u/Noobnoobnoo

so im disabled and cant work and im home everyday and i used to just game all day but after a decade now suddenly i dont like it anymore and have no intrest to play games.. now im so bored idk what to do w my self.. everyone tells me to read a book but first of all im dyslexic and its just not enough.. gaming was kinda like work for me in a way that it took hooours sometimes the whole day so it made the time go by easily but now i just cant figure out what else could do that for me when i cant even workkk.

if anyones gone thru this pls give tell me what u did to not be so bored all the time..

so ive had this problem my entire life if i bring anything home like cookies, icecream, chips whatever it is ill eat it immidietly and i cant help my self. even if i rly try at the end of the day im like "but i already ate that much so it wouldnt make that much of a diffrence anymore" so i just eat it... but it would be nice to be able to have those things at home and eat them a little bit daily, so if anyone has fixed it plssss give me ur tips

anyone else on a similar situation?

all i ever wished was not to worry about money and have a home w a small yard so that i could go outside w out all the people there.. but its literally never possible bcuz of my disablity.. (not like even working people have that chance nowdays but i cant even dream of working and mby one day having it)

ive been doing the same things everyday for years, cant afford hobbies or trips or even rly a livable apartment, distractions that ive used for a better decade arent interesting anymore so all this just kind of come to the surface of how awful life is when u cant afford anything..

all the stables i check theres reviews or stories of them abusing animals like... all of em...

would think if they have horse riding they would love the animals but ig not...

i have this weird feeling like oh im just gona go on the back of the horse and remember everything and be just as good as i was before but thats most likely not going to happen lol. also ik ill be sore the day after bcuz i barely workout at all but what can i expect from the first lesson if anyone here took that long of a break aswell and has tips?

im going back to horse riding after a loong time, any tips on how to feel more comftrable, the tight clothes arent comftrable and i just hate the way they look and push my stomach, i ordered one of water proof horse riding pants that r more loose and idk if it looks rly silly to use those on a sunny day lol but anything else i can do clothing wise to feel more comftrable in my own body?

any tips (from anyone w a big stomach)

also my everyday pants r ALWAYS sweatpants so idk is there anything like those for riding?

everything seems so complicated and i cant find ANY recipies in my language so mby people will have super easy recipies here

why.. ive been on rocky ground w my n mom for like a week wanting to cut her off but cant for many reasons. i asked months ago for a simple gift.. a gift card to ikea or jysk or rusta (for decorations) months ago. this morning she bought a gift card for some online health store.. i never asked for nor have i ever shopped there and there is NOTHING FOR ME THERE. i was rly clear what i wanted and it was super easy and she couldnt get it but rather waste her money on smth i dont even want or need..but if im annoyed she will act like im ungrateful. she never rly has gotten wat i asked for like last as i asked for lego flower and i didnt get that and they sell those in like all the stores..

also im vegan keto THIS STORE HAS LITERALLY NOTHING FOR ME..

ive always given good gifts, thoughtful and expensive but now no more bcu what the fuck how hard is it to just give someone what they ask for its so simple it never happens..

edit:

HA MY DAD DIDNT EVEN GET THE GIFT I ASKED FOR. he said he will give cash.. i wont be able to use it ive told them many times it needs to be a gift card bcuz if its not its actually my money and i wont have the heart to use it bcuz IM POOR and have to save everything i can... cant believe this another year of not getting smth as simple as a gift card to ikea.. actually now that i think about it i dont remember getting a gift ive wanted since i was a lil kid.. like a tiny baby..

it's gotten worse over the years, ik ik if i dont go outside it just keeps going worse and exposure therapy and all but it feels impossible now, i used to be able to go outside for a walk now its impossible, i need to go get a package from a store thats 3 mins walking distance but the whole thing leaving my apartment then seeing people, crossing the road and then going inside and idk the place its all too much but i can go outside with people or a dog no problem.. i rly wana be able to go outside alone again and gain some independence even a little bit so any tips for this when its BASICALLY agoraphobia..

any fixes for this? i already tried turning off usb root hub " allow the computer to turn off this device to save power" but that didnt do anything and idk anything about pcs so idk how to fix this.

i reset my pc and this started happening but i do remember this used to not be a problem so im guessing its some recent windows update..

i was about to order from quest until i realized they dont deliver to europe (finland) and all the sites that ive found do deliver them they r ridiculously expensive. i rlyyyy love salty snacks and want to find one that tastes good and actually delivers here.

id even be open to easy recipies for making keto chips if anyone knows some (i dont eat meat)

ive had prediabetes for a few years and the first time i heard i had it i went rly low carb and lost alot of weight but ive been on and off from it multiple times and it hasnt made me lose weight and idrk if it has helped with my prediabetes anymore either so my question is how many carbs should we rly eat, ive limited mine to 50g a day but alot of places say dift things some say 20 some 100 some 200 so id like to hear what has worked for everyone here, to manage prediabetes and lose weight!