few weeks - or at least I do, lol

I know, I know, I started from the end and this whole post is very chaotic. Sorry, I have ADHD + I'm a little bit mad, please bear with me 🧸 My name is Kuba by the way. I'm a very emotional, soft and delicate person, who feels like crying when I drop ice cream on the street. You could probably call me "golden retriever type" or "loyal knight type". At the same time though, I'm a cold analyst who seeks logical connections everywhere possible and I've learned to endure A LOT (so I won't cry when I drop the ice cream on the street, even though I feel like it) and I am kinda obsessed with being independent too. So yeah, even though I'm like a very fragile puppy who thrives love and attention, I'm also a hard-boiled egg who keeps moving forward no matter what. It makes me a bit of a walking paradox 😅 But hey, who said all the bottoms need to be weak and helpless? Oh, yes, if you couldn't guess, I'm a 100% bottom. Even though I somehow manage to live on my own, I thrive to find a big spoon for myself, someone who likes to wear the pants and hold the steers, while I support them in 101 different ways and make sure they have everything necessary for their role. Do you know Eren Jaeger from the Attack on Titan anime? He's one of my very biggest kinnies hahah~

Oh, and since I mentioned anime, I guess it's time to share my interests. So yeah, the core of my person is nerdship (is there a word like that? 🤔), animanga, gaming and other forms of fiction are my biggest passions I spend most of my time on! However, I have tons of interests and hobbies I dive into depending on my mood. I love various forms of art, including drawing in sand, artistic photography and cosplay. The intellectual and humanistic part of me loves psychology, criminology, history, philosophy, broadly understood culture, debunking mysteries and conspiracy theories and much more! I also like sport, especially boxing (I never step into the ring, I just use a punching bag). Although recently, the "sport" I do the most is cleaning my city from trash! I can burn calories, while being useful to the society at the same time hahah~ My big passion I wanted to safe for the end is writing books. I have a huge problem reading anything, because of my ADHD, but I LOVE writing and am pretty good at it, based on the reviews of my works hahah~ I dream of becoming a famous novelist in the future, one whose works will change the world for better!

Okay, I think this post is long enough, thanks for reading 😇 If you have any questions, feel free to ask them! Oh, and if you intend to text me, please start your message with "Ciao" so that I know you read the whole post properly!

🌻

PS: Here are some of my favourite media, to help you break the ice:

Games 🎮 - Danganronpa (<3 <3 <3), Don't Starve, Vampyr, Hard West, Might and Magic, Ib, Witcher, most of the Zeldas, Pokemon, Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing, and some lost retro titles

Animanga 🇯🇵 - Overlord, Dragon Ball, Naruto, Aku no Hana, Shiki, Monogatari, Shingeki no Kyojin, MadoMagi, Zom 100, Non Non Biyori, KumoDesu, Vampire Hunter D and tons of others

Movies and shows 🎥 - (old) Planet of the Apes, Twelve Monkeys, Taxi Driver, Falling Down, Emancipation, Spartacus, Utopia and a lot of Polish media that probably do not have an English version

Okay, first a little explanation. I identify as genderlfluid, but I was born as a boy and I'm a boy for 90% of the time. I'm being a girl more or less one or two days a month. So, for convenience sake, you can treat me simply as a regular boy for the time being. Now back to the actual post...

I cannot count how many times I've made these posts, not to mention all the dating apps etc... Every time I tell myself "This is my final try", but when it ends with failure, I do it again after a few months break. But the more I try e-dating, the more I feel like I'm the only actual human on the Internet, and that it's a simulation program created in the sole purpose of making me go crazy ☠ Of course, I'm exageratting a little bit, but it's just so difficult to find a person that feels human... Everyone reples to messages with two words, doesn't ask any questions, doesn't show emotions and then they randomly ghost you and you keep wondering if you said something harmful for the next few weeks - or at least I do, lol

I know, I know, I started from the end and this whole post is very chaotic. Sorry, I have ADHD + I'm a little bit mad, please bear with me 🧸 My name is Kuba by the way. I'm a very emotional, soft and delicate person, who feels like crying when I drop ice cream on the street. You could probably call me "golden retriever type" or "loyal knight type". At the same time though, I'm a cold analyst who seeks logical connections everywhere possible and I've learned to endure A LOT (so I won't cry when I drop the ice cream on the street, even though I feel like it) and I am kinda obsessed with being independent too. So yeah, even though I'm like a very fragile rabbit who thrives love and attention, I'm also a hard-boiled egg who keeps moving forward no matter what. It makes me a bit of a walking paradox 😅 But hey, who said all the bottoms need to be weak and helpless? Oh, yes, if you couldn't guess, I'm a 100% bottom. Even though I somehow manage to live on my own, I thrive to find a big spoon for myself, someone who likes to wear the pants and hold the steers, while I support them in 101 different ways and make sure they have everything necessary for their role. Do you know Eren Jaeger from the Attack on Titan anime? He's one of my very biggest kinnies hahah~

Oh, and since I mentioned anime, I guess it's time to share my interests. So yeah, the core of my person is nerdship (is there a word like that? 🤔), animanga, gaming and other forms of fiction are my biggest passions I spend most of my time on! However, I have tons of interests and hobbies I dive into depending on my mood. I love various forms of art, including drawing in sand, artistic photography and cosplay. The intellectual and humanistic part of me loves psychology, criminology, history, philosophy, broadly understood culture, debunking mysteries and conspiracy theories and much more! I also like sport, especially boxing (I never step into the ring, I just use a punching bag). Although recently, the "sport" I do the most is cleaning my city from trash! I can burn calories, while being useful to the society at the same time hahah~ My big passion I wanted to safe for the end is writing books. I have a huge problem reading anything, because of my ADHD, but I LOVE writing and am pretty good at it, based on the reviews of my works hahah~ I dream of becoming a famous novelist in the future, one whose works will change the world for better!

Okay, I think this post is long enough, thanks for reading 😇 If you have any questions, feel free to ask them! Oh, and if you intend to text me, please start your message with "Ciao" so that I know you read the whole post properly!

🌻

PS: Here are some of my favourite media, to help you break the ice:

Games 🎮 - Danganronpa (<3 <3 <3), Don't Starve, Vampyr, Hard West, Might and Magic, Ib, Witcher, most of the Zeldas, Pokemon, Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing, and some lost retro titles

Animanga 🇯🇵 - Overlord, Dragon Ball, Naruto, Aku no Hana, Shiki, Monogatari, Shingeki no Kyojin, MadoMagi, Zom 100, Non Non Biyori, KumoDesu, Vampire Hunter D and tons of others

Movies and shows 🎥 - (old) Planet of the Apes, Twelve Monkeys, Taxi Driver, Falling Down, Emancipation, Spartacus, Utopia and a lot of Polish media that probably do not have an English version

Okay, first a little explanation. I identify as genderlfluid, but I was born as a boy and I'm a boy for 90% of the time. I'm being a girl more or less one or two days a month. So, for convenience sake, you can treat me simply as a regular boy for the time being. Now back to the actual post...

I cannot count how many times I've made these posts, not to mention all the dating apps etc... Every time I tell myself "This is my final try", but when it ends with failure, I do it again after a few months break. But the more I try e-dating, the more I feel like I'm the only actual human on the Internet, and that it's a simulation program created in the sole purpose of making me go crazy ☠ Of course, I'm exageratting a little bit, but it's just so difficult to find a person that feels human... Everyone reples to messages with two words, doesn't ask any questions, doesn't show emotions and then they randomly ghost you and you keep wondering if you said something harmful for the next few weeks - or at least I do, lol

I know, I know, I started from the end and this whole post is very chaotic. Sorry, I have ADHD + I'm a little bit mad, please bear with me 🧸 My name is Kuba by the way. I'm a very emotional, soft and delicate person, who feels like crying when I drop ice cream on the street. You could probably call me "golden retriever type" or "loyal knight type". At the same time though, I'm a cold analyst who seeks logical connections everywhere possible and I've learned to endure A LOT (so I won't cry when I drop the ice cream on the street, even though I feel like it) and I am kinda obsessed with being independent too. So yeah, even though I'm like a very fragile puppy who thrives love and attention, I'm also a hard-boiled egg who keeps moving forward no matter what. It makes me a bit of a walking paradox 😅 But hey, who said all the bottoms need to be weak and helpless? Oh, yes, if you couldn't guess, I'm a 100% bottom. Even though I somehow manage to live on my own, I thrive to find a big spoon for myself, someone who likes to wear the pants and hold the steers, while I support them in 101 different ways and make sure they have everything necessary for their role. Do you know Eren Jaeger from the Attack on Titan anime? He's one of my very biggest kinnies hahah~

Oh, and since I mentioned anime, I guess it's time to share my interests. So yeah, the core of my person is nerdship (is there a word like that? 🤔), animanga, gaming and other forms of fiction are my biggest passions I spend most of my time on! However, I have tons of interests and hobbies I dive into depending on my mood. I love various forms of art, including drawing in sand, artistic photography and cosplay. The intellectual and humanistic part of me loves psychology, criminology, history, philosophy, broadly understood culture, debunking mysteries and conspiracy theories and much more! I also like sport, especially boxing (I never step into the ring, I just use a punching bag). Although recently, the "sport" I do the most is cleaning my city from trash! I can burn calories, while being useful to the society at the same time hahah~ My big passion I wanted to safe for the end is writing books. I have a huge problem reading anything, because of my ADHD, but I LOVE writing and am pretty good at it, based on the reviews of my works hahah~ I dream of becoming a famous novelist in the future, one whose works will change the world for better!

Okay, I think this post is long enough, thanks for reading 😇 If you have any questions, feel free to ask them! Oh, and if you intend to text me, please start your message with "Ciao" so that I know you read the whole post properly!

🌻

PS: Here are some of my favourite media, to help you break the ice:

Games 🎮 - Danganronpa (<3 <3 <3), Don't Starve, Vampyr, Hard West, Might and Magic, Ib, Witcher, most of the Zeldas, Pokemon, Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing, and some lost retro titles

Animanga 🇯🇵 - Overlord, Dragon Ball, Naruto, Aku no Hana, Shiki, Monogatari, Shingeki no Kyojin, MadoMagi, Zom 100, Non Non Biyori, KumoDesu, Vampire Hunter D and tons of others

Movies and shows 🎥 - (old) Planet of the Apes, Twelve Monkeys, Taxi Driver, Falling Down, Emancipation, Spartacus, Utopia and a lot of Polish media that probably do not have an English version

It hit me a few days ago. Since in UDG >!ghosts are confirmed to exist within the series!< it wouldn't be weird for one of the deceased characters to appear in this form somewhere along the series. I don't even mean 2X2 >!'cuz it's a game!< unless we're talking about the epilogue, but if for example, we ever got a DR4 or a spin-off book titled, for example, "Teruteru and Pekoyama's sweet-bitter jungle trip", and within the story a ghost of one of the dead characters appeared, would you like it? Of course, assuming the scene would be well-written and without any scandalic moments. Personally I think I would, but only if it didn't go completely sci-fi. Like, no going through the walls and flying, no having a tail instead of legs, no superpowers etc. It just wouldn't suit Danganronpa, since it always balances on the thin line between realism and non-realism, without ever crossing it. It makes you go "Is it really possible?" instead of "Okay, this is pure sci-fi". So the ghost would either have to be no different from a real person and simply disappear at some point or just possess someone. That said, the person I think would fit into the role the most would be >!Mukuro!< considering how they died so suddenly, how they probably had tons of regrets/unsureness when dying, and how they barely got any screen-time in the series despite being such important character.

Mam coś takiego od wielu lat i nie potrafię się tego pozbyć, mimo że bardzo bym chciał. Kiedy spędzam cały dzień na takich rzeczach jak reddit, sufitowanie, dzwonienie i pisanie z ludźmi, czy inny brainrot - bo na przykład jestem zmęczony albo psycha spadła z rowerka - to bardzo ostro się za to krytykuję, wściekam i mieszam samego siebie z błotem, nawet kiedy dzień spędzony w ten sposób był bardzo przyjemny. Nie tylko dlatego, że marnuję czas i że nie robię tego co bym chciał, ale też (wsm powiedziałbym że przede wszystkim) mimowolnie rozmyślam o tym, że przy takim stylu życia bardzo trudno o tematy do rozmów z innymi i nie ma szans na jakieś głębsze przyjaźnie, czy znalezienie drugiej połowy. Już nie mówiąc o wyobrażaniu sobie tego, jak za 50 lat opowiadam wnukom o swojej młodości xd No i ja wiem, że takie nudne dni są każdemu potrzebne, że to nie moja wina jeśli nie mam siły albo źle się czuję, ale mimo to nie potrafię przestać jeżdżenia po sobie za spędzanie tak wolnego czasu.

W tym tygodniu zacząłem pracę przy robieniu posadzek, no i patrząc na warunki, boję się że po pracy w 90% dni nie będę mieć czasu i energii na cokolwiek wartościowego ; P Zwłaszcza, że mam ADHD i nie dość, że przez to mocne problemy z zasobami energii, to jeszcze wolny czas ucieka mi przez palce. Stąd właśnie ten post. Zastanawiam się, czy ktoś ma podobnie, czy jestem w tym sam?