u/WatercoolerComedian

When that game come out

I believe I'm actually very much in love with my current partner and things are good, she provides reassurance, we match love languages, sex is good, attraction is mutual, finacial situation is mutual, she tells me she loves me. Shes good with her own children, and good with mine also. It couldn't be more perfect it would seem... but ;for no reason at all, I just get this constant feeling of uneasiness when we arent together I know this is extremely unhealthy, my brain knows this is unhealthy and ilogical to feel this way, and I often keep it to myself. Shes a good texter, we text and talk on the phone very often when we arent together, to the point Ive told her if she needs some space that Im totally cool with it, she insists she doesn't, but I fear burning her out.

Now for context, I was married for 4 years, our relationship was a total of 5 (I know), from the age of 19 to the age of 23.

My ex wife cheated on me throughout our entire marriage and come to find out before we were married also, I supported her as a stay at home mother when we decided to have a child of our own, I was happy to, I gave it my 100%. But the relationship was not good, the cheating and forgiving, the constant "guy friends", the telling me I was crazy for thinking things were going on, it was so far as to the point my in laws knew she was actively cheating, seeing her partners, and keeping it hidden from me when Id asked for the truth. I thought I was going crazy, the constant back and forth between questioning my security and mental state to questioning her faithfulness and back and forth is a kind of trauma that has followed me throughout other relationships, I still remember the day our second child was born, and it wasnt mine, and I tried to stay and raise the boy as my own under the pretext she was sorry and ready to fully commit to the marriage, all the while nothing had changed.

I gained some self respect and ended our marriage but the effects of it have haunted me all these years later, I slept around for a short period before I dated a wonderful woman after her, who, tried her best to support me through my divorce and the abuse Id endured, but I wasnt ready and we ended on good terms after nearly two years together.

After this I took a break from dating and sex and everything. I took a huge self improvement journey that changed me into the man I am today, one with self respect, one who doesn't chase, one who'd rather be alone than to endure another life like that.

Getting back into the dating scene was difficult, I came in with a clear head but still, after some reflection, maybe wasnt quite ready. Id slept around a few times and the sex was nice but empty, didn't feel as if I had any value beyond the sex to anyone. I had about a year long serious relationship that started off great, I told her my dreams of peace and to have a healthy family, she told me she wanted the same thing, I told her what Id been through, and how if she ever wanted to leave it was okay, but to never cheat on me please, and she obliged in that way, but finding out she was hiding a substance abuse problem and honestly who knows what else, reopened some old wounds in which I tried to heal through desperately sleeping with as much women as I could to forget about her and feel as if I still had value to offer to someone, but even the ones who did care for me, I felt nothing, dead, always with the idea in my head of not getting to attached to protect myself.

Without going into too much detail on my current situation, its a very healthy relationship. Genuinely couldn't ask for someone more supportive, but still, my fear persists, my waiting for it all to fall apart hits me, the fear of being so attached to someone rings in the back of my head constantly and I try ro soothe myself and tell myself this one will be different, and if its not its okay but you dont have to carry that insecurity any more, or that fear, its okay to relax, its okay to let your guard down. But, im at war with my mind over it although I have no good reason to be.

If someone could please offer me some advice on this id be so greatly appreciative, I dont want to ruin what I feel is a solid relationship due to these wounds, I just want someone to genuinely love me forever, and not give up on me when things aren't ideal although that is their right, I just want to be enough for someone for a change.

So for someone who doesnt really play GTA online but knows a lot of people who do, what's going to happen to the "old" gta online? People have spend tens of thousands of dollars on it, people have been playing that game online for what like a decade? How long do you think they'll plan on supporting it?

Anyone elses Walmarts doing this? As a father rrally enjoying this as I get a chance to actually get them for my girl now if I show up at a reasonable time. Some are limiting the purchase which is nice also 🙂

Hi just wanted to see if its okay to like radiohead again or if we are still not liking it

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This post needs 400 characters so Im just gonna go stream of conscious here for a minute uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah idk what else to say, indieheads deleted my post so I never got an answeruhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 400 characters is a lot like it already sounds like a lot then you're typing it out and its like wow this seems like even more than I thought it would be, kind of feels like 500 almostuhhhh I think I got it

Hey there, been olaying for like over five years, I really want to have masterful rhythm playing like a lot of those funk guys, Nile Rodgers, Cory Wong etc, my goal isn't to make funk music but I absolutely love that style of playing..im okay? Not the worst, not the best, but I want to have masterful rhythm chops.

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Any tips? Dont care if it takes a year or two

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Also if you have recommendations of guitarists/bands to study relevant to this Id appreciate it

So Ive met with some women on Tinder, had a few dates, usually after the second date intimacy ensues and then after that we usually end up going separate ways because of whatever reason, a lot of it being my schedule though, im a full time single dad which I guess is "sexy" until it comes time to me actually being a dad? Like if I cant hang out or decline smoking weed (I dont live in a legal state) due to my job or risking trouble with the law (I did smoke when I was a teenager til like 20 a LOT) I dont smoke now which seems to be a deal breaker for some but idk, been there done that and not worth risking me and my childs living situation

It just feels like a lot of people in my age bracket dont want to let go of the party days? And hell some of them are also parents themselves so what gives? Recently just had a woman get mad at me for not being able to go smoke with her tonight? (She asked at 8pm and its Wednesday night???)

I stopped dating altogether for like 3 years and just got back into it like a year and a half ago and idk Im just done it seems a lot easier to just be me and my daughter, meeting anyone responsible on the apps(thats into me) just seems like a lost cause. I feel like because of my appearance (tats gauges piercings etc) people assume Im less responsible and still down to party but Im not..

So my daughter asked me for a laptop to play Roblox as a bunch of her friends have moved from tablets to computers to play, they all have gaming pcs and I genuinely don't have the money to shell out on a gaming PC right now...are there any laptops between 200-400$ that can run roblox well with no lagging issues or anything any of you could recommend me? Roblox is the only game she plays

Shes right on the cusp of that tween age..already has her on iPhone (I monitor it) and rides her bike with her school friends and is really thriving socially this year

Due to things in the past with her mother, I am a single full time father, we have always done everything together ever since she has become mine full time which has been several years now, lots of hiking, shopping, playing games, i always make sure to be present in her life since I was homeschooled and basically kept in my room 24/7

Today after coming home from her friends house (shes been spending a lot of time with school friends something ive been encouraging) she mentioned that we dont need to do everything together anymore because "its weird and her other friends parents dont"

Which yeah, I guess shes getting that age, I cant help but feel proud that shes thriving socially like Ive tried so hard to encourage, but do feel a bit sad because she doesnt want to even go grocery shopping or anything with me any more or hike or etc

In a way its a bit of a relief as I have time to get back to my music which has been on hold for some time..but I do fear us growing apart?

So id like to ask some of the parents here, how can I still remain close to my daughter without being overboard or anything? Id like us to still spend *some* time together but I realize shes getting to that age, just want to be a good dad without being too much. Any advice?

So Ive tried playing a few games nothing even demanding on the thing, and everything is stuttering and lagging so bad that anything I try is pretty much unplayable, Katamari Damacy reroll, Sonic Adventure DX, neither of these being demanding games are unplayable on the device, what do I do? Are the games just poorly optimized or what?