u/Hour_Fix_1289

Just hit 50 days not really tracking day by day but will again at 75 then stop tracking officially at 100. I’ve been feeling so tired during the day and moods up and down some days is this normal? I was addicted for 10 years I decided to be a better man and a normal human being. I also suffer from PIED and I’m tired of that. My morning wood is back and my erections are a little better but not fully firm yet. Is this a flatline? If so when does it end lol I’m just going through it taking it day by day and staying occupied.

Just hit 50 days porn and masturbation free for the first time ever praise God. I dont track day to day 50 is significant and a huge step towards self control I intend to stop tracking entirely once I hit 100 days but I’ll check back at 75. I will not claim to have defeated lust as that can be the start of my downfall but I’ve been winning the battle. The pinnacle of change came when I genuinely decided deep down I wanted to be a new and better man and truly realized this has no value at all it brings u down if anything. I want to be the best version of myself in this one life i have and that version does not include porn or masturbation. Oddly enough I haven’t been reading my Bible or praying too much but I intend to get back into that. I sort of just talk to Jesus Christ out loud or in my head not saying he responds back though lol. What I do is flee at the first sign of any lust and remind myself nothing good will come of this I’ll just be weaker. I got into exercising at home and going for walks as well. The most important is as I sleep I close my eyes and repeat “God loves me” I repeat it till I fall asleep in my mind. I force myself to accept it as truth mind,body,spirit because if no one loves you but God you have enough. It was hard at first but in the word it says the same and the word is the truth. Days progressed I started feelings tingles in my mind,body, and spirit/chest every time I’d say it like my soul and body was acknowledging it as truth and since I have unending love from the creator God he fills the void. I do this almost every night especially on days I feel extra tempted. It has gotten easier to avoid as I progress through the days. I will continue to flee may you all do the same God bless you.

I’ve always had this issue which is when I like a woman It’s like my body relies on her for a source of dopamine. A text will instantly bring dopamine in my mind but if she doesn’t text or talk to me for a few hours I feel a little down mentally and feel it in my stomach ish. I have to literally distract myself from the feeling so I don’t think about the person. The only time this doesn’t happen is when I’m talking to multiple women. Is there a name for this or any way to fix this?

I’m wondering if I’m on a flatline? I choked the chicken for 10 years and I finally decided to stop (age 25). Since around day 22 I get so tired for no reason during the day coupled with brain fog and like a sensation in my head or brain not a headache exactly but a sensation. It’s hard to sleep also at night as well at a proper time. I haven’t been exercising as I had surgery so I can’t physically put my energy towards that like I could at the start but could this be a flatline or just too much energy in my body? I don’t count the days but on day 35 currently just for reference purposes.

Lads for the first time in my life I’ve gone a month without releasing. It seems a bit sad 😂 but in the grand scheme of things Im improving my spirit & mentality. Truthfully what has helped me the most is repeating to myself as I fall asleep eyes closed “I’m Loved By God” continuously till I feel it in my body and soul till I believe it & eating healthier. This coupled with working out at home with the strong desire to change my path and be a proper strong man has brought me to my first month of completion. Sitting with these horny sensations and feelings also is key feel the energy feel the urge it’s human it’s ok or pray when they come. I remembered as a kid when I’d get horny I just would get horny and let it pass so I just repeated that as an adult. The cycle is also very pointless when you truly think about it & there is absolutely no benefit from releasing. I’m not saying I’ve defeated this beast that pride can easily lead to a relapse but I have no desire to watch another man with a woman it’s really crazy when you think about it even the solos 😂 a screen should not lead us down the path of destruction.

I’ve been abstaining & retaining and just now I had a wet dream is that a relapse? I swear it was like sex with not seeing the face of the entity & I think it’s a demon honestly because what else? Not gonna relapse while awake but dang these succubus stay hungry for your life force it’s insane 🫩.

There was a girl I met a few years ago she was pretty funny,intelligent, and her attitude I liked it in a way lol. I never linked with her because I was nervous because she was very petty and rich (millionaire before 20) so I kept it to texting in truth I was afraid to be judged even though she found me very attractive. She asked me to spend time with her on Valentine’s Day and I somehow found a way to decline? LOL and another occasion to spend a weekend with her which idk didn’t work out cause of me. Us talking on/off went on for 2 years then one day her account disappeared I’d never asked for her # and now I think about her from time to time. At first it was constant now it’s less but the thought of her is still in my mind. I’ve tried to find her on ALL social medias even just googling her name to no avail. I don’t know why I think of her there’s been plenty of women I didn’t give the time of day to as I’m not fond of lust. She was very direct in her manner of speaking as well which I liked but I knew deep down it was not based of real love just lust or a good time. I would be nervous every single time her name would pop up on my phone but very excited at the same time to see it. I don’t know if I miss her or miss the opportunity of what life could’ve been had I been with her for awhile as she did have something for me but I wasn’t well attuned to listen at the time. It’s been on my mind so long I just needed somewhere to put this. I’m 25 rn this was when I was 20-22 she was 1 year older.

There was a girl I met a few years ago she was pretty funny,intelligent, and her attitude I liked it in a way lol. I never linked with her because I was nervous because she was very petty and rich (millionaire before 20) so I kept it to texting in truth I was afraid to be judged even though she found me very attractive. She asked me to spend time with her on Valentine’s Day and I somehow found a way to decline? LOL and another occasion to spend a weekend with her which idk didn’t work out cause of me. Us talking on/off went on for 2 years then one day her account disappeared I’d never asked for her # and now I think about her from time to time. At first it was constant now it’s less but the thought of her is still in my mind. I’ve tried to find her on ALL social medias even just googling her name to no avail. I don’t know why I think of her there’s been plenty of women I didn’t give the time of day to as I’m not fond of lust. She was very direct in her manner of speaking as well which I liked but I knew deep down it was not based of real love just lust or a good time. I would be nervous every single time her name would pop up on my phone but very excited at the same time to see it. I don’t know if I miss her or miss the opportunity of what life could’ve been had I been with her for awhile as she did have something for me but I wasn’t well attuned to listen at the time. It’s been on my mind so long I just needed somewhere to put this. I’m 25 rn this was when I was 20-22 she was 1 year older.

What I’ve recently been doing is telling myself laying in bed b4 I sleep eyes closed “I’m loved” repeatedly in my head like I’m speaking to my body. This works for me cause in truth my friends and family do love me so it’s easier to believe but I also think about how God/Jesus loves me as well and doesn’t want me to hurt myself.

Balding young & dealing with multiple bodily injuries and having surgery in about 3 weeks & currently unemployed as well right now. Honestly the balding as vain as it may seem is the worst thing to me. I don’t think anyone understands I almost literally would rather not have been born than to be balding my early 20s. Some days I tolerate it some days like today I just want to cease to exist. I went from very attractive and getting female attention easily online and in person to always wearing a hat or covering on my head in public & I hide from family friends when they come over in shame of my appearance even though I can’t control it. This then leads me to days of watching porn and jerking it further leading me down a deeper hole. I’ve tried to get closer to God and that worked for a while but somehow the self loathing always comes back when I sit and think too much mainly because of the balding. I tried some meds that gave me side pains 6 months in so I stopped but perhaps I should try again because I unknowingly had a stomach problem that might’ve been interacting with the pills causing the pain. I truly just wish I wasn’t bald.

Have you or do you communicate with God and he communicates or talks back? If so I’d love to hear how that works and how you reached that point. It’s very frustrating to be trying your hardest in your personal walk even when life has been going horrible in all ways for years and not seeing any results it almost makes u wanna harden your heart towards God or die.

When I started being intentional towards getting close to God 1 yr ago it was not “fun” but I enjoyed getting or knowing the creator and his word 📖. I think I was on the right path because a woman I met would say I “shine” and I didn’t understand what she meant till I heard about the “Jesus glow” or something. 1 year later I’m kind of tired of it all. I feel as though nothing externally has changed in my life but internally yes I can say I have but I still don’t know my path in life. Had a porn addiction I don’t view porn or jerk as much as before and I’m trying to go on 90 days minimum of semen retention in hopes of things changing (day 7). Currently I’ve let go of everything I’m fleeing lust every-time & I’m not stressing about my past or future but I’m not reading my Bible or praying either. Oddly enough on all my social media platforms even when I clear the history I end up seeing content about God and how I should stay the course, have faith, not falter to sin and such. Im also balding young & sometimes I accept my reality and others I wish I didn’t exist. I feel as though my prayers don’t get answered either im not trying to use God for my own desires but id be lying to say I don’t have desires I want him to help fulfill for me. Any advice on how to move through this would be greatly appreciated.

I had h pylori took the meds for 2 weeks and I didn’t go get retested but I believe I’m healed as all the symptoms went away it’s been about 3 months. I have noticed my stomach or gut is very sensitive now as heavy fiber sends me to the bathroom almost same day sometimes. If I eat fast food McDonald’s per se I feel horrible mentally and stomach wise after. My poops are still questionable but overall it’s consistently solid 95% the time now. If I drink too much soda I get entire body inflammation 2-3 days after it’s crazy I know because I had surgery on my knee and had no issues before but ever since h pylori sugar has a real effect on my body now. I hope these aren’t permanent and my gut biome just has to keep rebuilding itself. I try to eat real Greek yogurt and drink kefir. I’m African so we eat a lot of vegetables and healthy food in general but has anyone experienced this?

I’ve got a question for men who are creatives preferably those using their creativity to gain money. Have you tried semen retention or if you’ve ever had a fapping problem did that block your mind or your mental creative energy to come up with things?

Life has me feeling tired & dejected truly. Haven’t started a career, balding young is crippling my self image & confidence, no future plans, surgery again soon, no money, and the cherry on top Lust. I will say I try to stop lusting and get in my Bible and pray but maybe I’m focused on being perfect but I truly do not believe God hears me or even Jesus. I contemplated doing some crazy possible life ending sh*t maybe then he would intervene or send someone idk. I’m not lazy I have no direction and I can’t figure out how to move career/financial wise. My ONLY true desire the only thing I’ve been truly praying/asking for over 2 years is for God or Jesus to direct me on what to do money/career wise after I have that I can tolerate and whether any storm till I die. On TikTok I constantly see women saying how God or Jesus interacts with them in their daily life or hear him and it gets me extremely Sad & disappointed in him and myself. I’ve tried & tried & tried & tried & tried I give up and pick myself up and try to have faith or believe but right now it’s just different. I don’t even pray in the morning anymore I look at my Bible and just think “for what?”. Any advice would be helpful thank you.

I’m on day 23 or so and just last night a succubus tried to get my seed in a dream. I went for a walk 1 hour ago at 12 AM and a random old man spawned behind me. He asked to suck my meat. These type of things only happen when I start retaining its nuts. The old man some new crazy sht I asked 8x like “huh?” then he showed me what he meant with his hand I was like no way 😭. I walked away and he just stood in place watching me walk. His head kinda looked freak ish ngl but crazy stuff. Motivated me to keep retaining tbh. I went for the walk because I felt urges had to put that energy to use.