im a bit of a larper, i've never used a window manager before, too stuck with desktop environments, quite hard to get used to.
This is also gentoo based, so thats been fun, i spent an hour trying to get into a matrix chat room to no success, lol.
My trackpad doesnt work and i need to rely on a usb mouse.
can you tell I've never made an edit before?
I may or may not be making a YouTube video on TempleOS, thought I'd use this as the intro.
much to do.
I used a 3d model I posed as a reference.
I aim to draw things like this with nothing but mental imaging.
this here is a bottom-up drawing I attempted to make, generally, there are some perspective and anatomy issues, and im pretty unsure on how to progress from here.
any help is appreciated.
I have never made music before. I believe something else should happen by the 2nd loop.
obviously the drums cant repeat forever, I want them to stop for a bit after the second loop.
perhaps a melody? unsure what would fit the style of music im going for.
I really like gain and noise.
I want to make allllll my own stuff, so I made my own image loader, right now it only works with BMP images whos height and width are divisible by 4, due to padding and such.
learning OpenGl has been pretty fun!!!
the jumpstart sawblade nailgun.
I'm well aware many classify it as the worst weapon in the game, but trust me, one full dose of those and a couple shotgun swaps and you've succesfully killed a Power in a couple seconds.
This thing works miracles, just use the default green and blue nail guns.
it works with mindflayers too.
I admit i have no real experience with any religion, I did not live in a religious household. The closest thing to this is that my country is of majority catholic.
But from the little i've seen, to my knowledge, all religion prohibits what you can do for pleasure, be it carnal, gastronomous or leisure.
Was it assumed that people have so poor self control that even light indulgence would lead to greater sins?
Title says it all really, I simply don't have it in me to care about others in any shape or form, seemingly no empathy.
This is something I would like to fix about myself, I have been alone my whole life and i simply cant see things outside my own lens.
Please acknowledge i am making an attempt to improve.
Context: I made a post asking about my line art and the general consensus was that it was bad.
I have been informed that my digital art relies far too heavily on "chicken scratch" which halts my improvement in art, I would say my traditional drawings have much cleaner line art, so I wonder if this criticism still applies. But I would like to hear your opinion.
Despite never trying it, i have a fear that my art would look really boring with clean lines, also i really like how the messy lines look.
Made it myself, but im unlikely to ever finish it.
I dont care about the people dying in a foreign country i will never meet nor have anything in common with, I dont care about the terrible thing that happened to that guy or group of people or what have you, it all means nothing to me.
People want us to be a hive mind and all collectively hate the big bad like that will do anything, recording yourself talking about said issue in your bedroom does nothing.
I see most people as sub human filth who are genuinely of no value to me, the world is overpopulated, is all life really that valuable?
I dont care that someone could use that logic to justify killing me, I have attempted suicide, they would spare me the effort of doing it myself.
I live in a 3rd world shithole, i would know if im surrounded by barbaric, hedonistic, loud and truly worthless people that i just cant get along with, I have seen it with my own eyes.
A concerning amount of people make fun of you if you try to see things with a philosophical lens, this is blatantly anti-intellectualism and everything just seems so bleak and pointless.
Either I am far too into my own head to see the big picture or im right and everyone else just doesnt get it.
How does one even go about fixing this? I am extremely isolated, I do nothing all day but lay in bed, my room is covered in trash, i am mentally ill, I feel hopeless, I worry i have been like this for too long and is now a permanent part of me.