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This case has genuinely made my anxiety worse, because how is it possible for someone to look and behave completely calm and normal and then do something like that? How can you tell if the person in front of you is just an introvert / socially anxious person or a potential murderer? Who was he? A psychopath?
For example when I watched interviews with Ted Bundy, it was immediately obvious to me that he had narcissistic traits and that something was off about him. But with Watts … I know a lot of guys that are calm and shy like he is.

Having a choice doesn’t necessarily mean that things will turn out well. We can’t control everything that happens to us, but do we always retain at least some ability to choose how we act, based on our own values, principles, and beliefs ?
Or are there circumstances so extreme that they can completely take away a person’s freedom of choice ?

Because I grew up believing that some people are destined to go through certain things or accomplish something significant, and that perhaps they are genuinely chosen for that purpose. I also believed that people are protected by higher powers until they have fulfilled what they were meant to do.
On the other hand, the longer I live, the more convinced I become that there are no higher powers, and that our lives are shaped by chance, nature, and the choices we and other people make. Because how else can we explain the fact that people can die violently, suddenly, or in completely absurd circumstances ? A person might potentially change the world someday, but tomorrow they could simply be hit by a car.

Don’t kill me, but I’m a newbie and I honestly don’t know how big the differences are between the US and European industries, so I’ll say upfront that I’m mainly talking about the European market.
My question is: if I write a TV pilot and try to pitch it along with a pitch deck, could that potentially be a way into the TV industry and help me land an entry-level job ?
I’ve already read that first pilots almost never actually make it into production/development, but can they still serve as a calling card or a way to get your foot in the door ?

Don’t kill me, but I’m a newbie and I honestly don’t know how big the differences are between the US and European industries, so I’ll say upfront that I’m mainly talking about the European market.
My question is: if I write a TV pilot and try to pitch it along with a pitch deck, could that potentially be a way into the TV industry and help me land an entry-level job ?
I’ve already read that first pilots almost never actually make it into production/development, but can they still serve as a calling card or a way to get your foot in the door ?

Today I drank a bottle of beer, and it dulled my anxiety. I felt uplifted and good. How can I avoid getting used to this?

It’s not like I completely dislike myself or think I’m ugly, but ever since I was a kid, every time I’m about to go somewhere, I always think, “Okay, this time is fine, but next time I’ll look better.”
There always seems to be something that bothers me: the outfit I literally chose myself, the shade of my lips, the length of my hair, my weight, my eyelashes, my hair volume… the list goes on. And even when I fix one thing, I just end up finding something else to obsess over.
It’s like I have this perfect version of myself in my head—how I’m supposed to look and even how I’m supposed to act. And whenever reality doesn’t match that version, it genuinely makes me feel disappointed.
And I never was shamed for how I look so I don’t know what caused this.

After a while I calm down and start thinking rationally again, but I’ve been noticing this happening more often. Whenever I’m reminded of certain things from my past, I start thinking and reacting the way I would have back when those events were actually happening. It’s like my mind goes back to that version of me, even though I know I’m not in that situation anymore.
Has anyone else experienced this? How did you deal with it?
* I want to point out that this is not necessarily about situations where I am a victim or someone offended me. It's more about situations where I should feel sad.

I’m especially interested in hearing from people who experienced trauma in childhood. Have things like these ever become emotional triggers for you afterward?
For example, I experienced a significant loss as a child. For many years—and sometimes even now—I get overwhelmed by a sense of melancholy when I watch the sunset or smell burning grass. I wonder if those feelings are somehow connected to the days when I went through that trauma, and if my brain formed associations that still linger today.

What is the point of life if the only thing a person is expected to do is “to fit in” ?

You’re supposed to be born preferably white and heterosexual, in a “normal” place and family. You’re supposed to be a good daughter or son, a good student, a good friend, a good partner. You’re supposed to find a good job. And if you fall short somewhere, that becomes a problem you’re expected to fix.
You’re supposed to have certain qualities and characteristics in order to be considered acceptable — and for what ?
I just really don’t like the concept of life and society.
It seems to me that the meaning of life is built on evaluating each other. Every day they evaluating who you are and what you do and how you look like some kind of game.
And my problem isn't even that I'm afraid of evaluation, it's how much people's lives revolve around it. Sometimes it's hard and uninteresting for me to communicate with others because of it.

What is the point of life if the only thing a person is expected to do is “to fit in” ?

You’re supposed to be born preferably white and heterosexual, in a “normal” place and family. You’re supposed to be a good daughter or son, a good student, a good friend, a good partner. You’re supposed to find a job. And if you fall short somewhere, that becomes a problem you’re expected to fix.
You’re supposed to have certain qualities and characteristics in order to be considered acceptable — and for what ?
I just really don’t like the concept of life and society. Not in a suicidal way, just in the sense that I genuinely struggle with the way life seems to be structured and what is expected of us as human beings.
It seems to me that the meaning of life is built on evaluating each other. Every day they evaluating who you are and what you do and how you look like some kind of game.
Edit : I just have a feeling that the whole meaning of life boils down to one word - evaluating. Even if you are praised.

For example, you grow up in a small town, surrounded by a familiar and safe circle of friends and some adults. Then you graduate from high school, and suddenly everyone goes their separate ways. Some move to another city for university, some move to another country, and you find yourself alone in a completely new place.
You feel lonely and scared, and it’s hard to imagine what your future is going to look like. The stable, safe place you once had is now in the past, and you can’t go back to it in the same way. It’s like your brain hasn’t had enough time to process everything, and you just can’t keep up with how quickly everything is changing.

For example, I feel terrible shame when I think that somewhere out there, there are former friends who only remember me as a hyperactive, stupid girl, and not as the person I am now.

Imagine a hypothetical situation: if a screenwriter or a book author revealed the details of their work to ChatGPT in order to get a list of sources that could help with developing the plot (by “details,” I mean not just the idea, but also names, the world, and storylines but not the script itself ) and to check historical accuracy, what is the possibility that, if this project ever reaches development and becomes a book, film, or series, one of the AI employees (because I read that they can read individual chats) would leak the details?
No matter how stupid this question may seem to you, please be kind in your answers or don’t answer at all.
I want to say in advance that I don’t consider myself or my plots to be anything great (I apologize to people who have already strained their fingers writing some kind of comment to devalue me).
This is purely a hypothetical scenario, and I’m interested in finding out.
I’m not asking about “stealing ideas” but about leaking.

Where did you get feedback when you were starting out? Are there any communities, workshops, script exchange groups, or other places you’d recommend ?

Question for people who successfully pitched the pilot and TV bible for their first project that actually went into production:
What role did you end up having on the project? Did you have any creative control, and was your opinion important during development and production?
Also, how did things change after you pitched your second or third project? Did you have more influence or a bigger role compared to your first one?

Especially where there is a love triangle and the main character is awkward or shy.

Especially where there is a love triangle and the main character is awkward or shy.

I don't feel any pain, but I feel like I can't breathe freely. It's like I have to start normal breathing by taking a deep breath. But after a while I still can't breathe calmly + a feeling of fear. I thought it might be because of the coffee I drank, but it was a latte with a lot of milk.
Has anyone had this problem?

What experience does a person need to have to become a showrunner for a series they've pitched ?

thanks for all the answers guys 💕