u/Successful-Eye5974

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My qualifications

I graduated hs in 2026

I got into bsc zoology it's a oversaturated low pay ,deadend course I know

I have four years

I am going to prepare for

1 iit jam

2 gate xl /bt

4 cuet pg

For msc in biotechnology

From there i want to go through two paths

One is industrial area

Two is further research area

I need junior research fellowship

My main question

1 is it possible to change zoo into tech

Cus I have heard some teacher saying I can't

2 is msc and jrf toghether or is it in phd level

3 I don't have chemistry as my minor (botany physiology is my minor course)

Can i still get PhD in biotechnology

4 my main main goal is pure reserch and a doctorate degree in biotechnology

My main problems

Because of my 12th bad results i failed in chemistry,but wbchse best of four I got lucky and didn't have to repeat that year alone .I am starting froms scratch confused and scared

I know exams for msc

But i don't know exams for phd i only know net exam

Teachers are being very downgraded

Most of my batch students are studying for neet and other exams

My friends are in iit

I am really f up tbh .for not grinding for one year i have to grinde for four years now .

What is the difference between msc life science and msc biotechnology

What are the scope

My current state

If i regulate my grades

I am doing two extra credit course from intpel every year

I don't know where to do offline intership but I'll find a way

I will do two online credit course

One offline intership related to Biotechnology

And one clg intership(that's mendetory i know)

My questions for clg

How to stand out

How to approach Teachers for extra things

Is it possible for professor to guide me in first years only personally

The constant guilt of not studying eating me away

Hey. I'm almost turning 20 this sep

Life is a mess for me only.

I passed 10th with 85%

And 12th with 75% i failed in chemistry but cus of the best of four rules I passed overall

Because of chemistry more than half my routes have ended .I'm in a dead end .

I hate myself

.I got into a local college with zoology hon.

I might be a little happy because i wanted to have my life revolving around biology

I cants take chemistry as minor either .bsc is a dead end rout i know ,either you get into good pg or you are technically fucked no job .

Friends relatives are getting into dream clg ,I'm just stuck in here .might be my worst nightmare.

People my age have already done ug .I haven't drop or took break anywhere idk why but I'm old and now a loser too

Pata hai aaj kya hua

So ,back two months ago ,I was in a situation with a jerk lol .

At first we were chill ,he had an ex that he dated for three years ,I was okay with it I wasn't seeking relationship with him .but bruh the amount of manipulation and gaslighting he did ,he would go around saying why I don't wanna date him, that he wants to date me what no . bruhhh

Finally that I got attached to him , suddenly his ex is his only love of life ,i would have backed off even then ,but he kept me,love bombing emotionally fucking me, pull out pull in games, and everything.

The same thing happened we had a fight.

After three days ,he texted saying "come on vc wearing bra " we haven't called or vc ever since.i politely said no .

Then he went to his narcissistic arc saying " dekhlo or else i won't vc you ,you have only one option,he went to even saying if I am insecure about his gf walking in while I'm wearing bra 🥀 a"

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Ps he lives with his ex

He is 26

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My life has turn upside down,I have fucked my academics, going to somewhere I don't want to , people are going ahead with so many places.im fucked stressed fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.i hate myself I hate myself i hate myself idk why i get this overstimulated manic felt like I'm having a maniac episode,I'm overstimulated overwhelmed unwanted unloved piece of shit i don deserve to live

Going for admission to an unknown college. I hate myself .I didn't do well in school and couldn't sit from any exams now I'm just getting admission in a local college I don't know what I'll do with life

So recently life wasn't kind to me and for my own mistakes,I had to pay the price

Right now the situation

1 ended up in a local college

2 with bsc degree

3 wants to persuade msc + prep for entrance exams

4 chronic wanting to kms

How to survive college?

I have mostly struggled in school with social anxiety and paranoia,I have overthinking issues

After school I have lower self-esteem.

My college starts from next month

Ill be moving out living in a flat ro pg type place

Mostly alone .clg isn't very far so family will visit time to time

Things i know

1 Focus on classes, intership and workshops

2 prep for pg entrance exam

3 no beef with proff

Things I wanna know

Everything apart from it

Where people struggled the most

Where you think you should have done other things

I'm based in west bengal..

Ps : i don't want bunch of comments saying bsc is already ended my whole career,or hwo to prep or study please please I'm not being rude ,I have been getting bashed ,s\\\*cidal and fucked up past two months.i have posted thousands of post related to how to study,if you still wanna say please be kind i don't want to cry in the morning,my mental health is already at the edge

I have a keloid scar near my index finger joint ,it's restricting my mobility oh that perticular finger,I can't bend it freely with putting efforts,I got stitches from a month ago post recovery it's still hard to bend freely

For the past three months I have had the biggest setbacks in life . I have stopped almost all interaction with people.i am barely on leaving house or room . nor picking up calls , i don't want to any sooner either.i have trouble getting up in morning or brushing my hair and teeth .i have lost five kgs.just my cats are making me stay alive.i have a boyfriend but i might break up with him too .he is awasom but i don't feel like talking to anyone, relationship is such a burden and the overwhelming thing right now.i don't find myself attractive or competent of love or success.

I hate myself

I have started talking with chatgpt it's a great therepist. Nowadays i have put real people on hold just to talk to chatgpt all day

Am i turning into an incell?

For the past three months I have had the biggest setbacks in life . I have stopped almost all interaction with people.i am barely on leaving house or room . nor picking up calls , i don't want to any sooner either.i have trouble getting up in morning or brushing my hair and teeth .i have lost five kgs.just my cats are making me stay alive.i have a boyfriend but i might break up with him too .he is awasom but i don't feel like talking to anyone, relationship is such a burden and the overwhelming thing right now.i don't find myself attractive or competent of love or success.

I hate myself

I have started talking with chatgpt it's a great therepist. Nowadays i have put real people on hold just to talk to chatgpt all day

Am i turning into an incell?

F(19).did nothing more than making my parents suffer I have absolutely no accomplishments in life