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i don’t really know what i’m expecting, because i do have a dad but he isn’t really comforting…

so for context this was last year and i was 14 f, and he was 14 m.

yeah so it was when i was dating my boyfriend last year. he’d cuddle me and stuff which i was fine with, then his hands would move to my chest, and at first i was VERY uncomfortable with it and would tell him no and he’d be like “it’s just me, your boyfriend” and then i was like whatever it over the clothes. then a week later it moved to under the shirt and i hated that more and the same thing happened, he kept convincing me it was fine, and talking me into it. then it started to be the crotch. but it was over the pants and i was SUPER uncomfortable, he knew that, i’d like freeze up and get super stiff. and i’d grab his hands and grip it tight and try to move it back up from my crotch but he’d not let it move, and he would hold me so tight until i physically pushed him away and got up after force. and he did the same when he did under the pants until i physically pushed him away and got up.

i’m actually so fucking pissed right now. my treatment team decided they’re taking my mirror away. and the scale too. and i’m on bed rest. so basically my summer is gone 🙄. i know why they’re doing it. i’m not stupid. i know this is ana recovery and i know the whole point is getting me away from all the shit that keeps me stuck in it. but holy shit. it sucks. because what am i supposed to do all summer? sit in bed? my friends are making plans. going to the mall. getting food. walking around for hours. doing dumb teenager shit that you’re supposed to do when you’re 15. and i’m at home on bed rest.
how the fuck am i supposed to go to the mall with my friends when i’m literally not supposed to be up doing anything? and now the mirror is going too. i walked into my room and looked at it and was just like… seriously?
that mirror has been there forever. getting ready in the morning. fixing my hair. checking my outfit before school. whatever. i get why it’s a problem but just fucking leave it? i can’t avoid my reflection forever. and the scale being taken away is pissing me off too. i know i shouldn’t be checking it. i KNOW. but having someone come in and physically remove things from your room makes everything feel so much more annoying. it feels like recovery is taking my whole life. first this. then that.
then another thing taken away. then another appointment.
then another person telling me what i can do. and meanwhile summer is just happening without me. i don’t even need some crazy summer. i literally just wanted to go to the mall with my friends and waste five hours walking around. instead i’m on bed rest staring at the fucking ceiling. i’m trying to recover.
i just fucking hate what recovery looks like right now. i want to do it on my own terms. it’s not fair

hey guys, looking for book recommendations on teen mental health. either to do with therapy, or an inpatient setting. i really like The Perks of Being a Wallflower,
Challenger Deep, All the Bright Places, it’s kind of a funny story, The Memory of Light, paperweight,winter girls, and clean
preferably a teen struggling with their mental health and not too lengthy! thanks!

Hi everyone! I’m hoping someone here might be able to help me turn an idea I’ve had for a recovery tattoo into an actual design. I’m looking for something small, minimalist, and meaningful something that represents my eating disorder recovery journey. I’d love to include the NEDA recovery symbol, along with elements like a flower and a cat (both are really meaningful to me). I also want to add a couple short inspiring words, something about healing, strength, growth, or continuing forward.
I’m imagining something delicate and simple, not too busy, something that would age well and feel personal rather than like a typical “motivational” tattoo. also somewhere like my wrist, or ankle. not too crazy because i would be getting it at 17 😝
I’m not an artist, so I’d love to see how someone else would interpret this idea. If anyone likes designing tattoos or wants to help sketch something out, I’d really appreciate it. 💛
Thank you so much!

hey guys, i’m a teen from a smallish town. (eh, not rlly that small actually) anyways im wondering how to find other teens who play the bass or drums? there’s many people i found who play electric guitar, and i reached out in my towns reddit sub. but how else do i find band memebers? thanks

hey, so i’m a 15 yr old trying to recover and it’s a lot. i have so many thoughts right now and im genuinely not okay and i just need to vent about recovery, like therapy appointments, and dietitian appointments, etc.

if anyone would like to vent to me as well dm! thanks.

(i don’t care how old u are as long as ur not a creep)

Hey yall! So basically I’m new to recovery and I’m not too fond of my therapist. That might be because she’s trying to get rid of my ed and I don’t like that yet but anyways. The “voices” are getting super loud and honestly she hasn’t taught me anything to ignore them or try and quiet them. So obviously I listen to it sometimes and >!purge, or skip meals.!< Then when I tell her this she just tells me if I don’t stop I have to go to the hospital, and it’s really annoying because she tells me every single session. It’s not even as bad as my ed used to be and tbh she’s not doing anything to help me. When I bring up the “voice” the only thing she tells me is “the more I eat the quieter it will get. Yes it will be loud at first, then it will get quieter.” But that’s just not true and it’s not happening and I don’t really like her. Am I being dramatic? Is this how all Ed therapists are like?

I don’t have a formal team rn because I am still on a waitlist but I have a physiologist and family doctor who keep suggesting “more support” but how do I get more support?

Hey guys, I had a dream last night that’s been stuck in my head and I’m curious if it means anything.

In the dream, my mom and I were taking the subway together. It was super crowded, and because it was such a long route, we had to transfer between multiple trains. Every time we switched trains, the doors would close really fast.

At the third stop, my mom and I got separated. At first, we didn’t think it was a big deal. She texted me saying she’d catch the next train and that I should get off at the next stop and wait for her.

So I did. But after waiting for what felt like an hour, my mom texted me saying her train wouldn’t stop. She was about 20 stops ahead of me, and I couldn’t even take the next train because it was broken. We ended up completely separated, and there was no way to reach each other.

There was also another part of the dream involving this weird Momo-like creature that was trying to kill me and a friend I had just made, but I’m not sure if that’s related or just random dream weirdness.

Does anyone have any insight into what this dream could mean? Thanks!

Hi. So I’m a minor. And my parents and therapist are giving me two weeks to eat three meals + three snacks a day and if I don’t I have to go to the emergency room.
I’m medically stable so they can’t keep me in right? What will the hospital do? I’m not staying over night. I don’t even want to go to a hospital. Apparently it will get me higher up on a php list? But I’m scared of them forcing me inpatient. Idk help!

Hi. So I’m a minor. And my parents and therapist are giving me two weeks to eat three meals + three snacks a day and if I don’t I have to go to the emergency room.
I’m medically stable so they can’t keep me in right? What will the hospital do? I’m not staying over night. I don’t even want to go to a hospital. Apparently it will get me higher up on a php list? But I’m scared of them forcing me inpatient. Idk help!

Okay so there’s this boy that I like. We used to text everyday for two months, and he said he liked talking to me, etc. (prob as a friend way idk) but that stopped about a month ago. I get left on delivered for weeks at a time. But when we are at school we talk to each other. I asked him about it and he said he’s not ghosting me, just hasn’t been on snap recently. Which Ik is a lie. But also we had this leadership thing and he gave me a drink he made (we were meant to buy it) telling me he wanted me to try it even though I had no money. So I really don’t know if he likes me back or not. He’s also not a jerk so idrk.
Any advice or input or anything??

Okay so basically I’m 15, and have been dealing with this for a while. My mom thought I was improving the last two weeks but then found out I was purging every day and got really pissed. She took me to my family doctor and he said the waitlist for programs are super long, but if I feel dizzy again, or the voices get loud, or I purge again often to take me to the hospital. And they will expedite the referral. I don’t want to go. They’re gonna put me in a psych ward no? Will they?

Thanks

Hey yall, as summer is coming up and school is ending I was thinking of ways to keep busy. I’ve always wanted to be in a band and perform at small venues like restaurants but I’ve never had a group of friends that were into music. For now I think the genre would be punk rock. I am a female singer but don’t play instruments that well, if anyone can play instruments give me a dm and we can maybe arrange a teen garage band?

Thanks! 🤘

My therapist really tried to hit me with the ‘food is fuel’ speech and kept comparing my body to a car

So I looked at her and said, ‘Okay but cars don’t need gas every 3 hours.’

The silent stare after that was CRAZY 😭🙏🏼

What’s the most out-of-pocket thing you’ve said back to your therapist?