Midlife crisis in full effect. For those that been there, how does this end?
I'm 38 years old. From June to September I've spent 30k on sugarbaby and strip clubs, liquor, etc.
I'm not going to lie..... I am having a blast.
But this is not sustainable. I'm scared to go back to regular life. (Work, sleep, eat, shoot basketball, build computers, go to restaurants, play video games, watch movies) in endless loop.
I don't know what to do. I have no children or wife.
In the past my goal was to be debt free, have savings and chase retirement.
I have accomplished two out of the three. But chasing "retirement' and praying to the gods of S&P 500 (useless numbers on a screen that may or may not keep going up). in order to finally relax at 60 years old is totally unappealing and doesn't give me the proper motivation to continue grinding forever.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to convey here. Just ranting at the clouds. Thanks for reading