u/galhime

Most dads in manhwa are SOOOO neglectful but they are still portrayed as the best father ever like hello are we forgetting that neglect is litterally a form of abuse , you'd kill for your child but its too much to ask to say " i care for you and your existence make me happy" , not even say it just showing it, most of these guys never apologise , stay silent and we are just supposed to accept it as peak education , they never talk to their child never make time for them never hug them just watch them from affar anf just bcs they have "good intent" its supposed to make it okay ?

Most of the time the fl comes to the realisation her dad loves her after reincarnating and being a fully fleshed adult but what abt the little girl who couldn't pick up on the vague , nothing burger social cues , its just cruel And in some story after years of neglect he will either change completely and the story is going to brush pff the accountability he has for the life long trauma he caused his child bcs everyone's happy now Or when she dies a first time she'll realise "oh he loved me all this time , but their love is essentially the same as " if a tree falls in the forest with nobody around did it really make noise " bcs except if you're the reader nobody as any way to know if he loves his kids so does he really

I hate when neurotypical say that when i open up abt masking bcs yes to a certain level its important to be yourself to have raw and meaningful relationships but the phrase "be yourself and ppl will like you" just does not apply to autistic ppl, if i don't want to be a social reject , bullied , or just get a job , talk to coworkers and even start friendship or just talk to ppl i need to mask (and quite frankly its automatic idk what i am without the masking) being myself does not make me more authentic it makes me bothersome and odd , not someone you want to be around , i either stare into someone's soul to the point it make them uncomfortable or don't look at them at all , i either cut ppl off when they talk or wait an uncomfortable amount of time to be sure i can talk , i wont smile , look into your eyebrows , stop talking and just listen to music , i will either talk to loudly or too quietly , i just look overall like an alien sent to earth for a mission but who is paid minimum wage so he's too tired to make his work well 😭

If it wasn't for this guy i wouldn't be here writing something bcs i would've been treated , ik this sound like im delusional but im really not , at first i saw a first ent before moving out of the region/state he told me i had eustachian tubes disfunction bcs of tmj and bruxism he gave me a clear plan , first get a retainer the if the retainer doesn't work we'll do reeducation with kinesitherapist , and if it doesn't work we'll go to surgery , pretty clear right

So anyways i move at my new house with my family and i wait an insane amount of time for a new ent bcs ovbiously i moved in a place where doctors are rare , i see him he tells me my problem isn't from eustachian tubes when i ask him to explain he gives me NO explaination except "yeah no👀" he also talk abt a deviated septum (will be important for later) he dismiss every shit i say like im some psycotic girl but anyway he prescribe me OSTEOPATH session not kinesytherapy but thing is those are not reinbursed and also most don't specialise in jaw problems.

Any ways i see him again 6month later (like one week ago) and he's so dismissive whole session ,i talk to him abt all my breathing problem he dismiss every one of them , i also mention the deviated septum HE TOLD ME I HAD(with full certainty) ,and he say to me "yeah you don't have that" JUST LAST SESSION YOU WERE SAYING I DID , then i decide to ask him why osteophath instead of kinesytherapy and he goes to this whole dumb fucking rant abt "you just have to find an osteopath who specialise in facial problem" wow thank you what a GOOD suggestion when you live in a place where you struggle to find medical professionals ask me to find a unicorn next and after that he tells me "well anyway not all kinesytherapy doctor expert in jaw problem" yes but much more bcs they are actually the one being refered during this type of problems and plus its exactly the same for osteopath except they are RARER and you have to pay every session , even my mom told me he was blabbering

So anyway he told me he didn't know what to do with my problem and that it wasn't his area of expertise even tho that guy is as old as a raisin , looking old and all dehydrated with 2 hair olding onto dear life on his scalp he must have seen it in all his years, (the ent i saw before told me he had seen plenty case like mine and i mean its sure my case is confusing when you keep ignoring the key points of my problems), so he refered me to two other doctor .

I feel like this old hag whole mission was to dismiss me and contradict me bcs i couldn't possibly be right abt someting im living and that another ENT told me i had for god sake i feel those tubes doing beatbox in my ears , im in constant pain so much so that one time the pain was so intense that i felt nauseous bcs of it , i have a shit ton of pression in my ear along with tinnitus and its getting worse , same for even more pain in the jaw and sinus migraines (i don't have the name but yeah) and this guy just plays in my face every single time , changing his answer so im never right oh my days

Light hearted post but like i really thinked abt it and im probably one of the worst contenders to be transmigrated , even if it was an objectivelly "good and easy life"

Im a lesbian who spend all her day listening music on spotify ( i had over 100k min last spotify wrapped) i mean i like baroque and classical but only that would be hella depressing and i love my family , monarchy also don't align with my values at all genuinly this would be hell , i couldn't even have the contract marriage fell in love typa story bcs i like women and not men 😭 thank god that whole isekai thing isn't real

The stylus has nothing wrong with it im just someone who naturally stress out and trembles a little , and i just wanted to have really smoother line but i can't find where to make it smoother (i have tried to search it up on google , ik this thing has a name but bcs i can't find the name of this action im kinda stuck that's why i ask here)

Don't get me wrong im still purging everyday but like sometime i forget to purge or just dread eating so much bcs im too lazy to purge , i feel like ive hit rock bottom 2 month ago and now ive just given up on trying to heal by myself , i just chill until my ed recovery appointement bcs ive proven myself over 6month that even if i try hard to recover i'll fail every day and i feel like temporarely "giving up"(i am NOT giving up in that way i want this disorder gone im going to ed recovery appointement and all )made me passive to all of the aspect , i don't get as much dopamine rush as i did before i actually can do things without being bored bs i don't b/p and i feel like im gonna lazy myself out of this disorder weirdly enough

Ok dumb question but ive been chronically constipated for as long as i can remember but i also poop daily most of the time , when i search the symptom of constipation they say "having less than 3 bowel movement a week" and i obviously have more but my poop is also rock solid everytime and i even bleed bcs of it (not hemmoroid) so like what does that mean

I can't close my eyelid for too long rn bcs my eye will start to itch hurt and twitch rn i always had dry eye and ppl always diminished it as me spending too much time on my phone but idk i also have slight visual snow on a day to day basis and really sensible eyes , i phisically cant put tear drop in my eyes they will always close and twitch immediatly when i do is that normal am i on the right subreddit genuinly closing my eyes rn feels like sand paper

My cat has been lethargic loss of appetite no drinking water weird and "unstable" breathing since 2 days she doesn't talk at all doesn't even defend herself , prior to that there were no sign she was her usual meow whining self (as in she's clingy and meows alot to play cuddle and stuff)she's 9 , her belly seem to be sensible my dad thinks im overreacting but im really scared she has smth like a congestive heart disease or lung issue , she has never acted like that , is it most likely just a common virus that can be cured with time or is there a big chance its smth more serious

However there is no mouth breath or coughing she's really quitet

I don't have arfid but im really curious , blueberries are one of the most versatile food ever you never know if its sour tart sweet mushy in the interior just not very safe food material so i always assumed no ppl with arfid could handle them but maybe there's ppl here who actually like blueberries and i wanted to ask yall and if there is arfid ppl out there who actually like them !

Im someone who takes picture of themself in a mugshot typa way just to see myself grow as a person alot and maybe im wrong but i genuinly feel like my chin recessed a bit and idk if im crazy or if im right , i searched on google and apparently the tension can cause the appearance of the jaw to look more recessed but i was wondering if anybody else had felt that of just me maybe its just my brain playing games

I want to preface this by that im pro recovery ,please go to these places , and even tho im complaining abt an experience rn im not giving up im gonna keep going to this place im just mildly annoyed

Ive had three appointement so far , and genuinly they told me a bunch of nothing , ive seen a nurse that asked me generic psyciatry question and set appointement with a nutritionist a psyciatrist and a dietitian ,the nutritionist asked me the same genreric question and i learned my weight nothing more , the psyciatrist was annoying as hell im a pretty down to earth person so if you want to make me scared of something i get it like ik that's how some ppl get their wake up call but why are you straight up lying to me and gaslighting me on things ik well ,the guy fr told me my goal weight is skinnier than what i think it is , that i actually was at my dream weight and when i kept arguing he kept telling me i was wrong ?? Tell me its unhealthy tell me the danger i don't mind but why are we lying now come on🥀 You asked me for my goal weight and mind you im not in a "weight loss" journey i don't purge to lose weight i purge bcs of addiction , they treated me like an anorexia patient and i mean there's similarity for sure but , when he asked my goal weight i gave him a number he proceeded to tell me "why are you so fixated on this number" im not man you asked for a number😭 then i gave him another answer like an approximate of where i would like to be at akd then he told me "why are you so fixated on weight" so i told him i actually don't care that much abt weight i don't even weigh myself and that i actually aim for an inch waist (gave him an approximate of the inch waist i wanted) then he proceeded to tell me "why are you so fixated on inches and you know your waist is not the only thing that is gonna shrink " (all of those were said in a patronising tone)ok so there's no good answer what's the point of asking oll those question if they're tricky and you're just gonna shame the patient abt it instead of actually talking abt the risks ? I got no tips what so ever out of those three session btw what is the pointttt

I went to the paris concert like 2 days ago and the concert lasted more than 2 hours ,3+ hours if you include the opener and obviously im not complaining i loved every second of it but i jist wanted to know if it was a common occurence or if he was just feeling himself that night

Im not talking abt binging and then not purging im talking abt eating a normal amount of food and then having really bad stomach ache for hours , its between hurting and hunger i can't pinpoint what it is but it makes it so hard to recover bcs purging gets thz pain off , where does it come from , like is it that i have lost hunger cues or is it more phisical and is bcs of the acid or is it a mental thing where im so acclimated to purge that my body is stressing , im gen curious abt it

I was thinking abt that while eating and while i understand where its coming from i can't help but feel frustrated by this statement bcs i never had to "control myself" around other women, i never had urges to resist when i was at a sleepover or in changing room in sports i simply don't objectify girls , i could care less abt another girl i don't know in a bathing suit , i can find girl attractive and think "oh she's my type" on the street but imagining her in a sexual way is not something that would even come to my mind , society sell us how men act towards us as innate and just the laws of nature when its simply not , its a direct consequance of patriarchy (btw i also know there is some lesbian agressor i wasn't trying to diminish that i was just talking abt this point in particular)

When i talk abt finishing the quest im talking abt getting all the places and villagers, the moment you unlock everything, not the decorating part , what is like the time on average and the quickest you can do ?

Not a vent post im just talking , i recently realised that i was a lesbian , part of the reason i thought i was bi is bcs i quite frankly had no experience dating and i also have low self esteem i knew i liked girl but i wasn't sure abt guy , i talked to a guy and realised i was a lesbian not gonna get into it even if the story is funny

At first when i realised i was a lesbian i was really happy , it felt "right" and liberating and it still does bcs i can't imagine myself with a guy but from an objective point its so annoying , on top of that my type are girls into underground music 😭 i legit never met one outside of concerts in my life let alone a lesbian one AND on top of that im autistic ?? You gotta be kidding me , if at least i could be attracted to guy too it would be easier but my system decided that they turn me off lmao , living the dating pool on hard mode