u/The_Poor_Truth

Ok. So long story short I knew a guy we were the best of friends he saved me when I couldn't save my self and he came to me when I was good and he needed me.

Let's go.... so I took care of him for nearly three years and got him on his feet and healthy. Something was off... the tik toks and 3am wake ups.

He said..you gonna miss me when im gone. I said I miss you and you here

He leaves on a Monday. Kisses me and says be good.

I was to have a sleep test Monday night and he was supposed to come home but didn't.

Ok. Im mad cause my nerve pain f..kin up(been all day) and he hasn't come home. Mind you im supposed to go to his doc appt after I am let loose from sleep aopt. Tues. morning. But because he didn't come home im like f it. I take a uber home instead of straight to his doc office.

He calls and calls. They want me to take this test and that test... calls again ..please answer... but I didn't cause I was in sheer pain the day before and you didn't come home..nor come later while I went to sleep test..

I never answered...that was tuesday.

Spoke to his brother Wednesday cause he (brother)needed money... gave . Cool

Im up for doc appt Thursday and as Im getting ready.. cops at door(i didn't answer thinking it was him)

Finakky went to door after dispatch called.. i open door to yellow tape... cops saying he deceased in back yard. Im like..did someone do something to him? Miss lets go inso nobody knows your business..Ok.

MY CONFESSION: I DID NOT ANSWER HIS CALLS. HE KNEW I WAS IN PAIN MONDAY AND DID NOT COME HOME TO SEE ABIUT ME. I DIDNT ANSWER CAUSE I WAS MAD. I SOMETIMES WONDER IF HE WOULD BE ALIVE IF I DID. BUT I HAD NO IDEA.... FOR ME I WAS LOOKING OUT FOR ME. PUTTING ME FIRST CAUSE YOU IGNORED MY PAIN ON MONDAY. I PUT YOU FIRST SO MUCH AND I HAD FINALKY CIME TO AS I WAS GOING TO GROUO THERAPY.

I am sorry you passed away. I dont know what happened and I am sorry I didn't look out the window and see you out there. I thought it was you banging and I even ignored the police because of that. I miss you. Whatever you had going on I wish you would have told me because you know I loved you to pieces. I would have found answers. I love love loved you. Thanks for trying to protect my heart..but in all actuality you broke it. You always said ..I would miss you when you gone. I agree. I do. RIP my baby. I miss you sooo much. Sorry I could not save you from yourself. I tried. Dear heart I tried. 🖤