I got one dose last Thursday, then another the Tuesday before. I still feel sleepy, so I'm getting my b12 and d checked again on Tuesday.
I still feel cold, tired, like my body is heavy, and brain fog.
I've been realizing that I think I move through life based off of what others want me to do i think from people pleasing my parents. I very rarely do what I really want and I think i spent my 20s trying to manage my mom's emotions. This is in all aspects like little things or even relationships. I think I really was raised with no real independence and I don't know how to change this.
I then also feel frustrated when others don't do what I want...
https://www.omoi.com/publishers/red-string-translations?sort=recent_series
And releasing The Sword of Paros earlier in december
By ink pop. apparently it's a josei.
Blupetal just announced it. I tried to look at the jpn manga page, but it doesnt allow foreigners to view. I've never heard of this before.
Anyway, they said theyre selling Let Me Fix You if you missed the kickstarter.
I've become exasperated with men because I used to think some would want to be friends, but its like over and over they end up being weird and asking romantically.
How do you even deal with this? I've even had one keep asking over and over after I said no. I feel like I've become untrusting of any men wanting to dm, now, too
*like you arent allowed to approach others
I feel like I was often ignored as a kid, my parents being annoyed when i'd interact first, and I gave up and then went through school as the quiet kid. I remember other kids asking why i wouldn't speak, and then they wouldn't try to talk to me. I technically would talk, but never first. Like i always waited for permission to speak. Then, when i went to college, i became much more aware how socially stunted i was.
I truly feel like im not allowed to approach people or else they'll get mad. I feel so aware its set me back and automatically makes me weird :( I feel lonely but at the same time like if i do try to interact, it will go wrong.
I get he's like 2 years old, but he's the king of not learning his lesson
Also I noticed the gloves look different in the actual game than the cover art, so maybe there's a better pic i could've used. I'm trying to look at the suit, any more detailed pics i'd appreciate.
I was looking at the comic and remembered how different war woman's original look was. I couldnt help but think her top looked like just a tank top, while in the show she definitely looks more ready for battle. Donald also felt goofy in the comics and somehow them making him weaker was better?
The show also does some race and gender swaps, and i think letting there be more poc, older characters, ones with fat, or women helps diversify the cast. Do you think anyone else should've gotten a better design? I kind of wish Eve had more outfits.
I personally like it, but I know the fandom doesn't like seeing most things other than Viltrumite related content or fights. I think the show often doesn't have time for more personal scenes of characters, so I like any time it happens, even with supporting characters like Kate.
I can imagine Monster Girl and Robot getting their scenes possibly next season, and I feel like they missed an opportunity for Rex between season 2 and 3. I wonder if they'll give the viltrumites anything similar. What character do you think deserves a flashback, or more scenes? Cecil is also my favorite, so i wouldn't be opposed to more scenes of him.
I don't know if this just counts as anxiety, but little things will feel like jump scares to me now. And I mean relatively normal things. Like I was washing my hands at the kitchen sink, and my dad enters the room and starts talking and i went "ah!". And then I had two other moments like that, and it made me think about it.
Mark has basically no older person to look up to, so i think it makes sense his morals are going all over the place now, and they're lucky he hasn't gone nuts tbh.
It's a shame he never got closer to the immortal maybe. Art and debbie can't really advise him, and eve is in the same point in life as him.
Lost story short, I was on b12 injections for every other day with cyanocobalamin (i know, not the right form, but my dr couldnt prescribe any other) for a month and a half, and I was starting to feel better, but I think it tanked my ferritin. 3 months ago i stopped because my chest started to hurt. The cardiologist took my blood then and my ferritin was around 31. I only just recently was able to see the hematologist, and he said next week i could get infusions. I want to start again, but I never originally did any of the other b12 tests. My original dr who found my b12 dropped to the 300s just gave me an injection in office after seeing the labs. Now, I think its been long enough to where my injection might not influence labs?
I still dont know why my b12 is low bc i wasnt on meds, no gi surgeries, my dr said i wasnt on ppis long enough for it to tank b12 (i got put on ppis bc drs were throwing antibiotics, steroids, and nsaids at me for what i now know as iron deficiency symptoms, and it caused gastritis, and trying iron pills brings it back), no nitrous oxide use, no alcohol use, have always eaten animal products daily. I know the test for b12 can be unreliable, but shouldnt i still try?
So far, I have written down these: holo-b12, serum b12 (?), mma, mcv, intrinsic factor, antiparietal. I'll try to make sure she doesnt test b12 again. Is there anything else? My hematologist recently did a cbc and iron panel a month ago, but he refused to talk about b12 and other vitamins. Maybe i could try b6. The neurologist already tried to test other things and couldn't find anything else suspicious.
My daily symptoms: Heel hurts, no appetite, cold, weak, tired, left arm tingles, back hurts, dry eye/poor vision, weird skin sensations, anxiety, tmj (cheekbones, jaw hurts), sweaty eyelids, tingling fingers, muscle cramps, tailbone pain, poor mood, dizzy, temples hurt, brain fog. Before i tried injections, I was getting paranoid and disassociating, but that hasnt happened again.
With Cecil's attitude, I mean. I get mark not knowing what to think at that point (also he's a little dumb).
Mark is swayed by Dinosaurus' agenda because Cecil happily shows Mark that "some good has come" from all of Las Vegas getting blown up. This area of solar Panels can apparently power half the country, and has now employed thousands. He also says they won't attempt to repair, and doesn't mention civilians. He announces this fairly soon after all these people died. He even has a line how other people might think its disrespectful.
This directly contrasts with the show's characterization of him. Half the reason people like show cecil besides being more subtle with investigating Nolan, is that he cares more than a usual pragmatic character. We see him try to comfort the Graysons, and he's basically the only one remembering civilian casualties, and is hard on himself and others for it. Cecil did change to where he's wiling to use the enemy if they can be used, but I'd be surprised to see him go "well, hundred of thousands died, but at least we have solar panels now." when he was upset about even 17 people dying, and just scolded Nolan for how many people he hurt.
Anissa in season 2 even basically says the same thing Dinosaurus does (allow death to happen today to "prevent" more tomorrow), and Cecil still mocks her, and only encourages Mark to align with the viltrumites as a lie to buy time. Cecil also directly fought a character who boasted about mass murdering to push an agenda to allegedly better humanity later, so I just think it'd be very odd if he had the same attitude he does in the comics. It'd be like if he gave in to Nolan and was like "yeah, you did kill 3,000 people in chicago, buut we put up some new hotels there ;)". Cecil has been shown to try and soften the impact of events to Mark, but I think that's just so he doesn't snap tbh.
I just wanted to add this video to my watch later, which i never ever really considered a playlist, but i cant? what harm can that possibly be?
There was this twitter art trend/meme of two asian (i think) girls. one was standing posing facing to the left to shoot a gun, and the other was sitting and had her arm wrapped around the other's leg and was cowering covering her ears. I cant find it.
Is that how its supposed to work or is she way stronger?
I mean, like not letting a guy eventually turn you into his maid or something...