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my fuckass art teacher spent 2 WEEKS teaching us how to draw faces and shade and shit then gave us 3 DAYS to make 7 drawings of different parts of the face from OUR OWN FACE and schools out in a week. So my moms making me do that until I’m done (I literally can’t finish it in the 3 hours I have before bed) and I can’t do anything else.

shit like this is what makes me unmotivated to do art tbh. it’s why I HATE art classes.

AAHHHHHHH

A bit it context: I do speech (OO) he does debate (CX) but is doing OO next year. I have somehow been dubbed the school wide OO expert so my coach is making me help him next year as part of my grade.

WHY IS IT LIKE WATTPAD

I have like nothing to do over the summer so I thought I’d get into dream smp finally because a few friends of mine like it and said I would.

I’ve done a bit of research and, from what I’ve seen, it’s somewhat chaos. What is the single most efficient way to watch the entire story and consume/understand all the lore without losing my mind, if there is any?

So, I’ve known I was queer for like 3.5 (maybe 4?) years and it’s been a hellish experience to say the least.

But for the past almost year I’ve realized I am gay, asexual and agender male. I‘ve a girlfriend (theyre lesbian and we’re still friends) and a non-binary partner (did not end well). Neither of those were exactly fun for me. But fake dating my guy friend because people were shipping us and we were bored was. I’ve also had multiple male/male aligned crushes and feel most comfortable seeing myself in a relationship with a male.

But there’s this girl in my art class and we’ve been friends for a bit and I can’t tell if I’m attracted to her or just like being around her (autism).

I might just be overthinking this.

TW: su1cide, self h@rm, death, murder

The Boyd family consists of Xavier (the father), Alma (the mother), Cole, Carnelian, Ben, South, North, Tyler, Hayden, Alice, Miriam and Kira (the kids). Each child is a trained assassin with their preferred way of killing.

Xavier is the father with O- blood, not a single person in his bloodline has Aether. But he has figured out a way to control Aether bloods. The man who controls god is stronger than god.

Alma is Xavier’s wife, who’s always had a nicotine addiction, thinking it helps her Aetheric side effects. She has Ae- with the ability to see into the future but it drove her mad. Xavier shot her between the eye when North was 14.

Cole, the eldest with shadow magic that slowly consumed his ability to love as his Ae- blood slowly eats his heart. His preferred way of killing is sneaking shadow tendrils into their eyes and turning off their minds. 

Carnelian has superhuman agility, but Ae- makes her addicted to drawing blood. It doesn’t matter if it’s a target’s, her own or a stray dog’s. She will cut it open. Her and Cole helped raise the younger siblings.

Ben, was the 3rd eldest with the ability to craft magical items that needed a part of him (a bone, a tooth, blood) to work. He wasnt an assassin. Xavier shot him and his mother when he was 15 and Alma, in another one of her fits, saw that he would die.

North and South are twins. The most feared Boyd assassins in all of the world. South because she is methodical and heartless, North because he is crazy. South has the ability to see the dead, but everyone around her eventually joins them. Norths body is literally overflowing with Aether and it spills out of his body in telekinetic like ways. North killed Xavier when he was 18.

Tyler is the most distant of the siblings with the ability to puppet others minds. His preferred method of killing is a forced suicide. But that power slowly puppers his mind.

Hayden has beautiful, ivory wings, but to fly with them will tear his skin and breaks his bones. His preferred way of killing is filling people’s drinks with toxins. He works very closely with them Kijima family.

Alice has the ability to create electricity, but not control it. She fills people’s body with energy and overloads them till they die.

Miriam has a sonic scream that behaves similar to Theodore’s, yet it has made her deaf. She kills with that scream.

Kira is the youngest, practically a child, but has the ability to manipulate reality. But she slowly loses her place in reality.

The first boy, I asked him his perspective on queer people. He just sent some “I’m neutral”, “theyre steered off gods plan” bullshit we both know he didn’t believe. Then said I was cute. Then refused to talk to me after learning I was trans. Then asked ME to coach him in speech (were debate kids. he did a debate event). speech is also the GAYEST event. everyone knows that and jokes about it.

Second boy talks to me all the time. makes an effort to sit/stand next to me all the time. gave me a hug to congratulate me winning 1st at the state debate tournament. yet never makes a move.

Third CRIED when I gave my speech on religious trauma and using religion to justify abuse/homophobia to him and a group of people at a debate tournament. his friends dragged him over to me at the next tournament and said he thought I was hot. he then avoided me for the rest of the tournament. at state, he actually made an effort to talk to me but refused to talk about the speech.

im now tryna get boy 3’s number. he’s from a rival school though.

TW: S3xual a$$ault

First off, I’ve decided my 2nd pen name will be F. U. Caspian for 2 reasons. A, it’s hilarious; B, it’s a reference to a character.

Anyway, the titles of all the stories. They are (in order): Time Is The Only Debt We Pay, If Death Were The Only Option, The Feast of Gods, The Cannibal and The General, The House of Dolphins & Monsters, The Bleeding Acrobat and Rotting Angels Don’t Get Graves.

Time Is The Only Debt We Pay is mainly focused on the Boyd family and how North tore the family apart because he viewed South as a threat to the Echelon company (and family). This book is mainly focused on South and the Boyd assassination company/family.

If Death Were The Only Option has 2 main focuses. The beginning is focused on North’s childhood and the abuse he suffered from his father. The second half is focused on North and his husband (no, they are not officially married), Alexis Echelon, who is the man in charge of the Echelon company. A major aspect of this book is the chrysalis project which is (to summarize) a medical procedure that uses Aether to reprogram your personality and memories to make you a new person.

The Feast of Gods is a “back in history” kind of story that shows what happened when Pentekos killed his family. The olympians gathered for their 1,000 year feast. Tired of the familial abuse and neglect, Pentekos (god of carnage and consumption), killed off his family members, each in a different way depending on their flaws.

The Cannibal and The General is focused Theodore’s story on the aftermath of the Glitch and the first time Pentekos and Theodore met. They were at a feast thousands of years after the other Olympians died and other gods were created to replace them. Halo (god of Heaven) brought his prized angel, Theodore, to display at the feast. Theodore’s scream was the most beautiful thing Pentekos had ever heard. A pain to mirror his own. And then the first sin entered the heart of a holy being. Pride. So Theodore was cast down from Heaven.

The House of Dolphins & Monsters is focused on the journey of Theodore and Pentekos after their first meeting. While Theo was cast down from Heaven and into the clutches of Sorla (goddess of desire) who r4ped and abused him for 4 years, claiming that “angels are tools of gods, you should be grateful”. Pentekos was stripped of his godhood and turned into a forever hungry monster. After thousands of years of pain and death, in the glitch, their souls found each other again.

The Bleeding Acrobat is focused on the aftermath of the glitch and the cults that form because of it, along with the Institute of Shattered Realms, a safe haven dedicated to protecting those who could easily be indoctrinated into cults. None of them are saviors, for all the saviors are dead in this world. Theo and Pentekos aren’t the main focus of this one, instead, it focuses on different individuals. Specifically Cynthia, a glitched human with the ability to speak to Aether—because the “element” is alive.

Rotting Angels Don’t Get Graves is focused on Cynthia, Pentekos and Theo and the war that has broken out among the cults and the Institute. A war that kills Pentekos and Cynthia. Theo is broken. Angels rot like living corpses when the god owning (or in this case, loving) them dies. Theo feels nothing now. So he kills them all and burns their worlds to the ground. The cults, the Institute, Sorla, the loom—all of it. And then, standing on the crumbling burning balcony of Sorla’s mansion, his broken, maggot filled wings catch fire. And he lets himself burn.

TitODWP and IDWtOO are both made to be longer and more crime thriller/dark romance vibes. (North and Alexis are kinda mafia boss romance. Sorry!) 

TFoG, TCaTG, THoDaM, TBA and RADGG are supposed to be shorter and much more visual based.

Visually, the first 2 are going to be a lot more like Six of Crows, OPLA, Umbrella Academy, stuff like that. The rest are going to be a lot more Arcane, CRK, EPIC: The Musical kinda style (dark plots included)

So basically, I’m writing 2 wildly different series’s under 2 pen names: A. E. Caspian (might change) and Arlo L. Riot.

The books under Arlo L. Riot are mostly novellas/short novels about real issues in the world. These are the ones I’m working on the most but don’t have much lore because they are realistic fictions. 

They are: I Hope You Hate Me, What Remains, What Feeds You and an unnamed novella about a 2nd American civil war.

The ones under A. E. Caspian. are all centered around an element called Aether (Ae) which is basically a glitch in reality that shouldn’t exist.

The first half is centered around 3 crime families who use Aether to basically run the world from behind the scenes. They work for NATO, they control voting, they control the drug economy and they kill (or worse…) whoever gets in their way.

The families are the Boyd family, the Kijima family and the Echelon family. The Boyd family are assassins with corrupted Aether blood (Ae- blood type). The Echelon family have found a way to use Aether to manipulate personalities and memories, they have clean Aether blood (Ae+ blood type). The Kijimas are drug masters who’ve mastered the ability to change Aetheric blood type using specialized drugs; their blood type shifts.

Because the human mind can’t comprehend Aether, it manifests as abilities in people with Aether blood. Ae+ is precise, accurate and addicting to use. Ae- is violent, unpredictable and painful to use. Both kill the user slowly.

The second half is focused on what happens when the families tear reality using Aether. Most of them were killed by 2 Boyd kids (North and South) or in the accident now known as The Glitch.

The Glitch was caused by an overload of Aether, effectively caving in reality so heaven, hell, the loom (where gods live), the forest (home of forest spirits) and the void collided together like a glitching PC game from the 2010s.

This half is the less developed plot-wise but more development lore-wise part but it’s basically about a cannibalistic god, a screaming angel and 3 cults. 

Ive been looking into turning this world into a webcomic or animation but thats super expensive and/or taxing so it’s just a concept living in my head, notes app and spodify.

Ask me anything and I’ll answer (I love yapping about my fictional worlds)

I am 5’5”…..

The average for woman in my area is 5’4.7”. The average for a man is 5’10.6”

My estimated adult height is 5’5.5”

And yes, I am AFAB but still. WHY AM I SO SHORT!!!

They tell us we’re the future, yet we’re living in the present. 

What makes you angry? 

What gives you hope? 

I am looking for your opinions about the state of the world today to add to an anthology titled Raise Hell. 

It’s time to be heard.

What I'm looking for:

This anthology is for teen voices, moreover you must be within the range of 13-19 years old to submit a work.

Prose - Essays or short stories that make people want to act

Poetry - Poems that show reality, no matter how painful

Speeches - Whether written for a debate class or a rally, let your opinions be heard

Comics - 1-8 pages of storytelling capturing world issues 

Art - Standalone illustrations, photography, or digital art that serves as a visual advocate for change.

Stay on theme:

Your work must center on a specific world issue. Be bold, be specific, and be authentic.

To submit a work, fill out this form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSefaX363Rn0t7wXM60ZLDxdbqKofW3Ng4dBxkswnHhcUmrm1g/viewform?usp=dialog

They tell us we’re the future, yet we’re living in the present. 

What makes you angry? 

What gives you hope? 

I am looking for your opinions about the state of the world today to add to an anthology titled Raise Hell. 

It’s time to be heard.

What I'm looking for:

This anthology is for teen voices, moreover you must be within the range of 13-19 years old to submit a work.

Prose - Essays or short stories that make people want to act

Poetry - Poems that show reality, no matter how painful

Speeches - Whether written for a debate class or a rally, let your opinions be heard

Comics - 1-8 pages of storytelling capturing world issues 

Art - Standalone illustrations, photography, or digital art that serves as a visual advocate for change.

Stay on theme:

Your work must center on a specific world issue. Be bold, be specific, and be authentic.

To submit a work, fill out this form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSefaX363Rn0t7wXM60ZLDxdbqKofW3Ng4dBxkswnHhcUmrm1g/viewform?usp=dialog

Lets speak up for the change we want to see.

They tell us we’re the future, yet we’re living in the present. 

What makes you angry? 

What gives you hope? 

I am looking for your opinions about the state of the world today to add to an anthology titled Raise Hell. 

It’s time to be heard.

What I'm looking for:

This anthology is for teen voices, moreover you must be within the range of 13-19 years old to submit a work.

Prose - Essays or short stories that make people want to act

Poetry - Poems that show reality, no matter how painful

Speeches - Whether written for a debate class or a rally, let your opinions be heard

Comics - 1-8 pages of storytelling capturing world issues 

Art - Standalone illustrations, photography, or digital art that serves as a visual advocate for change.

Stay on theme:

Your work must center on a specific world issue. Be bold, be specific, and be authentic.

To submit a work, fill out this form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSefaX363Rn0t7wXM60ZLDxdbqKofW3Ng4dBxkswnHhcUmrm1g/viewform?usp=dialog

Lets speak up for the change we want to see.