u/Xamado

After kicking my (rather extreme) opioid/benzo addiction, I declared myself sober and fully drug-free. I felt so averse to hard drugs that I felt comfortable with calling myself a "former addict" after a couple years. Even now, I wouldn't take an oxy or bar even if it was offered to me for free.

Yet I still smoke cigarettes. And recently I've started drinking more than I should be.

For the longest time, I never felt like drinking more than once a week. But now, I feel like i have nothing to lean on as my OCD and depression get worse. I feel like I have to have a drink in order to enjoy my evenings.

I'm scared im going to become an alcoholic. Today was the first time in my life that I felt angry that i couldn't have a drink. I should stop but im starting to crave it so badly.

Im scared i will always be this way. I'll always find a vice, an unhealthy coping mechanism, something to get addicted to. It used to be porn when i was going through puberty, then it was cigarettes and drugs, and now it's shaping up to be alcohol.

I have no self-control. I never did. It reflects in every aspect of my life.

What's wrong with me? How can I fix myself? I don't know where to start man.

I recently logged into my original Discord account (created in mid 2016) and all of my DMs from before 2018 have vanished.

What gives? None of these DMs were with people that are currently on my friends list, so I don't know if they still exist (and were automatically closed) or if they've been deleted.

Is there anything I can do to get them back?

Hi guys. I just wanted to preface this by saying i only have motor tics and was diagnosed accordingly (i.e. not Tourette's). However, as there isn't a subreddit for Tourettes-adjacent tic disorders, I'm posting here

I just wanted to ask if any treatment has helped you guys - and if so, what is it? I actively try to suppress my motor tics and it feels impossible so i don't see CBT working for me. Did any meds work for you guys?

Thanks in advance

The unedited Jeff Stacy footage is what got me hooked on TCAP. About a year later, I showed it to my sister, and she basically had the same reaction. We spent the next several hours binging TCAP videos and reading the wiki.

The problem is that the Jeff Stacy video is so long. I'm trying to get my fiancée into TCAP but I feel like she'll get bored. You guys got any better ideas?

I had one "exception" friend for about 8 years. He was an online friend and the only person I felt comfortable talking to. We talked everyday, and I was basically also his exception friend (he was a high functioning autist).

It's really complex, but I'll try and keep this as short as possible.

Beginning in 2023 we began to grow apart. We used to talk every single day (without fail) and tell each other everything. At some point, he stopped reciprocating. It became completely one-sided. He also grew increasingly hostile in response to any sort of disagreement, political or not. And finally, our interests and values diverged over time.

Because talking to him daily was such a deeply ingrained habit, I subconsciously loathed it, but I never really took the time to think about where our friendship was going.

Until last year. I had some medical issues and was in and out of the hospital for about a month. I temporarily stopped texting him. During this time, I realized how nice it felt to just... not talk to him. I never texted him again, and that was it.

It's been a year now and I still get "i miss you bro" texts from him. I know bad this sounds. I care about him, but I absolutely never want to be friends with him again.

I have been thinking about texting him to give him some closure (in the form of an explanation or something) but I don't even know what to say.

What could I tell him? Or should I just keep ghosting?

I'm 24. As of today, I have officially sabotaged the last of my friendships. I'm not exaggerating. I have literally zero friends left.

I've never seen a therapist before. Should I see one? Or should I just accept it and stop trying?

This only really became a problem in the last 3-4 years. I have grown increasingly reclusive and unwilling to talk to my friends, all of which I'd known for a decade or longer.

I love them, I desire connection, and I wanted some of the friendships to stay alive. But paradoxically, I just do not derive any enjoyment from talking to other people (outside of the feeling I get from knowing people like me). It's like I've become extremely averse to the idea of friendship

I want to keep this post short so I won't go into detail. But of all the friends I had, I either ghosted them, or let them fizzle out by responding extremely infrequently. I genuinely didn't want the friendships in the latter half to fizzle out. I love and miss all of those people, but - bluntly speaking - I just didn't feel like putting in any effort.

This reached a boiling point over the past year, in which I lost my two lifelong best friends. I ghosted one, and the other (who was genuinely like a brother to me) finally got fed up with my constant non-responses after 2-3 years of me frequently ignoring him. To get an idea of how much it stung to finally reap what I sowed, he just blocked me half an hour ago. I pretty much immediately started writing this post.

What the hell is wrong with me? I feel like I'm normal in every other aspect. I'm engaged, and my fiancée (who's also my best friend) and I have an extremely healthy and happy relationship. I excel at school. I excel at work. I truly enjoy fleeting social situations (like dealing with customers at work, or playing online games).

I don't think I'm a sociopath. I recognize that there's something deeply wrong with the way I view friendships and I want to fix it. I guess I just don't know how a therapist could help me work through this

I'm 24. As of today, I have officially sabotaged the last of my friendships. I'm not exaggerating. I have literally zero friends left.

Should I see a therapist? Or should I just accept it and stop trying?

This only really became a problem in the last 3-4 years. I have grown increasingly reclusive and unwilling to talk to my friends, all of which I'd known for a decade or longer.

I love them, I desire connection, and I wanted some of the friendships to stay alive. But paradoxically, I just do not derive any enjoyment from talking to other people (outside of the feeling I get from knowing people like me)

I want to keep this post short so I won't go into detail. But of all the friends I had, I either ghosted them, or let them fizzle out by responding extremely infrequently. I genuinely didn't want the friendships in the latter half to fizzle out. I love and miss all of those people, but - bluntly speaking - I just didn't feel like putting in any effort.

This reached a boiling point over the past year, in which I lost my two lifelong best friends. I ghosted one, and the other (who was genuinely like a brother to me) finally got fed up with my constant non-responses after 2-3 years of me frequently ignoring him. To get an idea of how much it stung to finally reap what I sowed, he just blocked me half an hour ago. I pretty much immediately started writing this post.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I feel like I'm normal in every other aspect. I'm engaged, and my fiancée (who's also my best friend) and I have an extremely healthy and happy relationship. I excel at school. I excel at work. I truly enjoy fleeting social situations (like dealing with customers at work, or playing online games).

I don't think I'm a sociopath. I recognize that there's something deeply wrong with the way I view friendships and I want to fix it.

Should I seek help? Do you guys think my friendships are salvageable?

My family and I are from Winnipeg, and we were thinking about going to Fargo and Minneapolis for a little mini vacation this summer. However, given the current state of the US, I don't know if it's viable.

Any other Manitobans visited the US lately? What was your experience at the border like? Did your phones get searched?

Thanks in advance.

Edit: i should probably mention that we have muslim-sounding names. Parents have been here since the 80s and don't have accents, but still

My family and I were thinking about going to Fargo and Minneapolis for a little mini vacation this summer. However, given the current state of the US, I don't know if it's viable.

Has anyone visited the US lately? What was your experience at the border like? Did your phones get searched?

Thanks in advance.

It amazes me when music can be so emotionally potent and have so much to say despite being completely instrumental.

I first heard it (along with the rest of Autechre's discog) 10 years ago and I'm still absolutely fascinated by that song. It is achingly beautiful. Still the only song I've ever cried to.

Just wanted to get that off my chest

i park there and don't wanna take the wrong route to class (and end up being late)

Every time I visit this subreddit it's like I'm stepping into a time machine back to 2014. Everything is exactly the same as it was over a decade ago. Please keep spamming the word "noided" and posting shitty memes I unironically love it

Hey, so I'll keep this short and simple. I just want some opinions.

I bartended at a nightclub for two years, absolutely loved it - but the place I worked at was shady, and closed after an afterhours shooting. I believe the place's bad reputation prevented me from finding another bartending gig. I applied to dozens of places in the months since they shut down.

I recently landed a job as a line cook at a premium-casual, corporate-owned restaurant. I start in two weeks.

I really wanted to work as a bartender again. BOH was not my first choice, but it seems like a nice enough place (albeit soulless).

Today, I just got a call back from a sports pub (pretty much a dive, located next to a teaching hospital that's located in a bad area) for a bartending position. Not corporate-owned.

I'm really conflicted. What would you guys do? Should I go to the interview and see what's up?

Thanks in advance.

I'm concerned about the velocity of my cumshots. They go way too far. This is fun during sex (unless it gets in her hair) but it's inconvenient when I'm having a wank. Like it usually ends up 4-5 ft away from me if I'm standing and aiming straight ahead.

What do you guys do to increase cumshot velocity? What would have the opposite effect?

thanks in advance

Easily my favorite position, but over the years my fiancée has had increasing trouble taking it from the back. Causes her too much pain, and we have to stop and call it a night every time we try it. It's not doable unless I thrust like 50%-75% of the way in, which just feels awkward

I know this is a shot in the dark, but does anyone have any advice?