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Hi all- not looking for a diagnosis, just need support.

I have a long history with >! Bulimia Nervosa !<. I have been in recovery for years.

However, in the last couple of months, I have been struggling so bad because I rapidly >! gained a large amount of weight. !< I also have HUGE stretch marks that are so red and angry, the back of my next is fat, I feel so tired all the time, can’t stop drinking water and peeing, am losing hair, bruising so easily, and have trouble showering because using my arms overhead makes my arms SO tired. It’s so hard just to get through a shower or walk for a few min without getting to gassed. It’s embarrassing and I feel so ashamed of myself and out of shape.

My question is- should I avoid going to the doctor until I can lose a little weight? I am so scared to hear the number, and afraid I will be judged for how fat I am. I want to be a little >! thinner !< before they weigh me. I am so ashamed and feel so gross.

Anyone have any advice for coping if I do decide to go to the doctor? Thank you

This is triggering me so badly.

Hi all- not looking for a diagnosis, just venting and need support.

I am 30 and have a long history with >! Bulimia Nervosa !<. I have been in recovery for about 5 years.

However, in the last 4 months, I have been struggling so bad because I rapidly >! gained 40 pounds !<. I also have HUGE stretch marks that are so red and angry, the back of my next is fat, I feel so tired all the time, can’t stop drinking water and peeing, am losing hair, bruising so easily, and have trouble showering because using my arms overhead makes my arms SO tired. It’s so hard just to get though a 10 minute shower or walk for a few min without getting to gassed. It’s embarrassing and I feel so ashamed of myself and out of shape.

My question is- should I avoid going to the doctor until I can lose a little weight? I am so scared to hear the number, and afraid I will be judged for how fat I am. I want to be a little thinner before they weigh me. I am so ashamed and feel so gross.

Thanks for the support ladies

30F, autoimmune hepatitis, migraines, anxiety, no smoking or drinking. I take hydroxychloroquine and escitalopram. I used to have bulimia nervosa but have been recovered for 5 years

DISCLAIMER: I am NOT asking for a diagnosis! Just reassurance and seeing if anyone has any advice how I can mentally feel better about all this.

Hi all- thanks for taking the time to read.

I am super embarrassed because over the past four months I have had some distressing symptoms, including really fast weight gain of 40 pounds. I am so embarrassed and ashamed. I am so scared to be weighed at the doctor’s office and so scared they will judge me for being fat.

That being said, in addition to the weight gain, I am having hair loss, bruising, trouble showering because using my arms above my head makes them really weak, been drinking and peeing a lot, feel way more tired than usual, dizzy, headaches, low stamina, huge stretch marks on my belly, and a lot of weird fat on my neck.

My question is- should I try to lose a little weight first before I see the doctor? I am just so embarrassed about the weight gain part and it hurts. Thanks so much

Hi all. Thank you for reading. I have had bulimia nervosa since I was a teenager. I have been hospitalized and received treatment for it. I have now been in recovery for almost four years and doing great.

However, in the past 4 months, something changed. I started having a ton of physical symptoms (massive weight gain, hair loss, weakness, thirst, stretch marks, fat on my back of neck, etc) and it is triggering me SO badly. >! looking at my body with skinny arms and legs but a belly with stretch marks is making me feel so triggered and depressed. !< I started restricting again because of it. I don’t want to but I don’t know what else to do because I keep gaining weight exponentially.

I am not asking for medical advice, but just advice on how to proceed and keep my mental health in check? I am so obsessed with the way my body looks again. I avoid showering for long periods of time because I can’t stand how my body looks.

Hi all. Not looking for a diagnosis, just advice. I am a 30 year old female, about 75 kg, past medical history of autoimmune hepatitis, anxiety, and treated bulimia nervosa, on hydroxychloroquine and escitalopram. No drinking because of my hepatitis, no smoking or marijuana.

My hepatitis took SO long to be diagnosed that I am super wary and scared of hospitals and doctors now. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, but I was gaslit so much that I “just had anxiety” or was “overexaggerating” that I am nervous to tell someone what is going on, especially because it involves weight gain and I feel really ashamed about it.

In the past two years, I have had SO much abdominal radiation due to frequent flares of my condition. Many CTs. I have been feeling better, but in the last four months, I have had some concerns.

I have rapidly gained about 40 pounds/18 kg, I have huge, red/purple, painful, stretch marks on my belly. I am losing hair and I feel thirsty all the time and can’t stop peeing.

My arms get so weak that I get tired taking a shower and washing my hair. I bruise from light touch. I sweat ALL the time, and my skin is so dry. I am so tired and never have any energy at all. I try not to each much, but I still keep gaining so much weight that clothes that fit just like 2 months ago don’t anymore. Even my neck on the back has this big fatty lump.

I feel so ashamed of myself. Is this my fault? Did I do this to myself with all the CTs? Is it worth talking to a doctor, or should I just try to lose some weight first? My body looks so gross now, I am so scared of being judged.

Thank you!

Hi all. I am a 30 year old female, about 75 kg, past medical history of autoimmune hepatitis, anxiety, and treated bulimia nervosa, on hydroxychloroquine and escitalopram.

My hepatitis took SO long to be diagnosed that I am super wary and scared of hospitals and doctors now. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, but I was gaslit so much that I “just had anxiety” or was “overexaggerating” that I am nervous to tell someone what is going on, especially because it involves weight gain and I feel really ashamed about it.

In the past two years, I have had SO much abdominal radiation due to frequent flares of my condition. Many CTs. I have been feeling better, but in the last four months, I have had some concerns.

I have rapidly gained about 40 pounds/18 kg, I have huge, red/purple, painful, stretch marks on my belly. I am losing hair and I feel thirsty all the time and can’t stop peeing.

My arms get so weak that I get tired taking a shower and washing my hair. I bruise from light touch. I sweat ALL the time, and my skin is so dry. I am so tired and never have any energy at all. I try not to each much, but I still keep gaining so much weight that clothes that fit just like 2 months ago don’t anymore. Even my neck on the back has this big fatty lump.

I feel so ashamed of myself. Is this my fault? Did I do this to myself with all the CTs?

Is it worth talking to a doctor, or should I just try to lose some weight first? I feel like the doctor will judge me for being fat…

Thank you!

Hi all. I am a 30 year old female, about 75 kg, past medical history of autoimmune hepatitis, anxiety, and treated bulimia nervosa, on hydroxychloroquine and escitalopram.

My hepatitis took SO long to be diagnosed that I am super wary and scared of hospitals and doctors now. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, but I was gaslit so much that I “just had anxiety” or was “overexaggerating” that I am nervous to tell someone what is going on, especially because it involves weight gain and I feel really ashamed about it.

In the past two years, I have had SO much abdominal radiation due to frequent flares of my condition. Many CTs. I have been feeling better, but in the last four months, I have had some concerns.

I have rapidly gained about 40 pounds/18 kg, I have huge, red/purple, painful, stretch marks on my belly. I am losing hair and I feel thirsty all the time and can’t stop peeing.

My arms get so weak that I get tired taking a shower and washing my hair. I bruise from light touch. I sweat ALL the time, and my skin is so dry. I am so tired and never have any energy at all. I try not to each much, but I still keep gaining so much weight that clothes that fit just like 2 months ago don’t anymore. Even my neck on the back has this big fatty lump.

I feel so ashamed of myself. Is this my fault? Did I do this to myself with all the CTs? Is it worth talking to a doctor, or should I just try to lose some weight first?

Thank you!

NO HATE AGAINST LESBIANS AT ALL.

I think it’s BECAUSE there’s so little lesbian rep that often characters I think would be ace are instead thought to be lesbians.

All of the commonly “ace-coded” characters are male- SpongeBob, Luffy, etc.

But when there is a female I think could be, I always just see people assign her as being a lesbian instead.

OF COURSE, there is no WRONG interpretation! Just wondering why this is?

Hi all. I am a 30 year old female, about 75 kg, past medical history of autoimmune hepatitis, anxiety, and treated bulimia nervosa, on hydroxychloroquine and escitalopram.

My hepatitis took SO long to be diagnosed that I am super wary and scared of hospitals and doctors now. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, but I was gaslit so much that I “just had anxiety” or was “overexaggerating” that I am nervous to tell someone what is going on, especially because it involves weight gain and I feel really ashamed about it.

In the past two years, I have had SO much abdominal radiation due to frequent flares of my condition. Many CTs. I have been feeling better, but in the last four months, I have had some concerns.

I have rapidly gained about 40 pounds/18 kg, I have huge, red/purple, painful, stretch marks on my belly. I am losing hair and I feel thirsty all the time and can’t stop peeing.

My arms get so weak that I get tired taking a shower and washing my hair. I bruise from light touch. I sweat ALL the time, and my skin is so dry. I am so tired and never have any energy at all. I try not to each much, but I still keep gaining so much weight that clothes that fit just like 2 months ago don’t anymore. Even my neck on the back has this big fatty lump.

I feel so ashamed of myself. Is this my fault? Did I do this to myself with all the CTs? Is it worth talking to a doctor, or should I just try to lose some weight first?

Thank you!