u/what_freaking_ever

Call me jealous and bitter, it's probably true. But it irks me whenever someone makes weight loss sound so effortless, like "oh I just cut out soda and junk food" or "oh I just ate less and went on walks". Makes me feel like I am struggling very hard with something that comes effortlessly to others.

I have to count calories for every single tiny thing. I had to switch to fasting because somehow I am less hungry with it and get significantly less hunger pain. I am still hungry pretty often and still think about food, but at least it doesn't hurt. Mentally, it's extremely taxing and depressing. So it's very hard to not be bitter towards those who claim they casually lost a bunch of weight.

Kíváncsi vagyok hány embernek van még ilyen tapasztalata. Nálunk apám függött rá teljesen. Alig lehet hozzászólni, mert rögtön kommunikálja a chatgpt felé, majd azt válaszolja, hogy "a chatgpt azt mondta..."

Tegnap is sztorizgatás szintjén leírtam egy problémát (amit aztán sikerült megoldani, épp azt magyaráztam hogyan) és rögtön írta be a chatgpt-nek hogy vajon mi okozhatta a problémát. Ahelyett hogy velem beszélgetett volna. És természetesen azt se lehet neki elmagyarázni hogy nincs mindig igaza. De kiránduláson is elég sokat tolja, konkrétan sétálunk az erdőben és lemarad mert a chatgpt-nek írogat. Ti ismertek hasonlót, vagy csak engem sújtottak ezzel?

Rengeteg ilyen párkapcsolatot láttam már, amiben állandóan azzal viccelődnek hogy a másik milyen idegesítő meg hülye és mennyire utálják egymást. Pl. "azt hittem ide se érünk ám, annyit sminkelte magát reggel. Pedig szerintem még rosszabbul nézett ki utána mint előtte." "Ahj már, akkora egy pöcs vagy." "De nem akkora mint te." És ezen röhögnek, hogy ilyeneket mondogatnak egymásnak/egymásról. És akkor arról még ne is beszéljünk mikor a nő izomból üti a pasit, aki közben jót röhög rajta.

Most tényleg én vagyok snowflake, amiért nekem ez nem férne bele?

I feel like I naturally run on 10% compared to other people and they don't like that. I don't have enough things to say, I cannot be silly and random and I am so monotone. Boosting any of these things (which are all problems in their own right already) takes huge effort and burns up my energy so quickly.

People only want to be around my masked version and I am so extremely exhausted. I just don't have it in me anymore. I don't want to talk constantly, I don't want to smile when I don't feel like it, I don't want to watch my tone. I'm starting to think I actually hate socializing.

There, I said it. Obviously I am talking about adults here (I can excuse a minor's bad decisions) who are living in places where abortion is accessible and don't have an abusive partner who would stop them.

There are so many sob stories from women who gave birth into absolute misery, no money, no job on either side, no stable living circumstances, nothing. Just because they wanted a cute baby to look at. And then they complain about how horrible their life is. It's sooooo fucking hard for me to feel any sympathy for these people. They intentionally brought an innocent baby into utter misery and now they're victimizing themselves.

And while then pregnant, they give the stupidest justifications, like "god will provide" and "it cannot rain forever". I physically cannot be around these people or I'm gonna seriously hurt some feelings.

"Period blood is natural, you shouldn't find it gross!" "Everyone should be fine with shit during anal, I mean where did you think you're putting your junk?" Etc etc. I cannot deal with these people anymore. I also don't think it's a macho move to be like this.

People are so extreme about this, it's insane. You're not allowed to find crying babies annoying, because you're labelled a monster and people will rant to you about how you're not entitled to a childfree world, you probably hate kids and you're a bitter ass anyways. It's like sticking your hand in the beehive, I swear to god. And it isn't just parents either, people in general act like you just said you want to kill puppies or something.

I get that you shouldn't be bullying the parents about it because they cannot help it most of the time, but saying you cannot even be annoyed without being a monster is insane to me.

Putting decide in quotation marks because I know the fears aren't going around making conscious decisions, but this was the best way I could put it.

I think tons of people are equally scared of multiple things that aren't necessarily connected, like the dark, parasites and heights. So why do they get sucked into a specific fear? Is it random? Or was it never really clarified?

Like wdym putting something INSIDE me?? In an organ mind you??? Would they stick it in my intestines too if they could?? I mean that's an organ too. "But that's what the vagina is for!" Idfc, nobody asked me if I want a hole inside me that allows people to literally enter my body. That's just body horror. Like just stop for a second and think of how gross that sentence sounds. I don't want anyone to masturbate with my insides thank you very much.

This goes for everything, from food to certain activities, I even experienced it with kinks. I hate how many people seemingly can't comprehend that others want and enjoy different things. No, you MUST be doing it wrong, if you just followed these steps then you would love it, because there's no way someone doesn't love the same things as them.

I don't get why "everyone has their own likes and dislikes" is a concept that's beyond the comprehension of so many people. And they're so weirdly insistent about it too, like you personally offended them.

They meow at the door. I get up and open it for them. I stand there waiting for them to leave so that I can close it and get back to my business. Then they just look at me like "man, I don't know.... I mean from this angle I might... But on second thought.. Yea I am going out.. No, wait, I am definitely staying here. Or am I? I dunno, I'm gonna walk around a bit in front of the open door to decide... HEY DON'T CLOSE THE DOOR *meowing resumes*".

Please, I'm too tired to put up with this.

I slept almost 8 hours, but it feels like I haven't slept at all. I am very weak and whoozy, my eyes are puffy and achy. It's also so hard to comprehend what day it is and what I need to do today. Like a fever dream. Tho that might be because I didn't get to do anything fun yesterday, just go home, eat, sleep, wake up and leave again.

And this goes for every type of relationship, relatives, dating, friends, co-workers. Nobody gives a fuck that you're struggling, they probably don't even care about you as a person. They interact with you if you're entertaining enough.

I have a bunch of problems, including pretty severe ones and ever since I've learned to completely hide them and give off the "sweet bubbly girl" vibe, people suddenly want to talk to me. Because nobody wants anything to do with your nasty negative shit, they want you to make them laugh and feel good about themselves.

There are dozens of posts on this app about how people want to leave their "energy vampire" friend/partner because they "always ruin the mood with their moping". I've had a friend leave me over that too, in the past, and I learned my lesson. Everyone will deny this and tell me to go to therapy or whatever, but it's 100% true. People want to be entertained, not loved.

I mean excuse me, what -I cannot emphasize this enough- the FUCK you mean that I literally need this cream mankind made in its desperation, otherwise the GIGANTIC BALL OF FIRE might give me cancer and fucking kill me??? And we are completely powerless against it, the only thing we can do is keep making our little protective creams, because we also depend on the ball of fire for survival and it will outlive us by millions of years anyways??

And people are so chill about this, even being happy with their scented little sunscreen??? Excuse me?? I feel like I live in an episode of Welcome to Night Vale where everyone acts like this is just normal and we should all be totally chill about it. Well I am definitely not chill. Space is scary, the sun is scary and I don't trust anyone who doesn't think so at least a little bit.

I generally dgaf what people do in public as long as they're not obnoxious about it. If they want to kiss silently and sit in each other's lap on the bus, whatever. But when I am sitting in the university's public hall and across from me are two lovebirds who are making out and moaning so hard that they make me get up and leave before I get flashed, at that point I get annoyed. Like that's just uncomfortable. And if it happens on a bus then I cannot even get up and move.

Even if you don't actually plan to ride your bf there and then, I think it should be common sense to stop and take a breath when you get to the point where you're moaning loudly. In public. Idc how madly in love you are.

I mean from a game developer perspective, not a lore perspective. There must be some reason why they refuse to implement it (even tho they could just take the swimming stamina system from genshin). My more cynical answer would be so that they can sell abilities that can fly over the water, but surely that's not the full answer, right?? Right....????

Annyi embertől hallottam már ezt, hogy szóbeli vizsgán milyen könnyű átmenni, csak terelni kell a témát, meg hogy segítenek, mondanak olyan szavakat amikből el tudsz indulni, stb. Sokan váltig állítják hogy alig tanultak szóbelire aztán simán átmentek mindegyiken mert magabiztosan mondták a semmit.

Na nekem eddig egy szóbelim volt egyetemen, az úgy nézett ki hogy a vizsgáztató megnézte a papíromat amire jegyzeteltem, egy képletet kérdezett, majd mikor mondtam hogy nem tudom közölte hogy itt akkor neki nem is szabad többet kérdeznie (ergo direkt olyan kérdéssel indított amivel élből megbuktathatott), viszontlátásra.

Most csak nekem volt rossz tapasztalatom, vagy ez gyakoribb, mint ahogy azt el akarják hitetni a hallgatókkal?

Someone explain this to me, I am begging. I am so lost. I keep seeing people say "your looks don't matter, the most attractive thing about a person is their vibe". WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??? WHAT VIBE??? I genuinely have zero clue what people mean when they say this. People don't give me any "vibes". I cannot even tell what people mean when they say confidence makes you more attractive, because I cannot just look at someone and decide if they're confident or not.

This entire conversation makes zero sense to me.

I think they're boring, there's nothing fun about them and we get nothing out of pondering on them. Maybe some people can feel morally superior for a few seconds and that's all.

I'm talking about topics like the recent blue vs red button trend, or the trolley problem, or even those "what would you do if you found $10,000 on the ground" posts. I just don't care, none of those describe real problems, it's not an interesting conversation to me, hell I'd rather talk about the weather.

I would rather be talking about how we could solve real, existing problems if we had the means, because that can be productive. Debating a hypothetical scenario for hypothetical moral brownie points isn't productive, it's just boring.