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A 10 minute walk is okay, anything over is so overwhelming. Whenever I try to go out in the car, I feel increasingly sick, weak, dizzy, and I know I need to sit in the feeling and be uncomfortable but it’s the anticipation of that and the worry of potentially being ill while out (from illness or anxiety) that I just can’t’ do it and I know it will happen because the anxiety always makes me nearly throw up when I go out.

in 5 minutes, I need to go out for 1hr and I’m so dizzy, my stomach has cramps, I feel so sick and I’m wondering if this will ever go away?

I don’t know what to do, I’m panicking so much. I’ve got so many events this month too and they’re big events. Sorry this isn’t written well, I’m panicking and in a rush

But if anyone has been in this situation, what has helped you? I’m open to any advice please

I think I developed agoraphobia tendencies; I am scared of leaving my house, sitting in the car while someone shops, going on walks away from home, the list goes on...

I have been putting off cutting my hair for months but whenever I think about it, I can’t even fathom it. I have social anxiety so I usually feel super nauseous but now my emetophobia has gotten worse, I can’t face it, but my friend wants us to go together. I feel so pathetic that I can’t do something so simple, I wish I could shut my brain off - I want to be able to do something without overthinking everything, or do something because I want to, not because my phobia says no.

I’m scared of getting there, being strapped in the chair, having to survive an 1hr+ from my home, feeling sick, having a panic attack from the anxiety, or being sick, maybe making a scene and losing control - I can just see it happen, or I’ll manifest it or something.

What am I even supposed to do? I know if it happens, it happens and I can’t do anything about it but the possibility frightens me. Sometimes I’m like “wtf am I even scared of?” until I get triggered and the anxiety is unreal.

I’ve wondered about going to the GP and asking for SSRI’s, also as a kind of “kill 2 birds in one stone” (social anxiety+emetophobia) just to lower my anxiety to be able to engage in life but I feel stupid if I do. 6-8 months ago my life was completely different, I was scared of it but not like this :( I’m scared of losing friends and missing out on life all because I’m scared of being sick, I’m so tired. I don’t know what to do. I just turned 18 so I still live with my dad, I have no idea how I could possibly even tell him I needed help, we don’t have that kind of relationship and I’m scared about what he’ll think.

So I can binge read twilight again, already counting down the days. Anyone else? 😛

not metamorphosis, please! Which other of his books have you enjoyed?

Some of my favourite books are those written by Tolstoy, Dostoevsky, Kafka, and Camus, but I’m looking for suggestions - any author, just has to be that genre!

I’m scared of going to the appointment and forgetting everything I want to say and not being taken seriously, but I don’t know if this is weird or not.

Edit: thank you for everyone’s comments !

I’m thinking of bringing it up to my doctor when I next go. It’s just got to the point where the anxiety/the thought of throwing up makes me feel physically weak. I am finding it so hard to function, leave the house, and get through the day without multiple panic surges. I need advice. Even while typing this, I don’t feel well, I’m praying :( it just seems impossible to face, I feel like crying, I can’t do this

im having a panic attack

I cant breathe, I cant feel my body I cant see I cant hear my body is tingly, im so dizzy, im tonna be sick, fuck what do I do please help, I cant deal with this, I feel like ive stepped out of my ffucking body, im tingling everywhere, I taste it oh fuck I cant do this omfg

reason why I want SSRI’s, im gonna faint, m stomach is just oh shit, oh fuck

help, my orangs feel like they’re being squished to death from this, like ive got such intense pressure inside my stomach, I lose feeling so much on my hands I feel paralysed,, what is this please, do I need a doctor, is this a panic attack. this is my 2nd this week, idl what to do

I read it yesterday, however I’m a little unsure on the meaning behind it.

What I got from it was that is could possibly be about aging or the stability of life, but I want to hear others opinions on what they thought of it.

I’m really having trouble with this.

I want to transfer my media in iCloud from my iPhone to my MacBook (separate apple ID’s), however it only presents me the options:

1. turn off and delete photos
2. sync this Iphone
3. keep and download originals
4. buy Icloud+

I have connected my phone and my laptop via cable, but not all of them have transferred, I’m guessing that’s because of my items in iCloud? I counted at 500 or so haven’t downloaded but it’s not showing that there are any on my phone left to import.

I’m just not sure what to do about this, I don’t want to lose my photos.

I have a fear of being sick, therefore I feel sick all the time + worry about it, thus, the loop never ends + my life is very constrained.

I am aware it’s very irrational. How do I just stop giving a fuck? I want my life back.

On a good day, I can go out - with anxiety, but it’s bearable. Other than that, I’m practically housebound. I fear leaving the house and experiencing anxiety, and not being able to be in a safe place or with safe people.

I dream of travelling, hiking, exploring, moving country (hopefully within the next 2 years) but realistically, I can barely leave my house.

I wish I was one of those people that barely experienced anxiety, who could throw up and immediately brush it off like it was nothing. Because why am I scared of a bodily function meant to protect us? If other people can brush it off and not be afraid, why does my body react so horrifically.

I see people online travelling, going out with friends, doing things with their lives, working... and I feel like I’m missing out on my life. I see quotes that are like “as long as you are alive, you can always try again” or “you only live once, do the things you love”, and I get so motivated, but when it comes to doing something, or feeling a bit off, I shut down.

I know therapy would be beneficial, but why did I have to be so unlucky...

Par exemple: j’ai archi faim.

Sometimes I really wish I were a fish, because it will never know what carrying the privilege of consciousness and the complexities of the brain feels like.

Language is both the reason I suffer and the reason I understand why I suffer and it’s such a bittersweet sentiment. I try to picture my future but all I see is a life of unfolding unhappiness, working something I don’t love just to afford to exist, and I can’t see how people accept it so easily. If I don’t work, life becomes into survive or die, basically.

I don’t fear death as much as I fear spending my life unhappy, carrying the weight of burden or grief for people/the life I wish I had. In fact, I envy people with enough money to do as they please; my life is what it is, but what it is will never be how I want it to be, and that is the harsh reality.

Is it wrong in saying I’d rather die than have to work for the rest of my life? my life feels so devoid of any meaning, and the irony is that it ALL comes down to money. I can’t afford to travel, let alone go out; I am permanently stuck at home. I can’t afford to buy clothes I love, eat out, do the hobby I dream of - I wish I had the opportunities some have. I can’t afford to experience beautiful places. I dream of moving to France, living near a lake or a mountain, but I know it will never happen.

So I wish I was a fish, to escape the curse of the human brain. While i'm grateful to be alive and to be able to love so deeply, deep down, I wish I wasn’t born at all, or at least born as a creature less aware of it’s existence.

Maybe I’m just negative but I can’t escape this feeling and it’s eating me from the inside. I struggled to explain it too, I just don’t see the point. I don’t see anything good coming from my life, that’s all.

(I hope this writing subreddit includes poems as well.. but anyways)

Tomorrow

>tomorrow comes,
tomorrow passes,
tomorrow is waited for,
tomorrow is lost.

>Tomorrow comes,
tomorrow passes,
tomorrow is here,
tomorrow escapes.

>I keep handing my life to tomorrow,
and tomorrow keeps leaving with it.

>Tomorrow feels endless until it becomes yesterday,
tomorrow feels endless until there is no tomorrow.

I’m mostly just looking to see what emotions it evokes, and also if anyone has any constructive advice! Thanks:))

Tomorrow comes, 

Tomorrow passes, 

Tomorrow is waited for, 

Tomorrow is lost. 

Tomorrow comes, 

Tomorrow passes, 

Tomorrow is here, 

Tomorrow escapes. 

I keep handing my life to tomorrow,

And tomorrow keeps leaving with it.

Tomorrow feels endless until it becomes yesterday, 

Tomorrow feels endless until there is no tomorrow. 

(first piece I ever wrote)