u/Adept-Foot7692

This time I didn't quit just because I couldn't stop binge eating. I lost 11kg so far in 6 months (67kg--->56, 157cm)

What kept me overweight for so long was that I didn't try because I couldn't stop binging sometimes and I'd relapse. I thought to myself what's the point of eating healthy or moderately if Im going to ruin everything through binge at some point anyway.

But then something in me clicked and I started small, I thought okay I might still have huge binging periods but outside of those windows I will eat in a healthy small deficit and walk/move. So I did. I still had binge relapses, at first weekly, sometimes multiple days over 6k calories.

Still I stuck to it and over time managed to decrease binge calories, then decrease frequency and change habits. I still relapse and binge because its an emotional comfort thing in tough times and man my life gets tough. But it doesn't matter because I know how to get back. I dont restrict myself. I know whatever I eat will be my energy source for walking/dancing or whatever I choose to do that day.

I didn't think weightloss was an option if I still struggled with binge eating. Im so glad I didn't give up despite relapses and cravings, addiction even, I would still be overweight or maybe even heavier. So if you feel hopeless and want to quit because you relapse often due to binge eating, dont give up! It takes time to rewire old habits, replace them, minimize harm and so on. Keep at it

Personally I also eat in a very very small deficit, it takes longer this way but Im still losing fat so Im good.

I genuinely feel hopeless. I need money to heal enough to function. But I need to be well enough to make money in the first place.

The system leaves me.in poverty. They pretend I have a choice to work when really I can't work it doesn't work and its out of my control when the thing that disabled me happened when I was a powerless child over and over again. Now I can't partake in capitalism. Now Im left to take poverty and act grateful for less than minimum amount.

Poverty sing just lack of luxury, it's more labour to plan to budget to worry to stress to not be able to buy necessities.

I just am so sick and tired I didn't choose any of that bullshit.

I just binge on cucumbers, soups, teas, tomatoes, eggs, berries, plums, edemame, soybeans, and so on. I don't know if this is better but it helps me feel somehwat better about it.

I ate around 3k calories today due to binge most of which was eggs, edemame, fruit, vegetables and so on and still I feel empty.

From money, to health, to studies/school, to work, to function, to social life, to apperance. Not a single aspect has remained unstrained by this condition.

Chronic stress, dysregulation and severe trauma caused me to be dirtpoor at the age of 22, unable to work, having to beg social institutions for minimum money, can't finish school, can't run errands most days, chronic stress = exhaustion, physical health issues,, no sleep

It seems Im punished for suffering by institutions and the system because I dared to be a victim of abuse as a child and thus can't function as I should be able to.

It's funny I didn't choose any of that but they're treating me like Im in this state by choice making me go through even more stressed situations.

I can't win. If I try to work I get shit for my symptoms and not being able to surprise surprise function at said work due to literally being sick. If I dont go to work Im punished by poverty and tideous burocracy every few weeks where I get additionally triggered for needing financial aid. If I try to study I can't keep up or fiction (surprise) then Im punished with humilation trouble etc. If I dont study I'll be in this wheel of poverty.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME SERIOUSLY. I WAS BORN, TRAUMATIZED TILL MY BODY STARTED BREAKING AND MIND. NOW ITS ON ME TO DO SOMETHING WHILE ACTIVELY GETTING MORE SHIT FOR BEING IN THIS STATE?

I can't heal like this.

I've been doing intuitive somatic work since this year in may. I suffer from cptsd and it's disabling me in day to day life. I did somatic work for a few months, usually pretty long sessions, I had tremors that would last for several hours on end throughout the day and it felt great at first. Of course then at some point I had a pretty severe headache, sleep paralysis and so on so I figured I'd do it a few times a week instead of daily and took breaks.

The reason why I do it so much is because its the one thing that makes me conscious again, like if I dont do somatic exercise I just notice I feel like shit but can't release this shit feeling, I have tensions, something is bothering me which I can't access, anxiety and so on. The good news is since doing TRE and the more I do it the less anxiety or hypervigillance I have in day to day life. The only bad side effect is I AM paralyzingly exhausted. Like some days after big processing, I feel so tired all I can do is just lie on the couch half of the day, barely keeping eyes open.

If it came to me I could honestly cry and have cried multiple hours of the day. Idk what kind of fuck traumas I went through but often I'll feel like possessed and get the urge to walk around as if something is going to come up and then I blast out crying or crashing out.

I had a breakdown yesterday and then my body automatically did somatic shaking I felt better because I was so tense since weeks. But now the next day I had energy in the morning, I went for a three hour walk and felt very intensely focused on my inner feelings like usually I felt the urge to cry I shook/tremored a bit automatically and my spine adjusted it often happens automatically, now Im just extremely exhausted and I mean I can't rly do, I could still cry but dont but feel intense. Am I healing or damaging myself?

IM SO DONE! I HATE IT. I AM IN A BAD POSITION AND PEOPLE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME BECAUSE THEY HAVE SOMETHING I NEED SO THEY JUST DONT LISTEN WHEN I SET BOUNDARIES I HATE IT

I literally break down or get triggered every day because I go outside and people are just weird. For context I dress very plain (black shirt black pants) Im a short woman and I look somewhat slightly below average. I live in a big city. Im 22.

Some people just stare at me during metro rides and sigh or scoff or roll their eyes. Sometimes people say hi to me or smile, other times give me dirty looks. Sometimes people ask me for street information or strike conversation, other times they look at me nasty or walk so that I barely have space.

Sometimes young people (even my age) laugh or giggle when I pass by idk if its abt me but happens a lot just the moment I pass by. When I ask for something people react shocked or annoyed or sometimes nice.

The problem is nobody is consistent to me. My nervozs system is constantly on alert because I can't recognize a pattern of how people treat me.

Btw its not in my head even my brother told me people are very weird to me and friend when they're out with me

I see mixed content and opinions on this and as someone who struggled with 3 EDs and an alcoholism in the past I am not certain which path would fit me best.

I am struggling with binge eating and I dont know if its best to never buy trigger foods or to eat them daily like some advise says. If I dont buy trigger foods and avoid them for a good while like over a month my cravings lessen. I then feel very restricted and either binge eat to get revenge on the restriction or I go all the way and lean to the other side of ED and restrict further until it's unhealthy.

However if I do eat my trigger foods daily I just crave them more and eat even more and gain weight and then eat more and crave even bigger amounts.

I dont know why my brain can't be normal. Pls help

I 21f, always experience this since Im a teenager in EVERY female friendship. Do they perceive me as unattractive? Like every female friendship I had so far in life the person always randomly at some point starts talking to me about their complexes with apperance and what insecurities they have etc.

Like why are you telling ME that? It's annoying and it hurts especially if they're thinner than me talking about body image issues. What about me gives other women the idea that Im a safe space for this topic? Is it because they think they're better looking than me so they can talk about all of this without feeling bad?

How can I make this stop? No matter what I do I had so many friendhsips and every ONE turns out like this.

Because Im eating MORE calories and losing weight. A 5k binge would normally have me ache and sorrow and nauseous but since doing this work I only felt full. I lose weight despite overeating, I have no medical issues. I think tremoring burn calories or something? Does anyone know?

I binged almost 4k calories because I had a physical flashback where I felt so much rage pain out of breath and I cried so badly shaking I just wanted it to stop so I binged and it felt so good after this hell......this is why I binge eat i think. The last few weeks where I didn't it was hell emotionally I felt everything the horror the pain......how to heal from this?

I used to be accepting and tolerating of most friends and people for the sake of socializing. During healing I've realized these people made me worse. I also notice I dont like most people, because frankly most people are conversationalist narcists or they envy you or have some ulterior motive or agenda.

I went through life thinking people are generally nice outside of abusers.....nope. Most are selfish and will take your entire arm if you offer a nail. I dropped many people for that reason and only choose to befriend those are genuienly curious interested and caring people. At this point my intuition is good enough to tell me who's pretending to be nice and who genuienly cares.

Im a petite woman and I've been doing intuitive trauma release stuff where my body ends up tremoring. My head tremors for the whole day usually alongside neck and abdomen lately. I burst in tears a lot and like a lot of breath, coughing etc gets out. I eat a lot more than usual even with less activity due to trauma processing but Im losing fat?

For example today I ate 3k calories and I dont feel exceptionally full or anything I feel the same way I would on 1600kcal and I eat 110g protein or more, I weigh less than half that in kg. Is the constant tremoring and crying/shaking burning relevant amounts of energy? Because if so I'll continue eating around 2,5k if not I'll reduce.

Even in traumatherapy at best they just passively listen and nod and validate maybe once every blue moon. That's it. Emdr failed me because of that. I feel even more dysregulated talking abt my life and just having them passively listen and telling them to say something doesn't work because its not natural they just ask me what I want to hear.

I noticed feeling dranied after my session and stressed because of how much information I shared and how I got nothing out of it outside of being listened I suppose.

Im 21f I've been out of my abusers house since 2 years. I've had quite a few friendships, all of them either ending up in arguments because I was taken advantage of or me being abandoned.

My relatives are close with my abusers and paint me as the one with mental issues.

They're okay being in contact with me as long as I play that role of the one who has problems. I refused so I dont have any extended family either.

Truth is I am miserable because of how many people hurt me when they knew I was being abused. On top of that I'm constantly judged as a negative person because I can't hide behind a smile, I look chronically stressed (face and hair).

I feel on edge 24/7 cuz Im carrying all of these horrible memories of what so many people I trusted did to me, my body remembers it, at the same time I dont have any supportive people around. I dont know how to heal from that point on, can someone help me? How did you do it?

All of my life I've constantly had arguments with family, relatives, friends and even coworkers and bosses. Like Im always in some sort of conflict because I tend to draw consequences when people mistreat me and people usually mistreat me because they see me as inferior due to cptsd symptoms such as anxiety but then they see that I wont take it and bam suddenly Im always fighting someone.

And then Im made out to be the bad guy for it. Anyoen else?

Why do people do this? Need advise Im so crushed

I met a girl from a friendhsip app. We got along well and met every week, laughed, she shared her traumas with me, I opened up abt a loss and we were getting along. She even introduced me to her friend and wanted me to know her family, told everyone abt me, wanted to celebrate her birthday with me.

I didn't reciprocate such closeness yet I was polite but I started trusting her. I came late once and then afterwards she lied saying she has to go early, didn't talk to me during the meetup. When I asked what was wrong she told me we dont fit as friends with a heart emoji and said we dont get along then blocked me everywhere before I could reply. Even on Sms and phone.

I feel so crushed because I thought I had made a real friend and trusted her. Im so dysregulated since days, my heart is racing, Im crying.

I dont know why people do this to me. They like me too much at first and then they abandon me. What is this?

I met a girl from a friendhsip app. We got along well and met every week, laughed, she shared her traumas with me, I opened up abt a loss and we were getting along. She even introduced me to her friend and wanted me to know her family, told everyone abt me, wanted to celebrate her birthday with me.

I didn't reciprocate such closeness yet I was polite but I started trusting her. I came late once and then afterwards she lied saying she has to go early, didn't talk to me during the meetup. When I asked what was wrong she told me we dont fit as friends with a heart emoji and said we dont get along then blocked me everywhere before I could reply. Even on Sms and phone.

I feel so crushed because I thought I had made a real friend and trusted her. Im so dysregulated since days, my heart is racing, Im crying its like the og trauma. I got out of my shell made connections and this is what I get in return. Im so anxious and lonely.

I dont know why people do this to me. They like me too much at first and then they abandon me. What is this?

I dont give a shit abt the conversation 9 times out of 10. Im boiling inside with rage, bitterness hurt and pain. I want to be held and cared for. I dont want to make conversation abt hobbies, lifestyle, interests etc. I just want to kick something, rage cry, cry, be angry or atleast look displeased. I dont want to smile, nod, listen, pay attention, talk. I just want to be what I am without having to pretend.

That's it. That's why I never felt safe socializing and probably why I never can make lasting friendships. At some point people annoy me. I dont care abt their world because they dont care abt mine and they dont get t