u/Remarkable_Bath8515

I know I am cringey (The wanting to be refered to as a pokemon trainer thing, also if I am really am autistic like my old assessment said that means no matter what I do I will be cringey as myself when happy to some people until acceptance is realized for everyone.)

and talk a lot and post a lot. I sometimes wonder if I am making people annoyed when I post/talk to people. Even my friends.

Maybe it's a type of anxiety, I need to get a new assessment and missed therapy because both me and my mom forget.

I also want people to refer to me how I want but that will take time because I was always seen as something I'm not or don't want to be, I am still figuring myself out and questioning.

On top of that 2 years ago I was embarrassing and bad person not because of how I treated people (I didn't talk to anyone online before I got DeviantArt as a SFW pokemon fan artist) but what I saw and I'm glad I'm not there now. Drawing and talking to people online is what I do for now, I hope to also do that but also go explore outside more. I was too shy to post and draw for a while I wanted to talk more to not be anxious.

Talk to people outside? I hate anxiety. I should go eventually when I know more routes than around me house.

I don't even know if this is self hate, I cringe that I silently cry at this, yet wish I cried more when a little sad.

See how this post. Was just a fucking ram le.Ay be I'll learn.

Fill in the blanks: When people die, Their ___ dies with them.

When a person dies. Their ______ dies with them.

I wish I am allowed in every arcade place for free.

I wish everyone I met in my life will be ok.

Was it that obvious that I _________?

Even when I doubt _, I'm no good without _.

I can't stop having thoughts people might secretly be annoyed at me.

I wish every animals now knows what humans mean when they are speaking.

I wish for a sub sandwich.

I wish people have the ability to pause their hunger in case of emergencies.

I wish I looked good with short head hair, and I can change my hair length at my own will.

I wish I have all the pokemon figurines.

Goodnight, sleep tight. Don't let the ______ bite.

Serve me _______ and we are not friends.

I wish for a switch 2.

I wish I could get any disturbing things I witnessed out of my thoughts.

I wish every animals now knows what human language is saying.

I've come bearing bad news _________.

now, young hero. The quest I assign for you is _________.

I wish stress didn't make me feel cold.