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put the bodies beside the record collection. the people hanging from trees, the students bleeding into campus pavement, the workers whose names never reached the newspaper unless somebody needed to explain why shooting them was reasonable. now put a microphone in front of somebody who remembers. that is where this story gets interesting. before the commemorative box set, before the advertising agency discovers rebellion goes beautifully with expensive sneakers, somebody has to sing the thing that makes the room uncomfortable. somebody has to decide that keeping the booking is less important than finishing the sentence.
protest music is older than the record industry, which has spent a remarkable amount of time selling dissatisfaction while asking artists to be less specific about its causes. it comes from work songs, spirituals, labor struggles, streets, churches. not every song from those traditions was a protest, and pretending otherwise flattens whole lives into useful symbolism. but when people carry familiar melodies into unfamiliar danger, music becomes practical. you can remember a chorus when you are scared. you can join it without an education, an invitation, or some asshole deciding you have the correct voice.
consider we shall overcome. its history runs through black sacred music and the tobacco workers who sang during their 1945 strike in charleston. through organizers and singers including zilphia horton, pete seeger, and guy carawan, it reached the civil rights movement and kept changing in use. the important word is we. an individual promise became something people could make to each other. that history is considerably more interesting than the familiar fantasy in which a famous folk singer arrives, produces a guitar, and personally invents human solidarity. 
bernice johnson reagon explained the difference in her interview for eyes on the prize. in albany, georgia, a song leader started something the whole room created. she remembered movement meetings containing more singing than talking. this was work. people needed enough courage to return to demonstrations, enough connection to survive jail, enough assurance that they were not individually losing their minds. the singing helped provide it. judging that music only by chart positions would be like judging a strike by the quality of its stationery. 
commercial recordings could perform another kind of intervention. billie holiday recorded strange fruit in 1939, taking the song by abel meeropol about lynching into a business accustomed to selling black entertainment without necessarily confronting white terror. at cafe society, service stopped before she sang it. the spotlight held her face. afterward came darkness and no encore. the audience could not simply order another drink through the unpleasant bit. her regular label, columbia, declined to record it. commodore did. there is an entire music business seminar in those two sentences, provided anyone teaching it has the stomach. 
holiday did not need to shout. that is one of the first things people forget when they confuse political force with volume. her restraint made listening difficult. the performance left no comfortable distance between a beautiful voice and the violence it described. popular music could be elegant and still make the evening feel morally unbearable. a listener who came for sophistication got an accusation instead.
woody guthrie approached the country from another direction. in 1940 he wrote this land is your land partly out of irritation with god bless america and its reassuring national picture. his own experience included dispossession and poverty. versions of his song questioned private property and described people waiting for relief. then generations learned the lovely scenery and communal refrain while frequently missing the economic argument. america proved capable of teaching children the tune while becoming strangely forgetful about what the writer was pissed off about. a protest song can survive everywhere and still have pieces of its meaning amputated. 
by the early sixties, bob dylan made moral interrogation commercially magnetic. blowin in the wind asked about freedom, death, and deliberate blindness. masters of war dispensed with the diplomatic niceties and addressed the people profiting from organized killing. what made those songs travel was not a stack of policy recommendations. it was the language, the repetition, the sense that somebody had finally said the obvious thing everyone kept arranging furniture around. their portability was also a risk. broad language reaches strangers, but strangers can congratulate themselves for agreeing without changing a damn thing. 
sam cooke brought the argument into soul with a change is gonna come in 1964. listen to the tension between the orchestration and the voice. the arrangement offers grandeur, but cooke sounds like somebody who has paid for every inch of hope. this is not optimism purchased cheaply. his song became a civil rights anthem because its promise carried exhaustion inside it. popular music did not have to abandon pleasure or beauty to address injustice. it could make beauty communicate what another speech might leave untouched. 
nina simone had considerably less interest in reassuring anybody. she wrote mississippi goddam after the murder of medgar evers and the birmingham church bombing that killed four girls in 1963. the brisk theatrical bounce is part of the attack. people hear the familiar shape of entertainment and then discover what she has put inside it. discussing the record on the steve allen show in 1964, she described copies being broken and returned in protest. some listeners could apparently tolerate the conditions behind the song more easily than its title. exquisite fucking priorities. 
in an interview preserved on her official website, simone also said she hoped eventually to sing more love songs, when protest became less urgent. remember that before turning her into an endlessly available monument to righteous anger. she wanted a different world partly because she wanted room to sing differently. the burden of representing suffering is still a burden, even when critics describe it as artistic destiny and give themselves the afternoon off. 
the vietnam era made the relationship between mass entertainment and public dissent impossible to ignore. after seeing life magazine photographs of the kent state shootings, neil young wrote ohio. crosby, stills, nash and young recorded it on may 21, 1970, less than three weeks after the killings. the speed was essential. this was a record entering an argument before the official commemorations could smooth its edges. it named nixon. it refused the comforting possibility that nobody in particular was responsible. rock could respond to the news while people were still fighting over what the news meant. 
marvin gaye widened the form with whats going on in 1971. war, poverty, environmental destruction, and everyday distress belonged on the same album because they belonged to the same lives. speaking to biographer david ritz, gaye connected his anger to the stories his brother frankie brought home from vietnam. berry gordy initially disliked the title track. its eventual success exposed the limits of industry assumptions about what audiences would accept. the music was sensuous, layered, humane. political seriousness did not require making a record nobody wanted to play twice. 
and no, this history does not stop at the american border while everyone else waits for the next dylan reissue. in nigeria, fela kuti made afrobeat a sustained confrontation with military authority. zombie ridiculed obedience through martial commands and answering voices, all carried by grooves that gave the accusation time to settle into the body. following its release, soldiers attacked his kalakuta compound in 1977. his mother was thrown from a window and died the following year. the consequences were physical, catastrophic, and irreducible to the romantic idea of a controversial artist. a government did not need to write a bad review when it had soldiers. 
britain offered another model through rock against racism. emerging in 1976, it connected gigs and organizing against racist violence and the far right. the clash and steel pulse were among the performers at its major 1978 carnival. punk and reggae audiences were being brought into an explicitly political relationship. that was an achievement a lyric alone could not guarantee. the event, the people sharing the space, and the work required to get them there were part of the message. music became a reason to assemble, and assembly gave the music somewhere useful to go. 
hip hop made that relationship between sound and public life even harder to dismiss. public enemy sounded crowded with history, arguments, alarms, and people refusing to wait their turn. fight the power was commissioned for the spike lee film do the right thing in 1989. in a later npr interview, chuck d explained that its notorious discussion of elvis and john wayne answered the dispute in the film over the absence of black people on a pizzeria wall. the record was arguing about who gets represented, who gets celebrated, and who is expected to accept the decorations. the context sharpens what easy outrage usually blurs. 
the production was political too, though not because a sample automatically possesses correct opinions. the bomb squad made musical memory feel active and contested. fragments collided instead of politely taking turns. you could dance to it, but you could not mistake it for agreeable background noise. public enemy expanded the sonic vocabulary of protest beyond the solitary singer explaining the world over acoustic guitar. anger could be collective, technologically inventive, rhythmically irresistible. a political record could demand attention through how it was built as much as through what it said.
none of this meant the industry had developed a dependable affection for dissent. in 2003, natalie maines criticized george w. bush before the iraq invasion, and country radio turned against the dixie chicks. angry listeners destroyed records. this was punishment for speech from artists whose music had been enthusiastically welcomed moments earlier. the lesson was not subtle. a business can sell independence as a personality trait while treating an actual independent judgment as a contractual defect. people love fearless women in the abstract. the particular woman standing at the microphone often gets a different reception. 
then a song leaves its maker and becomes something else in public. kendrick lamar released alright in 2015, and protesters took up its refrain. in a recording academy oral history, producer sounwave said he had not expected it to become a protest song. terrace martin remembered crying at the sight of young people marching to it. there is the old process again, recognizable across enormous musical differences. people hear something they need, remove the distance between performer and audience, and use it. nobody has to file a formal application to turn a record into a freedom song. 
this is where the grand claims need some discipline. songs do not repeal legislation by being excellent. they do not replace organizing, money, legal work, or the miserable persistence required after the cameras disappear. their effects are harder to isolate. they help people gather. they make an experience speakable. they preserve details that official accounts would prefer to generalize. sometimes they introduce a listener to a struggle. sometimes they sustain people already inside it. sometimes they merely sell the satisfying sensation of having taken a position. all of those possibilities can occupy the same record.
and popularity cuts both ways. a huge audience gives a political song reach, then invites everybody with a marketing budget to sand away whatever makes it inconvenient. the cure is not demanding obscure music that only twelve impeccably informed people can enjoy. the cure is listening closely. who is speaking. what happened. who is being asked to change. a protest song needs more than a vague enemy and a crowd enjoying its own goodness. the finest ones put pressure on the listener, including the listener who assumed the accusation was meant exclusively for somebody else.
the history is messy because people are messy. brave musicians can be selfish, movements can disagree, and a magnificent record can fail to persuade the person who most needs persuading. still, listen to holiday make a room stop eating. listen to simone refuse patience. listen to a crowd claim a chorus and become audible to itself. no miracle has occurred. people have found enough breath to continue, and somebody who preferred their silence has to hear them. that is a limited achievement. it is also a hell of a thing to keep doing.
…at least that’s what i hear

1 am. in the throes of alcohol and various pills. follow some people down a staircase into some college basement makeshift “artistic creative space.” coffee, strong and out of some maker with the civility of being a mr. cigarettes over pot over body odors over the coffee from yesterday. shit like r.e.m. and wilco playing from a second generation ipod because “it sounds better.” purely nonsense. you want it to sound so. so it does. i mean, people wanted leonard cohen to do anything but pseudo-romantic poetry over finger picked chords that sound like when i first got a guitar. commandeer the rectangle and put on soul coughing and the familiar machinery of a rock band starts behaving improperly. the guitar scratches. the drums insist. the voice sounds simultaneously distracted and absolutely certain it has somewhere to take you. nobody hands over a map. thank fuck. we have enough music explaining exactly how to feel before the first chorus has finished insulting our intelligence.
soul coughing formed in new york in 1992, around mike doughty, then a doorman at the knitting factory. the lineup put his voice and guitar alongside sebastian steinberg on upright bass, yuval gabay on drums, and mark de gli antoni on keyboards and sampler. hip hop, particularly a tribe called quest, helped shape the ambition. doughty wanted the rhythmic possibilities without pretending he was an mc. the result landed in alternative rock because apparently somebody needed to know which shelf to dust. 
listen underneath the talking. 
steinberg made an upright bass feel physically necessary. gabay could keep a beat brutally definite while making everything around it twitch. de gli antoni treated recorded sound as playable material, inserting fragments that could change the emotional temperature of a song. doughty gave the whole arrangement a human problem. his voice could nag, croon, mutter, then repeat something apparently ridiculous until it became the only reasonable thing anybody had said all day. four distinct personalities, audible at once. try getting that past a committee.
even the name arrived through an admirably stupid misunderstanding. in a 1996 virginian pilot interview, steinberg recalled a friend using soul coughing to mean vomiting. doughty assumed it was established slang and wrote a poem about neil young throwing up in a van. the poem apparently stank. the name survived. there you have artistic development, edit ruthlessly, preserve the puke. 
their 1994 debut, ruby vroom, made that unlikely ensemble sound enormous. producer tchad blake helped give the bass and drums their extraordinary physical presence. the spaces between sounds feel occupied, charged, liable to produce something you did not invite. sugar free jazz makes repetition feel slippery. true dreams of wichita lets tenderness surface without sanding away the strangeness. you can enjoy the record for its rhythmic pleasure and still find yourself following some stray sound into a much lonelier room. 
the easy critical reflex was to stamp beat poetry across doughty and move along. in a 2012 ringmaster review interview, his stated influences included david letterman and playwright david mamet, alongside the replacements and hip hop artists. that makes useful sense. listen for absurdity, timing, the pleasure of a sentence landing wrong in precisely the right place. his delivery can make an ordinary word feel suspicious. meaning is present, but it does not always get the best seat. 
irresistible bliss followed in 1996, with super bon bon and soft serve bringing the hooks into sharper focus. super bon bon is particularly good at making you forget that you have heard it before. the bass starts working on your posture, the vocal gets impatient, and suddenly the room has acquired instructions. catchy music can still be peculiar. somebody should notify the people manufacturing personality by the streaming metric. 
steinberg explained that increased directness to the virginian pilot through eighteen months of touring. the songs had become more concentrated through playing. he also recalled a los angeles showcase full of record people watching one another for permission to have an opinion. performing screenwriter blues, he said, shut them up. a wonderfully economical anecdote about an industry capable of hiring several people to determine whether one person is enjoying himself. 
by 1998, el oso pushed further into electronic rhythm. circles offered a particularly immediate hook, while the album explored drum and bass influences. my favorite thing about this phase is the sense of musicians negotiating with repetition. the beat keeps proposing order. the details keep disturbing it. even at their most accessible, soul coughing could make a pop song feel slightly misaligned, and therefore worth another listen. 
then the people making it stopped being able to keep making it together.
the band broke up in 2000. doughty later described addiction and bitter conflict, including disputes over songwriting and publishing. his 2012 memoir, the book of drugs, referred to the other musicians by their instruments rather than their names. in a laist interview that year, he stressed that the account represented his perspective and that others would probably disagree. keep that distinction intact. a memoir gives you a witness, with memories and grievances. it does not appoint you judge of everybody else in the room. 
there is nothing especially romantic about being miserable inside a band that makes other people happy. the audience gets the record. the musicians have to inhabit the relationships. confusing those experiences is how fans start treating another human being like a jukebox with an inconvenient medical history.
which made the 2024 reunion unexpectedly moving. doughty reached out by email. in the reunion announcement, he praised the individual instrumental voices and the rhythm section. steinberg described relief and acknowledged shared responsibility for dysfunction. the two had also spent nearly two hours beside the los angeles river discussing songs. after years of public bitterness, two people sitting down and talking about music feels almost indecently sensible. they returned to the stage that september. 
what survives is the peculiar balance. remove the bass and the music loses its weight. remove the samples and the scenery stops arguing. remove the drums and the tension slackens. remove doughty and the beautiful contraption loses its troublesome narrator. you can spend decades litigating who supplied the essential ingredient. meanwhile, the record keeps demonstrating what happened when all four were there. put it on. let the strange bits finish their sentences.
…at least that’s what i hear.

NOTICE: my idea of obscure may be different than yours. accept it.

pluck. the obscuritree.

five voices fill the space until the room seems too small for the people inside it. one man is making a promise. the others keep answering him, and the promise grows harder to dismiss. this is how ollie and the nightingales get your attention. no elaborate introduction, no explanation of their cultural importance. just a singer making ordinary words sound as if somebody will have to live with them. somewhere outside that sound, a record company is deciding who owns it. the singers can settle the emotional question. the paperwork will take considerably longer.
start with i got a sure thing. ollie hoskins sings with the force of someone who considers reassurance an active responsibility. he does not simply report that things are good. he works at making you believe it. the voices around him give the declaration weight without removing its vulnerability. confidence and need can occupy the same phrase. this is useful information about human beings, delivered in a format that also allows you to dance. we have spent decades developing more complicated entertainment that accomplishes considerably less.
released in february 1968, the record reached number 16 on the rhythm and blues chart and number 73 on the pop chart. booker t. jones produced it. the writing credit names jones, william bell and hoskins himself. some summaries manage to lose ollie from that last sentence, which is a familiar occupational hazard for singers who are discussed primarily as voices. apparently having the voice is plenty. asking to be remembered for contributing the song starts to look greedy. 
the group had already spent years learning its business. before the secular records, before the name ollie and the nightingales, there were the gospel writer juniors, also called the gospel writer junior boys. the memphis lineup included hoskins, nelson lesure, bill davis, willie neal and rochester neal. hoskins was born in batesville, mississippi, in 1936. these were men with a musical history, colleagues and an audience before stax introduced them to buyers who preferred their devotion directed toward someone available for dinner. 
according to jared boyd, writing for stax, the name dixie nightingales combined the names of two admired gospel groups, the dixie hummingbirds and the sensational nightingales. sensible enough. musicians once admitted who they listened to without commissioning a statement about their unique creative journey. the group recorded for pepper in the late fifties, then nashboro, before moving to chalice, the gospel imprint associated with stax executive al bell. the label changes can make the story appear tidy. the musical development was already underway. 
gospel tends to receive peculiar treatment in histories of soul. everybody acknowledges its importance, then hurries through it to reach the records they recognize. the church becomes a convenient explanation for why somebody could sing, as though attendance automatically provided breath control and a working knowledge of harmony. it provided a setting. the singers still had to learn. somebody had to find the right entrance, keep the pitch, listen to the lead and avoid turning an expressive response into an interruption. spiritual commitment did not excuse being fucking flat.
the nightingales had the benefit of working as a group, which means they also had the difficulty of working as a group. the lead cannot take every available inch. the supporting singers cannot treat precision as a reason to stop responding. a strong ensemble has to remain alert inside an arrangement it may have performed repeatedly. that is labor, and much of it becomes invisible when it succeeds. we call the result natural, then wonder why replacing one person changes everything.
david ruffin passed through the dixie nightingales before his fame with the temptations. there is the connection guaranteed to rescue a short biography from being ignored. useful information, certainly. also an excellent opportunity to remember that these men were not assembled for the purpose of anticipating somebody more famous. the association tells us how singers moved through overlapping musical communities. it does not tell us that the group became interesting only when a future star entered the room. 
i keep returning to those connections because they correct the way record labels encourage us to hear history. memphis over here, detroit over there, separate shelves, separate identities, all beautifully manageable. the people involved were less cooperative. they moved, changed groups, listened, carried habits from one job to another. a singer could absorb something in a gospel ensemble and use it years later in a different city. no corporation had to approve the transfer. naturally, the corporation was happy to sell the result as its own distinctive sound.
hoskins was also writing. one especially revealing song was assassination, his response to the murder of john f. kennedy. boyd reports that resistance to the material at nashboro helped lead the group toward stax, where it appeared on chalice in 1965. here was a gospel singer choosing to address a public event in his own material. he was not waiting for a secular career to acquire an interest in the world. the world had already supplied something worth singing about, and the existing label apparently needed persuading. 
this is where the familiar account of leaving gospel for the real world starts to become ridiculous. people attending church knew about death, political violence, money and disappointment. they were not spending the rest of the week suspended in religious abstraction. gospel could address experience beyond the conventional devotional subjects because its audience had experience beyond those subjects. assassination belongs in the story as evidence of artistic judgment. hoskins had something he wanted to say, and the willingness to take it somewhere else.
by 1968 the group was recording secular material as ollie and the nightingales. willie neal left during the transition, and quincy billops jr., formerly of the mad lads, joined. the change is often reduced to a personnel note. it was also a reminder that a commercial decision could alter what the group understood itself to be. we do not have to invent an argument to acknowledge the difference. a better chance at selling records does not settle every question about the work you are prepared to do. 
the business calls that an opportunity.
the person considering it still has to decide.
william bell offers some useful context in his interview with soul express. discussing his own you dont miss your water, he recalled that jim stewart initially considered it too gospel orientated. estelle axton supported its release. this was an earlier bell recording, not a nightingales session, but the anecdote complicates the comfortable idea that stax always knew exactly what stax was. the sound later presented as inevitable involved disagreement. somebody heard a problem where somebody else heard a record worth releasing. 
that is worth remembering whenever a company congratulates itself for possessing taste. companies contain people with different ears and different amounts of authority. a good decision can depend on the person who refuses to let a bad one stand. axton deserves attention in that story because the result was not produced by institutional wisdom acting automatically. someone advocated for the music. eventually the successful record becomes evidence that the institution was brilliant all along. efficient arrangement. very economical with the embarrassment.
bell also described long stretches of touring, working one night engagements and building an audience through direct performance. those recollections help restore the practical setting around the records. a song had to reach people who had not arrived to validate its historical importance. some were listening closely. some were talking. some wanted to dance. the singer had to establish a reason to pay attention before the room found something else to do. the discipline behind a concise soul record was partly the discipline of having been ignored and learning how to prevent a recurrence. 
keep william bell and al bell distinct while following this. william was the singer and songwriter who helped write i got a sure thing. al was the executive involved with chalice and the secular direction. the shared surname is a small complication, but small complications are where bad summaries begin. add booker t. jones, hoskins, the harmony singers and the people responsible for the recording, and the hit becomes a collaboration rather than a miracle attributed to whichever name the writer recognized first.
then the business supplied a particularly instructive inconvenience. when the self titled ollie and the nightingales album appeared in 1969, i got a sure thing was absent. the split between stax and atlantic had left the earlier recording with atlantic. the group could appear on the cover of its own album without its biggest hit appearing inside. the consumer might reasonably have assumed the artist and the recording belonged together. consumers are forever misunderstanding the finer points of being disappointed. 
the ownership issue did not singlehandedly determine the career. pretending otherwise would replace one lazy story with another. it did place a practical obstacle between an identifiable hit and an album that might have benefited from containing it. this is the kind of detail that disappears when we discuss records exclusively as artistic statements. sometimes a missing song reflects a choice. sometimes it reflects a contract. listeners hear the result either way, while critics generously supply an artistic explanation nobody requested.
fortunately, the album has more to offer than the story of what it lacks. booker t. jones, isaac hayes and david porter are associated with its production. those names establish the level of talent around the group, but they should not obscure the group itself. hoskins brings a grain and pressure to his delivery that resist anonymous prettiness. the supporting voices create a different kind of presence. they can make a declaration feel shared without making the individual disappear into it. 
listen for that relationship before becoming distracted by the reputation of the studio. a harmony part can do more than decorate a lead. it can make a thought seem confirmed, questioned by implication, or too important to be left with one speaker. the nightingales give emotional statements a public setting. someone has heard what ollie is saying. someone responds. much of the power of this music comes from that simple arrangement, particularly when the subject is the fear of being left alone.
dont do what i did offers a useful example of the moral position these songs can occupy. the title puts the speaker in the business of advising someone after having made a mistake himself. a less interesting singer might turn that into a sermon. the more productive possibility is embarrassment, the uncomfortable awareness that experience has supplied knowledge at an unreasonable price. there is no reason to assume the singer personally committed every offense described in a song. acting is part of singing, despite the persistent demand that soul performers provide autobiographical evidence for every convincing feeling.
i like the compromised authority of that position. advice from a man who admits failure can be more useful than advice from a man who claims he never had any. the second fellow is usually selling something. the first may still be trying to understand what happened. a song can preserve that uncertainty while remaining direct. it need not explain every incident. the voice supplies the difference between a general warning and a person who has finally found a reason to offer one.
youre leaving me, written by eddie floyd, booker t. jones and al bell, addresses a similarly awkward situation. ian mccann describes the use of strings and brass around its approaching separation. the premise leaves the singer with very little room to protect his dignity. the departure is developing in the present. he cannot safely describe it as an old disappointment or claim he has moved on. popular music has made a substantial contribution to human understanding simply by allowing people to remain in that embarrassing interval for the duration of a record. 
elsewhere the album titles keep returning to responsibility and treatment. youll never do wrong. dont make the good suffer. mellow way you treat your man. the language is ordinary, sometimes blunt, and hardly immune to the assumptions of its period. we do not need to declare every romantic proposition admirable to hear the interest in conduct. people want loyalty, affection and recognition. people also behave like selfish idiots. a considerable portion of soul music concerns the delay between those two facts becoming apparent to the same person.
there is gratitude here as well, and criticism tends to shortchange gratitude. despair arrives with its credentials already accepted. happiness is asked whether it has anything more serious to contribute. hoskins and the group deserve to be heard for the conviction they bring to pleasure, reassurance and appreciation. sounding happy without sounding vacant is an achievement. the availability of terrible cheerful music does not make contentment itself an inferior subject. sometimes a person has been treated well and wants to acknowledge it before finding a way to fuck things up.
there is a temptation with a singer like hoskins to praise the roughness and stop there. roughness is a texture. it does not automatically constitute expression. what interests me is the way an abrasive sound can carry affection, how insistence can remain warm, how a phrase can seem strained without losing its direction. merely sounding distressed is easy enough. public life is full of people accomplishing it without rehearsal. making distress intelligible, and giving it a proportion that serves a song, requires considerably more judgment.
the same applies to the harmonies. calling them beautiful is fair, but beauty is only part of their function. they establish relationships between voices. they allow the lead to occupy a position rather than simply dominate the available volume. the listener can hear an individual and a collective at once. that is particularly valuable in music about dependence, the humiliating discovery that another person has become important enough to affect your ability to behave normally. the group gives that dependence a musical form without needing to explain it.
none of this makes ollie and the nightingales flawless, or obliges every listener to rank them above better known contemporaries. that competitive reflex has wasted enough ink. the purpose of paying closer attention is to hear distinctions, not to manufacture another winner. a history with room for these singers becomes more accurate, more crowded and less obedient to the promotional decisions that originally determined which names appeared in the largest type.
by 1969, extended and psychedelic approaches were changing the possibilities of soul. hayes was central to that expansion. the nightingales worked largely within concise forms, which makes them easy to describe as traditional and then set aside. the word can be accurate without being sufficient. an established form still requires decisions. where to press a phrase, how long to sustain it, when the group should answer. none becomes irrelevant because another artist has discovered a use for a longer running time.
i have little patience for the assumption that music develops according to a single schedule. a record can be contemporary without sounding like the newest development in its field. listeners are not all having the same experience at the same moment. some need the extended exploration. some need the song that says the thing directly and gets out of their way. musical history becomes considerably less interesting when every artist is graded on how quickly he adopted the innovations that later historians chose to emphasize.
nor does obscurity improve a record. collectors sometimes behave as though difficulty of purchase were an audible quality. it is possible to own something rare and dull. the nightingales deserve attention because the music supports it, not because recognizing the name establishes superior taste. the reverse mistake is treating chart performance as a complete assessment. sales document circulation. they do not establish how deeply a record affected the people who bought it, or how long those people continued to hear something useful in it.
hoskins left in 1970 and worked as ollie nightingale. tommy tate became the lead singer of the remaining nightingales, who made further stax singles. bill davis, quincy billops jr. and rochester neal later joined the ovations. the changes make the story less convenient to package, but they also reveal how much continuity survives a breakup. experience stays with the people who earned it. they do not surrender their ability to harmonize when the most familiar name leaves the billing. 
hoskins continued into the southern soul circuit, eventually recording for ecko. his later work included ill drink your bathwater, baby, a title admirably unconcerned with whether a future retrospective would consider it dignified. devotion had become sufficiently excessive to admit a joke. that should not require an apology. adult music can include vanity, sex and ridiculous promises alongside tenderness. respectability often improves the presentation of an artist by removing precisely the behavior that made the artist recognizable as a person. 
ecko founder john ward, in recollections published by daddy b. nice, described coming to memphis interested in blues and finding black musicians largely playing soul. he remembered the excitement generated by z. z. hills down home blues. the account helps explain the environment of the later nightingale recordings. categories were changing through the choices of musicians and audiences. a singer could continue working through those changes without receiving permission from the standard history of the genre, which had generally found a convenient stopping point years earlier. 
hoskins died in memphis on october 26, 1997. i would rather leave him with the work than manufacture a grand tragedy from his relative absence in the usual conversation. the nightingales do not require pity. they require time, ears and a little resistance to the habit of letting recognition determine value. put on the records. follow the responses as closely as the lead. notice how much intelligence is required to make a promise sound believable. the music business supplied plenty of reasons to distrust one. ollie and the nightingales kept making the case anyway. 
…at least that’s what i hear.

ok. so. imagine the chandeliers coming loose. all that crystal trembling over the roast beef while the guests continue discussing property. somebody has barricaded the servants entrance. somebody has misplaced the key. the orchestra has been instructed to disregard the noise from the village, which is getting harder to disregard because certain noises travel through stone. uncle acid and the deadbeats have made an album for this imaginary occasion. shapes of midnight. eight songs for people who suspect the dinner party has gone terribly wrong but remain, against their better judgment, interested in the band.
that is the unpleasant little attraction here. enjoyment. your own enjoyment, specifically. horror becomes interesting when you cannot maintain a comfortable distance from whatever disgusts you. you want the chorus again. you want another helping. you understand perfectly well that something is rotten and find yourself admiring the arrangement anyway. i have considerably more faith in music that can put a listener in that position than music that hands you a villain, confirms your excellent moral character and sends you home feeling educationally enriched.

uncle acid released shapes of midnight on september eighteen through killer candy records. roughly forty five minutes. a manageable commitment to an unmanageable state of mind. following the cinematic experiment of nell ora blu, the new record restores heavier guitars and conventional songs without discarding the keyboards and broader textures. that last part is crucial to its premise. an excursion ought to leave evidence. otherwise you spent two years finding yourself only to discover you were exactly where your publicist left you. 

i get nervous when people announce a return to form. usually someone has stopped doing something interesting. the audience applauds, the reviews become reassuring, and the artist begins a long supervised retreat into the one thing everybody already agreed they could do. very sensible. very professional. also a depressing fucking way to spend a life. the more compelling possibility here is that the band brought its expanded imagination back to the songs. familiarity with an altered expression. somebody you recognize who has clearly been somewhere you have not.

house by the grave supplies the heavy guitar foundation. the title track introduces organ and a more buoyant rhythmic movement, as the account in the razors edge describes. there is something wonderfully disreputable about allowing music this concerned with menace to move its body. doom can become so concerned with its dignity. all those men standing around looking as though someone has just explained the mortgage. meanwhile a little rhythmic elasticity can make an arrangement feel less predictable, less secure, more alive. the floor need not collapse. a slight movement underneath your feet will do. 
and yes, the melody. we should probably discuss the melody before another committee decides that a memorable tune constitutes ideological surrender. i love heavy music. i love its excesses, its ridiculous convictions, its ability to turn a roomful of strangers into people briefly willing to trust one another. i am less fond of being told that pleasure must be rationed to preserve credibility. give me something to sing badly. give me something that survives the amplifier being switched off. volume is magnificent. volume with nothing underneath it eventually becomes a maintenance complaint.

when evil wakes broadens the keyboard presence. published descriptions identify organ colors associated with the doors and iron butterfly, with blues inflected guitar moving through the arrangement. this is where instrumentation can become psychological. a held keyboard tone occupies space differently from a guitar attack. one lingers while the other makes its threat. a song acquires another source of tension without requiring everybody to play harder, louder, harder again, until the music resembles an argument being conducted entirely by people who have forgotten the subject. 

but hold on. before we get carried away congratulating old instruments on remaining old. i refuse to believe an amplifier becomes honest after its fortieth birthday. some of the most dishonest people i know are older than that. antique equipment can reproduce a vacant idea beautifully. it can preserve every precious detail of a song that should have been abandoned before lunch. the value lies in what a musician does with the resistance. the inconvenience. the little failure that forces a decision. fetishize the date on the casing and you are collecting furniture.
kevin starrs supplied a better argument in his interview with nick ruskell at kerrang. the abbey road sessions took three days. achieving the desired saturation involved feeding a neve desk into an old emi desk. magnificent. all that distinguished equipment being encouraged to behave improperly. starrs also complained about modern rock sounding clean and processed and sanitised. his objection makes sense as a personal aesthetic. it becomes less useful as a universal law. a computer can make extraordinary music. tape can document an expensive absence of ideas. 

what i respond to is the impatience with excessive correction. the urge to leave some abrasion in the performance. i want evidence that choices were made by people whose hands sometimes slipped and whose attention occasionally wandered toward something more interesting than the plan. that does not mean incompetence is sacred. incompetence can be terribly dull. it means perfection should serve an intention rather than become the intention, because at some point you have removed every irregularity and are left wondering why the thing no longer seems to breathe.

dont let it control you is the briefest track, under four minutes, with published accounts emphasizing faster movement and an insistent bass line. a useful interruption. longer songs establish their own habits, and then something concise arrives with enough conviction to make the habits look negotiable. this is one of the pleasures of sequencing. the same song can feel merely short in one position and almost insolent in another. suddenly there is urgency. suddenly nobody has time to give you the complete family history of the riff. 

i appreciate that. my attention span has survived a great deal of abuse from musicians convinced that repetition automatically becomes transcendence somewhere around minute seven. sometimes it does. sometimes you are simply still there. a band working with horror ought to understand anticipation and release, the difference between making somebody wait and making somebody forget why they were waiting. there is discipline in knowing when to leave. there is also a particular arrogance in assuming atmosphere will cover every unpaid bill.

then psycho on the loose brings eighties flavored synthesizers and a stronger classic metal emphasis. heavy blog is heavy hears a judas priest connection and singles out the hook. the title alone suggests a welcome lapse in decorum. a little vulgarity. some enjoyment insufficiently supervised by taste. good. horror loses something when it becomes too embarrassed by its own entertainment value. you can discuss class, death and moral corruption while allowing a chorus to behave like it has had three drinks more than the rest of the record. 

nobody needs another tasteful nightmare.
the saxophone in i wont sleep til youre gone provides another disruption of expectation. at the barrier identifies rachel burnett as the keyboard and saxophone contributor carried over from the previous touring setup, and emphasizes the horn part here. the interest goes beyond novelty. a saxophone changes the shape of a phrase. it can press against the beat, smear the edge of a note, introduce a physical quality that another guitar might only reinforce. a band gains possibilities when it allows a new instrument to change the conversation. 

i wish more discussions of supposedly retro music would stay with those decisions. the word retro can stop thought dead. somebody recognizes a texture and considers the matter settled. nineteen seventy something. filed. next. but the useful question is why those materials belong together now. what the organ does to the guitar. what the horn does to the rhythm. whether a borrowed vocabulary produces a sentence worth saying. influences are easy to identify. necessity takes a little longer, and necessity is what i want from a record asking for my undivided attention.
the other side of the sky opens further instrumental space, with accounts noting synthesizers and substantial rhythmic drive. placed near the end, that expansion has an interesting structural purpose. a record can widen its perspective before closing in again. the journey need not require another twenty minutes. this is the part of cinematic ambition i find persuasive. relationships between sections. changes in scale. the sense that where you have been affects where you are going. calling something cinematic because it includes a spooky keyboard is getting a little fucking generous. 

the story gives that movement a destination. starrs told kerrang he imagined wealthy people sheltered in a mansion while violence consumed the world outside, then recognized the resemblance to the masque of the red death. he also recalled audiences walking out during performances of the previous album. i rather like those two details together. the artist constructing an enclosed world while accepting that actual people may refuse to remain inside it. elsewhere in the interview he remembered ozzy welcoming them as a support act in 2013. approval from sabbath, disapproval from portions of the audience. a reasonably balanced diet. 
the mansion, though. that image has a nasty durability. the belief that enough money will convert catastrophe into a problem happening somewhere else. purchase distance. purchase silence. purchase a person to explain that the screaming is normal for this part of the country. nothing supernatural is required. that is what makes the premise useful. the audience recognizes the arrangement before the first impossible event. the supernatural arrives late to a situation that human beings have already made perfectly appalling.

and here is where i start arguing with the whole thing, because enthusiasm without resistance becomes publicity, and nobody needs me for publicity. political horror can flatter its audience. show us sufficiently monstrous rich people and we get to feel wonderfully innocent. we would never behave like that. we would open the gates. certainly we would. just let us finish this glass. the harder question concerns the smaller comforts we protect while other people absorb the consequences. horror has more work to do once the obvious villains have been identified.
sleep no more closes with blues rooted movement and organ. published coverage also describes a spoken conclusion and a more direct confrontation with suffering outside the imagined horror world. that puts considerable pressure on the ending. the accusation has to emerge from the music instead of arriving after it with a clipboard. an album can sustain an argument through rhythm and arrangement, through what it withholds, through an unresolved feeling. it does not necessarily need to explain itself. sometimes explanation is where the disturbance starts wearing off. 

there are limits to the aesthetic. of course there are. grave. evil. psycho. the language comes furnished, and somebody unmoved by the furniture may see little reason to enter. devotion should be capable of admitting that. a recognizable identity can become a place to hide. impeccable influences can become an alibi. i want this band to keep risking the irritation of people who already love it, because affection can become a terrible employer. very generous initially. then the instructions arrive.

what draws me toward shapes of midnight is the possibility of appetite surviving experience. the broader instrumentation brought back into songs. the insistence that a grim idea can accommodate pleasure. the willingness to let melody make the situation more uncomfortable instead of reassuring everyone that discomfort is the sole objective. there is room here for a band to be intelligent, ridiculous, angry and attractive in the same passage. that combination is worth pursuing. i have had enough of records that select one approved personality and maintain it for professional reasons.

back at the banquet, the guests are still eating. of course they are. nobody abandons an expensive meal over an ambiguous sound. the band has another song ready, and someone near the head of the table is beginning to recognize the subject. perhaps they will object. perhaps they will demand something lighter. perhaps they will simply discover that they like the chorus. that last possibility is the one worth worrying about. pleasure can expose us. it can also help us ignore absolutely anything. uncle acid have chosen a very interesting room in which to play.

…at least that’s what i hear.

receipts. 
uncle acid and the deadbeats. shapes of midnight. killer candy records. september eighteen, twenty twenty six. the official release page and track listing. the body around which this entire investigation has been conducted. 

nick ruskell. interview with kevin starrs. kerrang. september eighteen, twenty twenty six. abbey road, abused recording equipment, sabbath approval and the considerable inconvenience of having artistic convictions. the principal source for the interview material. 

rick eaglestone. shapes of midnight album review. at the barrier. september seventeen, twenty twenty six. personnel, saxophone, the mansion and the unpleasant business outside its gates. 
jordan jerabek. shapes of midnight album review. heavy blog is heavy. september eighteen, twenty twenty six. synthesizers, metal hooks and evidence that the previous detour left something useful behind. 

matthew williams. shapes of midnight album review. the razors edge. september fifteen, twenty twenty six. arrangements, rhythm and the recurring suspicion that this horror show would like you to dance. 

zachary nathanson. shapes of midnight album review. echoes and dust. august twenty eight, twenty twenty six. organ textures, cinematic connections and assorted disturbances in the instrumental department. 

tim bolitho jones. shapes of midnight album review. distorted sound. september twenty twenty six. additional musical descriptions, including the closing track. another witness to the noise. 

[originally published in New York Times 2025]

i have stood beside stages while twenty thousand people sang one wounded sentence back at the man who wrote it. the sound seemed capable of lifting the whole fucking building off its foundations. then i have followed that same man through a service door and watched him search for somewhere to sit. the transformation takes seconds. a moment ago he was indispensable. now somebody wants his signature, somebody needs a decision, and the sandwich left for him has acquired the texture of packing material. the audience goes home carrying something. the singer still has to carry himself.
we keep confusing those two things. we hear a musician articulate despair and assume the articulation has cured it. we see a sold out room and assume loneliness has been professionally eliminated. money, admiration, sex, significance. the whole grubby shopping list of things we are told will make existence worth the inconvenience. surely anybody who gets the complete package ought to be grateful enough to stay well. depression, apparently, should check the royalty statement and apologize.
what a spectacularly stupid understanding of suffering.
but another stupidity needs clearing out first. eight famous deaths do not establish that famous musicians, as a group, are uniquely prone to suicide. scott hutchison, chester bennington, kurt cobain, chris cornell, ian curtis, naomi judd, jill janus, and sulli were different people living under different conditions. their deaths cannot tell us a population rate, and fame cannot serve as a complete explanation. suicide usually involves interacting factors. mental illness, substance use, physical pain, isolation, and acute personal stresses can contribute. none makes death inevitable. the national institute of mental health explicitly describes suicide as complex, without a single cause. 
there is evidence that working in music deserves serious concern. the 2023 uk musicians census found that thirty percent of respondents reported poor mental wellbeing. lower earning musicians fared worse than the highest earners. that is a survey of musicians, not proof that celebrity causes suicide, and poor wellbeing is not interchangeable with suicidal behavior. the distinction matters because otherwise we produce another handsome piece of bullshit about the price of genius while ignoring people who cannot afford rent, never mind a spectacular downfall. 
fame can buy treatment and financial breathing room. it can also turn ordinary vulnerability into public property. the useful question is how its demands interact with the person already living underneath them.
scott hutchison used to catch me reaching for the notebook and look at me as though i had produced a parking ticket. one afternoon we sat at a table that rocked every time either of us moved. i slid a folded receipt underneath it. scott watched the operation with extravagant patience.
a useful contribution to the arts, archivist. finally.
i told him my rate had just doubled. he laughed and went back to drawing on a scrap of paper. that is where i want to begin with him. an uneven table. a stupid joke. the pleasure of somebody being there. frightened rabbit could give an audience room for its ugliest feelings, but scott was never merely the custodian of everybody else and their sadness.
in a 2010 gq interview, hutchison explained that the winter of mixed drinks used more fictionalized writing, partly because his own life had become more contented. he also resisted the assumption that listeners needed to know the personal circumstances behind every lyric. here was an artist discussing invention, distance, and interpretation. a songwriter, for fucks sake, doing the work of songwriting. 
after a suicide, people often go back through the catalogue with the certainty of detectives who already know the ending. every sad line becomes a prediction. every recording becomes evidence. this is unfair to the dead and hazardous for the living. writing about despair does not make someone destined to die. it can be an act of communication, imaginative exploration, or survival. we should take direct expressions of suicidal distress seriously without pretending that an album is a psychiatric assessment.
hutchison died in 2018. his family subsequently established tiny changes, a charity supporting young people and their mental health. that response puts something practical beside the grief.  it also points toward a better way of hearing frightened rabbit. the music can continue helping people without requiring its author to become a supernatural guardian of everybody who listens. he was allowed to need care himself. being useful to thousands of strangers never cancelled that entitlement.
i remember a different afternoon when somebody stopped scott to explain what a song had meant to them. i stepped aside. the conversation belonged to those two people. afterward i almost asked what it felt like to hear something so enormous. instead we went looking for food. i am glad the memory contains that ordinary errand. gratitude can be beautiful, but the person receiving it still needs lunch, company, a day that is not entirely about being meaningful. scott did not owe me an explanation of how it felt to be scott.
chester once caught me describing a concert as cathartic and made me explain what i meant. we were sitting on plastic chairs beside a corridor full of people wearing credentials. i began doing the critic thing, arranging respectable words around an experience i had barely examined.
for who, he asked.
i stopped. then admitted i meant the audience. he nodded, and we let the conversation wander elsewhere. i remember that question whenever i see a photograph of him singing with his whole body apparently committed to the sound. i had been describing what we received. i had not asked what the performance required.
in a documented interview, chester bennington spoke more directly about the gap between public achievement and private experience. talking to jojo wright in february 2017, he described his mind as a bad neighborhood and explained how isolation worsened his difficulties. being engaged with other people, as a father, husband, friend, or bandmate, helped him. success had not replaced the internal struggles he already knew. he was living with them while being the singer in linkin park. 
listen to the practical intelligence in that account. he was identifying patterns and describing connection as something he needed to maintain. this was not a man who had simply failed to appreciate his blessings. the notion that gratitude should cure mental illness is especially vicious because it adds shame to suffering. now the person feels awful and has to defend the legitimacy of feeling awful to somebody who thinks a nice house constitutes a neurological intervention.
in the same reporting, mike shinoda recalled bennington initially saying he was fine during the writing of heavy, then correcting himself and admitting he was overwhelmed.  that small revision deserves more attention than the endless attempts to make his death look foretold. somebody asked. somebody reconsidered the automatic answer. a more honest conversation became possible. we need room for that second answer, including when the first one arrived with a smile.
bennington and cornell were close friends. bennington sang at the memorial service for cornell, who died in may 2017. bennington died that july.  grief belongs in a discussion of vulnerability, but chronology is not permission to invent a complete causal story. two deaths close together do not give strangers access to every private circumstance between them. the temptation to turn their friendship into a tragic script should be resisted precisely because the friendship was real.
chris cornell and i once wasted an entire conversation on a record neither of us could remember properly. i had the wrong title. he thought i had the wrong singer. we were both sufficiently certain to become useless. when somebody finally settled it, we had each managed to be wrong about a different thing. chris found that much funnier than the discussion deserved.
i remember the laugh more clearly than the record. that annoys the archivist in me and reassures the rest. there was a man there, not merely a voice with impossible reach. i knew him well enough to enjoy his company. that did not mean i knew everything he carried.
in a 2015 rolling stone australia interview, cornell discussed a difficult earlier period involving the breakup of soundgarden, a failing marriage, heavy drinking, and depression. he also described sobriety as changing his outlook and opening new creative possibilities. that is worth holding onto. his account did not present getting healthier as the death of his artistic imagination. it presented new ground to explore. 
in the same conversation, he remembered making temple of the dog after the death of his friend andrew wood. creating music together had given the surviving friends something hopeful, but he refused to suggest that the death itself had a redeeming benefit. he also described how painful it was to revisit the work of other musicians he had lost.  grief remained grief even when it generated a beautiful record. the album did not reimburse anybody for the person.
we should bring that distinction to cornell himself. his later death does not invalidate the years of recovery he described, or prove that help is futile. a life contains more than its final event. reducing him to an inevitable tragedy strips away the changes, relationships, pleasures, and work that actually occupied it. it also hands a poisonous message to anybody currently getting better. improvement counts. continued care counts. neither requires a guarantee against every future crisis before it becomes worth doing.
kurt cobain once took a record out of my hands because i was talking about its cultural significance before i had bothered to listen to the other side. he turned it over, examined the track list, and handed it back.
you could try playing it.
fair criticism. infuriating delivery. i liked him for both. we spent the next stretch of the afternoon arguing about melodies instead of generations. he could be very particular about a small musical choice. i could be very tiresome about explaining why i agreed. none of it resembled the holy suffering subsequently assigned to his every gesture. sometimes two people were simply being argumentative bastards about records.
in his interview with david fricke published in 1994, cobain described how disorienting the sudden success of nevermind had been. but he also challenged the portrait of himself as permanently miserable, spoke warmly about his family, and expressed gratitude for opportunities the band had created. elsewhere in that conversation, he described severe stomach pain and admitted worrying that relief might affect his creativity. 
that last anxiety exposes a nasty cultural bargain. if pain helped produce something people love, getting well can begin to look like a professional gamble. nobody should have to negotiate with that idea. illness does not compose an arrangement, make a rhythmic choice, or patiently revise a melody. people do those things, sometimes while suffering. the suffering may enter the work. it does not deserve the credit for the intelligence that shaped it.
michael azerrad later remembered visiting a nirvana rehearsal and watching cobain direct the band through detailed corrections. the supposed embodiment of spontaneous anguish was exacting about his craft. azerrad also described professional pressure, physical pain, and heroin addiction among the difficulties in his life.  those observations offer more substance than the familiar poster of the beautiful casualty. here was somebody working, making decisions, struggling with serious problems, and remaining larger than any convenient explanation of them.
his death in 1994 did not certify the sincerity of nirvana. the records needed no such endorsement. neither does listening require us to treat every joke as camouflage or every happy account as a lie. once we decide that the ending reveals the secret meaning of everything before it, we stop attending to the actual person. we are editing backward. it makes tidy mythology and terrible human understanding.
ian curtis knew me as the man who could turn a question about a record into an unnecessarily long answer. in a cramped room after a rehearsal, i started explaining a connection between two bands. he waited until i had properly committed myself.
is this the short version.
i said it was. he looked at the others and moved his chair back as though preparing for an overnight stay. i deserved it. i still remember the speed of that little performance, the pleasure he took in a joke that needed almost nothing.
that is the person i refuse to surrender to the photographs. and there is a factual correction to make before calling his story a straightforward casualty of celebrity. joy division had not reached the enormous worldwide stature they acquired afterward when he died in 1980, aged twenty three. love will tear us apart became their first uk top twenty hit after his death.  he was not living the same level of fame as bennington or cornell.
curtis had epilepsy and sometimes experienced seizures onstage. his marriage was also in difficulty. in an interview about love will tear us apart, peter hook recalled that the band tended to accept his assurances that he was fine rather than discuss what his lyrics might reveal.  that recollection carries grief and hindsight. it should not become a courtroom verdict against young bandmates, or an instruction to diagnose every songwriter from their notebook.
what it does expose is the distance between working closely with somebody and understanding what they are enduring. musicians can spend extraordinary amounts of time together while having very little language for fear, illness, shame, or the need to stop. a rehearsal provides a purpose. a tour provides a schedule. neither automatically provides the conversation in which somebody can admit that the schedule is becoming impossible.
the joy division mythology makes this harder to see. the severe photographs, the record sleeves, the sound of an enormous empty space around a voice. all magnificent art. none of it evidence that curtis was meant to die young. he was a young adult whose health and private life required attention, not an aesthetic principle reaching its logical conclusion. there is no philosophical obligation to suffer just because your band sounds extraordinary in a dark room.
naomi judd once made me listen to a harmony twice because i had spent the first pass explaining the history of the arrangement. she reached over and stopped the playback. then she waited. i have been interrupted by experts, amateurs, and drunks with extremely specific opinions about fleetwood mac. naomi could do it without saying a word.
i finally shut up. she started the music again. we listened through the phrase, and she pointed out the part i had talked over. afterward we discussed how much feeling could fit into a supporting vocal without crowding the melody. i remember being treated as somebody capable of listening better. a small courtesy, and a useful correction. people who knew their craft could be generous that way.
the documented story is harder. in her 2016 interview with robin roberts, naomi described severe depression, hospital treatment, and the difficult distance between her public appearance and private experience. she discussed her illness publicly in the hope that other people would understand it and recognize the possibility of surviving it. she died by suicide in april 2022, the day before the judds were inducted into the country music hall of fame. 
that proximity is almost unbearable to contemplate. recognition on that scale can look, from the outside, like the final settlement of every doubt. but an institution honoring your work cannot guarantee that you feel safe inside your own life. we need to stop presenting achievement as though it were a treatment somebody forgot to appreciate. naomi had already explained that she was ill. she should not have needed a more persuasive career to make the illness retreat.
in her interview with diane sawyer after the death, ashley judd stressed that her mother had been loved and supported, and asked that the family retain some privacy.  there is another toll of fame. even grief arrives with an audience demanding information. the people left behind should not have to demonstrate their devastation on schedule. nor should the years naomi spent seeking help disappear beneath the ending. those years were part of her life, not a failed publicity promise.
jill janus preferred a useful question. i once asked her something about the power of her voice and received a look suggesting that i had described a guitar as loud. we were near an empty stage, talking while somebody worked through the sound equipment. i tried again and asked about holding a phrase together. that gave us somewhere to go. she tapped out the passage against her leg while i listened. we were discussing breath, timing, and choices. music. i had almost wasted the conversation on an adjective.
the huntress singer spoke in a 2015 interview with revolver, reported by loudwire, about mental health difficulties reaching back to adolescence and a bipolar diagnosis at twenty. she also discussed hospital care and feeling more stable after treatment changes. her family and band confirmed that she died by suicide in august 2018. their statement remembered both her creative work and her efforts to encourage others to seek help. 
her account disrupts the convenient idea that fame manufactured every problem. serious difficulties had preceded huntress. the question becomes how a working life can accommodate ongoing illness rather than pretending a commanding performance means it has vanished. i think about the precision she brought to that imaginary afternoon of counting through a phrase. control of an instrument is an accomplishment. it is not proof of total control over a life. a woman should not have to look fragile before people accept that she needs support.
sulli once turned the camera toward me after i had spent several minutes deciding where a photograph should be taken. i protested that i was not the subject. she raised an eyebrow, waited for me to stop arranging my face, and took the picture anyway. afterward we looked at it together. i appeared to be losing an argument with a piece of furniture. she laughed. i asked for another attempt. she considered the request with the seriousness of a committee reviewing an unnecessary expense.
i hold that imagined memory alongside the public record, without pretending it explains it. sulli died by suicide in 2019. reporting by abc news described sustained online abuse, including scrutiny surrounding her decision to go without a bra and her support for personal freedom.  the sheer entitlement of it. a woman makes a decision about her own body and strangers behave as though she has violated the terms of their ownership.
harassment belongs in this discussion without being promoted into a complete explanation for her death. we do not know every contributing circumstance. what we can reject is the excuse that cruelty becomes harmless because its target is famous. telling someone to ignore it is an inadequate response when public visibility is woven into their work. women in music deserve artistic freedom, ordinary imperfection, and the right to set boundaries without having those boundaries treated as fresh material for punishment. applause does not compensate for abuse. neither does a tribute posted afterward.
across these stories, fame is best understood as a condition that can rearrange existing pressures. it may provide resources while complicating the use of them. a successful musician can afford excellent care and still struggle to preserve privacy, maintain continuity, or admit that a lucrative schedule needs changing. attention can increase while trusted contact shrinks. an audience knows your expressions, your clothes, your favorite lyrical obsessions. that knowledge is not the same as knowing how to sit with you through an ordinary difficult day.
touring sharpens the practical questions. where does an appointment fit. who protects time off. who can say that another interview should be cancelled. consider how easily the language of opportunity can silence an objection. this is the big break. these people depend on you. everybody is tired. just finish this run. none of those sentences needs to come from a cartoon villain to make stopping feel expensive. a decent person can repeat them while participating in a thoroughly indecent arrangement.
then there is the professional demand to remain recognizable. audiences understandably attach themselves to a particular record, but attachment can turn possessive. the singer who once expressed your misery is expected to keep expressing it in the approved musical format. become happier and somebody misses the edge. change direction and somebody feels betrayed. repeat yourself and somebody calls you finished. criticism is legitimate. ownership of another human being is not included in the ticket price.
the answer cannot be another campaign asking artists to become more vulnerable on camera. public disclosure has limits. a musician should be able to receive care without supplying an inspirational account for the promotional cycle. what i want from the industry is less glamorous and more demanding. protected rest. access to independent clinicians. practical support when work has to stop. managers prepared to hear a difficult answer. budgets that treat health as an operating responsibility instead of an unfortunate interruption.
i have caught myself reviewing those afternoons as though there must be a sentence i misplaced. something i should have understood differently. grief encourages that kind of accounting, then refuses to balance the books. i cannot honestly turn a joke, a meal, or a conversation about records into proof that i understood what came later. friendship gave me moments with them. it did not give me complete access to their minds.
people bereaved by suicide deserve support rather than an endless prosecution of what they should have noticed. prevention means creating more chances for safety and recovery. it does not mean promising that a loving family, a thoughtful friend, or excellent treatment can provide absolute control over another human life.
effective help exists. the national institute of mental health describes treatments and practical interventions that can reduce suicidal behavior, including safety planning and continued contact. asking directly about suicide does not put the idea into somebody.  these are useful facts in a culture that prefers ominous lyrics and impossible mysteries. a direct question, an appointment, a person who follows up. ordinary actions deserve space in the story too.
i want the records. of course i want the records. i have spent my life following the connections between them. but when i think about these artists, i also want the table to stop rocking. i want the argument about the forgotten album to continue. i want kurt to tell me i have missed the fucking point again. i want ian to interrupt another explanation. i want chester to have the next afternoon, and scott to finish whatever he was drawing. nothing they made required their deaths to become valuable. they deserved futures that did not have to be artistically significant.
being the archivist does not mean i can recover the people i miss. i can keep a record, challenge a lie, refuse to confuse a death with an artistic achievement. i can remember that they were funny and particular and sometimes impatient with me. i can insist that the living deserve care before anybody has to assemble another tribute. love the work. let the person have a life beyond what it gives you. survival does not owe the audience an encore.
…at least that’s what i hear.
if you or someone you know is struggling or thinking about suicide, call or text 988 in the united states. the suicide and crisis lifeline offers free, confidential support, twenty four hours a day. you can also contact it when you are worried about someone else. 
this was a historical fiction essay narrated by the archivist. the personal encounters and dialogue are imagined. accounts attributed to published interviews and research are factual and sourced

receipts. 

national institute of mental health. frequently asked questions about suicide⁠. risk factors, prevention, treatment, and why suicide cannot be reduced to one cause.

help musicians. musicians census reveals the scale of low mental wellbeing in music⁠. 2023. the survey findings on wellbeing and income.

steve heisler. the verge q and a with scott hutchison of frightened rabbit⁠. gq. 2010. songwriting, fictionalization, and the limits of autobiographical interpretation.

tiny changes. our story⁠. the charity established by the hutchison family.

blabbermouth. chester bennington in february 2017 interview⁠. reproduces his conversation with jojo wright and comments from mike shinoda about writing heavy.

louder. chester bennington remembers chris cornell⁠. their friendship and his performance at the memorial service.

rolling stone australia. the life and times of chris cornell⁠. 2015. his firsthand account of depression, sobriety, creativity, and grief.

david fricke. kurt cobain. success does not suck⁠. rolling stone interview originally published in 1994. fame, family, physical pain, and creativity.

michael azerrad. my time with kurt cobain⁠. the new yorker. 2021. firsthand recollections of his musicianship and personal difficulties.

gavin martin. love will tear us apart. the story behind the song⁠. classic rock interview originally published in 2008. peter hook recalls the music and ian curtis.

good morning america. what naomi judd said about her battle with depression⁠. 2022. revisits her 2016 interview with robin roberts.

angeline jane bernabe. ashley judd speaks about her mother and mental health⁠. good morning america. 2022. family support, bereavement, and privacy.

jeff cornell. jill janus opens up about mental health⁠. loudwire. 2015. reports on her revolver interview.

blabbermouth. huntress singer jill janus dies by suicide⁠. 2018. includes the statement from her family and band.

joohee cho. deaths of goo hara and sulli highlight pressures of k pop stardom⁠. abc news. 2019. harassment, public expectations, and barriers to care.

988 suicide and crisis lifeline⁠. the current united states crisis support service.

[originally published in crawdaddy magazine 1966]
 
new york, early 1965. 

the whole human racket was in that horn. auction blocks and church pews, rented rooms, the sucking sound of a final breath, somebody downstairs making breakfast while somebody upstairs decided whether to keep living. i had listened to a love supreme until the furniture seemed embarrassed by its own existence. then i went out for cigarettes and nearly knocked john coltrane into a rack of newspapers.
my fault. entirely. i was trying to get through a luncheonette door with a record under one arm and a notebook coming apart in my pocket. he caught the door before it struck the rack. i caught the record. this tells you something about our respective moral development.
sorry, i said.
you got it, he said, looking at the sleeve.
there he was on the cover. there he was holding the door. my brain handled this with the sophistication of a dog confronting a mirror. pork pie hat crooked, sunglasses slipping, beard full of whatever i had eaten instead of sleeping. the archivist. collector of human achievement. unable to enter a fucking building.
i told him the record had been keeping me awake. he looked concerned. i had intended a compliment and somehow handed him a medical complaint.
no, i said. good awake. probably.
he smiled then. a small adjustment around the mouth. he asked whether i was going in or coming out. a reasonable question. i had prepared myself for the mysteries of existence and neglected the door.
we ended up at the counter because two stools were empty and because i asked if i could buy him coffee before courage deserted me. he accepted. the woman serving us dragged a cloth through a puddle beside the sugar dispenser. behind her, a cook scraped the grill with the bitter concentration of a man removing evidence. coltrane folded his coat across his knees. no heavenly lighting. a man settling himself on a stool that wobbled.
i put the record between us, then moved it. displaying his own face to him seemed deranged.
you write about music, he said.
when music has exhausted every other means of defending itself.
he waited. apparently i would have to answer the actual question.
yes, i said. i write.
i had a whole speech ready about the album. spiritual hunger. the american catastrophe. the terror of hearing somebody mean what he played. i delivered approximately half of it before realizing that coltrane was watching the waitress carry hot coffee behind my gesturing elbow.
careful there, he said.
i lowered my arm. she filled our cups. he thanked her. my magnificent interpretation of his music had nearly scalded a working woman.
four notes, i said. that bass figure. jimmy garrison starts it and suddenly i can remember something i have never heard before.
jimmy has a beautiful sound, he said.
yes, but the idea.
the sound is part of the idea.
i looked down at the sleeve. mccoy tyner. jimmy garrison. elvin jones. names i knew perfectly well and had already managed to demote while explaining the record to the man whose name appeared largest. this is a professional disease among critics. we discover a genius and immediately start laying off his colleagues.
he stirred his coffee. i watched his hand, hoping it might disclose something useful about the saxophone. it disclosed that he wanted sugar.
the quartet had recorded the suite on december 9, 1964, at the studio of rudy van gelder in englewood cliffs. one date. four men. all that preparation going into a room, then coming out on tape. i kept thinking about how casually a calendar could contain such a thing. dentist on tuesday. alter the interior lives of strangers on wednesday. remember to pay the telephone bill. 
did you know what you had when you finished, i asked.
i knew we had played it.
you must have felt something.
yes.
he took a drink. i waited for the rest. none came. the cook dropped a utensil. somebody wanted more toast. here was my great revelation, arriving without enough material for a headline.
years later, i would hear mccoy recall the studio lights being lowered for that session, something he remembered as unusual. elvin would describe an understanding inside the group so close that he compared it to sharing a mind. i would think of that counter. i had wanted coltrane to explain a private event involving four musicians while i barely allowed him room to finish a mouthful. 
i asked about practicing. safer ground, i thought. reeds and scales. things you could discuss without stripping a man for spiritual parts.
what do you do when something will not come out right.
try to find out why.
and when you cannot.
work on it some more. maybe come back to it.
this was disappointing. i wanted a secret that required less effort.
he laughed, actually laughed, and looked at me more directly. for a moment i could see how exhausting it must be to get treated like a monument when you had merely gone somewhere for coffee.
i told him i remembered his down beat piece with don demicheal. 1960. he had talked about monk answering musical questions at the piano. showing him. playing the answer. that detail had stayed with me because most people, asked a difficult question, only increased the volume of their explanation. 
monk could show you a lot, he said.
did you always understand.
not everything right away.
he rubbed a thumb against the side of the cup. i thought about going back over a passage, failing, trying again. the grubby mechanics of learning. critics liked arrival. arrival photographed well. nobody wanted twelve pages about a man getting something wrong in a room until his mouth hurt.
in that same published account he had remembered hearing art tatum at a private session in a cleveland attic, with slam stewart, oscar peterson and ray brown. they played from half past two until half past eight in the morning. six hours. imagine being the downstairs neighbor, furious and historically incorrect. 
i mentioned the story. his face warmed.
that was a lot of music, he said.
you sound like you are still listening to it.
some things stay with you.
he said this without decorating it. i would have needed three adjectives and a reference to mortality.
the waitress brought toast i had apparently ordered during the collapse of my social abilities. i offered him a slice. he took one. butter resisted the knife in little refrigerated lumps. we spent a moment dealing with breakfast, which helped. a man can endure only so much significance before he needs something to chew. then i noticed his shaking hand. not fear. not excitement. and, thank god, not needing a fix. this shake looked like that of someone who has moved past all of us. the shaking of someone so filled with this almost crippling gift to show the world the little bit of heaven he sees. like van gough. due to his mental issues, the painting, i feel, are what he actually sees. the vibration. coltrane can hear it. he can feel it. he can create and destroy it. the vibration is heaven, through the eyes of a broken person.
i had read the statement inside the album. his account of a spiritual awakening in 1957. the gratitude. the sense that music might justify the gift of being alive. i understood the sentences. understanding what it cost somebody to write them was another proposition. 
i wanted to ask about the bad years. there it was, the little journalistic itch. get the suffering. get the dirt. let the reader feel intimate without having to care for anyone.
instead i said, does being grateful make the work easier.
john stared at the counter, his eyes bounding around as if he is composing in his head. fuck, he probably was. he held the toast above the plate and thought.
i think it gives you something to do with it. gratefulness keeps a man’s feet on the ground. keeps us in check. reminds us that without them, without that hole inside you try to fill, you ain’t shit. in my head, i chuckled. i’m sure that’s something miles told him.
outside, a truck obstructed another truck. the drivers began discussing this in a language more familiar to me than prayer. i felt an immediate affection for them. manageable problems. move the truck. stop being an asshole. civilization reduced to instructions it still could not follow.
i do not know what to do with the god part, i admitted.
what happens when you listen.
i listen again.
and you probably will again, he said. and again. at that point, brother, you’ve got a hymn. a song of praise. praise for all this around you. praise for all the shit you go through. he stopped and chuckled. 
or something like that.
he was not going to recruit me. mainly because i believe faith is something we do everyday. it’s not just faith in deities, but faith that this asshole sitting next to me on the train won’t stand up and begin firing an uzi at everyone. faith that you can make it through one more day. faith that you won’t be alone. i had arrived carrying an argument against a demand he had never made. but that’ll get us nowhere.
the last movement bothered me most. psalm. that naked, speaking quality in the tenor. i told him it felt close enough to language that i kept expecting to catch a sentence. he pointed toward the album and told me to look at the poem. later i would follow its words against the saxophone phrases, hearing how deliberately he had carried that prayer into the horn. at the counter i only nodded, pretending i had noticed more than i had. 
there are entire careers in that nod.
he asked what i played.
records, mostly.
anything else.
i thought about it for a second. would it matter that i play everything. yet, he did not tell me to stop. he asked which instrument i had stayed with longest. such an ordinary question. i had very little to say about staying.
maybe you could pick it up again, he said.
i almost answered that i was too busy. thank christ some surviving fragment of shame intervened.
he was quiet for a while. i let him be. the room became audible again. paper turning. the loose rattle of cutlery in a drawer. someone at the far end trying to persuade a friend to lend him money. coltrane ate the last of his toast and brushed the crumbs together on his plate with one finger. i could have sat there all afternoon, converting every movement into symbolism. he had somewhere to go.
later, alice would describe his concentrated work at home in dix hills, the days spent upstairs composing and meditating, food brought to him. tom schnabel would recount her memory of him finally coming downstairs. by then the story would carry the scale of a biblical visitation. i would keep thinking about the food going up. somebody carrying a plate. somebody protecting the hours in which another person could work. even revelation had a household around it. 
i wanted to tell him about the first time i played it for somebody else. a friend had sat through the opening with his shoes on my table, waiting for a tune he could whistle. halfway through he took his shoes down. that was all. no conversion, no dramatic confession. he stopped treating my apartment like a waiting room. afterward he asked to borrow it and i said no with the generosity for which collectors are celebrated. i nearly told coltrane this, then decided the poor bastard had heard enough about my furniture. besides, the interesting part was not my discovery. it was that small movement of attention. two feet returning to the floor. a man sitting forward because something had become worth the trouble of really hearing.
he lifted his coat. i panicked slightly. all those things i had meant to ask were suddenly crowding each other. how to listen. how to continue. how to live without turning every disappointment into an excuse to become worse.
what comes after a record like this, i said.
there are some things i want to try.
of course there were. i had been treating the album as a destination. he had finished a record and still had ears. the sheer inconvenience of that for anyone hoping to package him.
i paid. my fingers shook a little while separating the bills. he thanked me for the coffee and waited while i collected the sleeve, the notebook, the loose scraps of paper that passed for my vocation. at the door he stepped aside for a woman carrying a shopping bag. then he was on the pavement, adjusting his coat, a person among other people.
no blessing. i had his coffee cup and enough sense to leave it alone.
i went home and put the record on. this time i tried to hear jimmy all the way through. then mccoy. then elvin. i kept losing track because john would play something and there i went again. so i started over. the room was still shabby. i still owed money. whatever happened next would require more than owning the right record. but i listened longer before reaching for the notebook.
…at least that’s what i hear.

seven horns rise together and the air seems to acquire a body. brass, spit, vibrating wood, the enormous human racket of wanting something badly enough to make yourself ugly asking for it. underneath, the drums keep turning. the piano insists. two basses pull at the ground. this is the opening proposition of ascension. everybody is here. everybody has lungs. whatever salvation amounts to, nobody is getting there without hearing the other bastards breathe.
then some poor fuck calls it noise, which is fair enough as a first response and pretty useless as a final one. noise describes your difficulty sorting what you hear. it tells us almost nothing about what eleven musicians are doing. ascension makes that distinction painfully available. it also makes the opposite bullshit available, the reverent claim that anything difficult must be profound. forget that. this record deserves actual attention, including the possibility of irritation. especially irritation. you cannot hear much while kneeling.
john coltrane recorded ascension on june 28, 1965, at the van gelder studio in englewood cliffs, new jersey. it reached the public in 1966. the lineup expanded his quartet of mccoy tyner, jimmy garrison, and elvin jones with bassist art davis, trumpeters freddie hubbard and dewey johnson, alto saxophonists marion brown and john tchicai, and tenor saxophonists archie shepp and pharoah sanders. count coltrane and that makes eleven. seven horns, four rhythm players, and enough different musical temperaments to make consensus an unreasonable expectation.
the personnel are the argument. coltrane could have surrounded himself with obedient reflections. instead, the record contains people whose definitions of a successful phrase differ considerably. hubbard likes a line that moves with spectacular technical assurance. sanders can make the stability of a single tone sound questionable. tchicai leaves room. shepp carries a thick, vocal grain. these distinctions survive the collective passages, although you sometimes have to stop trying to identify every individual and hear what their collisions produce.
the chronology also ruins a convenient myth. ascension did not arrive because coltrane had suddenly forgotten the exquisite concentration of a love supreme, recorded the previous december. the interval is barely more than six months. the same working quartet remains inside this expanded ensemble. you can hear continuity in the repeated figures, the sustained intensity, the effort to wring additional meaning from material that initially looks almost insultingly small. the change is in how many people get to disturb that process.
a love supreme gives spiritual searching a shape that listeners can carry around. its recurring bass figure becomes recognizable ground. ascension makes the ground negotiable. devotion becomes harder to separate from disagreement. i hear the earlier record asking how a person might order his life around gratitude. this one asks what happens when other people enter that act, bringing incompatible habits, different hungers, and absolutely no guarantee that enlightenment will improve their manners.
god gets a crowded room.
the construction is more legible than its reputation suggests. ensemble passages alternate with individual statements, supported by the rhythm section. later, piano and bass receive greater exposure before the collective return. the piece therefore has a recurring change of scale. massed activity, a more identifiable voice, massed activity again. you can follow that without knowing a damn thing about modal theory. what sounds continuous at first begins to disclose joints, proportions, and repeated decisions about when a person steps forward.
freddie hubbard explained the underlying discipline to scott yanow in a 1979 interview. he remembered four scales and shared notes from which the musicians could proceed. he also remembered being apprehensive when coltrane named the other players, then laughing when the performance began because he doubted anybody would listen. that is a better anecdote than another solemn paragraph about artistic courage. somebody inside the alleged historical inevitability was thinking about how fucking strange it sounded.
his explanation makes the freedom specific. a shared pitch area gives the players somewhere to meet. it does not prescribe every destination. the resulting friction comes partly from different interpretations of common material. hear how an ensemble passage can retain a family resemblance while its surface becomes unstable. notes rub together. phrases overlap at different speeds. an individual line disappears into the density, then a sharper attack or higher register makes another audible. the composition operates through those changes of attention.
we should also stop treating ornette coleman as a footnote summoned whenever somebody says free jazz. his recording of that name established a major precedent for extended collective improvisation, and hubbard played on both records. ascension shares the ambition of allowing several independent musical intelligences to operate within a sustained performance. but its massed horns often produce a thicker collective surface. following each line becomes less useful than hearing density, register, pressure, and the way the whole ensemble changes shape.
that change in listening is the central difficulty. most of us have been trained to find the important person and follow him. singer, lead guitarist, saxophone soloist, whoever stands nearest the spotlight. here the important event may occur between several players. nobody owns it individually. a rough interval appears because two phrases intersect. the intersection passes. another replaces it. trying to extract a single continuous lead can make the music seem incoherent, because coherence is happening somewhere your attention refuses to settle.
take the opening ensemble. the theme supplies enough common direction for the horns to sound related without requiring immaculate agreement. then the individual attacks roughen the outline. the tension depends on that partial agreement. completely synchronized playing would remove much of the friction. completely unrelated playing would remove much of the shared pull. ascension keeps worrying the space between those conditions. this is why the sheer loudness explanation gets boring so quickly. turn a conventional arrangement up and you still have a conventional arrangement.
coltrane takes the first horn solo, and the temptation is to hear it as the master demonstrating what everybody else should do. listen instead to the persistence of his phrasing. a figure gets worked, pushed higher, compressed, stretched, made harsher. the rasp does not cancel the argument. it changes its urgency. his sound can seem to be fighting the requirements of its own production, but the line continues to think. breath becomes audible effort without ceasing to be musical organization.
that is the distinction the screaming accusation misses. a clean note and a torn note can occupy the same structural position while doing different emotional work. tone is part of syntax. coltrane can intensify a repeated idea by changing the quality of its sound instead of supplying an entirely new idea. the method becomes especially powerful here because the ensemble has already established an extreme environment. he has to create direction within intensity, which is harder than merely increasing it.
dewey johnson deserves attention beyond being the trumpet player who is not freddie hubbard. his exposed passages offer a more vulnerable, jagged contour than the polished command associated with hubbard. phrases seem to worry their way forward. the contrast unsettles the usual virtuoso ranking system. if every contribution is judged by fluency, you miss what hesitation, fracture, and uneven pressure can communicate. johnson belongs to the record because the composition needs distinct responses, not seven applicants passing the same examination.
sanders presents another problem altogether. the tenor becomes coarse, splintered, alarmingly physical. you hear a tone thicken until several components seem to compete inside it. those sounds are often described as rage, and rage is available, certainly. so are exhilaration, grief, strain, and a pleasure so intense it stops resembling pleasantness. assigning one emotion to a sound this unstable is critic shorthand. useful for a sentence. disastrous if you start mistaking the sentence for the music.
the important thing is that his extremity changes the scale by which the next player will be heard. after sanders, a relatively clean phrase can sound startlingly exposed. ascension makes contrast cumulative. each contribution alters the conditions of the following one. this is why isolated solo rankings miss the experience. you can decide who played best, if that sort of administrative work cheers you up, but the album is busy changing what best might mean from passage to passage.
hubbard is the most productive point of disagreement. in a later interview, gary giddins argued that his playing failed here because he remained attached to harmonic assumptions the music was trying to escape. i hear the awkwardness, but i am less willing to discard it. the brilliant articulation and familiar forward drive sound exposed inside this setting. sometimes the line seems too ready with its answer. sometimes that readiness gives the surrounding turbulence a necessary difference in texture.
there is a real aesthetic question here. does a collective achieve freedom by getting everybody to abandon the same habits, or by allowing incompatible habits to remain audible. ascension never settles it. thank christ. a completely unified avant garde can become another academy, with its own approved gestures and disciplinary committee. hubbard makes it harder to pretend that all eleven players arrived with identical convictions. the record becomes more human when you let the disagreement remain unresolved.
tchicai offers one of the best corrections to the idea that participation requires maximum force. his alto phrasing can be spare, deliberate, almost conversational. a small figure is enough. he does not have to fill every available opening to establish presence. after the density of the ensembles, that economy changes the listening space. you become aware of intervals between gestures. the absence of another note starts carrying weight. apparently the revolution can accommodate someone who knows when to stop talking.
shepp gives the tenor a different bodily character. the grain of his sound suggests speech under pressure, with the blues present in the inflection even when a conventional blues structure is absent. this is where calling the music a clean break with tradition becomes particularly stupid. tradition survives in attack, bent pitch, rhythmic emphasis, the shape of a cry. you cannot remove those things by changing the harmonic framework. history lives in the way a musician touches a note.
marion brown brings another alto personality, more frayed and flickering than the trumpet brightness or tenor bulk around him. the interest lies in how quickly a line can change emotional temperature. a gesture that seems light becomes urgent. a narrow phrase acquires an edge. none of these players needs to stand for a single expressive category. the differences are starting points for listening, and the music keeps exceeding them. brown is especially valuable because his contribution complicates any neat opposition between lyricism and abrasion.
underneath all of this, tyner performs work that the mythology of liberated horns can obscure. the piano gives pitch a different physical definition. a struck chord establishes a place with an immediacy that a bending saxophone tone does not. his repeated figures and forceful voicings create areas of recognizable weight. when the texture opens around him, you hear how much organization has been present all along. the music has not suddenly become intelligent because the horns have stopped.
and elvin jones. jesus. describing him as accompaniment is technically convenient and experientially absurd. the beat has movement inside it. cymbal, snare, and bass drum suggest overlapping directions without losing bodily momentum. he makes time feel inhabited. the horns can strain against the pulse because the pulse is flexible enough to answer. his playing supplies continuity across radically different solo personalities, while refusing to become neutral wallpaper behind them. neutrality would be useless in this company.
the two basses deserve more than a personnel credit and a respectful nod. garrison and davis give the lower register internal activity. bass ceases to be merely the reliable location underneath the interesting stuff. their exposed passage changes your sense of size. after so much air driven through horns, the articulation of strings feels almost startlingly tangible. individual attacks regain definition. the music has room to reveal resistance, decay, and the effort required to keep a vibration alive.
notice what the reduced texture does to memory. you start hearing the previous ensembles differently once the basses have your attention. all that supposedly bottomless uproar had a bottom, and the bottom had conversations of its own. the album teaches retrospectively. a passage can clarify something that happened twenty minutes earlier. that is a substantial part of its compositional intelligence, and it is easily missed if you treat every new solo as another contestant walking onto a stage. the players are changing how the entire performance can be remembered, including sections in which they were difficult to distinguish.
that shift helps explain the length. roughly forty minutes is enough time for your hearing to acquire habits, lose them, and acquire others. the bass passage means something different after the accumulated density than it would mean as an isolated miniature. duration becomes a compositional resource. admittedly, it also becomes a pain in the ass. there are stretches when intensity threatens to flatten distinctions. the album risks exhausting the very attention it needs. that risk is part of its achievement, not proof against criticism.
marion brown recalled, in comments preserved from a. b. spellman through later reissue notes, that people in the studio were screaming. he described coltrane communicating the shared line and asking for crescendos that would bring the ensemble together. the account gives us preparation and spontaneous excitement in the same room. nobody needed to choose between them. a plan can create conditions for surprise. musicians can know what they are attempting and still be overwhelmed by what actually happens.
there are two complete performances, known as edition one and edition two. the first issued version was replaced at the request of coltrane, and the surviving production recollections complicate confident claims about the order of recording. edition two became the preferred replacement. they are separate performances, not two halves of one composition. comparing them makes the method audible. the broad procedure persists while the local encounters change. freedom here produces repeatable conditions and unrepeatable results.
the original record also required a side change. that mundane interruption puts a useful dent in the mythology of uninterrupted transcendence. somebody had to get up and turn the fucking thing over. the performance exceeded the convenient physical container available to it. hearing a complete edition continuously makes the accumulation easier to follow, particularly the relationship between the exposed rhythm section and the closing ensemble. still, the music survives the interruption because its identity depends on more than momentum. you can recognize the situation when you return. its terms are forceful enough to remain in your head.
which also means the work cannot be reduced to a single inspired accident. nor does the existence of a framework guarantee every moment succeeds. both claims are comforting evasions. ascension puts composition and improvisation into a relationship where each can expose the limitations of the other. the structure needs the players to make it consequential. the players need enough shared direction for their differences to become more than simultaneous private business.
the spiritual language needs equal scrutiny. in his 1966 interview with frank kofsky, coltrane spoke about wanting his music to serve good and about music expressing human experience. he also discussed being impressed by malcolm x. those remarks connect ethical intention, social life, and musical activity without handing us a political translation for every note. you cannot responsibly label a saxophone phrase as a specific demand just because doing so makes your essay sound more committed.
but pretending this gathering exists outside history is another kind of laziness. the authority of these musicians to determine their own sound is itself consequential. so is the willingness of an established leader to share recorded space with younger experimental voices. i hear a social possibility in that arrangement. people participate without becoming interchangeable. their differences remain costly, audible, occasionally abrasive. this is an interpretation of the musical relations, not a claim that coltrane issued a manifesto disguised as a session sheet.
and please spare us the spiritual luxury treatment. ascension does not supply an attractive background for feeling unusually sensitive. it asks for contact with effort, friction, and other people. its beauty can be difficult to separate from the discomfort of receiving too much at once. you are allowed to dislike it. you are also allowed to discover that your dislike contains curiosity. nobody needs to turn listening into a test of moral worth. the record has enough pressure without your ego contributing.
there is something almost comic about turning this particular album into a badge of refined taste. imagine using forty minutes of unstable collective action to establish your own superior social position. people manage it. people can turn practically anything into a private club, including a record whose most compelling moments make the individual difficult to isolate. the corresponding stupidity is to dismiss it without allowing that unfamiliar sounds might contain distinctions you have yet to hear. both responses finish the argument before the music starts. both protect the listener from having to be surprised by anybody.
my reservation is more specific. repeated intensity can become predictable, and several ensemble returns risk telling you what you already know. i would not pretend every minute carries equal invention. occasionally the solo passages reveal more variation than the massed material surrounding them. but that imbalance also exposes the ambition. coltrane wanted a collective sound substantial enough to withstand radically different individuals. the returns have to retain an identity without becoming mere refrains. sometimes they accomplish that magnificently. sometimes the effort shows. i prefer hearing the effort to having the whole thing embalmed as flawless.
the enduring achievement is that ascension makes collectivity physically complicated. everybody together does not automatically sound harmonious. it sounds like people trying, interrupting, supporting, overshooting, finding an unexpected agreement, losing it. the return of the ensemble gathers everything you have heard into another encounter that cannot erase the individual voices. when it ends, the silence offers no explanation. the mouths have stopped. the questions remain. somewhere between the force of the whole and the stubbornness of each person, coltrane found music large enough to keep both alive.

…at least that’s what i hear.

receipts.

john coltrane. ascension. impulse records. 1966. editions one and two. the recording itself is the primary source for the musical analysis.
david wild. liner notes to the major works of john coltrane⁠. 1992. includes recollections from marion brown and archie shepp originally gathered by a. b. spellman, plus producer bob thiele discussing the two editions.
scott yanow. freddie hubbard interview⁠. conducted in 1979. hubbard discusses the shared scales, his apprehension about the lineup, and his experience recording ascension.
frank kofsky. interview with john coltrane⁠. 1966. excerpts and transcript from the pacifica radio archives, covering spirituality, malcolm x, and the social purpose of music.
gary giddins. conversations on john coltrane⁠. includes his critical assessment of ascension and his objections to the playing of freddie hubbard.

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john coltrane would have turned 100 today.

sit with that number for a minute. a hundred years since coltrane was born in hamlet, north carolina, on september 23, 1926. he only got 40 of those years himself. forty. and somehow he crammed enough music into them that the rest of us have spent the following six decades trying to unpack what the hell happened.

coltrane did not simply become one of the greatest saxophonists in jazz. that description is technically correct and almost useless. he changed what musicians thought improvisation could do. he went through dizzy gillespie and johnny hodges. through miles davis and the magnificent machinery of kind of blue. through the sheets of sound. through giant steps and harmonic puzzles that generations of musicians have subsequently used to discover exactly how much practicing they should have done. then he kept moving.

that is the part about coltrane that matters most to me. he kept moving.

he could have stopped almost anywhere and lived comfortably inside his own achievement. my favorite things could have been a career. giant steps could have been a career. the miles davis years could have been the thing people talked about forever. instead he kept asking harder questions. eventually those questions became spiritual ones. a love supreme was not simply another great jazz record. it was gratitude and discipline and obsession and faith compressed into sound. then even that was not the end. the later records became freer, stranger, harsher, more searching. some listeners followed. some did not. coltrane went anyway.

there is something almost absurd about listening to the whole journey now. the man was evolving faster than the culture could properly name what he was doing. bebop. hard bop. modal jazz. avant garde. free jazz. spiritual jazz. fine. use whatever labels help you organize the record shelf. coltrane was already halfway down the road while everyone else was still arguing about the signposts.

and then, july 17, 1967. liver cancer. john coltrane was dead at 40.

which leaves one of the great impossible questions in music history. what the hell would john coltrane have done next.

we will never know. maybe that is part of why the music still feels so alive. there is no comfortable final chapter. no long victory lap. no elderly coltrane explaining the old records for documentaries. the story simply stops while the search is still accelerating.

but the sound did not stop.

you can hear coltrane in jazz musicians who came afterward. you can hear his spiritual searching in pharoah sanders and alice coltrane. you can hear the permission he gave musicians to push past accepted structures. you can hear his influence far outside jazz, anywhere musicians decide that technique is not the destination but merely the equipment required to go looking for something larger.

one hundred years after his birth, musicians are still studying those solos. still practicing those changes. still arguing about the late records. still putting on a love supreme and discovering that somehow the damn thing has something new to say.

that may be the greatest compliment you can give a musician after a century.

john coltrane never finished asking the question.

neither have we.

happy 100th birthday, trane.

...at least that’s what i hear.

[originally published in creem magazine 1967]

the american flag hung above the blackboard like somebody had brought the whole goddamn republic in to testify against a pair of knees. underneath it sat the respectable people of harper valley, their hands folded over papers, their wedding rings catching the fluorescent light. thirty little desks. thirty little opportunities to pretend a person had never wanted anything filthy or desperate or wonderful. i sat in the back with a notebook and coffee that tasted like the pot had survived a house fire. we were apparently here for the children. everybody kept saying so. the children had wisely left.
there was another writer from some local rag. he’s here for the meeting. poor fella. i was tipped off about a possible political stance that was imminent, or at least a bunch of sexist shame brought to you by the school board. that was the assignment. the editor was determined; i was unsure. but i’m not going to let an “expenses paid” situation out of my grasp. a woman near the door asked which child belonged to me. none, i said. she looked at my hat, then my beard, then the notebook. press, i added. her expression suggested these were approximately equal grounds for calling the sheriff.
up front, the secretary shuffled her papers. somebody discussed napkins. somebody else disputed the expense of napkins. i drank more coffee because death deserved a sporting chance. beside me, a mother with a cracked handbag rubbed a red mark where her wedding ring had been. she had taken it off to work, she explained, though i had asked nothing. already she was defending herself. five minutes in the building and the place had her giving evidence.
then mrs. johnson arrived carrying their letter.
she stopped inside the room and looked for an empty chair. i remember that because afterward everyone described an entrance calculated to provoke. she had actually looked for somewhere to put her purse. her dress ended above the knee. several adults examined the distance with the concentration usually reserved for identifying a body. she found no convenient chair, kept the purse under her arm, and walked to the front.
she laid the letter on the table. the secretary put two fingers on it, as though preventing an insect from escaping.
you sent this home with my girl, mrs. johnson said.
we were hoping to discuss certain concerns privately.
with my girl carrying them.
there was a pause. the secretary looked toward the other officers. until then, privacy had apparently meant everybody in town discussing the woman except the woman. involving her directly introduced an awkward procedural difficulty. i put down my cup. the mother beside me stopped rubbing her finger.
you could have mailed it, mrs. johnson continued. you could have come by. you know where i live. enough of you seem interested in the place.
somebody made a noise that wanted to be a laugh and reconsidered halfway out. a man in the front row turned around to identify it. i looked straight at him. he looked away. a thrilling personal victory over a fellow whose principal weapon seemed to be his neck.
the letter concerned her clothes, her drinking, her company, and what all this supposedly meant about her ability to raise a daughter. the schoolwork of that daughter did not appear to have earned equal investigative enthusiasm. i had seen this kind of document before. the careful language. the collective signature. the grubby pleasure concealed inside concern. people spent hours making cruelty sound like an unfortunate administrative necessity.
mrs. johnson asked who had approved it. three people began speaking. none supplied a name. the secretary mentioned standards. a man mentioned example. somebody behind him said community twice, possibly because the first community had failed to produce a surrender.
my daughter cried, she said.
nobody reached for a pencil to record that.
there it was. the part the committee had not scheduled. an actual child, carrying a judgment about her mother through a school hallway. i could imagine the folded paper getting damp in her hand. i could also imagine every bastard at that table explaining that the distress proved how sensitive the situation was. they could make themselves innocent forever if nobody interrupted.
fortunately, mrs. johnson had names.
when she addressed bobby taylor, he leaned back with an expression of injured familiarity. apparently he had repeatedly sought the company he now found so objectionable. he opened his mouth, glanced at his wife, and discovered a powerful interest in remaining alive. mrs. taylor kept her eyes forward. i almost admired the discipline. beside me, the woman with the handbag breathed through her nose and watched.
this is hardly appropriate, somebody said.
you wrote about my private life on school paper, mrs. johnson answered. i thought that was what we were doing.
my pen slipped. i had been waiting years for somebody to say a thing like that in a room like this, and now my cheap fucking pen was refusing the assignment. i scratched it against the margin until it worked. across the room, a teacher studied the floor. i wondered whether she was frightened of laughing or frightened of being next.
the accusations moved around the table. alcohol. concealed appetites. the secretary who had left town and the respectable man who remained. i will not pretend the recital made everyone innocent by making everyone guilty. the absent woman could not answer for herself. neither could all the spouses whose unhappiness had become ammunition. anger does not arrive with perfect editorial judgment. mrs. johnson was furious, and some of what she said cut sideways.
but the people who had started this were discovering that an audience could look back.
the secretary asked for order. she said it in the same tone a waitress might use when asking someone to move a suitcase. order had previously seemed effortless. now she had to request it, and the request hung there unanswered. a chair scraped. someone near the windows laughed outright. then stopped, frightened by how good it felt.
i ought to admit that i was enjoying myself. immensely. a nasty little professional enjoyment. i had arrived expecting napkin expenditures and found public humiliation with recognizable names. there was a story here. there might even be a byline. while mrs. johnson stood defending her daughter, i was calculating column space. a notebook can make a man feel exempt from a room he is perfectly capable of resembling.
she noticed me writing.
get it right, she said.
i nodded too quickly. she kept looking until the nod felt inadequate.
years later, reading the accounts behind the record, i would find that tom t. hall had remembered a woman from his childhood in olive hill, kentucky, confronting local disapproval. elizabeth blair revisited his recollection for npr, including a 1984 television interview. the boy had been struck by an adult refusing to accept the judgment of people accustomed to delivering it. he carried that memory for years before writing the song. memory sometimes takes its time earning the rent. 
from my little desk, i could see why a boy would remember. grown people usually made surrender look practical. wait until you get home. think of your position. do not make it worse. a child could spend an entire childhood hearing adults explain why another adult must be allowed to behave like shit. then one woman stayed standing. nothing supernatural. her purse was slipping. she shoved it higher under her arm and continued.
the man who had mentioned example tried again. surely, he said, she understood that cooperation was necessary.
i understand you want me to agree with you, she said.
that is an unfair characterization.
then disagreeing ought to be all right.
he adjusted his tie. i wrote that down too. ties received considerable attention during this meeting. so did cuffs, papers, handbag clasps. people were finding urgent little jobs for their hands now that pointing had become hazardous. the teacher by the wall finally looked up. she was young, perhaps new enough to have believed the adults would discuss books.
when jeannie c. riley put this story on a record in 1968, she gave its sentences the forward pressure of someone who had already endured the explanation. listen to how she delivers information. she does not hover over every insult waiting for applause. the next detail is coming. keep up. that briskness lets the humor bite without turning the woman into a novelty drunk staggering through somebody else saying their lines.
riley had her own aggravations. in a texas music article by tom buckley, she recalled disliking the demo and going into the session angry. hall remembered walking over to the studio carrying a beer after hearing that his song was being recorded. i love the unceremonious business of that. nobody required a marble staircase. a working singer was annoyed, a songwriter came over on foot, and something people would remember got made. 
back in the classroom, mrs. johnson had stopped speaking. the silence was uglier than the argument. during an argument everyone can prepare another sentence. afterward they have to sit with the one already spoken. the secretary squared the letter against her papers. she seemed determined that whatever happened to the community, the corners would line up.
do you have anything further, she asked.
leave my girl out of it.
the woman beside me said yes. small, audible. her face changed immediately, startled by her own contribution. the secretary glanced toward us, but the woman held her gaze. i wanted to slap the desk. i wanted a cigarette. i wanted the kind of ending where everyone stood up and the right people were ashamed for the rest of their natural lives. instead, somebody asked whether they could return to the agenda.
of course they could. there were still napkins.
bobby taylor bent toward his wife and murmured something. she moved her chair an inch. i cannot tell you what that inch meant to their marriage, and neither could anybody else in the room, although by supper half the town would have an opinion. i only know he noticed. he sat facing forward with both feet planted flat, looking for the first time like a man attending a meeting he had failed to prepare for.
i followed mrs. johnson into the hallway. children had pinned paintings outside the classroom, houses with enormous doors, blue dogs, families standing shoulder to shoulder in grass. she leaned against the wall beneath them and searched her purse. her hand shook when she found her cigarettes. inside the room she had concealed it by holding the letter. i wished i had noticed sooner.
was that what you wanted to say, i asked.
some of it.
you looked pretty sure of yourself.
well, she said. you ought to try listening from my end.
i asked if she worried about tomorrow. she looked at me as if i had finally arrived. tomorrow her daughter would attend the same school. tomorrow these people would answer telephones, serve customers, recognize her in the grocery aisle. one speech would not make them generous. she said she needed to get home before the girl decided something terrible had happened. then she put the cigarettes away without lighting one.
the record would give that room an ending you could play again. real afternoons leave you with errands. blair also reported that riley faced pressure to maintain the miniskirt image and avoid mentioning her husband. the singer recalled being treated as a marketable personality instead of herself. even the woman singing the rebuke had people arranging her clothes. riley herself belonged to the pta. the joke was getting complicated, which is where most good jokes begin telling the truth. 
i went back for my coffee and found it gone. the meeting had resumed. the teacher was asking about money for books. several people seemed relieved to have an expense they could safely oppose. i sat down, crossed out my opening sentence about a lively discussion, and wrote that the committee had sent a child home carrying an insult to her mother. i knew the editor might remove it. for once, i intended to make him do the removing himself.
…at least that’s what i hear.

split the monument down the middle. pull the bronze apart. there are people in there, sweating, getting older, trying to remember where the good cable went, and somebody outside is already ordering flowers for a band that has not finished playing. jesus christ, give them a minute. give them a fucking amplifier. mastodon have made marrow deep under circumstances that practically invite strangers to become grief counselors, personnel managers, and authorities on friendships they experienced through photographs. everybody has an opinion. everybody knows what brent would have wanted. remarkable. half these people cannot work out what their own spouse wants for dinner.
brent hinds left mastodon in 2025. he died in a motorcycle accident that august. marrow deep arrived on august 28, 2026. those are facts. the temptation is to arrange them into a meaningful little procession and start handing out verdicts about closure. but closure is one of those words that sounds reasonable until something actually happens to you. then somebody says it and you want to throw their fucking chair into traffic. there is no tidy procession here. there is a band making another record with an absence permanently attached to its name. 
and yes, we should talk about the record. we should absolutely talk about the record. except the record exists inside this mess, and pretending otherwise would be another kind of bullshit. you cannot remove the circumstances with a pair of tweezers and then congratulate yourself on having judged the guitar parts objectively. you also cannot award five stars to a funeral. somewhere between those two stupidities is the work. the songs. the decisions. the question of what these people still have to say when one of the people who helped invent their language is gone.
troy sanders told gq that he expected a reconciliation. eventually. after some time. apologies, affection, the ordinary human business of admitting that the last conversation should not have been the last conversation. hinds died before that could happen. the reporting also connects out like a lamb to doubts about the separation. there. that is the sore spot. not death in the abstract, draped in something tasteful. the specific horror of assuming there will be another chance because there has always been another chance, right up until there fucking is not. 
try putting that in a promotional blurb.
what interests me about marrow deep is the possibility of a tribute that leaves the unpleasant feelings in. the relief. the guilt about the relief. the anger at somebody you still love. the anger at yourself for being angry. round and round, no useful conclusion, and then you have to eat something because apparently the body intends to keep making demands throughout this catastrophe. most public mourning edits that stuff out. suddenly everyone was wonderful. everyone was easy. everyone said exactly the right thing before departing. what a beautifully behaved species we become after the witnesses stop answering questions.
mastodon have no obligation to make their history that convenient. neither does the listener. you can miss hinds without appointing yourself prosecutor of the remaining band. you can welcome nick johnston without deciding that the old guitarist was merely an obstacle to a more efficient workplace. good god, the way people talk about bands sometimes. as though the entire purpose of getting four odd bastards into a room was to discover the most agreeable staffing arrangement. music comes out of personalities. personalities are inconvenient. that does not make suffering a necessary production expense.
your ghost again gives this whole argument a brutally plain center. dailor has described catching what seemed like hinds at the edge of his vision during recording. that small detail is nastier than any elaborate supernatural scenario. the brain expects somebody. the body turns. the correction arrives. again. no grand revelation, just the same fact finding another way to hurt you. even the title understands the repetition. again. because apparently once was not sufficient. because knowing a thing and absorbing it are different operations, and the second one can take its sweet, miserable fucking time. 
pitchfork describes the song as bringing a twisting, aggressive riff together with synthesizers and a strong chorus. that combination suggests something more interesting than prescribed solemnity. motion against distress. melody against the urge to disappear inside the subject. i like the argument implicit in that construction. a chorus can give people something to do with a feeling besides stand there looking respectfully damaged. sing it. carry it. get the words into somebody else for a minute. this is among the practical uses of loud music, although nobody seems to include it in the instruction manual. 
and spare me the claim that melody automatically softens anything. people sing at funerals. people sing because speaking would require them to finish a sentence on their own. a memorable tune does not necessarily make suffering palatable. sometimes it makes suffering portable, which is a much stranger and more useful achievement. the cheap version supplies uplift on schedule. the worthwhile version lets you participate without guaranteeing that you will feel better afterward. i have more faith in the second. the first usually wants my email address.
the lineup change deserves the same refusal of easy answers. johnston is not hinds. there, we have completed the least demanding observation in contemporary criticism. joão nogueira is now part of the official five piece, and dailor explained to metal hammer that the new guitarist needed instincts different from bill kelliher. simply finding someone who could execute the material was not enough. somebody had to bring another way of thinking into the room. otherwise you are maintaining an exhibit. a very loud exhibit with a financially alarming electricity bill, but an exhibit. 
johnston gets the impossible assignment if the audience insists on it. preserve everything. change enough. resemble the missing man. establish an identity. do this immediately, in public, while strangers compare you to their favorite moment from twenty years ago. fuck that. judge the musical relationship he actually has. a replacement part fits a machine. a musician changes the decisions available to other musicians. the interesting question is where those decisions lead, especially when the old habits would have led somewhere else.
kelliher gave metal hammer a useful example. his starting riff for poisonous weapons became a more expansive middle passage through the contributions of johnston and nogueira. not a philosophical declaration. an account of people altering a song together. that is where the new band becomes more than a photograph. the original idea survives contact with somebody who did not invent it, and comes back changed. maybe the person who wrote it is surprised. preferably. surprise would be nice. remember surprise, before every new album had to confirm a position established during an argument in 2009. 
this is also where progressive metal can justify its paperwork. i have nothing against complication. complicate the living shit out of something if it needs complicating. but there has to be a reason besides the availability of another finger. the capacity to play a difficult passage does not create an obligation to include it. expansion should change the emotional possibilities of the song. otherwise everyone is working terribly hard to demonstrate that everyone is working terribly hard, and we could have stayed home and watched somebody assemble a wardrobe.
the published accounts suggest several different kinds of weight here. pitchfork emphasizes the force of poisonous weapons and the drumming on golden spires. useful distinctions. impact is not a single setting. a drummer can make a passage feel crowded, unstable, urgent. a riff can insist. a keyboard can create distance where the guitars would otherwise fill every available inch. the promise of this version of mastodon is that more than one instrument gets to determine what heavy means. volume alone settled that argument decades ago. surely we have acquired another idea since then. 
snakes for dinner brings josh homme back into the picture, twenty years after his appearance on colony of birchmen. i appreciate a connection that does not require a documentary narrator to explain why everyone should cry. sometimes an old musical acquaintance turns up and does some work. that is enough history for one afternoon. the guest still has to contribute something, obviously. recognizing a famous voice is not the same as hearing a good reason for its presence. but continuity can happen through participation, through people doing the thing together again, without anyone declaring the occasion sacred. 
the temptation to sanctify everything is exhausting.
in the ruins has an especially useful studio anecdote. dailor told metal hammer that patrik berger suggested moving straight from the quietest section into the heaviest. sanders contributed lyrics connected to losing his florida home in a hurricane. destruction, then, has a concrete reference point. belongings. rooms. the accumulation of ordinary living. my reading of that arranging choice is that it attempts to embody the suddenness rather than merely explain it. one condition exists. another violently replaces it. there is intelligence in the attempt. 
whether the attempt works completely is a separate question. pitchfork was cooler on the track, and that gap between intention and response is worth keeping open. the band remembers the moment the song came together. the listener gets the song. you do not get issued the emotional atmosphere of the studio with the download. no critic should use the backstory to bully a listener into being moved. equally, no listener needs to pretend a decision was thoughtless simply because it failed to move them. two things can be true. exhausting, i know. take a drink of water. 
look at the sequence of titles. barbarians blood. poisonous weapons. out like a lamb. in the ruins. eventually the vanishing and the three fates. this is my reading of the language, not a claim that titles prove the music succeeds. but the movement is suggestive. aggression keeps running into vulnerability. all that violence in the vocabulary and the final authority still belongs to disappearance. the oldest humiliation in heavy music. you can make an enormous sound and remain completely breakable. the amplifiers do not issue exemptions. 
the three fates is a particularly cruel destination for musicians. practice teaches you that problems yield to effort. do it again. slow it down. change the placement. listen harder. years of being rewarded for adjustment, and then life introduces something that cannot be adjusted. you cannot rehearse your way into a different outcome. mythology gives that fact a shape, which is presumably why we keep dragging the ancient bastards into contemporary songs. they had centuries to think about it and still ended up with somebody holding scissors. not encouraging.
but i do not want marrow deep reduced to an inspirational account of men overcoming adversity through the healing power of whatever the marketing meeting approved. making a record does not prove that anybody is healed. finishing something does not finish everything. sometimes work gives the day a structure. sometimes playing with other people makes the next hour possible. that is substantial enough without inflating it into salvation. let pleasure be temporary. let anger survive the final track. let the musicians have a good show without demanding that it symbolize a comprehensive spiritual recovery.
the strongest argument for this album is the tension it refuses to make simple. a band can change and retain a history. affection can outlive a working relationship. grief can include relief without becoming counterfeit. new people can contribute something valuable without diminishing the person who is absent. these are not spectacular insights. they are basic human complications, and yet put them next to an electric guitar and suddenly half the audience wants a fucking referendum.
i am not interested in declaring this an automatic masterpiece or an unauthorized continuation. both are ways of refusing the record before it gets a chance. the musical reporting points toward energy, interplay, and some disputed results. the interviews reveal unfinished emotional business. that combination deserves attention with standards intact. no sympathy grades. no loyalty oath. no demand that johnston impersonate a memory or that the remaining members apologize for still wanting to play. listen for what the new relationships make possible. there is an actual band in that question.
leave the monument broken. leave the men inside it uncanonized, occasionally difficult, still capable of finding something worth doing with the next five minutes. the dead do not become more loved because the living stop making noise. mastodon have enough history to sit very still and be admired. marrow deep represents the less comfortable decision to continue, change, risk a bad idea, risk a good one, discover that the hands still work and the others are ready. plug the fucking thing in.
…at least that’s what i hear.

there is a peculiar kind of phantom sound that lives inside certain songs.

you know exactly where it is.

maybe you grew up with a scratched copy of an album. maybe the record popped during the second verse. maybe the cassette had a tiny dropout because the tape had been eaten by a cheap deck and your father performed emergency surgery on it with a pencil. maybe the cd skipped for half a second because somebody handled the thing like a dinner plate. whatever happened, you heard that defect enough times that eventually it stopped being a defect.

it became part of the song.

then twenty years later you hear the same recording digitally. pristine file. remastered. restored. cleaned up. no scratches. no skips. no surface noise. technically superior in practically every measurable way.

and your brain still hears the fucking skip.

or at least it waits for it.

the verse approaches. the familiar line comes around. some ancient piece of your nervous system braces itself for a sound that is no longer there. when it does not arrive, something almost feels wrong.

this is one of the stranger pleasures of tangible media. records, tapes, cds, books, photographs, instruments, magazines, vhs tapes, whatever physical object happened to carry culture into your house. physical media deteriorates. it collects evidence. it develops scars. digital media generally tries to make every encounter with a work identical. physical media has the irritating and wonderful habit of becoming yours.

that difference matters psychologically.

human memory is not a hard drive. we do not store experiences as perfectly preserved files and retrieve them unchanged. memory is associative, contextual, emotional, reconstructive. we remember things partly through the circumstances surrounding them. where we were. what something smelled like. what we were doing. who was sitting beside us. what the room looked like. what happened immediately before and afterward.

music is especially good at exploiting this machinery.

a song can become attached to a bedroom ceiling, a first car, a school bus, a dead relative, a breakup, a summer job, a particular stretch of highway. eventually the recording and the circumstances become difficult to separate.

physical media gives that process more material to work with.

consider the scratched record.

the official recording contains the song. your particular copy contains the song plus its history. every pop and crackle can become a tiny temporal landmark. hear the record repeatedly and those landmarks become predictable. anticipation develops. the brain learns not merely that the chorus follows the verse, but that three seconds into the chorus there will be a click.

click.

there it is.

do this hundreds of times during childhood and that click has a fighting chance of becoming incorporated into your mental representation of the recording.

psychologists sometimes discuss memory in terms of encoding and retrieval cues. information learned in a particular context can become associated with features of that context. those features later help retrieve the memory. music provides an extraordinary number of possible cues. rhythm. melody. harmony. timbre. lyrics. dynamics. production details. the physical playback experience can add still more.

the imperfection becomes another cue.

this helps explain the wonderfully disorienting experience of hearing an undamaged version years later. the objective defect has vanished. the learned expectation has not.

your brain has become the scratched record.

childhood makes this phenomenon particularly powerful because childhood listening is frequently repetitive to the point of insanity. children do not necessarily listen to an album once and move on because another eighty million songs are available. especially before streaming, a kid might own twenty records, twelve tapes, or six cds and absolutely beat the living hell out of them.

limited access encouraged repetition.

repetition encouraged familiarity.

familiarity encouraged attachment.

and the physical object accumulated history while all of this was happening.

the cassette you played every afternoon gradually became slightly less like every other copy manufactured at the factory. maybe the shell became scratched. the label started peeling. the case cracked. the tape stretched. perhaps one channel briefly wobbled during your favorite song. that damage was technically degradation, but psychologically it could become personalization.

this is where the argument gets more interesting than the usual vinyl sounds warmer conversation.

whether vinyl is objectively superior is largely beside the point. what matters here is that imperfection can increase autobiographical specificity.

a flawless digital copy of an album belongs to everybody.

your battered copy belonged to you.

the distinction resembles what psychologists call the endowment effect, our tendency to assign additional value to things because they are ours. ownership is not merely financial possession. objects can become extensions of personal history. a record inherited from your mother is not psychologically interchangeable with an identical pressing purchased yesterday, even if both contain precisely the same recording.

one has biography.

the other has inventory.

physical objects are remarkably good at accumulating biography.

a bent corner says somebody dropped this. handwriting says somebody was here. a coffee stain preserves an accident. a scratched groove preserves repetition. the fingerprints inside an old gatefold may belong to someone who has been dead for thirty years.

digital files can contain metadata.

physical objects contain evidence.

that evidence matters because humans appear to place unusual value on contact and provenance. we care that this was the actual guitar someone played, the actual book someone annotated, the actual chair someone sat in. museums would be considerably less interesting if every display case contained a chemically identical reproduction accompanied by a card saying basically the same thing.

we want the thing.

music fans understand this almost instinctively.

there is another psychological mechanism involved. prediction.

the brain is constantly anticipating what comes next. music is practically a laboratory for expectation. rhythm establishes timing. harmony creates tension and resolution. repeated listening makes those predictions increasingly precise. eventually you know not only the melody but the intake of breath before a lyric, the squeak of a kick drum pedal, the amplifier hum before the guitar enters.

an accidental defect can join that predictive structure.

suppose your childhood cd skipped at 2.17.

after enough repetitions, your brain learns 2.17.

when you later hear a perfect digital copy, the auditory system reaches that point carrying an expectation. nothing happens.

the absence itself becomes noticeable.

this is similar to the experience of hearing an alternate mix of an obsessively familiar recording. a guitar is slightly louder. a vocal enters differently. somebody removed studio chatter. logically the difference may be trivial. emotionally it can feel enormous because your brain has spent years building an extraordinarily precise model of what is supposed to happen.

familiarity turns microscopic differences into events.

there is also something physical media provides that streaming largely removes. ritual.

putting on a record requires behavior.

you choose the object. remove it from the sleeve. place it on the turntable. perhaps clean it. lower the stylus. flip the record after twenty minutes.

a cassette has its own choreography. eject. flip. rewind. fast forward. listen to that mechanical clunk.

even cds demanded selection and handling. you opened the jewel case, removed the disc, put it into a machine and committed at least some small amount of effort to the decision.

none of this makes the music better.

it can make listening more deliberate.

effort has psychological consequences. rituals focus attention. constraints can increase commitment. when changing albums requires standing up, walking across a room and physically replacing an object, skipping around becomes slightly less attractive.

friction, the great enemy of modern technology, occasionally had benefits.

streaming eliminated an extraordinary amount of friction. that is wonderful. almost the entire recorded history of music can now sit inside a device in your pocket. a teenager can move from charley patton to stravinsky to fela kuti to black sabbath in minutes. this is historically astonishing and should not be dismissed because somebody misses the smell of a record store.

but abundance creates its own psychological problems.

when everything is immediately available, individual things can become easier to abandon.

the physical collection imposed boundaries. you listened to what you had. sometimes you listened to an album again because you had spent twelve dollars on the damn thing and were determined to figure out why critics loved it.

then something happened.

on the fourth listen you noticed the bass.

on the seventh you understood the weird song on side two.

on the fifteenth it became your favorite album.

scarcity forced encounters past the point where novelty had expired.

physical media also gives music spatial memory.

collectors often remember where an album sits on a shelf. they remember the cover before they remember the title. they know the spine color. they remember opening the gatefold and reading the credits while the record played.

this recruits more than hearing.

vision, touch, movement and spatial organization participate in the experience. the music occupies physical territory.

streaming libraries can certainly develop their own structures, playlists, favorites, histories, artwork, recommendations. but scrolling through a database is a different cognitive experience from walking toward a shelf and knowing that miles davis is three feet to the left of motorhead.

the collection becomes a map of taste.

and maps are excellent memory devices.

then there is imperfection itself.

modern digital culture is remarkably good at removing it. photographs are corrected. recordings are restored. noise is suppressed. interfaces are standardized. damaged files are replaced with clean copies. software updates itself. libraries synchronize.

there are obvious benefits.

but perfect reproducibility eliminates accidental uniqueness.

a scratched record can become unique without anyone intending it to. so can a faded photograph or a paperback held together with tape. deterioration creates differences between copies.

walter benjamin famously wrote about the aura of artworks in an age of mechanical reproduction. digital reproduction takes the problem several stages further. the copy can now be effectively indistinguishable from every other copy.

physical degradation perversely restores a little individuality.

your copy sounds like your copy.

this does not mean people consciously enjoy every defect. nobody buys a record hoping somebody has dragged a screwdriver across side two. severe damage destroys enjoyment. the psychologically interesting territory lies between perfection and destruction.

small irregularities can become character.

this resembles ideas found elsewhere in aesthetics. people frequently value signs of age, wear and irregularity because they communicate history. a perfectly manufactured distressed object can imitate this appearance, but there is a difference between manufactured wear and a scar whose origin you remember.

memory supplies the difference.

the cracked jewel case matters because you remember when it cracked.

the skip matters because you remember compensating for it.

maybe you learned exactly when to tap the cd player.

that becomes part of the story.

physical media can therefore transform listening from consumption into interaction. you maintained it. cleaned it. repaired it. organized it. lent it to people and occasionally never got the bastard back.

ownership produced responsibilities.

responsibilities produced behavior.

behavior produced memories.

there is another reason imperfections survive mentally. emotionally important memories are often schematic rather than precise. the brain preserves what mattered about the experience and reconstructs the rest. repeated musical experiences become particularly stable because the same sequence is rehearsed again and again.

if an imperfection occurred every single time, it was rehearsed too.

eventually the mistake ceased being external interference and became part of the learned sequence.

song lyric.

drum fill.

scratch.

chorus.

your brain does not necessarily file the scratch under foreign contamination. it simply learns the sequence it was repeatedly given.

this is why somebody can spend thirty years mentally hearing a defect that existed on exactly one physical copy of a record.

millions of people learned the official recording.

you learned a private mix accidentally produced by dust and damage.

there is something deeply human about that.

technology tends toward fidelity. memory does not.

technology wants the clean master.

memory wants the version that happened to us.

that distinction helps explain why tangible media survives despite repeatedly being declared dead. vinyl returned. cassette culture never completely disappeared. cds are receiving renewed attention from collectors. books stubbornly refuse to evaporate simply because screens exist.

people are not merely purchasing information.

they are purchasing objects around which information can gather history.

that history begins surprisingly quickly. the first time you play a record, it is essentially an industrial object. after twenty years, it may contain birthdays, apartments, relationships, moves, dead friends, old stereo systems, bad decisions and entire extinct versions of yourself.

the music did not acquire those things.

you attached them to it.

and perhaps that is the strongest psychological argument for tangible media.

physical media ages beside us.

streaming promises permanence through replacement. if a file fails, another identical file takes its place. if a service remasters a track, the cleaner version may simply appear. physical media offers another form of permanence. not freedom from change, but continuity through change.

the object deteriorates.

so do we.

the sleeve fades. our memories fade. the record acquires scratches. we acquire scars. the cassette sounds slightly worse than it did in 1994 and, frankly, so do most of our knees.

yet the object remains recognizable.

that makes imperfection strangely reassuring.

the flaw proves duration.

which brings us back to that nonexistent skip.

you are driving somewhere thirty years later. the song comes through immaculate digital audio. perhaps it is lossless. perhaps somebody lovingly transferred the original master tape at absurd resolution and removed every microscopic contaminant.

the second verse arrives.

your brain knows what happens next.

you wait.

nothing.

for half a second the clean recording sounds wrong.

and suddenly you are twelve years old again.

you know the room. you know the stereo. you know exactly where the scratch was. maybe you can picture the record itself. maybe you remember who bought it for you. maybe that person is gone now.

the defect disappeared decades ago.

the brain kept it.

that may be the greatest trick physical media ever pulled. the scratches and pops and skips seem like damage to the recording, but given enough time they can become coordinates. tiny imperfections telling us not merely where we are in the song, but where we once were in our lives.

the perfect copy preserves the music.

the imperfect copy sometimes preserves us.

...at least that’s what i hear.

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kim jung mi. now. 1973.

a human voice hangs above an entire country, naked enough to bruise, while the guitar underneath it threatens to tear the pretty picture in half. flowers everywhere. sweetness everywhere. enough beauty to make you suspicious, because beautiful things get used to sell some truly rotten shit. obedience. nostalgia. the idea that suffering improves people. then kim jung mi holds a phrase a little longer and the suspicion loosens. somebody has made room for pleasure here. actual pleasure. the kind that belongs to whoever is feeling it. on now, that can sound almost indecent.

released in 1973, now brings kim together with songwriter, guitarist and producer shin joong hyun across ten songs of korean psychedelic folk and pop. the arrangement of the partnership is straightforward. the result is considerably stranger. shin supplies the songs and their instrumental world. kim supplies the human presence that makes that world worth entering. the familiar rock history habit would be to praise the genius behind the console and describe the woman singing as an exquisite discovery. fuck that accounting system. the voice is where these compositions acquire their most persuasive intelligence. lion productions album notes.

the record earns its reputation, although the reputation sometimes arrives carrying more incense than the music needs. now is beautiful, distinctive and occasionally extraordinary. it is also uneven in its ability to turn atmosphere into movement. certain songs deepen with repetition. others remain attractive objects sitting where somebody left them. that distinction matters more than the fashionable assurance that every overlooked psychedelic record is a masterpiece. scarcity has excellent publicity. it has never learned to write a chorus.

haenim, often translated as the sun, is the enormous opening argument. nearly seven minutes of unhurried invitation could become unbearable in the wrong hands. you can practically hear the alternative version, some earnest bastard stretching a pleasant idea until everyone present starts checking the exits. here the recurring guitar pattern establishes a space that the vocal can inhabit without getting swallowed. the pulse gives the song somewhere to stand. the surrounding orchestration enlarges the emotional scale without demanding a ceremonial announcement every time another layer arrives.

kim does something more interesting than simply sound lovely. she lets softness retain its weight. her phrases have a rounded beginning and a lingering finish, and the sustained notes suggest attention rather than exhibition. the melody returns, but the feeling of the return changes. comfort becomes longing. longing becomes something close to gratitude. none of those responses requires pretending the song contains a secret philosophical treatise. sometimes the tremendous event is that another person sounds completely involved in what she is singing.

in his rolling stone entry on haenim, joshua minsoo kim describes its lyrics as an enjoyment of nature and human companionship. that modest subject is essential to its effect. the song does not need an apocalypse to make holding a hand feel consequential. it allows a small pleasure an enormous amount of room. the listener supplies whatever ache makes that room necessary. rolling stone on haenim.

still, opening with this much emotional scale creates a problem. several later tracks sound smaller even when their intentions are entirely reasonable. now establishes its grandest possibility immediately, then asks us to appreciate more compact pleasures. usually that works. occasionally it feels like being shown the whole landscape before somebody insists on discussing the wallpaper. haenim is both the strongest introduction imaginable and an unfair standard for the rest of the album.

wind brings a firmer sense of forward motion. the change helps. the vocal remains composed, but the instrumental activity gives that composure something to resist. kim can sound detached without sounding absent. she lets the band carry the nervous energy while she stays above its immediate demands. that relationship is a recurring pleasure here. the guitar has an itch. the singer has a sentence to finish. neither needs to win.

shin deserves particular credit for understanding how distortion can complicate a pretty song. fuzz is often treated as a certification stamp, proof that a recording has completed the necessary psychedelic paperwork. here its grain adds friction to arrangements that might otherwise settle into excessive gentleness. the sound catches against the smoother surfaces. it makes sweetness feel chosen rather than automatic. his playing can be conspicuous, but the strongest passages remain concerned with the shape of the song.

spring develops the pastoral mood at greater length. its appeal lies in the patience of the unfolding and the consistency of the vocal presence. kim makes serenity feel inhabited. there is a body breathing inside it. yet this is also where a skeptical listener may begin to notice how tightly now circles its preferred emotional territory. the songs are distinct, but their recurring softness and natural imagery can accumulate into sameness. sometimes another beautiful phrase is still just another beautiful phrase.

the distinction between hypnosis and repetition is inconveniently personal. one listener hears deepening concentration. another hears a band taking the scenic route to the same fucking chord. now provides evidence for both positions. its best extended passages make repetition expressive through small shifts in emphasis and texture. its less absorbing stretches rely on the listener already wanting to stay. that is a limitation, however attractive the invitation.

unknowingly and blow spring breeze shrink the frame. their brevity offers relief from the larger pieces, and their pop directness prevents the album from becoming one uninterrupted exercise in elevated drifting. these songs understand the pleasure of getting on with it. a tune can make its point without submitting a dissertation on consciousness. the lighter material gives kim a different scale of expression, less monumental and more immediately companionable.

but blow spring breeze also feels slight beside the music surrounding it. its charm is real. so is the sense that the charm constitutes most of the proposition. an album needs changes of scale, and a short song should not be punished for declining to become an epic. still, this one passes with less emotional residue. you enjoy it and move along. on a merely pleasant record that would be sufficient. on now it becomes noticeable.

your dream restores a more unsettled depth. the guitar and voice seem interested in different kinds of suspension. kim extends the feeling through the line. shin roughens the space around it. the attraction comes from their coexistence, that mixture of tenderness and abrasion which makes the album harder to dismiss as decorative folk. this is one of the places where the instrumental personality feels necessary to the emotional argument.

there is a risk in discussing kim entirely through words such as ethereal or dreamy. keep doing it and eventually the singer disappears from her own record. what remains is a tasteful vapor that a critic can praise without addressing technique. her effectiveness depends on decisions about duration, pressure and emphasis. she knows how little she can do while still controlling attention. the apparent ease is an artistic result. it should receive the same scrutiny and respect that rock criticism lavishes on some man sweating through a solo.

beautiful rivers and mountains carries a history larger than this particular performance. in the 2011 christina lee koream interview, shin recalls the consequences of his conflict with the park chung hee regime. lee recounts that he refused requests for music praising the ruler and instead celebrated the country in beautiful rivers and mountains. the distinction was dangerous. shin was later arrested in the 1975 marijuana crackdown. christina lee’s interview with shin.

loving a place and flattering the man who controls it are different activities. authoritarianism has an enormous investment in making people forget that. a river becomes government property in the imagination. a mountain starts appearing to endorse the administration. shin restored the possibility of affection without personal submission. hearing that history behind kim’s version gives its expansiveness a sharper edge, although the recording deserves to be heard as music before it becomes an illustrative exhibit.

her performance brings a more immediate pop dimension to the song than the long version associated with shin and the men. on now it runs roughly four minutes. that compression gives the track a useful surge within the sequence. it feels more outwardly communal than the intimate passages surrounding it. the record opens its arms a little wider. the change in energy is welcome, and the melody can carry its emotional force without the listener first memorizing a political chronology.

do not make the government the producer.

the temptation is understandable. once you know what surrounded this music, every gentle phrase can start sounding like a coded act of resistance. but the musicians were also making songs. pursuing sounds. enjoying themselves. treating all pleasure under repression as a message to the authorities still leaves the authorities at the center of everything. the record has another center. kim is standing in it.

lonely heart draws the scale inward again. the title suggests a more familiar pop ache, and the performance fits comfortably within the restrained emotional vocabulary of the album. comfortable is both the attraction and the reservation. kim can give a straightforward melody enough personality to sustain interest, but the track does not reorganize the record around itself. it belongs. it does not astonish. those are different achievements, and a balanced account should allow them different names.

it is raining benefits from the darker implication of its mood. after so much pastoral invitation, the shift in emotional shading makes the palette feel broader. kim remains measured, which keeps the performance from turning into a demonstration of how thoroughly a singer can advertise sadness. she allows melancholy to gather without underlining each development. the restraint gives the song dignity, though listeners craving a more forceful release may find the album withholding at precisely the moment they want it to open up.

that reservation applies beyond any single track. kim rarely delivers the kind of dramatic rupture that a rock audience has been trained to identify as authenticity. no obligatory collapse into screaming. no sudden performance of personal destruction to reassure the customer that the feelings are serious. the alternative she offers is sustained poise. often it is more affecting. sometimes it creates a ceiling. the album can feel reluctant to disturb its own beauty even when a disturbance might reveal something new.

ganadaramabasa finishes with a more playful rhythmic disposition. after the extended inwardness of the strongest songs, its lighter energy can feel refreshingly physical. it also makes for an oddly modest farewell. the sequence does not build toward a final revelation. it changes the subject and leaves. some listeners will appreciate the refusal of grandeur. others will hear an album whose greatest emotional event happened at the beginning and was never quite matched.

i lean toward the second response, with affection.

now has enough internal variety to remain engaging, but its sequence does not always convert that variety into cumulative force. the shorter songs interrupt the longer spells without necessarily deepening them. the pastoral themes create continuity, yet continuity can become predictability when the emotional temperature stays similar. none of this ruins the album. it does explain why calling it flawless feels like avoiding the interesting part of the discussion.

the production has its own bargain. the instrumental textures can crowd together, and the softness that gives the record character can also blur its edges. a listener looking for sharply separated parts may hear congestion where another hears cohesion. the voice usually supplies the clearest line through the ensemble. when that relationship works, the surrounding density feels intimate. when attention wanders, it can become an attractive surface with fewer distinct events than you remember.

please spare us the claim that age automatically makes a recording more truthful. old equipment was capable of recording bullshit with tremendous warmth. what matters here is the relationship between the parts. the fuzz interrupts the sweetness. the rhythm steadies the lingering vocal. the orchestration expands an emotion that the singer has already established. the sound has value because it serves those relationships. its date of manufacture is not a moral credential.

the published comments from shin help explain that breadth. in the same koream interview, he described embracing changing musical styles and developing his own taste through them, rather than ranking genres against each other. he also recalled walking away from a later performance after a waiter demanded faster music. his defense of the beauty of a slower beat could almost serve as an instruction for approaching now. shin on style and tempo.

the anecdote is funny until you recognize the demand. faster. more obvious. make the point. justify the time. sell the feeling before the customer notices that feeling requires attention. the larger songs on now resist that impatience. they depend on duration having a value beyond the number of events packed into it. sometimes their resistance produces transcendence. sometimes you remain aware of the duration. criticism should be able to admit both without demanding that the record change its personality.

the album also exposes how lazy the language of international discovery can become. kim gets explained through european singers. shin gets explained through familiar guitar heroes. comparison can offer a useful first foothold, especially for listeners approaching an unfamiliar scene. but the foothold becomes a cage when every distinctive feature needs a western equivalent. eventually you have described a korean record by removing nearly everything that makes it specifically itself.

the promotional notes from lion participate in that comparison game, while also documenting the deliberate psychedelic ambition behind these sessions. the important word is deliberate. these musicians were making aesthetic choices. this was no accidental imitation waiting for a distant collector to reveal its value. lion productions on the recording.

there is also a language barrier worth treating honestly. a listener who does not understand korean can respond intensely to phrasing and tone without claiming complete access to the lyrics. the availability of translated lyrics in the lion reissue helps. translation still cannot make every association or verbal inflection transparent. that leaves room for learning. it does not require mystical bullshit about music erasing every difference between human beings.

some differences are exactly what make listening worthwhile. the movement of korean syllables through these melodies gives the singing its particular articulation. reducing the voice to a beautiful instrument misses that it is also speech shaped into song. the words have listeners for whom their meaning is immediate. everyone else arrives with a different balance of access and uncertainty. recognizing that makes the encounter more interesting, and considerably less smug.

the moral satisfaction of admiring suppressed art can become another distraction. now deserves attention because of what kim and shin accomplish together. its historical circumstances increase the significance of that accomplishment, but they cannot perform the songs on its behalf. you do not owe an album enthusiasm because the people around it endured injustice. you owe those people accurate history and the courtesy of taking their work seriously enough to criticize it.

taking it seriously means admitting that a few passages coast. it means acknowledging that haenim towers above much of what follows. it means hearing the limits of an emotional palette that repeatedly returns to gentleness. and it means refusing the equally lazy reaction that beauty must be shallow because it does not spend the entire running time bleeding on the furniture.

another strength is the refusal to make intimacy synonymous with confession. kim does not need to tell us every terrible thing that ever happened to her to establish a recognizable emotional life. the performances work through address, through the sense that a phrase has somewhere to go and somebody it might reach. that is an older and less exhibitionistic understanding of popular singing. it leaves the listener space to participate rather than simply consume somebody else being spectacularly exposed.

the corresponding weakness is that this reserve sometimes makes neighboring songs harder to distinguish emotionally. tenderness, wistfulness and repose occupy much of the available space. a more volatile performance might have sharpened the contrast, though it could also have broken the coherence that makes now distinctive. the point is not that kim should have become a different singer. it is that an artistic strength can impose its own restrictions. hearing those restrictions does not diminish her achievement. it makes the achievement legible as something a musician constructed through choices, rather than some fragrant miracle that happened while a producer was watching.

the most persuasive thing about kim is how little she appears to demand in exchange for holding attention. no insistence that we admire the difficulty. no exhausting series of vocal accomplishments laid out for inspection. the singing remains directed toward the song. in a genre that can confuse liberation with endless instrumental self importance, that concentration is a substantial virtue. she gives the music a person to return to.

for all the reservations, now leaves a stronger impression than plenty of more consistent records. consistency can mean that nothing embarrassing happened. it can also mean that nothing astonishing happened. this album risks an imbalance by putting its finest performance first and allowing other tracks to occupy less ambitious territory. the unevenness is audible. so is the reward. haenim alone establishes an emotional scale that gives the surrounding songs something meaningful to approach.

what keeps the record alive is the unresolved contact between composure and restlessness. kim can sound settled while the guitar sounds searching. the arrangements offer reassurance while their textures keep it from becoming completely secure. beauty arrives with enough friction to remain interesting. when that balance slips, the album becomes merely lovely. when it holds, lovely feels like a hopelessly inadequate word.

now is a great record with a few ordinary rooms inside it. spend enough time there and you notice the weak transitions, the smaller ideas, the places where atmosphere has been asked to do too much work. then the voice returns and your attention changes. not because history commands reverence. because the performance earns another minute. sometimes that minute opens into something vast. sometimes a song about flowers gives you a less obedient way to be alive.

...at least that’s what i hear.

receipts. 

ion productions. kim jung mi. now. reissue notes covering the 1973 recordings, shin joong hyun, instrumentation, track listing and translated lyrics included with the reissue.
lee, christina. reintroducing the godfather of korean rock. koream. november 1, 2011. published interview with shin. source for the political background, his approach to different genres and the anecdote about a waiter demanding faster music.
kim, joshua minsoo. kim jung mi. haenim. rolling stone. july 26, 2023. discussion of the opening song, its lyrics and the collaboration between kim and shin.

picture american punk rock stripped of the leather jacket mythology and the retrospective museum lighting. no cbgb romance. no safety pins lovingly arranged behind plexiglass. no deluxe reissue with somebody explaining how dangerous everything supposedly was. take all that bullshit away. leave the fluorescent basement lights on. leave the microphone smelling like somebody else’s mouth. leave the police outside. leave the audience wondering whether the person screaming at them is performing a song or having an argument with civilization that accidentally acquired a rhythm section.

then put doc corbin dart at one end of the room.

put g.g. allin at the other.

do not stand in the middle.

because here are two men who arrived at roughly the same question from radically different directions. what happens when punk stops being theater. what happens when the guy holding the microphone apparently believes the horrible shit coming out of his mouth. what happens when provocation stops being an accessory and becomes a worldview. and most importantly. what happens when the audience can no longer tell where the character ends and the person begins.

dart and allin are occasionally shoved into the same filthy drawer of american underground music history because both made confrontation part of their art. both offended people professionally. both treated acceptable behavior as something invented by other people. both could make punk rockers themselves uncomfortable, which is harder than it sounds. punk audiences had already been trained to applaud profanity, blasphemy, antisocial behavior, cops being called fascists, presidents being called murderers, and civilization being declared fraudulent before the opening band finished its set.

dart and allin nevertheless found new nerves to press.

but they were not doing the same thing.

that distinction is everything.

doc corbin dart was essentially the deranged political pamphleteer at the end of the bar who had somehow acquired a band. g.g. allin increasingly turned his own body into the pamphlet.

dart wanted you to believe society was insane.

allin wanted to prove it by becoming something even worse.

doc dart came out of michigan and became the voice of the crucifucks, formed in the early eighties around lansing. even the name performed useful advance work. you knew before hearing a note that thanksgiving dinner was probably not going well for these people. jello biafra eventually brought the band onto alternative tentacles. dart later recalled that the connection came through tesco vee of the meatmen, who got the crucifucks onto a dead kennedys bill. according to dart, biafra later told him that he saw the name and immediately knew he had to see the band.

that is possibly the most alternative tentacles origin story imaginable.

the first crucifucks album was recorded in 1984 with spot, the producer already associated with black flag and the great early sst factory of beautiful noise. dart later remembered spot reacting to the material with something approaching bewilderment, essentially wondering what the hell these things even were because they barely resembled songs.

he had a point.

the crucifucks sounded like hardcore being interrogated under a bad fluorescent bulb. dart’s voice was the obvious weapon. high. nasal. frantic. accusatory. sometimes almost childlike. it was not the conventional masculine hardcore bark. he sounded less like the biggest guy in the room than the guy who had been awake for four days constructing a legal case against the room.

the songs went after cops, government, religion, social obedience, american culture, hypocrisy, political violence, consumerism, authority. practically anything capable of printing a letterhead was considered suspicious. the band became notorious for pushing offensive political humor beyond what even punk audiences were accustomed to hearing.

but listen carefully and dart’s shock tactics have a target.

that becomes important later.

dart could be vicious, grotesque, tasteless, childish, perceptive, compassionate, paranoid sounding, funny as hell, and occasionally several of those things during the same song. the crucifucks catalog contains the obvious anti authority detonations, but it also contains strangely vulnerable material. the emotional world underneath the screaming is considerably wider than the band name suggests.

this was not nihilism in its purest form.

dart cared too fucking much.

that may actually be his defining characteristic.

he cared about police abuse. political violence. rape. animals. social coercion. hypocrisy. environmental destruction. people being crushed by institutions. he cared with the exhausting intensity of somebody for whom turning the television off apparently did not make the television stop happening.

in 1989 he ran for mayor of lansing. this sounds initially like another punk prank until you get to the interesting part. dart reportedly won roughly a thousand votes and then used the leverage created by a close race between the establishment candidates to push for a rape crisis center.

that little episode should permanently complicate the cartoon version of doc dart.

because the screaming lunatic from the crucifucks was participating in municipal politics for an identifiable social objective.

the provocation was connected to belief.

g.g. allin’s history starts somewhere considerably darker.

he was born in new hampshire in 1956 into a family situation that has become inseparable from his mythology. his father was intensely religious and profoundly unstable by family accounts. allin was originally named jesus christ allin. his older brother merle’s childhood pronunciation of jesus as something resembling je je eventually produced the nickname g.g. his mother later legally renamed him kevin michael allin. accounts of the household describe an isolated cabin without running water or electricity and a father who reportedly threatened a family murder suicide and dug graves beneath the house.

there is enough nightmare fuel in that paragraph to keep a biographer employed for a decade.

but childhood trauma is explanation territory, not destiny.

millions of people survive monstrous childhoods without attacking audiences.

that distinction needs to remain nailed to the wall.

musically, allin was not born as the human disaster most people remember. this is one of the funniest accidents in the entire story. early g.g. could actually make fairly catchy rock and roll. he loved british invasion music. merle has remembered seeing the beatles on ed sullivan as a formative experience for the brothers. the stooges, mc5, alice cooper, glam, garage rock, punk, and straightforward rock and roll all entered the bloodstream. allin played drums before becoming primarily known as a frontman. he played with malpractice and then fronted the jabbers. his 1980 album always was, is and always shall be contains recognizably nasty punk rock but also actual hooks. actual tunes. songs that occasionally behave like songs.

then the escalation begins.

the jabbers fell apart as allin became increasingly volatile. later recordings became uglier. the lyrics became more deliberately hateful and obscene. performances moved from confrontation toward assaultive spectacle. allin stripped naked. fought audiences. injured himself. used bodily fluids. defecated onstage. threw feces. threatened people. attacked people.

the mythology eventually swallowed the musician.

that is the first enormous difference between him and dart.

dart’s extremity usually served the argument.

allin’s extremity increasingly became the argument.

there is a temptation to describe allin as punk taken to its logical conclusion. bullshit. punk has no logical conclusion because punk never possessed one unified philosophy in the first place. crass and the ramones were punk. bad brains and the slits were punk. dead kennedys and television were punk. pretending all these roads naturally lead to a naked man throwing shit is giving historical inevitability a very strange afternoon.

allin believed something more personal.

he came to describe rock and roll almost religiously. authenticity became his central obsession. rock had become safe. commercial. domesticated. audiences had become spectators rather than participants. performers were entertainers instead of dangerous figures. he cast himself as the corrective.

this is where allin becomes more interesting than the freak show.

because beneath all the garbage was an actual aesthetic argument.

the problem is that his answer to commodified rebellion was increasingly indistinguishable from genuine abuse.

allin repeatedly insisted in interviews that his performances were real. he treated danger as evidence of authenticity. in a 1991 prison interview he answered a simple question about his age by saying that age mattered less than the convictions a person carried.

conviction.

there is the word.

dart had it too.

but their convictions moved in opposite moral directions.

dart’s worldview was basically anti authoritarian. authority corrupts. institutions lie. police abuse power. governments murder while criminalizing lesser violence. organized religion manipulates. respectable society disguises brutality underneath procedure.

allin’s mature worldview became radically individualist and increasingly antisocial. freedom meant personal sovereignty taken toward an abyss. restrictions were artificial. social rules were fraudulent. bodily taboo was fraudulent. the performer owed the audience nothing resembling safety or comfort. eventually he spoke of himself in messianic terms and described his mission as restoring danger to rock and roll. contemporary accounts and later biographies consistently emphasize that he possessed a coherent philosophy underneath his increasingly chaotic behavior, even when the philosophy itself became grotesque.

that difference explains their shock value.

doc dart shocked because he wanted to destabilize assumptions.

g.g. allin shocked because destabilization itself became proof of existence.

dart might write something horrifying to make the listener confront institutional violence or hypocrisy. allin eventually made the horrifying thing happen in front of you.

one is rhetorical extremism.

the other became physical extremism.

and yes, there is overlap. dart could absolutely be offensive simply because offending people amused him. the crucifucks deliberately tried to go beyond acceptable lyrical boundaries. the band was hardly conducting a graduate seminar with guitars. sometimes the joke was the grenade.

their imagery created real consequences too. the compilation our will be done used a photograph of a philadelphia police officer posed as though he had been shot. the image had actually originated in a police public relations context. years later its use generated a lawsuit involving the band and alternative tentacles. an enormous default judgment was initially entered before being vacated on appeal.

dart knew provocation.

but allin converted provocation into ritual.

his audience eventually arrived partly to discover what catastrophe would happen. the songs were competing with the possibility of violence. once that occurs, the gig is no longer simply a concert. it becomes an event organized around anticipation of transgression.

this is where mental health enters the discussion and where lazy rock criticism usually becomes a fucking carnival.

calling either man crazy tells us almost nothing.

with allin, acquaintances and biographers have described dramatic changes in demeanor, extreme aggression, self destructive behavior, substance abuse, grandiosity, and apparent instability. retrospective accounts have speculated about various psychiatric explanations. none of that gives us permission to diagnose him from a record collection. what can safely be said is that people close to him recognized severe psychological and behavioral problems and that drugs complicated an already volatile situation. allmusic’s biography notes that associates believed mental problems were worsened by substance use and observed abrupt shifts between politeness and violence, intelligence and incoherence, grandiosity and self loathing.

merle allin’s later assessment is devastating because it avoids turning his brother into a monster from another species. looking back decades later, merle said his brother had become trapped in his own insanity.

that phrasing gets painfully close to the central problem.

the character required escalation.

yesterday’s outrage becomes today’s expectation.

once g.g. allin is the man who will do anything, he has to keep doing anything.

the audience becomes part of the machinery. promoters become part of it. journalists become part of it. television becomes part of it. every horrified newspaper story verifies the legend. every cancellation verifies the outlaw. every person arriving specifically to be disgusted creates demand for greater disgust.

allin was simultaneously exploiting the spectacle and being consumed by it.

dart presents a different psychological puzzle.

his writing often feels hyperaware to the point of torment. there is paranoia in the colloquial sense throughout the work, but using that word clinically would be irresponsible without evidence. what is documented is eccentricity, alienation, obsessive political and moral concern, and eventually a dramatic personal transformation.

by the 2000s the man formerly known as doc dart was calling himself 26.

not twenty six as a nickname.

he abandoned his former identity to such an extent that he reportedly would not comfortably say the crucifucks name anymore because he had renounced profanity. the same man responsible for one of punk’s gloriously unprintable band names came to regard his earlier work with deep embarrassment. he called the first crucifucks record an abomination.

try finding a better punk ending than that.

the man spends years offending nearly everyone and eventually becomes offended by himself.

former crucifucks drummer steve shelley later indicated that the dart described in sam mcpheeters’s remarkable profile was almost unrecognizable compared with the man shelley had known decades earlier.

mcpheeters encountered 26 as an intensely eccentric older man living largely outside punk culture. the resulting profile, the troublemaker, has become one of the central documents for understanding dart after the crucifucks. mcpheeters later called the piece perhaps his best nonfiction work, and in 2026 published information about a much longer original version while noting that he had lost contact with 26 years earlier.

this transformation makes dart almost the inverse of allin.

allin gradually collapsed the distance between persona and person.

dart eventually tried to escape the persona altogether.

g.g. became more g.g.

doc stopped being doc.

there is something deeply sad in both trajectories.

allin promised for years that he would eventually kill himself during a performance. he turned his own death into an upcoming show date. he discussed suicide publicly and repeatedly, making mortality part of the brand and mythology. shortly before his death he appeared on television making grotesque threats and declarations about what his performances and philosophy represented.

then on june 28, 1993, after his final new york performance had dissolved into chaos, g.g. allin died from a heroin overdose.

not onstage.

not according to the promised grand design.

in an apartment.

the mythology had advertised an apocalypse and received the bleak ordinary mathematics of an overdose instead.

he was thirty six.

and then something predictable happened.

death froze the character.

g.g. allin never had to become a sixty year old g.g. allin. he never had to explain the nineties from a retirement home. never had to apologize or refuse to apologize. never had to discover social media. christ, imagine that catastrophe. he never had to decide whether the old lyrics still represented him.

doc dart did.

that may be the greatest difference between their legacies.

dart lived long enough to contradict his younger self.

allin became merchandise.

death preserved allin at maximum voltage. documentaries, bootlegs, interviews, photographs, records, stories, shirts, tribute performances, internet clips, and the continuing murder junkies turned him into one of underground rock’s permanent grotesques. todd phillips’s hated became especially important because it captured allin near the end and supplied later generations with a visual document of the performances and philosophy.

the image became portable.

you no longer needed to survive the concert.

you could watch the legend from your couch.

which is hilarious in the bleakest possible way because the man who despised safe spectator culture became endlessly consumable media.

doc dart’s legacy is smaller but arguably stranger and musically richer.

the crucifucks remain a cult band rather than a cultural freak show. their first album has survived because underneath the provocation is an unusual hardcore record. steve shelley’s drumming alone creates a wonderful historical connection to sonic youth. dart’s voice remains instantly recognizable. wisconsin expanded the musical vocabulary beyond straightforward hardcore. dart’s solo record patricia pushed further into personal territory. the catalog rewards listening in ways that the band’s reputation can obscure.

dart also belongs to an important strain of american punk where outrage was political methodology. dead kennedys. mdc. crucifucks. millions of dead cops. the dicks. bands that treated offensiveness not merely as juvenile entertainment but as a crowbar against respectable political language.

he also demonstrated the danger in that strategy.

if you spend your life screaming in the language of provocation, people may remember the provocation and forget the argument.

allin faces the same problem multiplied by a thousand.

ask someone who barely knows g.g. allin to describe him and they probably know the shit before they know a song.

that is a legacy problem.

his greatest artistic innovation may also have destroyed his music’s ability to exist independently from his biography.

there are legitimate g.g. songs worth discussing. the early jabbers material demonstrates melodic instinct. later records contain primitive garage punk, hardcore, country, spoken word, and various forms of deliberately degraded rock and roll. he was not musically talentless. reducing him to a talentless freak is historically inaccurate.

but g.g. himself made that reduction nearly inevitable.

when you attack an audience member, nobody leaves discussing the chord progression.

dart understood spectacle but continued to behave fundamentally like a songwriter and political provocateur.

allin increasingly behaved like a performance artist whose backing medium happened to be punk rock.

and here is the uncomfortable connection between them.

both understood that american society secretly enjoys what it publicly condemns.

dart could insult police, government, religion, capitalism, morality, and public decency and people would buy the record precisely because somebody said they should not.

allin discovered something even uglier.

people will gather to watch a human being destroy himself.

they will call themselves disgusted.

they will keep watching.

that is where g.g. allin’s legacy stops being merely about g.g. allin.

the audience is implicated.

the interviewer is implicated.

the camera is implicated.

the writer is implicated.

hell, this essay is implicated.

every generation rediscovers him because the question remains unresolved. was he a performance artist. an abuser. a mentally unwell man being encouraged by spectators. a committed extremist. an authentic rock and roll primitive. a calculating provocateur. an addict. a narcissistic showman. a victim of his own mythology.

the irritating answer is that several things can be true simultaneously.

the same applies to dart.

dart can be compassionate and cruel. politically serious and juvenile. perceptive and irrational. principled and exhausting. the older 26 can reject the younger doc without magically erasing him.

human beings are inconsiderate enough to contain contradictions.

punk biographies become bullshit when we sand those contradictions away.

the clean comparison would say doc dart was political and g.g. allin was nihilistic.

too easy.

allin had beliefs.

dart had nihilistic impulses.

the cleaner comparison would say dart used shock intelligently while allin used it stupidly.

also too easy.

dart sometimes offended because he enjoyed the explosion. allin occasionally used obscenity to articulate a coherent criticism of entertainment, conformity, and commercialization.

the real dividing line is responsibility.

dart’s extremity generally pointed outward toward systems he believed were harmful. even his ugliest rhetoric tended to emerge from political anger or wounded empathy.

allin increasingly made harm itself part of authenticity.

that difference cannot be aestheticized away.

hurting yourself is not automatically brave.

hurting somebody else is not artistic simply because a microphone is nearby.

mental illness, where present, does not turn violence into genius.

and shock is not depth.

but shock can reveal depth.

doc dart understood that.

g.g. allin occasionally understood it too.

then he kept going.

and going.

and going.

until the distinction between revelation and spectacle practically disappeared.

their lasting legacies therefore occupy opposite corners of the same filthy american room.

doc corbin dart survives as the underground prophet almost forgotten outside the congregation. the crucifucks remain a secret handshake among people who dig deeply enough into american hardcore to discover that the genre was far stranger than the standard canon suggests. his later transformation into 26 makes the story even more fascinating because it denies us the comfortable frozen punk icon. he changed. contradicted himself. rejected parts of his own history. became difficult to locate. escaped the merchandising machine.

g.g. allin became impossible to escape.

he survives as symbol before musician.

his face represents transgression.

his name functions as shorthand for the point beyond which rock performance supposedly cannot travel.

every performer who smears blood on themselves, attacks the separation between audience and stage, embraces deliberate disgust, or announces that rock has become too safe eventually receives the comparison.

most of them do not actually want it.

because allin took the proposition seriously enough to expose its logical horror.

if authenticity means never pretending.

if rebellion means refusing every limit.

if freedom means answering to nobody.

if rock and roll must always become more dangerous.

then eventually there is nowhere left to go except destruction.

doc dart’s life offers another possibility.

you can walk away from your own mythology.

you can become somebody your younger self might despise.

you can even decide the records everyone loves are abominations.

there is something magnificently inconvenient about surviving your certainty.

g.g. allin became the thing he said he was.

doc corbin dart eventually refused to remain the thing everyone else said he was.

one became permanently trapped inside the legend.

the other appears to have spent years trying to crawl outside his.

and somewhere between those two stories sits the real history of shock in punk rock.

not whether somebody said the forbidden word.

not whether somebody got naked.

not whether cops arrived.

not whether parents were horrified.

the real question is what remained after the shock stopped shocking.

with dart, songs remain. politics remain. contradictions remain. a bizarre and deeply human story remains.

with allin, songs remain too, but they are buried beneath one of the largest piles of mythology any underground musician ever constructed around himself. underneath all the blood and shit and threats is a surprisingly serious warning about the worship of authenticity. demand that an artist prove every word and eventually somebody may try.

doc corbin dart and g.g. allin both wanted punk to mean something beyond clothing and records.

dart wanted it to expose the insanity outside the individual.

allin tried to absorb that insanity into himself.

one screamed that the world was sick.

the other volunteered to become the evidence.

and forty years later we are still staring at both of them trying to determine which spectacle was the stranger one.

the men.

or everybody watching them.

...at least that’s what i hear.

the towers did not fall into silence. they fell into every song america already knew.
that was the first musical fact of september 11. before anybody had written a tribute single. before the benefit concerts arrived with their candles and tasteful lighting. before country radio discovered that grief could wear a flag pin and sell three million copies. the old songs changed. every mention of fire sounded different. every airplane became suspicious. every new york song acquired a body count. every line about falling suddenly seemed like it had been waiting years to become unbearable. the national songbook had not moved an inch, but the country hearing it had been blown several miles sideways.
music did what it always does when history becomes too large for ordinary speech. it rushed into the gap. sometimes it carried water. sometimes it carried gasoline. sometimes it showed up with a television contract, a corporate sponsor, and a heroic camera angle. sometimes it sat alone in a room and admitted that there was no useful thing to say.
the september 11 attacks changed music because they changed the meaning of public emotion in america. grief became civic property. patriotism became a commercial format. dissent became evidence. irony became briefly radioactive. radio programmers began treating nouns like explosive devices. concerts became memorials, telethons, security problems, political rallies, and eventually targets in a broader war shaped by the attacks. musicians were asked to heal the country, endorse the country, explain the country, defend the country, and shut the hell up about the country, often during the same promotional cycle.
the result was not one post september 11 sound. it was an argument over who got to describe america after america had been wounded.
and the argument got ugly fast.
within days, commercial radio demonstrated the nervous intelligence of a smoke detector installed directly above a toaster. an internal clear channel advisory circulated among programmers with songs considered lyrically questionable in the aftermath. the company later insisted this was not an official ban, which was technically useful and spiritually hilarious. nobody was being ordered to censor anything. a giant radio corporation had merely handed anxious employees a list of music it might be safer not to play while the entire country stared at television footage of mass death.
the selections revealed a culture hearing danger in every syllable. free fallin. leaving on a jet plane. stairway to heaven. another one bites the dust. learn to fly. burning down the house. new york new york. what a wonderful world. imagine. the entire catalog of rage against the machine. subtlety had left the building and apparently been placed on indefinite administrative leave.
the list is often remembered as a goofy artifact, and parts of it are genuinely absurd. but it exposed something important. september 11 did not merely inspire new music. it rewired the reception of existing music. words had become unstable. a harmless title could collide with an image replayed on television and produce a meaning nobody intended. radio had always sold context as much as sound. now context was a national trauma, and the people controlling the airwaves responded by wrapping the vocabulary in foam rubber.
this was grief management by spreadsheet.
it also arrived at a rotten moment in radio history. the telecommunications act of 1996 had accelerated consolidation, and clear channel had grown into an enormous owner of stations and concert interests. fewer companies now controlled more of the public soundtrack. so an informal suggestion could travel with the weight of centralized power even without becoming an official command. the post attack playlist therefore taught musicians a lesson that would define the next several years. nobody needed a government censor sitting in a basement with a red pencil. fear. ownership concentration. advertiser sensitivity. and career preservation could do the work just fine.
the absurdity went beyond radio. album artwork was pulled. releases were delayed. titles were changed. the coup had already designed the cover of party music before the attacks. boots riley and pam the funkstress appeared detonating the world trade center with an electronic tuner. it was political satire made months before september. after the real towers were destroyed, the image became impossible to release. the label replaced it. dream theater changed the original cover of live scenes from new york, which showed the new york skyline and world trade center wrapped in flames. the album had the spectacular bad luck to arrive on september 11 itself. system of a down had changed the original title of chop suey from suicide because the label worried about airplay. then the song landed on the clear channel advisory anyway. nuance was having one hell of a week.
slayer released god hates us all on september 11. jay z released the blueprint that day too. neither album was a response to the attacks. both became permanently attached to the date. the blueprint in particular now carries a bizarre double memory. it is one of the defining rap albums of its era, a record of swagger, rivalry, soul samples, and imperial confidence, released while the city at the center of its musical universe was being attacked. people bought it while trying to understand whether normal life still existed. art does not wait for history to clear the loading dock. sometimes the cartons arrive on the same morning as catastrophe.
for a few days, normal entertainment looked obscene. tours stopped. clubs closed. award shows shifted. television abandoned regular schedules. musicians suddenly appeared without the usual promotional machinery because promotion itself seemed indecent. america. a tribute to heroes aired on september 21 across multiple networks. the staging was deliberately stripped down. dark rooms. candles. subdued performances. famous people answering telephones. no roaring audience. no sales pitch pretending not to be one.
bruce springsteen opened with my city of ruins, a song he had written about asbury park rather than lower manhattan. he introduced it as a prayer for the fallen. the song changed ownership in public. that happened repeatedly after september 11. songs detached from their original subjects and became communal containers. leonard cohens hallelujah. simon and garfunkels bridge over troubled water. u2s walk on. songs did not need to mention towers or terror. they needed enough emotional space for millions of people to move into them.
the benefit concert became one of the central musical institutions of the moment. paul mccartney organized the concert for new york city at madison square garden on october 20. david bowie opened with a small. strange. beautiful version of america before playing heroes. the who delivered wont get fooled again with a force that nearly tore the respectable charity packaging off the evening. firefighters and police officers filled the arena. celebrities told stories. politicians appeared. grief. gratitude. rage. celebrity. class. and television production were compressed into one enormous room.
the concert raised money and gave first responders a public ceremony. it also showed how quickly trauma could be organized into entertainment grammar. the cameras knew when to find the crying widow. the crowd knew when to chant usa. the rock stars knew how to turn helplessness into volume. this was not automatically cynical. ritual requires form. concerts are one of the few modern places where thousands of strangers can make the same sound without pretending they arrived independently. but the form carried politics whether anybody acknowledged it or not.
the who performance became legendary partly because it converted grief into physical release. that conversion became one of the primary jobs assigned to music. sadness alone was unbearable. music gave sadness a beat. anger alone was frightening. music gave anger a chorus. uncertainty was politically inconvenient. music could make certainty last three minutes and thirty seconds.
then came the songs written directly into the wound.
springsteens the rising became the most ambitious mainstream rock response because it refused the easiest assignment. it did not reduce september 11 to revenge. the album moved through firefighters. widows. empty bedrooms. religious confusion. immigrant lives. memory. desire. and the sick feeling that the dead remained physically close while being absolutely unreachable. springsteen reportedly began feeling the burden after a stranger saw him in a car and told him that america needed him. it is a wonderfully american anecdote. national disaster occurs. citizen locates rock star. citizen assigns homework.
springsteen accepted because his entire career had trained him for civic storytelling. he understood work. bodies. streets. failed promises. and the unofficial religion of people gathering around amplifiers. the rising follows a firefighter climbing upward while others move down. the image is heroic, but the song does not turn the man into a cardboard action figure. he carries equipment. fear. memory. and love. the chorus reaches for transcendence because realism by itself cannot bring him home.
the album also included worlds apart, which used qawwali singers and attempted to imagine intimacy across the widening christian muslim divide. it is not a perfect song. it is important because the attempt itself ran against the period. most commercial culture was simplifying muslim identity into threat. springsteen tried. sometimes awkwardly. to keep another human being inside the frame.
that distinction separated the best post september 11 music from the loudest. the best work enlarged the number of people permitted to grieve. the worst work narrowed grief until it became a weapon.
country music became the main commercial theater for that fight. no genre was more closely tied to public patriotism after the attacks. this made sense. country had long dealt in home. family. military service. small towns. working people. faith. death. and national identity. it possessed the emotional vocabulary required for collective mourning. it also possessed a radio infrastructure eager for songs that could convert national feeling into dependable programming.
alan jacksons where were you when the world stopped turning became the genres most humane immediate response. jackson did not pretend to have strategic answers. the song asks where people were and what they did. call family. pray. watch television. feel fear. feel love. jackson said the song came to him in the early morning weeks after the attacks. he got out of bed and began working through it. the power of the song is its uncertainty. the narrator does not know foreign policy. he knows memory. scripture. and the bewilderment of watching ordinary life continue after thousands of lives ended.
the song became enormous because it allowed listeners to remain confused. that sounds like a small achievement until one remembers how aggressively the culture was selling certainty.
toby keith went the other direction with courtesy of the red white and blue. the angry american. keith wrote it after the attacks and the death of his father. he initially performed it for military audiences and resisted recording it. the song became a blunt revenge fantasy. memorable. efficient. built for crowds who wanted rage returned to them without footnotes. its most famous threat reduced geopolitics to footwear and anatomy. subtle it was not. subtle would have been laughed out of the parking lot.
keiths song did not single handedly militarize country music. it became the cleanest expression of a broader fusion already underway. patriotism. troop support. masculine retaliation. radio power. and commercial branding began reinforcing one another. darryl worleys have you forgotten asked whether opposition to the coming iraq war represented amnesia about september 11. this was the political sleight of hand of the era turned into a chorus. afghanistan. iraq. al qaeda. saddam hussein. terrorism. dissent. the distinctions blurred under enough cymbal crash.
country radio rewarded the emotional certainty. audiences did too. these songs were not imposed on an unwilling public by a cartoon villain in a corporate office. millions of listeners genuinely felt furious. frightened. and hungry for retaliation. music gave those feelings a home. the trouble was that feelings were then treated as arguments. a chorus built to survive the drive to work began doing the job of congressional testimony.
the collision arrived in 2003. before a london concert. natalie maines of the dixie chicks told the audience that the band was ashamed that president george w bush was from texas. the iraq invasion was approaching. the response in american country media was ferocious. stations stopped playing the group. organized protests destroyed cds. commentators treated criticism of a president as betrayal of troops and nation. the band received threats. their career in mainstream country radio was effectively detonated.
the episode proved how much the acceptable emotional range had contracted. country music could contain sorrow. vengeance. prayer. military sacrifice. and national pride. it had far less room for embarrassment. doubt. or disgust directed upward at political leadership. radio did not merely reflect public anger. it amplified it through a consolidated system in which a few companies and programmers could make disapproval nearly national.
the chicks eventually answered with not ready to make nice. by then the song was not only about bush or iraq. it was about punishment. exile. and the demand that women apologize in the correct tone before being permitted back into respectable commerce. the record turned blacklisting into material. that may be one of the lasting effects of september 11 on popular music. censorship produced its own songs. silence became content.
rock music had its own split. neil young wrote lets roll after hearing the story of flight 93 passenger todd beamer and the passengers who fought back. the song was urgent and reverent. but young later became one of the most visible rock musicians opposing the bush administration and the iraq war. the same artist could respond to civilian courage without signing a lifetime loyalty oath to the war on terror. that should have been obvious. america spent several years acting as if it were advanced calculus.
steve earle made the more dangerous move. john walkers blues told part of its story from the perspective of john walker lindh. the american captured fighting with the taliban in afghanistan. earle did not write a recruitment anthem for the taliban. he tried to imagine how an american kid could travel from california into religious extremism and war. the distinction between explanation and endorsement was promptly beaten with a tire iron. tabloids attacked him. critics accused him of glorifying a traitor. earle defended the song as the writers job. get inside the human being everybody else has decided is a monster.
this was precisely what post september 11 culture had begun distrusting. empathy could be interpreted as contamination. to imagine the enemy was to excuse the enemy. to explain radicalization was to weaken moral clarity. art was expected to identify villains. not investigate how a person becomes one.
earles jerusalem therefore stands as a crucial post attack record. it challenged the narrowing of national imagination. so did records and songs by anti flag. pearl jam. bright eyes. public enemy. immortal technique. mos def. dead prez. and eventually green day. american idiot arrived in 2004 as a mass market rejection of war era media culture. its politics were broad. its plot was theatrical. its guitars were enormous. and its success showed that dissent had finally become commercially legible again.
hip hop had an especially complicated relationship with the new america. the genre was already the countrys most aggressive forum for state violence. policing. poverty. foreign policy. media lies. and the distance between official america and lived america. after september 11. rappers had to address an attack on new york while watching the government convert that attack into domestic surveillance and foreign war.
some responses were immediate expressions of city grief and resilience. others attacked the official story or the uses made of it. jadakiss later asked why bush knocked down the towers. immortal technique. mos def. dj green lantern. chuck d. and krs one pushed even harder into conspiracy. imperial history. cia policy. and rage at the war on terror. those songs were sometimes reckless with evidence. they were also evidence themselves. they documented how little trust existed between parts of black and brown america and the institutions presenting a unified national narrative.
the patriotic consensus was never actually a consensus. it was a volume setting.
muslim musicians and south asian artists experienced the period from inside the suspicion. airports. visas. names. clothing. faith. and skin color became part of musical life whether the music mentioned them or not. tours crossed borders under heavier scrutiny. artists were detained. audiences and industries often demanded that muslim performers explain terrorism before discussing their own work. later. riz ahmeds post 9 11 blues used satire to describe detention. racism. war. and the political absurdities surrounding them. the bbc initially considered the track too politically sensitive for airplay. years afterward. ahmed and heems formed swet shop boys and rapped about profiling and airport humiliation. the afterlife of september 11 had become a genre of bureaucratic experience.
that history matters because the attacks changed who was allowed uncomplicated citizenship in popular music. certain artists could wave a flag without explaining themselves. others were asked to prove they belonged before reaching the first chorus.
outside the commercial center. some of the deepest music did not argue at all. it decayed.
william basinski had been transferring old tape loops into digital form before september 11. the magnetic tape deteriorated as it passed through the machine. fragments disappeared with every repetition. melody remained. then weakened. then became absence. basinski watched the smoke from his brooklyn rooftop and played the recordings. the disintegration loops became inseparable from the event. not because they narrated it. because their physical process resembled memory failing while still repeating.
the work offered no hero. no villain. no solution. no useful vote. it let loss remain loss. that refusal became powerful in a culture rushing to convert death into purpose. basinski later understood the music as an elegy. listeners heard buildings. bodies. tape. time. and memory dissolving together. this was post september 11 music without the phrase post september 11 stamped across the packaging.
john adams approached collective grief through commissioned concert music. on the transmigration of souls was written for the new york philharmonic and premiered in 2002. the piece incorporated city sounds. childrens voices. and names and phrases drawn from missing person notices and memorial material. adams described the work less as a conventional narrative than a space for memory. the title referred to movement from one condition into another. the dead passing into the memory of the living.
the piece raised difficult questions that benefit singles could avoid. can art use the names of the dead without consuming them. can a composer represent public grief without decorating it. can beauty exist beside mass murder without becoming obscene. adams answered by resisting dramatic reenactment. the music does not rebuild the attack for the concert hall. it creates an environment where fragments of human identity survive the event.
osvaldo golijovs ayre. john coriglianos one sweet morning. steve reichs wtc 9 11. and many other concert works would continue processing the attacks and their aftermath. classical music did not stand outside the politics. reichs use of recorded voices and emergency communications generated its own arguments about documentary sound. the question was always the same. when does remembrance become representation. and when does representation become ownership.
popular music faced the same problem with less formal language and more merchandise.
september 11 accelerated the rise of the celebrity telethon as compulsory civic theater. artists were no longer only performers. they were emotional first responders with agents. benefit singles and concerts gathered money. attention. and shared feeling. they also trained audiences to experience catastrophe through familiar stars. the famous person became the bridge between private sorrow and national spectacle.
sometimes the bridge held. sometimes it looked like branding erected near a grave.
the music industry itself had practical problems. tours were canceled or postponed. travel became slower and more invasive. insurance and security costs rose. large gatherings felt newly vulnerable. border policy tightened. visas became a greater obstacle for international performers. clubs and arenas added searches and restrictions. the touring life. already an exhausting procession of airports. loading docks. and fluorescent hallways. absorbed another layer of suspicion.
the changes were not always advertised as consequences of september 11. that is how historical change usually works. it migrates into paperwork. a promoter changes a procedure. a venue adds a barrier. an artist from the middle east waits longer for approval. a label calculates whether a song title may trigger complaints. an airline instrument policy becomes one more humiliation in an endless day. the event survives in systems long after commemorative television has moved on.
the attacks also accelerated a retreat from irony in mainstream culture. the late nineteen nineties had been soaked in detachment. pop could be plastic and proud of it. alternative rock had turned self awareness into posture. television enjoyed smirking at its own machinery. after september 11. irony was declared dead by people who had apparently mistaken a rhetorical mode for a civilian casualty.
music briefly favored sincerity so blunt it could leave a bruise. earnest rock returned. inspirational ballads multiplied. choruses reached toward unity. stars sang standards with grave faces. even artists who had built careers on distance were expected to mean something and mean it visibly.
but irony did not die. it went underground. then it came back angrier. comedians. punk bands. rappers. indie musicians. and internet culture used irony to attack the official language of war. yellow ribbons. terror alerts. embedded journalism. freedom fries. mission accomplished. sincerity had been claimed by power. satire became a way to steal language back.
this push and pull helped shape the music of the two thousands. emo turned private anguish into arena scale confession. indie rock often retreated into intimate detail or constructed alternative communities outside mass patriotic culture. punk rediscovered direct political speech. mainstream pop mostly avoided explicit engagement until opposition to the iraq war became safer. hip hop documented war. profiling. and mistrust while also expanding into the dominant center of american pop. country split between nationalist enforcement and artists whose visions of american life were more complicated than the radio wanted.
even songs with no direct connection to september 11 existed inside the altered emotional climate. the decade favored apocalypse. surveillance. emergency. alienation. ruined cities. and exhausted citizenship. radiohead had completed much of kid a and amnesiac before the attacks. yet american listeners heard those records afterward as if they were transmissions from the new condition. art written before history can become prophetic when history changes the audience.
that is one reason asking for the definitive september 11 song is pointless. the attacks changed listening as much as writing. a record did not need to mention the towers to absorb them. every audience carried the images in. meaning formed at the collision point.
the longest musical consequence may have been the politicization of taste itself. what a person played after the attacks could be treated as a moral declaration. imagine could seem pacifist and therefore naive. courtesy of the red white and blue could sound cathartic or bloodthirsty. the rising could feel healing or sanctimonious. john walkers blues could be courageous or unforgivable. buying a dixie chicks record could become a vote. destroying one could become a televised ritual of belonging.
music had always helped americans sort themselves into tribes. after september 11. the tribes carried security clearances.
the commemorative cycle then hardened. anniversaries required programming. playlists. concerts. documentaries. orchestral commissions. reunion performances. and solemn acoustic versions of songs that had once been allowed to exist without representing civilization. some of this work preserved memory. some flattened memory into the same images and narratives. firefighters climbing. flags rising. families waiting. lights in the sky. repetition can honor. repetition can also sand away everything politically difficult.
the central danger was the conversion of victims into authorization. once the dead became symbols. politicians. broadcasters. and musicians could make them appear to endorse policies they never lived to consider. the best music resisted this ventriloquism. it returned names. jobs. marriages. mistakes. bodies. and unfinished sentences to the story. it understood that three thousand deaths were not one metaphor.
springsteen wrote from the perspective of individuals moving through loss. basinski let material disappear. adams assembled names and traces. alan jackson admitted bewilderment. these works endured because they left room for the listener. they did not explain the entire catastrophe. they made a place where explanation could fail honestly.
the revenge songs endure too. pretending otherwise would make the history prettier and less true. they captured emotions millions of people possessed. fear wanted a target. grief wanted action. humiliation wanted restored power. the records that supplied those things became documents of the national psyche. catchy documents. sometimes ugly documents. but documents all the same.
the protest songs preserved another america. suspicious of empire. alarmed by surveillance. aware that wars launched in the names of victims would create new victims. their writers were called unpatriotic because patriotism had been temporarily defined as agreement. years later. as the iraq war lost public support and the official claims around it collapsed. much of that dissent sounded less treasonous and more like somebody had bothered to read the fine print.
september 11 changed music by stripping away the fantasy that songs float above history. radio playlists became political. silence became political. grief became political. a country single could help police the borders of citizenship. an experimental tape loop could become a public memorial. a concert could raise millions while teaching a nation how to stage its own pain. an offhand sentence before a london show could exile the biggest group in country music. a rapper describing an airport could expose an entire security state.
it changed the musicians too. some became activists. some became symbols against their will. some learned that audiences wanted reassurance more than truth. some discovered that dissent could end careers. others discovered that punishment could create a different audience. the old bargain between artist and public had acquired a loyalty clause nobody remembered signing.
and it changed the business. corporations learned how to program trauma. television learned how to turn rock stars into national clergy. labels learned to inspect imagery for catastrophe. venues learned the architecture of suspicion. political campaigns learned again that a song could deliver emotional authority faster than a speech. audiences learned to read playlists as declarations of allegiance.
music did not heal america after september 11. that is a sentimental claim usually made by people selling commemorative box sets. music cannot resurrect the dead. cannot reverse a war. cannot restore a civil liberty. cannot make a lie stop functioning as policy.
what music can do is preserve the noise people made while history was happening to them.
it preserves the stranger telling springsteen that the country needed him. alan jackson waking with questions he could not shake. boots riley staring at an album cover transformed from satire into nightmare. natalie maines discovering that one sentence could erase years of radio success. steve earle insisting that imagination must enter even the mind of the accused. basinskis tape shedding itself into dust while smoke crossed the sky. muslim rappers turning checkpoints and suspicion into rhythm because the official memorials had no room for their version of the country.
that is the real post september 11 songbook. not a clean playlist of healing anthems. a fight over memory. citizenship. violence. grief. and who gets the microphone after the official ceremony ends.
the attacks made music more earnest and more suspicious. more communal and more tribal. more politically useful and therefore more politically dangerous. they produced consolation. propaganda. witness. retaliation. dissent. and some of the most profound meditations on loss recorded in the twenty first century. they did not give america one voice. they exposed how many voices had been forced beneath the national chorus.
the towers fell into every song america already knew. twenty five years later. they are still in the echo.
…at least that’s what i hear.

a remembrance written for country song roundup. nineteen sixty three.

by the archivist.

one week before patsy cline died. i bought her a cup of coffee in a nashville diner and listened while she explained why women would eventually inherit country music.

to be accurate. i attempted to buy her coffee. patsy grabbed the check before i could reach it and informed me that any man dressed for his own funeral was probably saving for something.

that was patsy. even the kindness came armed.

the diner stood off a busy road beyond the respectable part of nashville. it had twelve stools. six booths. a tired jukebox. and coffee strong enough to remove varnish. patsy chose the booth in the back. she arrived wearing a dark coat. carried her cigarettes in one hand. and looked around the room as if she expected somebody to produce a contract she had not approved.

i had brought my notebook.

patsy looked at it. then at me.

you writing down how i take my coffee.

two sugars. no cream. i said.

hell. you are writing it down.

occupational disease.

what occupation requires a black suit. dark glasses. and spying on women eating pie.

music history.

that a real job.

not yet.

she laughed. loudly. nothing like the careful laughter expected from female stars during interviews. this laugh had traveled in crowded automobiles. slept in cheap hotels. watched musicians lose money at cards. and heard every dirty joke ever told behind the grand ole opry.

the jukebox began playing crazy.

patsy turned toward it.

damn thing follows me everywhere.

i watched her listen. singers rarely look the way audiences expect when one of their records begins playing. some become embarrassed. some pretend not to notice. some start listening for mistakes nobody else can hear.

patsy listened like a mechanic checking an engine.

you did not want to record crazy at first. i said.

no. she replied. sounded odd. too much range. too many places for the thing to go wrong.

willie nelson wrote it.

willie had ideas. strange little ideas. sang behind the beat like he had been delayed somewhere. i did not hear myself in it right away. owen did.

owen bradley.

you know another owen around here with a studio and an opinion.

i wrote that down.

patsy reached across the table and tapped my pencil.

do not make him into a magician. owen knows how to make a record. he heard things i did not hear at first. but i still had to sing the damn song.

i assured her that nobody hearing crazy could possibly overlook the singer.

you would be surprised what people can overlook when a woman does the work. she said.

the waitress brought coffee. patsy added two sugars. no cream.

i had asked for the meeting because i wanted to discuss women in country music. by nineteen sixty three. patsy had become something larger than a successful female country singer. walkin after midnight had crossed from the country charts into the pop market. i fall to pieces had established her as a major recording artist. crazy had spread her voice far beyond the opry audience. shes got you had confirmed that none of this was an accident.

she had also survived a recording contract that restricted her material. an automobile collision that nearly killed her. arguments over arrangements. bad songs. bad roads. men with money. men without money. men promising money. and enough cheap hotel coffee to qualify as a medical experiment.

i asked what she thought country music would become.

bigger. she said.

that was quick.

you want me to make it complicated so you get your nickels worth.

i have no nickel in this arrangement.

then you are already in the music business.

she lit a cigarette.

it is going to get bigger. more television. more package shows. bigger tours. more money. prettier clothes. smoother records. maybe strings on everything until a fiddle has to make an appointment. people will complain it is not country anymore. then they will buy it anyway.

i asked if the nashville sound worried her.

people give something a name after it starts making money. she said. before that. they call it a mistake.

patsys own records had become central to the argument. owen bradleys productions placed her voice among piano. electric guitar. background singers. and strings. they were country records constructed with the scale and finish of pop. purists heard surrender. the public heard patsy cline.

country music was always changing. she said. anybody who tells you he knows exactly what pure country is probably wants to sell you the definition.

i asked about walkin after midnight. her first great success. recorded under the restrictions of four star records and performed on national television in nineteen fifty seven.

patsy rolled her eyes before i finished the question.

there is a long story wrapped in cheap fringe.

arthur godfreys talent scouts. i said.

television. she said. they wanted me dressed like a cowgirl. mother made the outfit. fringe everywhere. enough fringe to dust the stage while i sang. i did not care much for the song. the audience liked it. the record sold. suddenly everybody knew my name and nobody knew what the hell to do with me.

the label wanted another walkin after midnight.

the label wanted ten more. that is how record men think. one cash register rings and they start building a church around it.

she crushed the cigarette in the ashtray.

i wanted good songs. i knew what i could sing. four star kept bringing me material that arrived half dead. you cannot make a corpse dance just because somebody owns the publishing.

after her four star contract ended. patsy signed directly with decca and worked more closely with bradley. better songs followed. so did more sophisticated arrangements. the voice remained unmistakably country. but the records no longer accepted the fences built around that description.

patsy looked toward the jukebox.

people thought the strings made me less country. she said. i had already worked every bar and fairground they could name. i did not need a fiddle on every measure to prove where i came from.

the waitress arrived with two slices of pie. neither of us had ordered them.

my daughter sings along with you. she told patsy.

does she sing loud. patsy asked.

loud enough to wake the neighbors.

good. tell her to keep doing that.

the waitress returned to the counter.

patsy pointed her fork toward her.

that is the future.

the pie.

the girl.

i looked toward the waitress.

you believe more women are coming.

they better. i cannot sing every damn song myself.

they are coming. i said.

how many.

enough to scare the men.

now you are trying to cheer me up.

i told her that girls listening to her records would become singers. songwriters. bandleaders. businesswomen. producers. and owners. i told her that country music would attempt to hold them back through an endless supply of rules. usually contradictory ones.

women would be told they were too country. then too pop. too young. then too old. too plain. then too glamorous. too soft. then too angry. too dependent upon men. then too difficult to control.

patsy put down her fork.

so the future is stupid.

parts of it.

that is comforting. hate to think progress might spoil everybody.

she asked how women would be treated by country radio.

i hesitated.

that bad.

some women become the biggest recording artists in the world. i said. radio men still explain that listeners do not want to hear too many female voices together.

patsy stared into her coffee.

they are already pulling that trick. one woman on a package show. one woman on the chart. one woman in the office. then they point at her and tell every other girl that the seat is taken.

she leaned forward.

makes us fight over the chair instead of asking who owns the room.

i wrote the sentence down.

i better get royalties on that. she said.

you should receive royalties on considerably more than that.

no argument here.

the women surrounding patsy were not merely professional acquaintances. she had become a friend and informal adviser to younger singers. loretta lynn. dottie west. jan howard. brenda lee. and others found in her something country music rarely provided women. another woman willing to explain how the machinery operated.

i asked about loretta.

patsys expression softened. slightly.

loretta has the goods.

the two women had met after patsys terrible automobile accident in june of nineteen sixty one. loretta. who had never met patsy. sang i fall to pieces on ernest tubbs midnight jamboree and dedicated it to her recovery. patsy heard the broadcast from the hospital and sent her husband. charlie dick. to bring loretta for a visit.

you had never met her. i said.

did not need to. she sang my song while i was busted up. that earns a visit.

patsy touched the scar near her forehead. the collision had thrown her into the windshield. her wrist was broken. her hip was dislocated. her face was cut. dottie west rushed to the scene after hearing about the accident and helped remove glass from patsys hair.

patsy had reportedly insisted that the occupants of the other car receive medical attention before her.

i nearly died. she said. people become very dramatic about it.

you returned to the opry on crutches.

had dates to play.

you used wigs and makeup to conceal the scar.

had photographs to take.

you recorded crazy during your recovery.

had a song to sing.

patsy delivered each answer without inviting pity.

getting thrown through glass rearranges a persons opinions. she said. you learn the difference between a problem and an inconvenience.

i asked what she first heard in loretta.

truth. she said. not pretty truth. truth with dirty dishes in the sink. she knows the house. knows what a woman swallows to keep a family moving. if they let her. she is going to sing about things country music has been avoiding.

they will let her. sometimes.

sometimes is enough to start a fight.

patsy had given loretta clothes. stage advice. household goods. and the benefit of hard lessons learned from years on the road.

loretta needed clothes. patsy said.

curtains too.

she needed curtains.

you taught her how to enter and leave a stage.

somebody had to.

you were only a few years older.

this town ages women in dog years.

she smiled.

i told her how to stand. how to talk to people. how to keep a promoter from counting money in a dark room and coming out claiming arithmetic had suffered a tragedy.

loretta would later become one of country musics most important writers. she would sing about pregnancy. poverty. birth control. war. unfaithful husbands. tired wives. and women reaching the end of their patience.

i could not tell patsy everything. an article written in nineteen sixty three can only ask readers to believe so much before the editor reaches for the wastebasket.

i told her simply that loretta would find her subjects.

patsy smiled.

loretta has a spine like a fence post. she will be fine.

she asked about dottie west.

dottie will become a star. i said.

good. she has heart. voice too. she needs the right song and somebody to stop wasting her time.

years later. dottie would remember one of patsys instructions. if you cannot do it with feeling. do not do it. dottie would also remember listening to a patsy cline playback and finding herself unable to speak. that was the effect of the voice even upon other professional singers. they knew the apparatus. they knew the microphones. tricks. arrangements. and nerves. then patsy sang and the machinery disappeared.

patsy asked how many women would eventually control their own careers.

more than now.

not an answer.

some will lead bands. i said. some will write their own songs. some will produce records. some will own publishing companies. some will build businesses large enough to make record executives nervous.

good.

one girl from east tennessee will arrive in nashville with a suitcase full of songs. she is still in school now. but she will become one of the greatest songwriters country music produces.

what is her name.

dolly.

dolly what.

parton.

can she sing.

yes.

can she write.

better than almost anybody.

smart.

extremely.

then they will spend twenty years talking about her figure.

longer.

patsy sighed.

future remains stupid.

dolly will use that stupidity against them. i said. anybody who mistakes her kindness for weakness will eventually discover he has underestimated a complete business organization wearing high heels.

patsy considered this.

tell her not to sell the publishing.

i will.

tell her twice.

i will.

i described other women without offering names. a coal miners daughter who would turn domestic life into public argument. a beautician from mississippi who would make heartbreak sound like national policy. a teenage singer from texas who would refuse to wait until adulthood before taking control of a stage. a redheaded girl from oklahoma who would become an institution. two women from kentucky whose family harmony would fill arenas. a shy songwriter from pennsylvania who would begin in country music and eventually make the entire recording business negotiate with her.

patsy listened with increasing suspicion.

you talk like you have seen all this.

i take notes.

that is not an answer.

it is the only one i have.

she studied my hat. my dark glasses. and the notebook resting between us. then she lit another cigarette.

all right. undertaker. do these women write their own songs.

many do.

do they get paid.

sometimes.

do they own the songs.

not often enough.

do they help one another.

yes.

that might change something.

it does.

patsy looked toward the counter.

men love calling a woman a pioneer. she said. usually means she did the work and somebody else owns the land.

i wrote that down too.

the jukebox changed records. a steel guitar filled the diner. one of the truck drivers asked the waitress for more coffee. a cook shouted through the serving window.

patsy lowered her voice.

you know what the trouble is.

what.

they like a womans pain when it comes through a microphone. they will buy a record about a man treating her like dirt. then make her ask that same kind of man for permission to record it.

i wrote slowly.

they like heartbreak because heartbreak does not ask for office space. she continued. they like a woman crying in three quarter time. they get nervous when she reads the contract.

they call you difficult.

i worked hard for that title.

patsy smiled. but there was nothing light in the answer.

difficult means i remembered what they promised. difficult means i asked where the money went. difficult means i did not smile while getting robbed. a man does that and they call him a businessman.

i asked whether country music would always need heartbreak.

people always need the truth. she replied. heartbreak is part of it. but they misunderstand those songs. they hear a woman saying she hurts and decide she is weak.

i fall to pieces is vulnerable.

of course it is. vulnerability is enormous. people think strength means not hurting. that is a mans idea because men have spent centuries giving every feeling another name. anger becomes conviction. fear becomes caution. loneliness becomes independence. then a woman tells the truth and everybody says she is emotional.

her own voice returned from the jukebox. i fall to pieces.

patsy listened to the first verse.

they think the woman in this song is helpless. she said.

she is falling apart.

she is telling you she is falling apart. directly. without hiding. that takes more backbone than half the horseshit men sing about.

the records gave patsy sophistication. but they never polished away the steel in her voice. she could bend a note until longing became physical. then end a phrase with such certainty that the listener understood she had survived whatever the lyric described.

future singers would study that balance. pain without surrender. elegance without obedience. power without the obligation to imitate a man.

i asked patsy what advice she would offer those women.

she rubbed one thumb around the rim of her coffee cup.

learn the song before you learn the pose. she said. know what your voice can do when the band is bad and the monitor is worse. count the money. read everything. keep a suitcase packed. help another woman when you can because the men already have clubs and half of them do not even know they are members.

i continued writing.

do not sing small because the room is scared of you. do not let anybody tell you sweetness and strength cannot live in the same throat. do not confuse suffering with authenticity. you do not need a bastard for a husband to qualify as country.

she paused.

own the publishing.

i underlined it.

twice.

patsy nodded.

better.

i asked what women would change about country music.

wrong question. she said.

why.

women are country music. always were.

she pushed the empty pie plate away.

mothers singing hymns. girls learning ballads. wives keeping rhythm while some man gets his name printed on the program. black women carrying blues into every corner of american singing. mountain women remembering old songs nobody bothered to write down. church singers. bar singers. workers. widows. daughters. women singing babies to sleep while the radio calls some cowboy the voice of the people.

what is the right question.

when does country music admit who helped build the house.

i closed the notebook.

does it.

sometimes.

not good enough.

no.

then keep writing.

we sat without speaking. i knew what waited beyond that booth. a benefit concert in kansas city on march third. patsy performing despite being ill. poor flying conditions preventing an immediate return. dottie west offering her a ride home by automobile. patsy deciding that the airplane would be faster.

then march fifth.

camden. tennessee.

woods.

metal.

silence.

i knew all of it. but the knowledge sat uselessly inside me. history is a locked room pretending to be a road.

patsy studied my expression.

you have the strangest face when you lie.

you cannot see my face.

exactly.

she reached for another cigarette. the pack was empty. she flattened it with one hand.

do they remember me. she asked.

i looked at her.

who.

the people in this future you keep dragging into my coffee.

yes.

the singing or the dying.

both.

that is a shame.

the singing lasts longer.

you certain.

yes.

she looked out the window. her reflection floated over the highway.

i do not want to become one of those poor dead girls. she said. people make death sound like the best career move a singer can make.

the records prevent that.

records do not prevent anything. people decide what they want to hear.

then they continue deciding to hear you.

she considered this.

what do they hear.

the control. the feeling. the way you move between country and pop without asking either side to approve. they hear a woman who refuses to sound small.

do they hear the jokes.

some.

do they hear the temper.

definitely.

good.

the waitress brought the check. i reached for it. patsy moved faster.

absolutely not. i said.

you invited me.

which means i pay.

any man dressed for his own funeral ought to save his money.

she placed several bills beneath the coffee cup.

as she stood. she adjusted her coat and checked her hair in the dark window. a woman stared back from the glass. twenty years old and thirty years old at once. scarred. successful. tired. funny. suspicious. generous. beautifully dressed. and still prepared to argue over three cents if the three cents belonged to her.

i stood.

you coming. she asked.

in a minute.

more notes.

more notes.

she shook her head.

one of these days you might try living while things happen.

one of these days.

she walked toward the door. the truck drivers watched. the waitress waved. patsy waved back. no orchestra. no spotlight. no farewell speech. just patsy cline leaving a diner after coffee.

at the door. she stopped.

undertaker.

yes.

does country music survive.

yes.

does it stay country.

nobody ever agrees.

good.

why good.

means the women still have something to argue with.

she opened the door. traffic rushed into the silence.

tell that dolly girl about the publishing. she said.

i will.

tell loretta she does not need anybody to make her brave.

i will.

tell dottie the right song is coming.

i will.

and tell all those women the seat is never taken.

i looked at the empty place across from me.

i will.

patsy walked out.

one week later. near camden. the future reached up through the trees.

i returned to the diner after the funeral. the same waitress was working. the same truck drivers may have been sitting at the counter. the jukebox played shes got you. then crazy. then i fall to pieces. every song sounded different because death had entered the arrangement.

i sat in the back booth and opened my notebook.

the page smelled faintly of cigarettes.

beneath everything patsy had said about loretta. dottie. songs. contracts. clothes. heartbreak. strength. money. survival. and women refusing to disappear. i found one sentence circled twice.

the seat is never taken.

somewhere beyond nashville. another young woman was carrying songs in a paper bag. another was singing above a factory floor. another was waiting for a husband to finish laughing at the idea of her becoming a star. another was listening to patsy cline and discovering that a womans voice could be wounded without becoming weak.

they would come.

country music would try to give them one chair.

they would build another room.

patsy would already be inside it.

...at least that’s what i hear.

the speakers flare white hot and five men from manchester come charging through the distortion carrying cigarettes, cheap lager, borrowed riffs, wounded pride, and enough irrational confidence to seize a small republic. definitely maybe does not introduce oasis so much as place them directly in your living room, put their boots on the furniture, empty your refrigerator, and inform you that they will be famous shortly. resistance is treated as a personal problem. the record believes in itself with such deranged conviction that for fifty two minutes you start believing in it too.
rock and roll star opens the album by skipping every tedious stage between unemployment and immortality. no apprenticeship. no modest proposal. liam gallagher sings from inside the fantasy as though the paperwork has already cleared. the guitars form one enormous electrical slab behind him, while the rhythm section keeps the whole overloaded machine moving forward. it is primitive, repetitive, and shamelessly effective. the song does not describe ambition. it converts ambition into noise.
that is the central miracle of definitely maybe. these songs are built from familiar materials. the beatles, the sex pistols, t rex, the stone roses, the jam, glam rock, pub rock, punk, psychedelia, and whatever records noel gallagher had absorbed while hauling equipment for inspiral carpets. noel was never embarrassed by influence. he treated the history of british rock like a public utility. everything was available. steal the electricity, change the wiring, and deny everything when questioned. originality here comes less from the ingredients than from the absolute nerve with which oasis serve them.
supersonic makes the method obvious. noel later recalled writing it in roughly the time required for the others to finish a chinese meal. the finished recording was made with similar speed, and it sounds gloriously untroubled by revision. the lyrics involve gin and tonic, helicopters, doctors, and a woman named elsa who was apparently a dog. none of it adds up because none of it needs to. liam turns every disconnected phrase into scripture through posture alone. his voice is nasal, sneering, oddly beautiful, and already complete. most singers spend years developing an identity. liam sounds like he arrived with his own weather system and a legal department.
shakermaker is where the borrowing becomes harder to defend. its melody leans so heavily on the new seekers that the matter eventually involved lawyers, which is one way of confirming that everybody heard the same thing. the song drifts pleasantly enough, and the thick guitar sound gives it some weight, but it feels like a clever b side promoted beyond its abilities. digsys dinner has charm and a decent chorus, but it also demonstrates how thin noels lyrics could become when attitude stopped covering the walls. lasagna, strawberries, tea, domestic contentment. fine. even revolutionaries need lunch. neither track ruins the record, but both reveal that the grand machine occasionally runs on fumes.
then live forever appears and suddenly every complaint looks petty. noel has discussed the song as a rejection of the death fixation surrounding american grunge, particularly nirvanas i hate myself and want to die. his response was not philosophical complexity. it was refusal. he would not accept despair as the only intelligent position available to young people with guitars. live forever takes a simple chord sequence and opens a hole in the ceiling. liam sings it without sentimentality. there is tenderness in the melody, but the performance keeps its chin raised. when noel plays the guitar solo, he does not show off. he states the theme again because the theme deserves another hearing.
the album was notoriously difficult to capture. early sessions at monnow valley sounded too clean and weak to the band. they tried again at sawmills in cornwall, recording together and piling on guitars, but creation records still thought the results lacked impact. engineer owen morris was eventually handed the tapes and given extraordinary freedom to rescue them. he removed some overdubs, added delay, manipulated the bass, and compressed the mixes far beyond polite professional standards. johnny marr reportedly found the results alarmingly aggressive. he was correct. definitely maybe is exhausting. it has almost no air. the guitars occupy every available inch, then begin applying for neighboring territory.
that production is both the records weapon and its most obvious defect. columbia becomes a magnificent narcotic churn because of it. the track barely develops, yet the repetition grows hypnotic while liam hangs above the rhythm like a bored monarch. bring it on down benefits from the same brutality. tony mccarroll was never the worlds most flexible drummer, but flexibility would only interfere here. he strikes the beat as though settling a pub argument. boneheads rhythm guitar supplies less decoration than physical pressure. the band does not swing much. it advances.
after several songs, though, the compression begins scraping at the inner ear. dynamics are mostly theoretical. nearly everything is enormous, so enormous gradually becomes normal. engineer anjali dutt later said that the abrasive chainsaw quality could wear the listener out, even while admitting that the mixes supplied excitement and attitude. that is exactly the bargain. definitely maybe sacrifices depth, detail, and breathing room to become immediate. it is the sound of somebody holding the volume knob clockwise with both hands. ridiculous. effective. possibly criminal.
cigarettes and alcohol turns the t rex inheritance into a working class dispatch about lousy jobs, chemical relief, and stealing whatever pleasure can be found. the politics are crude, but the frustration is real. noel does not offer a program for social reform. he offers a riff, a pint, and temporary escape. oasis were often accused of celebrating stupidity, yet the songs understand something respectable culture routinely forgets. when the future looks closed, pleasure starts feeling like resistance. sometimes that resistance is beautiful. sometimes it is just getting wrecked on a tuesday.
slide away is the emotional summit. the guitars remain colossal, but now the noise protects something vulnerable. liam gives one of his greatest performances, stretching vowels until arrogance turns into pleading without surrendering its swagger. noels writing is still simple, but simplicity is not emptiness. the melody rises exactly where it should, the chorus arrives carrying genuine ache, and the band finally sounds less interested in conquering the world than surviving another person. it proves oasis could handle intimacy, provided intimacy wore sunglasses and refused to discuss its feelings afterward.
married with children closes the album with the amplification removed and the romance thoroughly poisoned. recorded cheaply in mark coyles living room, it sounds almost indecently small after the preceding bombardment. the jokes are cruel, the melody is sweet, and liam delivers the insults with weary affection. it is an intelligent ending because it punctures everything oasis have spent the album inflating. after the declarations of immortality and stardom, we finish with two people getting sick of each others music and friends. empire gives way to the ordinary hell of sharing space.
definitely maybe is not flawless. some lyrics are nonsense. some influences border on burglary. the sequencing drags slightly, the production can induce dental pain, and the bands emotional vocabulary rarely extends beyond desire, escape, intoxication, and supreme self belief. yet those limitations are fused to its power. oasis knew exactly what they could do and performed it at maximum voltage. they made wanting more from life sound neither foolish nor embarrassing. they made escape feel possible for the length of a chorus.
later oasis records would have bigger hits, better production, worse excesses, and considerably more bullshit surrounding them. definitely maybe remains the purest document because the fantasy had not yet become administration. these were still five men playing as though fame were a room on the other side of the wall and sufficient volume could break through the plaster. for once, the arrogance was justified. the songs were there. the singer was there. the wall came down.
not perfect. not subtle. absolutely alive.
…at least that’s what i hear.

the clash did not merely cross genres. they dragged the entire record shop into the interrogation room. reggae came in carrying bass. rockabilly showed up with grease in its hair. disco arrived looking suspiciously expensive. jazz refused to explain itself. funk knew a back entrance. hip hop was still so new that half the music business had not decided whether it was music yet. the clash took all of it. questioned it. argued with it. knocked some furniture over. then sent it back onto the street wearing a british sneer.
that is why calling the clash a punk band is both completely correct and hilariously inadequate. punk was not their musical vocabulary. punk was their operating system. it governed how they approached power. money. authority. class. race. boredom. war. record companies. radio programmers. other punk bands. themselves. the sound could change from one track to the next because the attitude remained intact. they could play reggae without becoming a reggae band. rockabilly without turning into revivalists. disco without suddenly buying silk shirts and cocaine spoons. whatever style entered the room came out sounding impatient with the government.
most bands evolve according to the respectable timetable. the first album is raw. the second has better microphones. the third adds a keyboard. the fourth is called mature because somebody brought an acoustic guitar into the studio. the fifth is supposedly experimental because there is one song in seven four. this process usually takes six years. several producers. one divorce. and an unbearable interview in which the singer explains that the new record is about growth.
the clash could undergo the entire process between breakfast and lunch.
listen to london calling. the title track is apocalyptic rock built from punk tension and martial rhythm. brand new cadillac is vintage rockabilly performed like the car has been stolen. jimmy jazz slouches through lounge music and early jazz with its hands in its pockets. hateful runs on nervous rhythm and blues. rudie cant fail is ska with horns. spanish bombs turns civil war history into melodic pop. the guns of brixton is reggae with the patience removed. wrong em boyo begins with the old jamaican song wrong em boyo before accelerating into ska. revolution rock stretches into reggae and soul. train in vain is practically pop music. clean. catchy. wounded. designed for radio whether anybody admitted it or not.
that is one album.
not a compilation. not a career retrospective. not the soundtrack to an unusually disorganized crime film. one album by four men still routinely filed under punk.
the official clash history describes london calling through reggae. soul. rockabilly. funk. rhythm and blues. and other forms that were supposedly outside punk territory. the important word there is supposedly. the clash understood something that the purists missed. punk was never endangered by knowing too much music. it was endangered by becoming a uniform. once punk acquired an approved guitar tone. approved haircut. approved tempo. and approved set of poses. it began developing the same fat bureaucratic ass it claimed to despise.
joe strummer had already violated the emerging regulations with white man in hammersmith palais. the song came from an all night reggae showcase that strummer attended with don letts and clash roadie roadent. strummer went expecting roots reggae full of insurrection and found polished performers using coordinated moves and lighter pop material. instead of writing a simple review of the concert. he turned his disappointment into a song about racial tension. economic inequality. violence. commercialized rebellion. right wing politics. and punk bands converting outrage into career advancement.
musically the thing begins with a hard rock gesture and settles into ska and reggae. mick jones later described it as the next step after their cover of police and thieves. strummer admitted that the clash had been known as a big riff group and were not expected to make something like it. that expectation was precisely the sort of wall the clash enjoyed vandalizing. the song did not make them less punk. it proved that punk could possess hips and a functioning brain at the same time.
their reggae education was not decorative. london in the seventies made punk and reggae neighbors. jamaican records circulated through clubs. sound systems. shops. parties. and the collections of people like don letts. who played reggae between punk bands at the roxy because there were not yet enough punk records to fill the night. the cultures were not identical and the relationship was not free of awkwardness or appropriation. but the exchange was real. both musics carried arguments about policing. unemployment. exclusion. state power. and life under systems that considered certain young people disposable.
the clash heard reggae as political technology.
police and thieves. written by junior murvin and lee scratch perry. appeared on the first clash album. at nearly six minutes it was already evidence that the band would not remain trapped inside the two minute punk sprint. they slowed down. let space into the arrangement. allowed the rhythm section to do something more complicated than chase the guitars through an alley. some British punks apparently objected to reggae contaminating the sacred noise. because apparently a movement founded on rejecting rules immediately needed several new rules.
by london calling. reggae was no longer a guest. it had keys.
paul simonon wrote and sang the guns of brixton. drawing on the jamaican film the harder they come and the pressure surrounding policing in brixton. the bass line does not merely support the song. it governs it. live. simonon and strummer switched instruments because simonon could not sing the part while playing that bass figure. an excellent bit of clash practicality. the bassist writes the reggae song. the rhythm guitarist plays bass. the band rearranges itself because the song requires it.
simonon later recalled that he started writing partly because songs generated publishing money while designing clothes and posters did not. this is funny. brutally practical. and entirely appropriate. one of the defining reggae bass lines in british rock was partly encouraged by a musician noticing the accounting department. artistic revelation meets the royalty statement. welcome to the music business.
then came sandinista. three records. thirty six tracks. nearly two and a half hours of the clash behaving as if genre were an international border invented by unpleasant little men with rubber stamps.
sandinista moves through dub. reggae. funk. gospel. calypso. folk. rock. jazz. early hip hop. musique concrète. childrens songs. electronic experiments. and several sounds that resemble unfinished arguments leaking through studio walls. it is magnificent. exhausting. politically confused. musically ravenous. occasionally dreadful. frequently brilliant. the album does not always work. that is part of its credibility. real experimentation produces mistakes. if every experiment arrives polished and marketable. somebody in an office approved it six months ago.
the magnificent seven is one of the decisive examples. the clash encountered early hip hop in new york when the form was still largely ignored by the rock establishment. mick jones became obsessed with tapes and carried a boombox around. the track was constructed over a funk bass line played by norman watt roy of ian durys blockheads. strummer improvised and assembled his words in the studio. delivering a rhythmic barrage about work. consumption. celebrity. and the absurd daily machinery of capitalism.
it was not rock musicians adding a novelty spoken verse after the guitar solo. the entire track submitted to rhythm. the bass and drums were the event. the words moved like news bulletins fired from a malfunctioning public address system. the magnificent dance. a dubby disco remix. became a club record and received play on new yorks black radio station wbls. according to accounts collected for an oral history of the song. it was also associated with larry levans paradise garage world. the clash had escaped the punk club and entered black dance music spaces without asking rock critics to supervise the journey.
this is radio clash continued the operation with funk. rap. dub. electronic percussion. and sound system logic. overdubbed voices pass through the track like intercepted transmissions. the guitar is present but no longer automatically in command. this was a revolutionary act within rock culture. not because guitars are evil. but because rock musicians generally treat the guitar as the employee who insists on speaking during every meeting.
the clash understood arrangement as politics. instruments could exchange power.
topper headon was crucial to this freedom. he was not simply a punk drummer pounding away behind strummer and jones. he had jazz training and admired technically ferocious players such as billy cobham. he could play funk. reggae. soul. and rock with actual command of their internal mechanics. strummer later said that without topper the group would have died with punk. that is not sentimental praise. it is an explanation of how the machine worked.
headons masterpiece was rock the casbah.
calling it disco is basically right. though the record also contains funk. new wave. pop. and rock. its engine belongs to the dance floor. the piano riff is bright and immediate. the bass walks with smug efficiency. the drums snap instead of bludgeon. the guitar works around the groove rather than sitting on its chest. this is a band associated with white riot making one of the cleanest dance records of the early eighties. and somehow it still sounds like somebody has spray painted an insult across the dj booth.
the best part is that most of the music came from the drummer. headon devised the piano figure. bass part. and drums. he explained later that he could only play piano comfortably in d. so the song was written in d. forget the mystical stories about inspiration descending from the heavens. one of the clashs largest hits exists in its particular key because topper headon knew where his fingers could go without causing an industrial accident.
headon recorded the instrumental foundation before strummer supplied the final lyrics. the result became the clashs only american top ten single. it also reached the american dance chart. there is the evidence sitting in the paperwork. rock the casbah was not punk pretending to dance as a joke. people danced to the bastard.
strummers lyric was reportedly prompted by restrictions on western music in iran and by manager bernie rhodes complaining that the bands increasingly long and experimental material had become raga. the phrase became rock the casbah. strummer turned it into a cartoon about authoritarian rulers trying to suppress music and discovering that the population. the pilots. and apparently the universe itself had joined the rhythm section.
the politics are broad. the cultural imagery is clumsy in places. the video added another layer of caricature that has aged unevenly. the clash were curious but not infallible. versatility does not automatically grant cultural precision. sometimes their appetite outran their understanding. sandinista is full of moments where solidarity. fascination. romanticism. and sheer nerve become tangled together.
that complication should remain in the discussion. praising the clash does not require embalming them.
combat rock is where their versatility became both concentrated and unstable. the album was assembled from a longer mick jones version called rat patrol from fort bragg. producer glyn johns helped reduce the sprawling material into twelve tracks. what remained was not a tidy stylistic statement. it was a band using every available frequency while the members were becoming increasingly unable to stand one another.
know your rights is stripped down political rock. car jamming works through funk and urban paranoia. should i stay or should i go is garage rock with a huge rhythm and blues spine. rock the casbah is disco funk pop. red angel dragnet uses dub space and spoken vocals from kosmo vinyl. overpowered by funk is electronic dance music with graffiti artist futura two thousand rapping. atom tan resembles bent nightclub rock. ghetto defendant joins dub with beat poetry and features allen ginsberg. death is a star closes the record with piano. cinematic atmosphere. and something approaching european cabaret.
then there is straight to hell.
straight to hell may be the clearest demonstration of what the clash could do when genre stopped being a destination and became a method. the rhythm is neither ordinary rock nor pure reggae. it moves with a humid. narcotic drag. electronic sounds hover around the percussion. strummers vocal addresses the abandoned children of american servicemen in vietnam. immigration. british racism. industrial collapse. and the cruel language used to decide who belongs to a nation.
years later. the tracks opening rhythm was sampled for mias paper planes. that connection makes perfect sense. a song about migration. empire. borders. and people discarded by history becomes part of another song about migration. suspicion. money. and western fantasies about foreigners. the clash did not merely borrow sounds from across borders. their best songs investigated the border itself.
combat rock was also the sound of the group cracking apart. headons heroin addiction led to his dismissal just as the album containing his greatest commercial achievement was released. tensions between jones and strummer intensified. jones wanted studio experimentation. emerging electronic technology. dance music. and modern production. strummer feared that the band was losing its collective identity and direct political force. both were right. which is usually how the ugliest band arguments work.
the versatility depended on incompatible personalities.
jones heard records as constructed environments. he loved production. layering. pop hooks. american music. and new machines. strummer gathered politics. history. newspapers. overheard speech. and moral urgency. simonon supplied visual instinct. reggae gravity. and a suspicion of anything too polished. headon provided the technical reach that allowed the band to move among rhythms without sounding like four tourists wearing souvenir hats.
their range was not produced by agreement. it came from friction. each member pulled toward a different music. the clash sound was the rope burning between their hands.
this is why few other punk bands can match their versatility. the damned explored gothic rock. psychedelic music. and pop. wire moved from minimalist punk into art rock and electronics. the stranglers brought keyboards. jazz instincts. and progressive structures into the scene. blondie conquered pop. disco. rap. reggae. and new wave with astonishing fluency. the slits rebuilt punk through reggae and dub. talking heads passed through funk. african polyrhythm. art rock. and electronics. there are legitimate rivals.
but the clash placed unusual breadth inside a single coherent public identity. they could make lovers rock on lovers rock. mock gospel on the sound of sinners. rockabilly on brand new cadillac. disco funk on rock the casbah. early rap rock on the magnificent seven. dub collage on robber dub. lounge jazz on jimmy jazz. and straight punk on complete control. the connective tissue was not a production formula. it was the belief that music should report on the world and that the world was much larger than three chords played quickly by four englishmen.
even their failures demonstrate the scale of the attempt. sandinista could have lost one entire record and very few sane people would have called the police. combat rock occasionally sounds less like an album than several radio stations fighting over the same damaged receiver. cut the crap later showed what happened when the chemistry was gone and eclecticism became production clutter. range alone was never the secret. the secret was the argument among these particular musicians.
the clash did not evolve neatly because they did not believe history moved neatly. london contained jamaican sound systems. american rhythm and blues. british music hall. pub rock. football chants. political speeches. soul imports. pirate radio. rock and roll nostalgia. street noise. and young people learning that unemployment had become their assigned career. why would a truthful band sound like only one thing.
punk gave the clash permission to begin. curiosity prevented them from becoming a museum exhibit.
they remain the most versatile punk band because they treated no genre as neutral. every rhythm arrived carrying geography. class. race. commerce. memory. and power. reggae was not merely a slower beat. hip hop was not merely talking. disco was not merely escapism. rockabilly was not merely vintage clothing. these forms contained communities and histories. the clash sometimes misunderstood them. sometimes manhandled them. sometimes made a glorious mess. but they listened with an appetite most rock bands never possess.
they could become another kind of band for four minutes and still remain unmistakably the clash. the accent remained. the politics remained. the tension remained. the british sneer remained.
the record changed. the argument continued.
…at least that’s what i hear.