u/cloudnine333

When I was going through puberty, I started my period at age 12, and my breasts never developed to be big when i grew older.
I had an eating disorder starting at 14 until 18, my bmi was very low, i had hair loss and my period stopped for a year when i was 16 because of low progesterone and body going into survival mode.
My breast size is 32B, they have no volume and i've had partners comment on how they're small and don't fill up my shirt. I went to a plastic surgeon and he said one is way smaller than the other and they aren't lifted.

I know it's possible to get even smaller, like an A cup, and it's normal to be flat chested, it looks good on other people

but this size and shape isn't attractive on me, even my mother has commented
Could it be that i didn't develop properly during puberty because of my eating disorder? or low estrogen during those developmental times?

When I was going through puberty, I started my period at age 12, and my breasts never developed to be big when i grew older.

I had an eating disorder starting at 14 until 18, my bmi was very low, i had hair loss and my period stopped for a year when i was 16 because of low progesterone and body going into survival mode.

My natural breast size is 32B, they have no volume and i’ve had partners comment on how they’re small and don’t fill up my shirt. I went to a plastic surgeon and he said one is even smaller than the other and they aren’t lifted. they just felt like loose skin.

I know it’s possible to get even smaller, like an A cup, and it’s normal to be flat chested

but this size and shape isn’t attractive on me, even my mother has commented, i don’t think it’s genetic, and it didn’t look good in clothes

Could it be that i didn’t develop properly during puberty because of my eating disorder? or low estrogen during those developmental times?

I ended up getting implants, they only last 10 years for everyone, I was wondering why mine aren’t naturally that way

I know that it’s becoming increasingly common while it was almost unheard of before or not talked about, but is it because of increasing misogyny or believing men have it easier in society?

although i believe that’s not true, because men face societal expectations of getting a high salary and being attractive too, or they are looked at as an outcast and can’t attract people. they also compare themselves and their lives to others, like women do.
i feel it’s a misconception that men have it better.
i have known straight men that said they compare their faces to everyone including women, and find flaws in their own looks.

i’ve just seen many misogynistic posts online and andrew tate stuff like “women expire after 25” and parasocial dehumanizing stuff posted by losers on twitter, putting down women for aging, their appearance, or believing to be superior, usually by old men.

harmful and untrue messages, because those people that post things like that hate themselves and want others to feel the same way.
they want to feel powerful by putting down women

this was rare 10 years ago, its only increasing with social media like tiktok, X and instagram

Wondering if humans in particular are female by default unless the Y chromosome activates,
even though that’s decided since conception.
If the Y chromosome isn’t there, they’d continue to develop as female.
all fetuses look the same with gonads that resemble mostly female, until 7 weeks

Males have a similar area in the prostate to the uterus, called the Prostatic utricle. representing a remnant of the female reproductive tract (Müllerian ducts) in males.

testes are equivalent and of same material as ovaries, just external. The clitoris is the same tissue as the penis, just overgrown by testosterone, the labia is equivalent to the scrotum, and males have nipples, also can produce milk if taking hormones

do i have this correct?

I know about hyaluronic acid, vitamin c and retinol.
I am 26F, My skin looks less plump, more gaunt than it did 5 years ago, due to weight loss and stress.
I have combination skin.

He would call me over to sleep with him for a year after our breakup, we were on and off 4 years together. Like, he’d text me saying he’s free and then call an uber in the morning. I thought he would commit to me and didn’t realize his intentions.
I stayed loyal to him throughout it all, he did not like it when I was active on social media and said that’s going against his boundaries.

When I told him how he’s hurting me with his behavior and actions, he’d say “you’re guilt tripping and manipulative” and wouldn’t take blame, only made me take it. He diagnosed me with BPD saying “It’s not normal to get butterflies after 4 years. Normal people don’t feel that way.”

He'd cuss me out when he had a bad day at home.

He talked about his ex gf a lot since day 1, if i asked him about it or why, he’d tell everyone, his dads, friends etc that i am interrogating him and i’m abusive
He said “She was never in my head. you made yourself crazy because you have BPD”

He randomly left me on my birthday when i asked if he was ok because he was ignoring me for hours, he said "leave me alone i'm done with you and ur shit. i'm not repeating myself we've been through this. not talking about rn but everything we've gone through." and blocked me.

In the past, I'd beg to be with him and he'd say "you're the one that came to me crying and begging i was happy living my own life"
he'd leave whenever he felt like it, but said i'm a terrible person if i do.

after 4 months, he'd lurk on my profile and unblocked me, left it that way, and probably checked if i'm seeing someone else or not. He made his account public from private and added his name.
I did not text or contact him again, and it was the first time I just left him alone.

I don’t know what’s going on though

I'd beg to be with him and he'd say "you're the one that came to me crying and begging i was happy living my own life"
we were on and off 4 years.

he'd leave whenever he felt like it, but said i'm a terrible person if i do. i used to beg and plead because i was attached, i’ve never been no contact for longer than a week because id try to talk.
For a while, he’d invite me over at night to sleep with me and call an uber in the morning, without committing.

He randomly left me on my birthday when i asked if he was ok because he was ignoring me for hours, he said "leave me alone i'm done with you and ur shit. i'm not repeating myself we've been through this. not talking about rn but everything we've gone through." and blocked me.

after 4 months, I noticed he'd lurk on my profile and unblocked me, left it that way, and probably checked if i'm seeing someone else or not. He made his account from private to public and added his name.
What could this mean? I know he’s wondering why i’m not crying for him anymore

I did not text or contact him again, and it was the first time I just left him alone.

This is a return to Sender hex reversal i’ve done if you know 100% someone specific has hexed you, it has worked for me

Get a mirror that you won’t need anymore.
Salt circle and protection rune/spell before
Light a black candle and carve their name and DOB, intention “Return Bad energy” Dress it with cinnamon, burn sage. if you have their hair or clothes, you could use it.

Use herbs like nettle, rosemary and crystals like quartz.

Light the candle, allowing it to burn down while visualizing the negative energy returning to the sender.
Say your intention. Let it burn down.

Throw away the mirror. Do not keep it

If you try it, you can share your experiences

I was living in japan for a few years and I had a friend that came into my home and we played video games, he said the train station is closed and will reopen at 5 am so I allowed him to sleep separately on the floor on a futon,

He brought up sex and started being creepy, I told him no, I was not comfortable doing that with him. I did not like him in that way.
He told me to give him a blowjob, I said hell no.

He kept bugging and pressuring me while i said no. He was like “it’ll be good exercise for your face and jawline”
I would not.
I fell asleep, around 3 am, I woke up to him dangling his balls on my face.
I screamed and pushed him off.

It seemed like he was trying to put his dick in my mouth when I was asleep. I still remember those elephant skin balls.
He started sitting in a dark corner crouched down and crying, acting possessed.

He was 32M, I was 18F
This is a true story and I still remember it vividly after 8 years. It could even fit into a horror sub

edit: I knew him for barely two months, he was crying because he didn’t get what he wanted,
i hate balls now

How can i grow out my bangs that were damaged from bleach and had breakage? they are about eyebrow length now.
i’ve tried olaplex #3
it’s difficult to retain length in that area

I get some answers that come across as hateful, harassing me, or making me overthink about my situation in other subs.

Once I posted about my ex and an abusive relationship, I had women attacking me saying I post a lot and bringing up topics I asked on different subs about an entirely different subject that was spirituality related.
They ganged up on me for absolutely no reason, seemed like it was out of insecurity and jealousy.

Or if I posted a situation, they twisted the story and made me overthink. Maybe it was on purpose, saying “you’re naive you’re like 12”

Is everything on here true? Or could it be twitter based responses?