u/WinterHost6987

I decided i wanted to stop my medication i didn't really have a reason i was just overwhelmed at the time and got pissed of everytime i got a notification telling me to take my meds, so i just stopped at first it was great i felt so relaxed it lasted about 2 weeks or so but not ive hit a wall. Im always tired i have no energy for anything im moving out but i have no way of finding any energy to do so. I have like 2 hours worth of energy before i completely flatline and have no energy to even get up and make food for myself,i have no concentration i cant focus and i constantly loose everything i constantly loose my keys phone etc and forget what i was doing 5mins ago i genuinely forgot how bad my adhd was because ive been on medication for 3 years straight. I have the worst anxiety too i constantly feel a sense of impending doom or dread i worry something bad is going to happen any minute and I have no will to do anything in my life. Is there anyone else who have felt the same as me after going of your meds and what did you do about it??

20 yo

I became a Christian in 2023 i was having the worst depressive episode of my life God saved me from my depression and made me a new person now years later i decided to turn away from religion. I made the decision only a couple of months back maybe june? Or late may i had gotten enough, i was tired of Christianity i had tried so hard to find a church to be apart of but i didn't feel welcomed the people in the church cared more about the traditions of the church and upholding the rules then they ever did about the people wanting to join. If you weren't born into the religion you weren't really welcomed. It hurt my view on Christianity a lot but i still kept going i decided to wait with finding a church and just focused on my own personal walk with god. But every night i waw filled with guilt if I had not had time or the energy to read the bible or spend time with god that day. It made my already stressful life even more stressful. I felt like i had to repent for everything i did or else i was a bad person i would repent for having other human emotions other then joy, it felt like i was apologising for even being a human. The Christians i saw online did nothing but fear monger, shame you, make you feel like an actually evil person. They had opinions on every little thing you did. I was starting to feel suffocated, I tried blocking the christian youtubers i didn't want to watch but my last straw was when i saw a video of an orthodox priest saying contraception is wrong and that you shouldn't use it. I was so angry i felt like all they wanted was control they want to control how many people you should sleep with. If you then decide to wait till marriage they're still going to be there right in the bedroom and tell me that im not allowed to use conception but im also not allowed to abort so basically everything about my body should be controlled? I dont think so i left Christianity behind. Started watching strictly atheist YouTube channels and I loved it i loved the feeling of using my critical thinking skills without trying to silence myself i loved the freedom with having no opinions on religion or god. It was so freeing for a while, i stopped praying listening to the Bible and i stopped putting my strength in jesus i only trusted myself started watching a lot of adult content getting into fights with strangers online acted out way more, for a while i felt like i was a more loving person now i didn't have to think about morality hell etc but i feel as tho And yes it felt great for a while until now. I feel so empty inside like a part of me is gone idk how to explain it but living my life without any spirituality is actually terrible. Nothing really makes sense anymore i miss speaking to god but i dont know how to get back into Christianity i try to pray but now im not even sure god really exists

Im 20f and she's 13

I don't live at home anymore but i come home often and are close with my parents and little brother who's 4. My sister and i have always been close but recently she has become a real teenager, never leaves her room, always angry or irritated and constantly on the phone with her friends. That's normal teenage behaviour i was the same way at 13 with some differences ofc but i do remember speaking with my friends for hours at a time. But still ive found it harder to adjust than i thought. Maybe it's because im the oldest and haven't had an older sibling who i could have looked up to and seen her go through puberty too. I only have my younger self as an example but me and my sister are very different personality wise. I've gone from her begging me to hang out and play Roblox to her not wanting anything to do with me and now im the one begging to spend time with her. I really want to be a part of her life :( i just miss my sister i hope some younger siblings on this sub can share their experiences so i can understand what it's like to be a younger sister better or if this eventually changes and she one day wants to spend time with me again.

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20 f hard time coping with having a teenage sister 13 f, missing spending time with her and asking about other people on this sub what it's like being a younger sibling. And if she would eventually want to spend time with me again.

Every 5 minuts or so i get hit with ads on ads on ads it doesn't happen that frequently when i use my phone or ipad. Its so bad that i cant even watch youtube anymore on my computer. I don't understand why this only happens on my computer. Is there anything i can do about this?

20f

I feel so pathetic honestly, idk why but i keep having dreams about my friend it happened yesterday last month and then like 4 months ago im pretty sure it has happened at least once a year ever since we stopped being friends. The crazy part is that we stopped being friends in 2020!!! That's so long ago and ive changed so much in that time and my life is completely different but i stil get these dreams. I do miss her sometimes not all the time, sometimes im very happy our friendship ended but sometimes i get very sentimental and nostalgic. Back in 2020 i decided to end our friendship after a long time where i felt we had drifted apart and like i was the only one asking to hang out. She had gotten a bunch of new friends and suddenly they became more important. I told her how i felt but she just got really defensive and even said that she was suicidal and i would be part of the reason she would take her own life. She had a lot of issues mentally and with her family so i understood why she acted the way she did but i had a lot of the same issues

Which she didn't listen too. I did try to meet up with her so we could talk about our relationship after we hadn't seen each other in 6 months but a day before she flaked so i had enough we had a big fight she called me a bunch of names. and at that point i was done. We have a mutual friend from our old school back in 2021 she told my my ex friend would like to be friends again and if i would want to meet up again. I said no years later ive gotten some information on her thru my mutual friend and from stalking her on instagram. I don't recognize her at all and it seems we have nothing in common anymore. But i keep having dreams about her and us becoming friends again. But realistically would that happen? Probably not. I guess it's like people say " you won't find the same person twice, not even in the same person" idk what to do. I feel like a loser because I'm still thinking about her 6years later where i know she has moved on years ago but im just so sentimental, here i am with like 3 friends and no life and with a bunch of issues while she's out partying with her friends. Idk man should i reach out or just let it be?

Since my teens I've struggled with my appearance. When i was like 13 i didn't look especially good and all my other classmates would get attention from the guys not me. Then when i was like 15 i decided to cut my hair super short and dress in big tshirts so you can already figure i didn't get male attention. Not like guys weren't nice to me just that i didn't get any attention from my looks never told i was pretty or asked out or whatever. Then i grew my hair out a couple years ago started dressing more feminin and suddenly i noticed that i would draw attention to myself i noticed guys looking at me on the street and occasionally id get catcalled (which i hated) now im not the prettiest girl ever or anything but i just noticed that i could actually get guys attention. I thought that if i started wearing dresses a little makeup etc guys would notice me and then id finally feel better about myself and then i wouldn't feel ugly. Didn't work ,no matter how many times people around me call me beautiful i still feel ugly. Today i went to a wedding i put on a blue dress and makeup and was on my way to the church i live in the middle of the city, yes i looked pretty and i got some attention from Passers by but i didn't do anything for me. I didn't feel better about myself and i didn't gain anymore confidence chasing male attention or just validation in general feels so futile. Being beautiful feels like a waste of time. Maybe it's because outside of having the benefit or some sort of pretty privilege its pretty useless. How someone looks doesn't tell anything about the person and it's not an achievement its out of your control. Being beautiful doesn't do anything for me. Its like owning something beautiful like a crystal you can look at it and it's pretty but thats about it you can't use it for more than that idk maybe thats a bad example. But for now on id rather just dress how i want and actually like my face because its a part of me not because other guys objectify me.

So yesterday i stumbled upon this girl's tiktok page, she's 19 already married and with a baby and a stay at home wife. Idk something about it just gave me a weird feeling. I don't know if its just because of my own experiences with Christianity or because I'm just a bitter feminist but something about it didn't feel right. If that's what she wants to do with her life that's fine but it was the way she talked about her life like in a very smug way like she knew something we didn't like she has already figured life out while other women live sad unfulfilling lives. She takes a lot of pride in being a trad wife in this day and age and she posts a lot of social media with this perfect image and she constantly needs to show everyone how happy she is. Like her whole page is about this nothing else no other hobbies or anything. Basically she says she does all the house work so cooking cleaning and she also said that she takes care of the baby 100% so that goes for feeding changing dipers etc and the guy works idk seems a bit unbalanced if you ask me. Also she has bo friends in the town they live in and when her husband does come home hes too tired and just sleeps it just sounds so isolating and lonely. At least in the long run i guess the baby is not going to kindergarten or school but eventually he'll want to live his own life and where will that leave her? She'll just be alone in the house is that really the dream? She also talks about how she only wears dresses because it's only men that should wear pants and how women should submit to their husbands because women are the more emotional where men are the logical so.... Idk man they're just so young and just judging from their videos it looks more like their playing house more than anything like their ideologies aren't their own they're just going along with what they've been taught to do. But again i don't wish them anything bad in the future im just kinda worried ngl.

Hii so i recently decided to stop being religious it had been a long time coming but i finally decided that enough was enough. I found this sub and it has helped me a lot. If anyone would like to talk id be glad too!

I 20 f were friends with a 21 m

We met on Reddit on a sub called make friends or something. Started talking and hit it off. Later added each other on WhatsApp and Instagram. Talked every day, i really related to him and we connected on a lot of things. But soon he began to act weirder and weirder like he would become very dependant on me. Like he would need me to listen to him talk about stuff that worried him constantly wanting me to say something that made him feel better, i did so because I'm a good listener and ig i have a lot of empathy. But it would get to a point where he would text me about the same thing over and over. He also constantly said "do you hate me?" Out of nowhere when i said no he would Reply "yes you hate me, you don't want to talk to me" he was so insecure and CONSTANTLY needed me to assure him. If i didn't say something the right way in his eyes or had the wrong tone or if i was just more low energy. He would call me cold and say i didn't have any feelings. This affected me a lot because i was being as vulnerable as i could but it wasn't good enough. Then he got a crush on a girl and that would be the only thing he talked about. How ugly he was how nobody loved him how he would die alone. When i tried saying he would find someone he got annoyed and asked me to stop trying to fix his life and how there was no hope. Like what do you want from me?? Then recently i became more and more exhausted by him. He would always expect me to text him first like always if i didn't he wouldn't text me. Then he would switch from being bubbly to distant and passive aggressive if my texts weren't enthusiastic enough. I was on vacation with my mom and brother i told him this and showed him pictures but he didn't seem interested instead he wanted to talk about his new apartment. I told him multiple times how i wanted to see pictures and how excited i was to see pictures. But then he replies "i dont really take pictures can we Facetime?" I just said "i cant im gonna be out the whole day" normal response i wasn't being cold in any way he then replies "all g" like what do you want me to respond to that? He legit wanted me to chase him and shit, he could have asked what i was going to do that day. I called him out, he pretended i was being the weird one. I didn't open the message i just left it on delivered for a week i was so over it at that point. I was tired of the emotional labor. I told myself that he could start putting in the effort too and text me first if he wanted to talk. Then i woke up yesterday to a "bye" text then i got blocked 🤷‍♂️ idk what to think i mean it sucks and maybe i was in the wrong? But he didn't try anything to restore our relationship he just dipped when i got tired of doing all the work. I kinda feel used now like i didn't matter. Do i think he'll come back again after a while? Yeah i do when he doesn't have anyone to vent to but should i accept him back into my life?

Im a 20 yo female myself i was christian for about 3 years i never was a part of a church in that tile because i didn't feel welcome now i see it as a blessing lol. Anyway i still had the misfortune of meeting religious guys online in the search of finding Christian friends online. I just started decontrocting so this all came back to me just now. These guys man they don't have any interactions with women irl and the women irl are not good enough for them they're "too worldly" they dress to slutty etc there are no real women left etc (🫩) because i myself am more on the quiet side and could be seen as this meek sweet little girl guys definitely prayed on that. The first christian guy i met online seemed normal at first We had good talks about faith etc. I'm good at listening and stuff so i also got used to it as a therapist looking back. After some time i started to show more of my personality at first i may seem super sweet and innocent but I'm just a person like everyone else and i enjoy things that would be considered masculine too. I remember sending him a video about something political. It was about the immigration laws in sweden he was so shocked that a girl like me would have these Scary opinions he didn't agree with instead of just politely disagreeing and moving on and respecting that this was what i believed and though he proceeds to spam me with 5 long ass paragraphs about how " this isn't biblical" etc basically taking verses out of the bible without their context to prove something. Then he also sent 5 long voice messages that were each over a minute long about how i was being brainwashed and how he cares about me and wants to protect me . Mind you i live in Sweden myself! But apparently this guy knows more about my own country than I do. Also we had not talked for more than a month here and he legit thought i was going to sit there and read all that bullshit. This guy all of a sudden told me he had feelings for me he was 28 btw..... And lived in America i told him the feelings weren't mutual very kindly. He responds like a fucking baby and says that he thinks im the one for him and wants to pursue me romantically and how i shouldn't push him away and how im only sayin no to this because i have low self esteem. ??? Is a no not enough why cant these guys not believe i as my own person knows what i want and don't want. He then gets salty and blocks me. He wanted me to be his little girlfriend/wife he could use as a tharapist and it was clear he loooved that fact that i was a Christian i was one of the good ones. He thought he could mold me into the perfect girl for him. So fucking gross. The second guy didn't like me romantically he had a crush on a girl at his church he would tell me about it was actually so creepy the way he talked about her looking back. He was so brainwashed by Christianity his only life goal was to start a family and get a wife he said that it was already too late for him, he was 21 btw. His pastor had drilled into his head his whole life that it was the most important thing in his entire life to start a family. But did he go out? No he was too scared. He wanted the girl to approach him first and basically do all the work for him what a wuss . He kept talking about how much he liked when girls were super feminine and wore dresses and how he wanted a traditional wife he could provide for while she cooked for him never once did he mention anything about what kind of personality he found attractive just named all the things she could do for him, "she needs to be caring and loving" "good with kids " " a woman of faith" idk it just felt like he wanted a 1 dimensional person as his wife. She ofc couldn't work herself either and he expected a girl his age to just be ready to start a family rn and get pregnant as fast as possible. he only wanted a orthodox girl and any other denomination wouldn't cut it. everyone outside of the church dressed like sluts for male attention. Mind you he had a high body count, something he regretted but still. He also told me how he wished he was a virgin so him and his wife could both be. Wtf??? You aren't a virgin but you seriously expect your future wife to be a virgin.

These experiences with guys definitely played a part in me leaving the faith.

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20f

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I don't have a lot of friends which is fine since I'm an introvert and i couldn't keep up with a big friend group. I have like 5 friends in total. Last year i made a new friend at my school she invited me to the movies after just one week of me going to the school she really made me feel better about being new. But our friendship isn't really that deep it doesn't have to be and she has a friend group I'm not in that i don't want to join. We've gone to the movies a lot and we both love Disney so that's that but i feel like I'm so boring tbh. Like i have no energy when i show up in school and most of the time im just quiet and by myself. I also barely come to classes anymore. When i do go shes always happy to see me and wants a hug and i feel like the biggest emo ever im bot really able to match her energy I'm not a very social person most of the time. I genuinely don't know why she still wants to speak or pursue a friendship with me i feel like our personalities are so different and also school just drains the life out of me completely 😭 idk i feel like im the most boring blank slate NPC ever. Even with my friendships ive had for years I still often wonder why people like me like i haven't done anything extraordinary to impress them or gain their trust im just kinda there. I just feel like a bad friend because it feels like i cant live up to what others demand of me.

It would make me feel a lot better about myself. Like I'm not a nobody and that I'm not just disposable, that my presence actually means something and that my absence is actually felt.

I know this isn't a straight forward question but I've been struggling a lot recently with my self esteem, actually that gas been a struggle my whole life im a 20 yo female and for 5months ive been volunteering in a crisis center for victims of abuse i thought i could finally make a difference and help out my neighbor like jesus commanded us but i haven't been able to help anyone my friend on the other hand who volunteers there too. Has done a lot of good things everyone looooves her shes so good with kids and they instantly want to spend time with her and see her as a big sister she also has a close relationship with the other woman and frequently gives them hugs and they loves when shes around. Whenever she joins the the dining haul activities she instantly lights up the room. Im happy shes able to do so much good for everyone but i cant help but feel useless in comparison im very introverted and quiet i cant give hugs to people i don't know that well and I'm pretty awkward. I feel like a background character in my own life and i feel like Nobody there would Miss me if i decided to leave and never come back again it sucks because i have a desire to help others but i just can't i feel like a failure to God. I feel like God has favourites she's clearly been blessed with her talents and gifts to help other people while im just forgettable in the background. Why did God make me like this? Ive tried to change, be more extroverted and outgoing but it never works i feel like i don't have any value or anything worth any value to give anyone.