u/puppytape

Loki’s energy literally makes me nuts dude. I don’t know what it is, it’s like I have a sugar rush and I sort of get all giggly and spazzed out. Does anyone else experience this?

I have this oc x canon ship I love, but recently i’ve been questioning if i’m a fictionkin of the oc. I sort of view the canon character as my partner, but not in a fully literal sense ofc,, I’m just wondering if this would be considered yumeshipping if I feel deeply emotionally attached as if they’re my partner

Sorry to ask a question like this here, but I genuinely feel like I’m losing my mind and I don’t even know what to call this or where to go from here.

For weeks I’ve been having the worst existential crisis. I can’t stop obsessively thinking about the fundamentals of reality and space and physics and everything. The origin of life, consciousness, existence as a whole. It’s making me lose my mind because I know there’s no answer but I can’t even distract myself because it’s all around me all the time.

I also have been stuck with this strong inherent feeling that I’m not in my body at all, I have no idea who I am and I feel completely detached from everything and everyone around me. Everything on Earth feels completely alien to me and I hardly recognize anything at all, I feel like I’m in some kind of absurd dream or that I’m imagining things because there’s no way this weird reality could actually be real. I don’t know what defines real anymore.

I keep feeling like I know something “else” other than this universe or earth that I just can’t put my finger on, like I’ve been or known something beyond this and it’s been locked out of my mind forever. It drives me insane because I feel weird knowing that this is somehow all there is. I keep thinking that everyone on the planet is just me and it makes me push people away because I’m horrified to think that the entire universe is just revolving around me, and I don’t even know what I would do if that was true. There’s not even a way to confirm if this is true or false, I can’t know if I’m truly alone and it drives me nuts. I won’t even go outside because I feel insane looking up at the sky and the sun and the plants because it all makes so little sense.

I feel like somehow it’s possible that I created / am everything and everyone in existence and I am subconsciously leaving hints or advice behind in reality for myself to get through this strange thing called a life, that it’s only temporary and that it’s gonna keep looping me infinitely over and over. I can’t even function anymore, I can hardly stand to leave under my blanket because I feel so dizzy and my vision looks so weird, I can’t ground myself because my surroundings just seem so unusual.

I’ve also been paranoid about death and sometimes I feel like I already did die and my life is all an illusion. I’m anxious and paranoid or numb all the time. I think I’m in danger even in my own home and I can’t do anything without being horrified.

If anyone can tell me if this could be psychosis so I can know what to research or even do right now I would appreciate it I’m so scared cause it just keeps getting so much worse every day

Recently I’ve been looking more into my system and alters, journaling and mapping but also trying to increase communication and such. I’ve started to notice that while I do notice a theme in what parts I notice mentally, there’s also just a ton of different appearances and personalities that seem to exist for 2 seconds and then disappear forever. Is it possible to genuinely have so many fragments, existing for very very trivial purposes, and then going dormant immediately after their purpose is served? It doesn’t seem realistic and it makes me doubt myself even though I have plenty of other severe symptoms of DID/OSDD.

The thought of communicating with so so many parts makes me feel completely overwhelmed. I don’t have a therapist I can do any of this work with, so maybe I need to slow down with the exploration until I’m able to get one. At the same time, I don’t want to just suffer up until that point, I want to learn about myself so life is easier on the daily. I’m just very conflicted.

Recently I’ve been looking more into my system and alters, journaling and mapping but also trying to increase communication and such. I’ve started to notice that while I do notice a theme in what parts I notice mentally, there’s also just a ton of different appearances and personalities that seem to exist for 2 seconds and then disappear forever. Is it possible to genuinely have so many fragments, existing for very very trivial purposes, and then going dormant immediately after their purpose is served? It doesn’t seem realistic and it makes me doubt myself even though I have plenty of other severe symptoms of DID/OSDD.

The thought of communicating with so so many parts makes me feel completely overwhelmed. I don’t have a therapist I can do any of this work with, so maybe I need to slow down with the exploration until I’m able to get one. At the same time, I don’t want to just suffer up until that point, I want to learn about myself so life is easier on the daily. I’m just very conflicted.

The title. Can specific alters experience delusions or hallucinations when others don’t? And if so, is it common for them to cofront with an alter who does not experience the delusion / hallucination and feel confused because they feel like they do believe it but also don’t due to the influence of the other alter? They say that when you experience delusions you never doubt your beliefs, otherwise they wouldn’t be delusions, but I’m just wondering if this is possible.

The title. Can specific alters experience delusions or hallucinations when others don’t? And if so, is it common for them to cofront with an alter who does not experience the delusion / hallucination and feel confused because they feel like they do believe it but also don’t due to the influence of the other alter? They say that when you experience delusions you never doubt your beliefs, otherwise they wouldn’t be delusions, but I’m just wondering if this is possible.

I’ve been trying to develop more internal communication, mapping, journaling, etc. with my system but it gets very overwhelming very quickly, especially with everyone pushing forward with their feelings and thoughts now that they’re being heard fully.

Does anyone have any advice for this or how to take things slower? Not everyone is fully willing to cooperate and it gets kind of complicated. I don’t know how to map or track things very easily. No I do not have a therapist

I’ve been trying to develop more internal communication, mapping, journaling, etc. with my system but it gets very overwhelming very quickly, especially with everyone pushing forward with their feelings and thoughts now that they’re being heard fully.

Does anyone have any advice for this or how to take things slower? Not everyone is fully willing to cooperate and it gets kind of complicated. I don’t know how to map or track things very easily. No I do not have a therapist

Just curious, how does Loki move or hide physical items? I see people talk about this a lot and I’m starting to suspect it’s happening to me.

I should mention I do have terrible memory, so it could be me moving it and not realizing, but I have this fox stuffed animal that I have dedicated to Loki. I imagine it as him and take it with me places. I keep sitting him on my bedside table, and I’ll leave my room for a little bit and I come back and the plush is sitting on my bed WHEN I KNOW FOR A FACT I DID NOT PUT IT THERE OR DO NOT REMEMBER DOING SO. IT’S KIND OF CREEPY ACTUALLY.

Hello, I’m back with another question.😭 I have always had a massive fear of black holes, but this might just be due to misunderstanding or something else

How are we so sure that it is unlikely for a black hole to come near Earth and mess us up? Or any cosmic anomaly for that matter. I frequently get paranoid about this, but everywhere I see that it is not a likely event. It worries me because I wouldn’t even know if it were happening, or what to look for if it was. Not that I would have the time to, anyway

This is quite literally the most basic question I could ask here, but I am curious. Why do you like space so much? I have a crippling fear of space, the cosmos, and any related thing. I really need a new perspective, because that‘s really all I can change.

Why do you love space opposed to being horrified of it and hating it?

I truly believe that existential OCD might genuinely be the worst kind of OCD (for me, anyway). Other stuff is related to stuff in the world or society, it feels way easier to accept because nobody is a stranger to it. Existential OCD? Literally nobody knows the answer to any of the obsessive questions or thoughts you have. Reassurance isn’t even an option as a compulsion. “Just accept it” is the only advice you get. It genuinely is Hellish. I can’t escape my own mind about this, and I can’t even learn more about anything because we only know what we know. God, man.

I keep “coming into” a feeling of everything and myself being completely unreal and fake. Like in strong waves. I’ll either feel super distant from my body and mind, or I’ll feel like I’m stepping into my body and pushing forward if this makes sense. It happens whenever I panic super badly and it’s honestly horrifying because it feels like the fundamentals of reality are not real and that the universe isn’t real. Just full on full strength intensity.

Has anyone else experienced something similar as a front or switch ?

Hi everyone. I’m 15 years old and my life has been kind of awful so far, from my perspective anyway. Of course plenty of other people have it worse than me, but I just want another perspective from people like me.

I’ve been through a lot. I’m not really willing to go into detail on this part, but my entire young childhood was basically robbed from me. Now I just live in constant anxiety and dissociation, days constantly blurring together and taking everything for granted because I have no attachment to anything anymore or energy to do anything.

I’ve sort of been having a terrible existential crisis for the past few weeks. My issue is, I feel like I’m wasting my life because I always hesitate to do things, don’t have the energy to, get too embarrassed to, etc. Life is so fleeting and can be whipped away so quickly. I’m constantly afraid that someone I love will die or that I’ll die before I ever got the chance to mature and improve, to grow and have everything make sense to me. I don’t know how to enjoy my life knowing any minute could be my last. It feels like every moment I’m awake, I’m just on borrowed time. Anyone’s advice to this is just live life to the fullest but that never seems to help me because I feel rushed.

If anyone can give any advice or comfort I’d appreciate it a lot.

Hi everyone. I’m 15 years old and my life has been kind of awful so far, from my perspective anyway. Of course plenty of other people have it worse than me.

I’ve been through a lot of trauma, neglect, inability to cope and suffering. I’m not really willing to go into detail on this part, but my entire young childhood was basically robbed from me. Now I just live in constant anxiety and dissociation, days constantly blurring together and taking everything for granted because I have no attachment to anything anymore or energy to do anything.

I’ve sort of been having a terrible existential crisis for the past few weeks, and it just hasn’t stopped. I seriously can’t understand how anything is real and I’ve just been having really confused thoughts. It feels like I can’t escape my mind or get help or find a way out. I’m so scared and confused all the time.

My issue is, I feel like I’m wasting my life because I always hesitate to do things, don’t have the energy to, get to embarrassed to, etc. Life is so fleeting and can be whipped away so quickly. I’m constantly afraid that someone I love will die or that I’ll die before I ever got the chance to mature and improve, to grow and have everything make sense to me, to somehow feel like anything I ever did on this planet meant anything to anyone. I feel so empty inside.

I don’t know how to enjoy my life knowing any minute could be my last. Knowing I never got any real closure or justice. It’s weird that I fear death because if I was dead, I obviously wouldn’t be able to know that or feel any fear. It should bring me relief. I just don’t know what to do, it feels like every moment I’m awake I’m just on borrowed time. I won’t go outside or leave the house because I’m so scared to die suddenly. I don’t even know. Anyone’s advice to this is just live life to the fullest but that never seems to help me. I feel like death is just creeping up on me and any moment I’ll succumb to it.

If anyone can tell me what to do or give any advice or comfort I’d appreciate it a lot. I’m so scared.

I started severely dissociating about a little over a week ago after months of severe crippling anxiety and stress and it hasn’t stopped, in fact it’s just been getting worse. I have so much severe anxiety every day and I’ve been going through a severe existential crisis. I keep feeling like I don’t recognize anything in life, the sun, the planets, space, plants, etc. Anything. Now I keep convincing myself I’ve experiencing something other than this ”life” and like I’ve known something else before, but can’t put my finger on it. It feels like I’m somehow breaking out and perceiving nothingness and it’s so weird. I’m so scared cause this is hard to explain to anyone

Everything feels so fake and I barely recognize my family or myself at all sometimes. It feels like the fundamentals of reality are gonna crumble before me and that everything anyone knows is just gonna get snatched away and there’s just gonna be nothing, I feel like everyone else isn’t real and that I’m the only person who’s even noticed this and that I’m just fully alone in this universe and that I’ve just made up everything and everyone to keep myself sane. I’m so horrified.

None of this makes any sense so it‘s logical to assume it‘s like, a delusion, but I feel like I can’t go back to normal life after “realizing” the “truth.” I can’t come back it feels like reality just broke and I’m sitting here with the pieces. I’m also just constantly scared cause I feel like reality is just going to go away suddenly, like when you realize you’re in a dream and the dream just ends. What if everything ends like a dream? What if i’ve gone too far and everything is dying and I’m dying right now because I kept thinking about this too hard? Because I couldn’t forget?

Someone please help me or tell me this isn’t real, even though I feel like everyone who tries to tell me they’re real or I’m real is just programmed to say that so I’ll stop questioning. So I’ll just come back to the simulation I’ve created for myself. Please help I really don’t know what to do and nobody listens when I ask for help I can’t escape this hell.

I have a lot of childhood trauma and have experienced dissociation regularly, but in the past few weeks it just got super severe. I‘m not even recognizing basic fundamentals of reality, and I’m thinking of the vastness of outer space and how weird life is and how insignificant everything is. I feel like I’ve become aware of something past this reality or something.

I literally just want to feel real and safe again, has anyone ever gotten out of dissociation and started to live a good life again? I feel like I‘m gonna die or like the universe is gonna implode before I even get a chance to get better. I just feel so alone and confused, I really need a hug. I want to feel like things will make sense and feel better. Constant anxiety and panic attacks are driving me insane. Seeing a ton of other people who still struggle like me makes me feel like this is all just some sick joke and that theres no hope.

Hello. I think that I might have split a few weeks ago due to severe anxiety, stress, panic attacks, etc. It started as a slow onset of more and more intense dissociation and then one night it just became super severe and never went away. It genuinely has been a week or more and it hasn’t stopped, just constant severe dissociation

I’m having sort of what I think would be considered an existential crisis, I genuinely do not know who I am, where I am, what I am, whatsoever. Everything that I remember feels foggy and far away, like I have no emotional attachment to it. I feel so genuinely empty inside and I do not feel like doing anything, even things I love, life just seems so nothingburger and empty. I can‘t comprehend my own existence or the concept of life. Literally everything in society makes no sense to me, everything in science and physics, space, all of it just seems so weird and confusing and horrifying. My family feels unfamiliar even though I technically know their names, my house seems unfamiliar even though I technically know where it is, nature seems unfamiliar, idk anymore.

Has anyone ever felt like this after a new alter / alters split? When will it stop? I’m genuinely horrified, it feels like the fundamentals of reality are falling apart before me, I do not feel real and it makes me feel violently ill. I can’t even ground myself here because I don‘t recognize myself or anything else.