u/OkPotential3282

For anyone who has any experience with being In one or maybe if you are knowledgeable in this area, I'd appreciate any help you can give.

Currently I'm extremely depressed and suicidal, and to be honest it's got the point where it's making me physically tired.

I can't see myself being able to work anytime soon, I've been completely burnt out of life essentially. Most likely due to my CPTSD and Autism. I just can't keep up, me trying to compete and catching up to other people isn't realistic anymore, I can't work these rubbish jobs while being suicidal. It's living hell.

I feel like I want to escape from where I am and just go somewhere, I need a new environment . I was thinking maybe a mental hospital might help with me just resetting, maybe making friends, and getting the help I need.

Unfortunately these hospitals don't have the best reputations from what I've read. Some are ok and some are awful. So I'm wondering if anyone has any advice?

I'm 25M and unfortunately still a virgin, I'm sure I also have autism but it's not official yet.

However I can't ever address the issue because I can't ever talk to women, I don't make eye contact with them, I can't ever speak to them but if I'm forced to it's always some nice guy conversation and it can never be anything else. I have no idea how to flirt or be romantic with women ever. Just the thought of speaking to a woman in hopes of getting her number gives me a borderline panic attack.

It's really starting to mess with me mentally, I now go to sleep basically crying everyday, listening to music to ignore the suicidal thoughts.

I know the only way to address the issue is to interact with women and improve but I can't no matter what , and if I do, but end up getting rejected, I hold on to that rejection and just give up, it's like my brain is programmed to be alone forever. I don't want to be 30 and still in the same boat. But I have no idea what to do.

I see videos of guys having fun, having women over, partying and enjoying and making memories and I'm 25 rotting away and it's killing me, I have no more hope. I want to live life and do things and have fun with women, and the thought of that kills me because I can't experience it. It's mental torture 24/7 and I can't ignore it anymore.

Each day that passes I come closer to killing myself. I don't want to keep carrying this pain of everything I missed out on. The day I was born I never stood a chance. I've tried to be "happy alone" and it doesn't work, it sucks even therapy never works. I just feel like I'm cursed. I just want to be able to be normal and have sex but it kills me that my life is like this.

I tried opening up to my mother about my autism and how much it's affecting me, but instead of listening, she went on a religious tangent about how autism is caused by the devil and that if I just changed my diet, I'd be fine.

Having a mother who always believes she's right is incredibly frustrating. She never had any formal education in her home country, yet she's convinced she knows better than everyone else. Whenever I try to talk to her about anything serious, she either repeats something she saw on YouTube or tells me, "Just pray," or, "We'll all die someday, so there's no reason to be suicidal." It makes me feel completely dismissed and unheard.

I'm finding it harder and harder to be around her. Growing up with someone who refuses to question her own beliefs has left me feeling angry and emotionally exhausted. She always assumes she's right, no matter what evidence or professional advice says, which just leads to me directing my anger and frustration towards her.

I also can't help wondering whether my autism was influenced by complications during her pregnancy. From what I understand, certain maternal health issues during pregnancy can increase the likelihood of autism, I struggle with the feeling that I've inherited both health problems and emotional trauma, she didn't bother addressing any health issues before having me, so unfortunately The stress and other issues were pushed down to me.

What scares me most is the thought of becoming like her. I wish I'd been born into a different family. She's extremely emotionally immature to me, almost as though she never fully grew up, even physically she's very frail and small, like a child mentally and physically and I feel guilty thinking like that, she's the perfect description of a woman child. I feel guilty but I'm sick of her.

She's so convinced that she's always right that meaningful conversations feel impossible. It's painful to feel like the person who was supposed to support and understand me instead leaves me feeling invalidated.

(25M) My life is getting worse and worse and i can't take it anymore. Completely alone and i just don't care anymore. I work a terrible job that kills me everyday and it's impossible to find anything else and even if i did, the depression just follows me everywhere. Even the way i act is like a man child, i have a pathetic feminine weak voice, underdeveloped, Like I'm mentally and physically still some child. I'm starting to become more aware of it.

I also have ADHD ,Autism, OCD, Diabetes, Crippling depression, and the thing that really hurts the most is being invisible to women, looking at the mirror gives me anxiety, being ugly, I just can't live this painful existence. I want to kill myself but the idea scares me, just disappearing forever terrifies me but death seems like the better option right now. I'm 25 now and there's no way i can cope being like this in my 30s.

All this suffering is just too much, It's almost as if the stress and depression is making my physical health worse, My autism seems to be getting worse, My walking has become worse, social anxiety is even worse.

I am truly cursed. I just wish suicide didn't scare me so i can get it done with.

It's a long post so I appreciate whoever reads it.

I've had many jobs, no matter what I do, within 2-3 months, I get let go or I crash out. It's embarrassing every time I think about it. Now that I've looked into it, I'm pretty sure it's ADHD/autism from what others have told and from the symptoms ,not diagnosed yet but idk if it'll make a difference.

Whenever I start a new job, it takes forever to learn and remember what to do, it's those first weeks when the manager is understanding that you're still new and doesn't expect you to know everything. But when you pass your probation and you're still asking about basic instructions and where things are and forgetting stuff, they start to get sick of you. I remember things like when I worked in greggs and someone would tell me their coffee order and by the time I grab the cup and start, I need to ask them again what it was, they'd just look at you like you're stupid.

It's like when people get to know me and realise I'm weak or something, maybe it's the autism and mannerism or just how I naturally conduct myself, they just put more pressure on me and just start getting on to me when I make mistakes, I come off way too awkward and weak.

I don't wanna be on universal credit again, that shit is depressing and they always give me the lowest amount and being a NEET at my age makes me borderline suicidal. It's like my brain isn't meant for society, for this life. It's like being an adult is max difficulty, I'm still somehow in my current job even though I got a warning for not keeping up. But rn I'm trying to save up for a car to maybe do delivery but hopefully I can stay long enough to save up.

Maybe it's also arrested development, abusive parents really messed up my development, secondary school kinda protected me from it, I was forced to socialise, was into sports, had friends, but after secondary it all went shit. No idea ngl. Might just end it, cause I'm scared to end up like this forever, feel like the biggest bum man, can't take this shit anymore

It's getting harder and harder, the self motivation stuff just isn't going to work anymore. The more time passes it's like it's harder to lie to myself. Suicidal thoughts is something I just can't avoid anymore.

I hate posting about things like this, because realistically nobody can really change it and people have their own lives to focus on so I don't expect people to come out of nowhere and help but it helps to understand if others are feeling the same way.

I just don't think I'm built for life. I don't think I was supposed to be born. Part me of me just wishes suicide didn't scare me so I can do it quickly and it hurts more when you realise the "don't kill yourself" help videos don't help anymore.

No matter what after a few months I always get "the talk" from a manger or HR. Whenever I start a new job I'm always slow, can't ever keep up, I make too many mistakes, always in my head, i was saving up to get a car and be self employed so it's better but now I don't think I'm gonna be able to stay along to save up enough. I don't want to be a NEET again, it's the worst thing ever, I've heard from others that it could be ADHD, possibly autism, whatever the case may be, it's exhausting to keep going on like this, especially with finding jobs are harder now. I continuously struggle with memory, basic things are hard for me, those sort of mistakes compound up very quickly,

Was half asleep laying down and could feel my body becoming very heavy.

I've had this before but only for my leg/shin area, but it seems to have spread to whole upper body as well, does anyone know what this means?

It's like I've got a protective layer covering my true self, I feel like a robot, always reacting and saying the minimum amount of things and doing the same thing all the time, I have no idea whether I have a personality or not, just utterly confused about who I am and how to act. It's like I'm always putting up a performance.

I feel like even though I'm skinny, I hold fat in my stomach and face, no matter what I do in the gym it doesn't go away, I'm not sure if it's face fat or something else, but it's those two areas in which they never go away. It's like my face has a layer of bloat that never goes away no matter what and my stomach always has this layer that never goes away, hopefully some of you guys could give some advice.

I'm yet to start TRT, but will be doing so this month.

It's a weird title but I think it addresses the problem head on and most people here know about the blackpill. I.e Your height, face, race, hair, etc stuff matters a lot in life and dating. Even if people don't want to admit it. A lot of people consume too much blackpill content and are essentially overdosing on the blackpill, through YouTube, Instagram, lookmaxing forums. I was one of them. It's extremely negative and turns you into a doomer if you're not what they consider "chad"

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If you're young and you're mewing, whether you want to admit it or not, you're doing most of it for girls, and obviously being good looking also has it's perks in the workplace and stuff. But a lot of guys who research into mewing will eventually go down the blackpill road and just turns you weird. You guys need to avoid that. It will make your life more bleak. Constantly obsessing over little details. Doing those autistic squints, just don't.

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Just my 2 cents for the younger people here, I think everyone should mew but try your best to avoid the blackpill content, it essentially tells you that it's all genetics and you can't change it. So if that's the case, then there's no point watching then? Because how will consuming blackpill content suddenly change your genetics? There's no upside to being blackpilled.

I have a blood test in a few days and it's going to decide if I get TRT treatment because this country is fucking retarded and you need to be a certain level to get TRT.

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Please don't come commenting your righteous bullshit telling me why I shouldn't do it, I know the risks. All I need is advice on what's the best way to make sure that those levels appear low as possible. What should I do days before and even on the day of the test.

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Got my results, they're not very low but I still feel awful, everything links back to my Testosterone and free Test. I've tried everything but the symptoms don't go away. Making my life much harder. I'm based in the UK, and I'm wondering if anyone is able to give any advice in what I can do to try to get treatment.

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Was trying to sleep yesterday and was struggling a lot. Suddenly I felt hotter than usual and I have no idea why, I wasn't sweating but could feel like the body was warmer. I felt way more anxious as now waking up today I feel awful, extremely depressed, hopeless about continuing on. No clue what's the reason? I also feel like I'm breathing very forced, through my nose.

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What I mean by this is, if you are doing a chin tuck or happen to constantly be in a chin tuck position, it might not be the best for you, depending on your case, if you have a very narrow palate or recessed jaw/skull, doing extreme chin tucks to maximise pressure will probably end up doing more harm than good, since your skull and jaw aren't even in the right position for chin tucks to maybe even help. Mike mews advice is for the average person who has acceptable amounts of recession and maybe the palate is not as narrow, So if you've been a mouth breather for a long time, you'll have to take a longer and safer approach because chin tucking all the time can have negative consequences.

They also might lead to you biting down too hard on your teeth or just causing excess pressure on your neck and nerves. As well as if you have a narrow palate, yes on paper it might seem like chin tucks will help Squeeze the tongue up there and it could and probably will help but then most people will over do it and make it worse long term, I've even seen people end up with a longer face because of it, you'll probably just have to get an expander so your tongue can actually be in a position to start working or hard mew and chin tuck but be very careful to not over do it.

I essentially started off hard mewing and chin tucking hard which helped in the beginning in forcing the tongue to automatically stay up there, which lead to me splitting my structure, however I've realised when I toned down the pressure and went to soft mewing, I've actually made more progress

The title basically speaks for itself, you basically have mostly given up on life but still do things like gym, work, trying to improve. It's a weird mindset to have, which i obviously have unfortunately. I'm going to continue moving forward but at the same time have little to no hope for the future.

I was going out for a walk late at night, and suddenly it's like gravity became stronger lol, my legs felt planted and extremely heavy when walking. As well as when I was sleeping, it'll happen again, legs will suddenly feel very heavy. Wondering if anyone might know what it could be?

I started recently going back to the gym,my diet, sleep everything is on point but when I start working out, I just start yawning, it's not like a tired sort of yawn, I still can workout very hard in the gym with no problem, but as soon as I start lifting, minutes in I start yawning. Is it something else or could it be parasympathetic activation or just something else?

Was laying down trying to sleep, all of a sudden legs feel like they're heating up, almost a burning sensation but not anything uncomfortable just felt hot. Then I felt some in my upper body area but not as much as my legs. is there a reason for this? Or is it unrelated?