new 1L feel like I’m losing my mind
Hi everyone. Starting 1L now, and I feel emotionally overwhelmed during orientation period.
I have been obsessively on top of my pre-first class readings and buying books as soon as the syllabus drops. Recruiting timelines are super early, which has made me obsess over meeting with career advisors.
I just feel like an emotional wreck because of the pressure. My school sends between 50-60% of grads to 251+FC jobs, which is solid. I had originally hoped to end up at such a firm, but now I've convinced myself that I would be lucky to just have a job when I graduate. I've been mentally prepping myself for striking out at BL interviews and having to settle for something I really don't want, if I get anything at all.
I don't know why I feel so negative. Maybe 1L just feels so impossible, or reading things on Reddit saying it's extremely hard to be in the top 33% of your class, or working hard really doesn't matter (only taking exams well matters). I've been mentally obsessing over how many hours I need to study, whether my studying/note-taking is quality, and whether my issues & rules in my briefs suck.
I've heard of 1Ls doing very well, including getting 4.0s, while still having weekend afternoons & nights free. That seems highly implausible right now. Maybe I will be enlightened as time goes on, but not sure.
While I realize that hard work needs to be combined with "good work," wouldn't it be fair to say working hard at studying for exams would be very conducive to success?
I guess I'm just thinking law school is impossible to do well in. I had a 4.0 in college and always did well in school. I just feel so unconfident.
If anyone has genuine advice, I would appreciate it so much. Thank you.