u/softwolfy

NO IT'S NOT IT'S CALLED YOU MADE IT UP AND WHEN I ASK WHY YOU DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER BC IT'S MADE UP

LIFE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY. LIFE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE CRUEL OR UNFAIR. EVEN IF IT IS, YOU DON'T HAVE TO ADD TO IT. YOU CAN CHOOSE HOW YOU ACT!!! YOU CAN CHANGE YOIRSELF. YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR ACTIONS AND REACTIONS AND LISTEN TO PEOPLE AND TREAT THEM KINDLY!!!

RAHAHHHHHHHHHHHH (crawling darkly) (screaming) (twisted) (crawling darkly) (screaming) (twisting) (crawling darkly) (screaming) (crawling) (twisting) (splitting) (creeping darkly) (tumbling) (crawling violently) (twisting) (convulsing) (roaring) (creeping) (growling sinisterly) (crawling) (splitting) (walking ashore) (twisting) (convulsing) (creeping) (walking twisted) (attack regardless of target)

Like the second you do something slightly 'unusual' with your fashion, hair, habits and hobbies, way you talk or walk, literally anything it's like you've given the world permission to chew you to bits

And when you're autistic and people sniff it out (they always sniff it out) you can just see this idk glimmer in their eyes when they realise maybe they can take advantage of you or make fun of you or make you a 'pet friend' if you get me

I just wanna know

WHY

What's the harm of being different?? Why are people so afraid??

Idk it bums me out knowing there could be so much cool fashion and hobbies and other stuff out there if people weren't so scared of being different. Then again I've known some people who express they wish they could be as carefree as me with my being weird (I just can't mask well lowkey) and then next minute they're making fun of someone else for daring to be different. Like dawg you are the people you're afraid of. Just stop making fun of people and then there will be less people doing that and soon we will all be able to have fun. EZ

I had to get three crowns today at the dentist :,))

Are the nametags good? Not really, it's hard to keep the stamper in place while I smack it with the hammer LOL and then it doesn't get deep enough in some places to hold paint and etc etc. Did it help distract me from 3/4 quadrants of my mouth, including both on the bottom so my tongue was gone, being numb and then hurting when the numbing wore off? Yes. So altogether worth it imo :)

But anyway I'm happy they both have nametags now :D Jackdaw's has some charms on it too, but it'd be hard to put charms on Finch's. His collar has no D-ring so I had to attach it via the regular keyring, and the charms would be stacked behind or in front instead of beside it like Jackdaw's. Besides, I think minimalism fits him a little better c: Jackdaw is definitely more of a maximalist

These are my ESSAs, Jackdaw (collie) and Finch (wolf)! Jackdaw is outgoing and confident, and a little proud. He's Finch's big brother. Finch is more timid and gentle, and he looks up to Jackdaw (which he appreciates bc he's not too happy that his little brother is bigger than him).

I love to hear about peoples plushie personalities, feel free to introduce/talk about yours too! :D

Idek how to describe it but they feel like. Coated. And they don't feel right til washed. I can feel the unwashedness. My family thinks I'm nuts they're like "I wear clothes right after buying! Who washes stuff first?" And they're always amazed I can tell it hasn't been washed when they give me smth evn with the tags off.

I can FEEL IT

Also I feel like they're the weird ones. Who buys clothes countless people might've tried on and doesn't wash them??

I want to post some too let's share <3

Finch (left) may be a wolf, but he's a little timid! He may look fearsome with his spiky collar, but he's a gentle critter at heart. He wants to learn everything he can about being an ESSA from his big brother, Jackdaw!

Jackdaw (right) may be a little bitter about his new little brother being bigger than him and he might be overcompensating a bit... but he still loves him :) and Finch doesn't even pay attention to Jackdaw's size with his bold personality and confidence!

(Yes I do give all my plushies (esp ESSAs) personalities and roles how could you tell? /silly)

Leaning towards Kestrel but I'm still torn! I like ospreys to represent him better (I imagine him to be a coastal wolf) but I feel like kestrel as a name rolls off the tongue better... or maybe Osprey wouldn't be so bad.

Right now his only gear is this spiked collar I had from another plush, but I kinda want to get one in brown bc I think he would look good with natural colors. He's currently sharing a vest with Jackdaw (Jackdaw's gear is black, so it looks good w this collar) for if I took him out, but I think he'd look good with camo gear for when I get him his own stuff! I've been trying to bond with him before going all out on his gear, but dressing my plushies up helps me bond w them actually :P it's why I like to gear up Jackdaw so much. So I'm thiiiinking camo, but I dunno, what color vest do you think would look good on him? I finally have access to my sewing machine again so maybe I could even make a custom one :D

I checked the ingredience(tm) again and there is STILL CANE SUGAR IN THIS RECIPE!!! WHY DID YOU PUT SWEETENER IN IT TOO?? IT ALREADY HAS SUGAR!!! 12g OF SUGAR FOR A 330ml DRINK IS PLENTY WHY IS THERE MONKFRUIT IN HERE!?? DID YOU DO THIS JUST TO MAKE IT TASTE DISGUSTING AND GIVE ME A HEADACHE AND MAKE ME SICK???

They did this to spite me personally I know it /j

Forgort monkfruit gives me a headache on top of messing w my stomach I honestly thought I would just conquer it or I was being too picky when I stopped drinking it after the recipe change

Nah

I HATE MONKFRUIT I HATE STEVIA I HATE SWEETENERS I HATE UNDISCLOSED FORMULA CHANGES TO MY SAFE FOODS/ITEMS I HATE SEEING 'new and improved!' STICKERS ON THINGS I LOVE *insert AM monologue*

I love getting all clean n cozy and tucking into bed, I love my glow in the dark stars on my ceiling, and I love cuddling up w my plushies and dozing off, hopefully to have nice dreams <3

Photo of my fav after-bathtime products and my bunny friend c: I love those cute agere pics on pinterest so I wanted to try taking one myself :P but I feel like I placed everything so randomly, I really wanted to show off my bunny's ears XD someday I'll take aesthetic photos!

(Also I haven't tried the new formula for this lotion yet I hope it doesn't mess w my sensitive skin ;u; why do they always gotta change my favorite stuff)

EVERYTHING I LOVE HAS BEEN INFESTED WITH DROPSHIPPING

Etsy, where I used to get cute handmade stuff? DROPSHIPPING. AND they always ignore my reports and are like ummm we found nothing wrong with this storefront 🤓👆 DAWG I LINKED THE ALIEXPRESS LISTING FOR THAT EXACT PRODUCT IN MY REPORT

Farmer's market/craft show? DROPSHIPPING and also cheap 3D printed mass produced resin pyramid and AI slop

Comic con? DROPSHIPPINGGGGGG and AI slop taking up valuable booth space that real artists could use!!!!

I HATE IT I HATE IT I've even seen people defend it like 'eermmmmm they're just being smart and running a business you're just jealous' I'M NOT THEY'RE SCAMMING PEOPLE THIS IS NOT AN OK WAY TO MAKE MONEY IDC IF THEY'RE JUST 'CHASING THE BAG' IDC. IT'S NOT KIND TO YOUR FELLOWS TO SCAM THEM. I DO NOT CAAARE ABT THE MONEY YOU ARE SCAMMING PEOPLE IT'S NOT RIGHT.

Ain't right man.

I have more wolves >:3 but here's a few of my favorite to cuddle with!

From left to right:

Douglas Smoke Wolf (custom eyes)

BAB WWF Gray Wolf

Snughouls Gutsy Were

Circus Sweeties Lupin Licorice

Jellycat Wilf Wolf

Charlie Bears Timber Wolf

I feel like the same generation that drilled into little me to not even give your MONTH of birth online now just feeds family photos into AI slop machines.

Also I see so many posts everywhere but I feel like especially reddit where the person opens up with their exact age, gender, and list of diagnoses and like medications and dosages even if it has nothing to do with their post. Is internet safety dead. Does it even matter anymore. Like I know every organization who wants to know my every detail has it but

I don't. GET IT. I see KIDS doing this. Whenever I see people slapping 'MINOR, ADULTS DNI' on their profile I'm like dawg you just put up a big giant 'groom me I am underage' sign. The people that warning is for will not listen to it. Idk idk idk when did they stop teaching internet safety, and shouldn't parents have taken up the charge of doing so? Had kids on roblox talking abt their age and I said hey you guys really shouldn't be saying that stuff on here creeps could use it against you. They saw no problem w it. When I was their age people told me I'd get omega uber kidnapped if I even used a nickname close to my name on the internet. Now, kids I can excuse, they don't know better but why are grown adults giving their entire medical background on a random post unrelated to it. I. Don't know. I took one cyb sec class (just doxxed myself there 😔 /j (about my paranoia of any potentially identifying info online)) and nevr saw computers the same.

Like I get it. They already have our info. But at least TRY surely at least don't post publically your entire medicine cabinet + location + gender + age you are HIPAA violating yourself. These posts are just gigantic HIPAA violations. Posted for free for anyone who wants it. When it's info related to the post I get it but sometimes people just give a QRD of their entire life before asking a random question.

I briefly explored medicine as a career and also cyber security so maybe that combo is making me paranoid but I CAN'T be the ONLY oneweirded out by how common it's become to just throw as much personal info as possible online!! I know corps like facebook want it which is why I don't use facebook but why are you borderline doxxing yourself on reddit where you can just make an email and be relatively anonymous </3

Maybe it's just my autism wanting to stick to rigid online safety rules that I guess are outdated. Maybe I'm just a hater fr. Idk. I am tired goodnight

I just got back from the dentist and he told me my last dentist did some fillings so badly (one fell out, which is why I was at the dentist) that he just wants to crown the tooth bc trying to re-fill it would just damage them more

But I've never gotten crowns before, only fillings and the process of getting a crown sounds kinda scary :( maybe it's just that it takes two appointments to do it idk it's kinda freaking me out. Has anyone had one before and how did it go?

Also Jackdaw photo tax. I didn't take him to the dentist bc I was too shy and it was just to look at my teeth but I might need to take him with me for those. He's cheering me up rn luv you Jackdaw <3 almost cried at that appointment hearing how much work they wanted to do to me smh smh. I've had my teeth messed up by dentists doing nonsense just for extra money before so I'm always really wary and feel like they don't actually want to help me idk dentist is just not a good place to be for me

I just want my nails to look like I dipped them in static >:)

Old pic of BKL A Father's Love mani from a long time ago, which scratches the itch a bit when velvetized (pointer and pinkie)

I finally gave him some markings! I'll post a few more photos too. It took a while, but I'm really happy with how he turned out!

Feel free to ask any questions, too!

Photo 1: warning

Photo 2: tools of the trade

Photo 3: find a seam on your plushie where you can flip the head inside out- this is on the neck, so I can easily access just his head. Pull at the seams until you see the little threads. Using your seam ripper, rip a hole open

Photo 4: my access point. Start unstuffing the head. While you're doing this, you may feel threads inside- this is thread sculpting, to shape the face. Don't worry about it, but don't go in and cut it. Just unstuff for now

Photo 5: I've flipped his head inside out to access the back of the eyes. While your hole may have been big enough for unstuffing, you may need to make it bigger to flip the head out. This is a hard step. I like to grab the nose, or outermost part of the head, from the inside and start pulling and pushing/folding with my other hand. You'll get it eventually. Now you may see the thread sculpting- don't cut (unless you want to do your own thread sculpting or don't want it at all. It's your plushie to customize!)

Photo 6: the navy dot is a felt stabilizer to keep the hole for the eye from ripping. Try not to cut this. Douglas is STRONG on safety eyes though, and the washer (red dot) will likely be glued to it. I use the bent nose pliers to try and unstick them. The orange dot is the eye stem.

Photo 7: using my cutting pliers, I've cut away the washer. I used the grabbing and bent nose pliers to unstick it from the felt stabilizer. I also had to cut around the stem, as the washer was glued to the stem after being put through. Once it was wiggly I used the grabbing pliers to pull it apart. This takes a lot of patience and time btw so be prepared :,) Then I push the stem and the eye comes out. Note: if you have a dremel, this would probably cut the time of this process to a quarter lol

Photo 8: eyes and cut washer

I didn't take a pic of putting the eyes in, but you just flip the head back out, put them in, flip the head inside out again, and secure the backing. I like to secure the backing loosely when it's inside out, then flip and secure them to my liking- not too tight to mess with the fabric, but not too loose to be wiggly

Photo 9: now restuff and sew up. Though the hole starts at the red line, I started sewing inside at the teal dot. This is just to make sure it's secure and to hide the tail of the yarn. I sewed along the seam that's already there

Photo 10: ladder stitch

Photo 11: brush/pull the fur back so it isn't in the seams, then pull tight! Faux fur is very forgiving and hides even messy seams. Tie a knot, stick needle thru plush to hide tail, cut thread. Run your finger across the seam- if you feel any holes or can stick a finger in part of it, ladder stitch again or just stitch up that bit. Make sure no stuffing will fall out. If it's small enough it's probably fine but it bugs me when that happens. It just means the spaces between your stitches were too big.

Photo 12: all done! Now your beautiful plush can have homophobia, too 💛💚 /ref