I posted here a few weeks ago about my jade plant previously having root rot. I've already cut all of the rot out and at the time, it wasn't squishy. Now, the end that I was waiting to callus over feels squishy.
I've already cut the rest off from the callused end, I don't want to risk it rotting again. but.. what should I do now? and what should I do to make sure it doesn't happen again.
Looking for an ai that I can code my own character into? With a similar interface to Character Ai and Janitor Ai, minus the Ai age verification or needing to share any personal details...
I don't know how all the techy complicated stuff like API keys actually work..
A free or cheap one would be preferable as I don't have much money available to put into it -- $20 a month is too much for me.
Something basic with an okay chat memory would be fine.
Please don't jokingly suggest chatGPT, I'm being serious lol
Hopefully this doesn’t come off as exclusionary, I’m just looking for a specific term for someone who has “”male/male-aligned”” sexual organs (testes, prostate). However, the individuals actual genitals and.. how they “visibly look” and work may not be like “”male/male aligned”” ones.
For example, an individual has sperm and the organs to create sperm and they’re hypothetically able to reproduce… but they may not have a penis. Or.. something along those lines.
I know there’s the broader altersex term for that, but is there anything even a bit more specific?
I’m also looking for a term for someone who is born with certain genitals but then transitions to another type of genitals.
((I’m really sorry if any of this is rude, I really didn’t know how else to word it other than just saying what I wanted to know straight up))
I'm so bored in my placement, there's nothing to do.
Its so hot I can't go out. I just feel trapped here. I'm not allowed to do anything. I can't talk to anyone about it because everyone's using their PTO to go on holiday.
I don't want to spend my entire summer (including birthday) in care.
And it would be helpful if you could name them, saying "there's loads" isn't helpful and doesn't really narrow it down.
Just to clarify, I mean, which religions have texts such as holy books available to read or purchase from almost anywhere in the world?
I'm on a waiting list to start trauma therapy, I don't know which one will be available for me yet so I wanted to ask about the experience you had with it.
I also do have some concerns. My biggest one is I don't really know what this'll do to me. The thought of being better sounds too good to be true... but I also don't even know what being better would look like for me.
And it could also just... not work.
I wanted to hear people's experiences directly from the people who've experienced it.
I'm on a waiting list to start trauma therapy, I don't know which one will be available for me yet so I wanted to ask about the experience you had with it.
I also do have some concerns. My biggest one is I don't really know what this'll do to me. The thought of being better sounds too good to be true... but I also don't even know what being better would look like for me.
And it could also just... not work.
I wanted to hear people's experiences directly from the people who've experienced it.
Being mixed race, I personally feel very segregated from poc communities because of use of terms like 'xyz-passing'
I don't deny the fact I am white-passing, my skin is not dark. But I hate being called that. I don't experience white-privelilage, I've experienced systematic racism regarding housing, education, healthcare. I've experienced casual colourism from family (comparing their skin to mine after getting a tan, my parent being so obsessed with me going out in the sun so my skin can go a nice "chocolate-y" colour >> not sure if this is colourism, it just makes me feel gross << + more) and just straight up racism from peers (the n word, "half breed")
And it just makes me feel insecure, it makes me feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I've had white folks come up to me and literally compared their holiday tan to my natural skin and say, "I'm darker than you :)" and it makes me feel horrible. 'White-Passing' has the same effect, it makes me feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't want to be excluded from my community because I don't look the way you think I should.
'White-Passing' also feels erasive. why does the dark/light-ness of my skin mean I'm any different from you? the colour of my skin doesn't mean I haven't gone through the same struggles as you. the colour of my skin doesn't mean I haven't experienced the same systematic racism as you. the colour of my skin doesn't mean I'm any less than you.
and it's even worse in online queer bipoc communities. "yeah, we're inclusive of everyone's gender, orientation or overall identity! oh, except if your white passing.. this community just for black passing people :/"
Okay, rant over. Here's my chronically online take:
While I understand why 'xyz-passing' is used, I strongly believe that it should be a term used by an individual to proudly celebrate their own identity. Not a term forced on them by other people. Not a term used to exclude other people. It just makes some people feel like shit. It makes some people feel lost in themselves. I can't tell you how many identity crisises I've experienced solely because of what other people have said to me about MY identity. Please stop.
My Jade (money tree) succulent recently developed root rot, and I had to remove two other offsets from the soil. But one is completely fine. No squishiness, no powdery mildew/mold. It looks fine.
someone on another post recommended that I remove it from the soil along with all the roots, let it callus and then repot. do you agree that would be a good idea?
i recently had the most unique episode and I haven't had a major dissociative episode for almost two weeks.
when it happened, it was completely different to the normal ones I experience. i usually experience minor derealization and emotional numbing.
grounding didn't work. it was like i wasn't in control of anything. it felt like my body wasn't my own. my body was moving and I was speaking but I wasn't? I could feel my limbs moving, I wasn't in control of it? I could hear myself speaking but again I wasn't in control of it. It was like I was just there.
it makes me feel ill.
the only thing that I can think of that triggered it was strong emotions, but even this wasn't my normal. if I get really strong emotions or whatever you get the point.
it went dark, so I can only assume that it had lasted a few hours long. It lasted. it was there. it felt like I was possessed I hate it. I don't understand it.
and I just.. my brain did a force reset. I don't want to talk about that. anywayo, then it was something else, and weirder. it still wasn't myself? I don't know.. I don't remember how I came back to normal, but it was gradual. not like the force reset. and it was so weird. I was there? but I wasn't? so who was?? what was?? it wasn't fucking me?? I don't understand and I want to cry.
some form of dissociation I'm guessing. I really haven't done as much research as I should do. is there absolutely anything that can be done about this, I seriously never want to experience that ever again.
I'm not diagnosed with anything on the dissociative spectrum, I am diagnosed with cPTSD.
All of the people I have 'befriended', all of the partners I've had have been basically forced into an environment with me. It wasn't formed off mutual connection and it never grew from that.
When I'm regularly seeing people or if I share a living space with someone, I tend to fawn around them. I'll indulge in them and I guess mirror them as a person. Which is a thing I've recently noticed that I tend to do and have done for a long time.
Anyways, when the thing that has been the reason we stayed close has ended (eg. a hospital stay, a living arrangement, etc), I just.. leave.
I've been friends with someone through school for over 8 years now, but now that it's ending I just... don't feel anything. I don't care. I feel nothing towards them. It's like it was all pointless. I don't understand. Well I do, it's apart of cptsd. But fuck, I hate this.
I have some questions about it. Having regular CAMHS therapy wasn't working for me, so I am going to request to switch to trauma therapy instead since I have PTSD and I believe my mental health stems from those issues.
If I'm being honest, my experience with CAMHS hasn't been... great as a whole. It would be helpful if someone who has been through CAMHS' trauma therapy would be willing to talk about their experience and if it's any better/worse compared to other CAMHS therapies.
Just to clarify, I'm not asking to speak with someone who provides trauma therapy. I mean someone who has been through the experience as a child/adolescent.