Emotional regulation?
So I messed up.
I got upset to the point where I told my partner I want to break up, when she asked if I mean it i double confirmed saying yes.
The thing is, I didn't mean it. I told her later, apologized, everything.
I have a lot of examples of me saying strong things during my emotions in general, not just my relationship. being literally consumed by them and allowing them to take control of who I am like a toddler. It feels absolutely pathetic, there's been a few situations where I told myself to "shut up" until my heartrate and breathing go down. But there's also times that I forgot and didn't do it.
I don't really remember a time where I was in an emotional state and I did something to my benefit, maybe very few.
Knowing that, there's also a lot of times that I just make a LOT of decisions during these moments, or say a lot of things.
What kind of therapist or something could I consult?
I also have ADHD, I'm not very knowledgeable about it but I did read it can make regulating emotions harder.