u/bubbleegumm

I’m 26F I do somatic therapy, I’ve done breath work, TRE, medication, journaling, psychedelics everything you can think of. I live with my parents and I’m looking for a full time job so I can move out ASAP. I couldn’t move out as I had undiagnosed and untreated adhd my whole life and only now am I wanting a better future for myself. I’m worried that everything I’m doing is pointless as I’m still in the same household and haven’t felt better in years. My therapist tells me that I need to feel safe before I can heal and I’m never safe here I’m always hyper vigilant, always on edge and dissociated 24/7. Are these things pointless or making it worse and how can I live at home during this time without making it worse for myself? I know dissociation is just my protective mechanism I just don’t know how to feel better in this household and still work on my symptoms

I used to be a really big gym person I would go 4-5 times a week every week consistently then I became depressed and I go to the gym once a month maybe it’s so hard to drag my feet to go. I feel slightly better after but when I’m there it’s such a pain i do one set and I just want to go home it’s been like this for years now and if I’m consistent for a week or two it will drop off so quick any tips?

It’s been 3 months since my Mirena iud post surgery and my cycle has always been regular even with the iud in. My period is very light compared to pre surgery however the past 2 cycles have been strange with bleeding. I’ll have bleeding lightly for a couple of days it then turns into light brown chocolate kind of blood for a few days and now it’s bright red? It makes it so hard to understand what’s going on. Is this normal does it usually settle over time? My periods have also been lasting a lot longer than before the iud typically a week or even longer where as before it would be 5 days

I’m on Dexamphetamine 2.5mg twice a day. Recently I’ve been taking my dose at 10am with a protein shake and just my normal breakfast during the 2 hours before I feel the medication working I get nothing? I notice as soon as I eat lunch I feel the meds kicking in. This has been consistent with the past few times I’ve taken them and It’s strange as usually I feel them working within 30-60 mins. I’ve also been taking l theanine with the medication and want to know if anyone else has had this happen to them

I’m on Dexamphetamine 2.5mg twice a day. Recently I’ve been taking my dose at 10am with a protein shake and just my normal breakfast during the 2 hours before I feel the medication working I get nothing? I notice as soon as I eat lunch I feel the meds kicking in. This has been consistent with the past few times I’ve taken them and It’s strange as usually I feel them working within 30-60 mins. I’ve also been taking l theanine with the medication and want to know if anyone else has had this happen to them

I’ve been noticing more lately that I’m hardly ever present if at all. During a yoga class I’m wanting it to finish so I can go home, when I’m watching a show I’m wanting to skip it, if I’m eating I can’t wait to be done so I can shower, when I’m in the shower I can’t wait to be done to get into bed, if I’m socialising I want it to be finished so I can be alone…. The list goes on and on I’m not sure if anyone else relates or has any tips/advice

I’ve been noticing more lately that I’m hardly ever present if at all. During a yoga class I’m wanting it to finish so I can go home, when I’m watching a show I’m wanting to skip it, if I’m eating I can’t wait to be done so I can shower, when I’m in the shower I can’t wait to be done to get into bed, if I’m socialising I want it to be finished so I can be alone…. The list goes on and on I’m medicated for ADHD but this is still an ongoing issue and I’m not sure if anyone else relates or has any tips/advice

I’m trying to find those round ball ones I need some fidget toys asap

I literally don’t learn anything doing these online modules. What is the point in paying this much money for a degree and basically just teaching yourself at this point. Some of my units offer no lectures all online modules this is ridiculous are the lecturers lazy? Do they not want to spend time teaching anymore? Or is it something else I’m missing

I’m in my final year of undergrad and I physically cannot keep going. There is a lot of context behind this I’m 26 and I want a full time job so I can move out of my current environment. I have ADHD diagnosed and medicated and have really bad mental health issues at the moment. I’m severely burnt out and I don’t think I have it in me to study for another 3 years. Can I come back to applying for honours/post grad and masters in a few years and if so what can i do with just a bachelors when I finish. I know a lot of people are going to tell me to continue but if you knew my circumstances truly no one would advise me to continue

If you told my 5 year ago self that I would be celebrating this on reddit id laugh in your face. ANYWAYS I felt literally one emotion today and that was sadness but for someone who’s been emotionally numb for very long I think this is something worth celebrating. I know to get to where I wanna go I have to go through all the hard emotions first even if they don’t feel good at first

I’m so afraid I’m going to shed even more hair and have no regrowth and be left with nothing. I’m starting on 1mg it saddens me that I’m taking a medication for my hair I’m pretty anti medication but I feel like I’ve got no other choice but to give it a go. Does anyone have any positive experiences they can share

I’m a 26F and i realised very recently that this approach of trying to fit the mould of being a neurotypical is not working it’s not sustainable and It’s just causing me more shame and my burnouts are becoming worse. The more I try to be like everyone else the further away from myself I feel. I’m trying to learn to accept the way I am and unlearn all of the limiting beliefs about myself. I’ve booked myself a therapist who specialises in adhd, changing my medication next week and trying to learn ways to make my life work around my adhd. I’ll be getting accomodations for university, buying fidget toys instead of biting my nails for stimulation. For now that’s all I’m going to take it slowly but I realised this is my life, my pace and trying to be someone I’m not is making everything worse I want to love who I am for all that I am not for who society wants me to be.