u/voyager_9999

What would you change? how would you make the drones fun to fight? any extra features you'd like to see in the game?

I had a previous identity online, and i have never gotten so much attention in my life.

Everyone liked me, i had the world spinning on my thumb.

Its all gone now, buried deep underground, never to be revived.

Now i have tried to start over, but i miss the unconditional attention and support.

I have only one person in my life, my lover. Outside of him i have no one and nothing.

Im so incredibly alone in this world, almost like its meant to be.

Im so depressed, im so scared.

My life is without much joy and with no thrills.

There is nothing here for me.

I am stuck in my room to fester in my thoughts.

Every generation has said this, but it appears that the world is in the worst state its ever been, especially now that everyone has access to everyone else.

I wonder how exaggerated the internet has made this seem, believe me when i tell you i do not go outside. If it werent for the internet, I would have no knowledge on anything going on out there.

And why should i go out? I live in an actual shithole 3rd world country i despise.

I also lack empathy, i have no regard for the people around me, including my family, I dont see them as human, below me, filth.

I have a big issue with ego.

I have never had a friend IRL in my whole life. Im very isolated.

I get the feeling we're living in the end times, there isnt much time left.

I cope with all this by not caring.

its 1am.

Theres nothing here for me.

Im on Cachy, i cant do a thing without sfm crashing.

I was thinking of dual booting it with a debloated windows 11.

Does anyone else have a miserable experience with sfm on linux?

I want to do things, I want to be good at 3d modeling, writing, progamming, game development. I want to create things.

I enjoy the creative process but i hate having to learn things, this is because i have to watch youtube videos to learn and i cant multitask while doing that.

I have the bad habit of needing a youtube video on another screen while doing whatever, even when playing video games.

I only try to learn when the motivation strikes which doesnt happen often enough, and i barely work for an hour at a time if that.

I have nothing to force me to work, its all voluntarily.

I also have depression and autism, alongside adhd of course. None of this helps my case.

I feel a bit lost, I havent had access to my ritalin in a while. Even with ritalin, It doesnt really help much, maybe because its prolonged release instead of immediate.

Im rambling, its 6am and i slept for 4 hours.

after 2 years of trying to make friends off of 4chan, i have nothing to show for it. I will try reddit.

My only interests are artistic, I am amateur artist, i exclusively draw anime girls. Very rarely do i paint. Im trying to get into 3d modelling and animation but its very difficult. I have a slight interest in programming but its also a hard process that requires much patience.

please dont be a dry texter.

I live a very boring life, i do nothing all day every day, its miserable.

I also never get offended, if thats of any note.

i dont own many multiplayer games.