I collected a bit back in 2018, where most cards, even rare were affordable. Now it's going nuts. I know there was a boom in 2020 with covid and Logan Paul ect, but it seems like its gotten even worse since last year?
I've never really seen a point in being alive. I feel like I struggle with basic human function all the time, like all the chores you have to do daily just drain me and takes me forever. Social interaction can be fun, but most of the time it's just exhausting and anxiety provoking. I have no interests, I can't keep em, I just numb my brain with stupid bullshit all the time. I have no passions, no motivation. I haven't been in a relationship since I was like 14, I probably could if I tried, I just have no interest, and the thought itself is also anxiety provoking. I was an alcoholic, drug user, and smoker in my teens, im clean now and in uni, but like if this is it what's the point then. I have bad habits ive been trying to get rid of for forever, I binge eat, I drink a lot of soda, I stay in bed a lot, Im on social media for hours upon hours. its better than drugs and cigarettes I guess, but I just can't seem to quit compulsive habits like that, I do exercise and attend school, and eat healthy when im not bingeing, I try to be social, but I always have days where I just lay in bed all day. My apartment looks like shit most of the time. I dont find anything to be fun. I dont want to have a job, or a family, I dont want to be a mom with a husband and a 9-5. I dont see any future. I just want to die.
I'm in civil (more specifically architectural) engineering, but I'm feeling pretty burned out lately, possibly depressed.
I need some motivation, so what are your motivations for studying engineering?
So ive been on lexapro for 5 years now (20 mg for 4 years, and tapered down to 10 mg a year ago, I was also on prozac for 2 years before lexapro). Lately however I've been hearing more and more about the long term side effects of SSRI's, are they really dangerous? do they lead to cognitive decline?
Now I don't mean in the sense that other people tell me im not allowed, I mean an internal feeling of not being allowed to be certain places. Like someone suggested if I was bored that I could just go for a bike ride in the city, and like my immediate internal reaction was "am I just allowed to do that?" like of course I am logically, but idk its hard to explain.
This also extends to social groups, like when im talking in a group im always thinking "am I allowed here? am I allowed to talk? is it weird if I talk? is it weird that im here?". What is that feeling?
im so exhausted and terrified, I never get used to them they're pretty much equally intense each time, and I never even know what triggers them. I don't know what to do
Long story short, har haft problemer med spiseforstyrrelse, depression, angst ect ect (går meget bedre nu heldigvis), men basically jeg er lidt fucked, og har et meget lille netværk. Jeg har ikke været så social på studiet pga manglende overskud plus andre ting der er sket i mit liv. Så nu har jeg en lang sommerferie hvor jeg vitterligt ikke har noget at give mig til. Jeg bor alene. Hvad kan man gøre?
People yelling over each other, loud af laughter, sometimes downright screaming, the clatter of silverware/glasses etc.
It always physically hurt, like i feel like I have an exposed nerve someone is constantly punching. I get so frustrated every time. I also always feel a huge shame when I take a break or leave before time, since when I was younger my mom used to call me a bitch, or dramatic, or asocial or whatever derogative word came to mind in her head.
im always so drained after, I don’t know how people can keep doing it
So i was diagnosed with atypical autism in 2018 (my country used icd-10 at the time, and still does), I was 15. I was diagnosed atypical in regards to age of onset, meaning my traits weren't present before I was 3. I was also evaluated to have an Iq of 121 and an "even profile", no language delays.
Now... I honestly dont understand my diagnosis at all, how is that not just Aspergers? (I know it's all ASD now but still). I feel like everything I read about atypical autism/PDD-NOS dosen't fit my presentation at all, and i've never understood my diagnosis tbh
I feel like I see more reddit/tiktok posts lately from siblings/parents of autistic kids/teens, talking about how they're being beaten by their autistic relatives, they always cite autism as the source of the violence, or at least as an important factor, and it seems that the comments usually agree that autistic people are violent. Is that really what the general population thinks? that we're violent? I would never lay hands on someone, even the thought of accidentally upsetting someone stresses me
been getting back into pokemon cards lately (holy shit everything is expensive now). And I was wondering if there's any cute and cheap cards?
So for context I do suffer from a panic disorder and I am autistic, so im way more prone to stress in general. However the panic attacks have been under control for a loooong time, but they have been appearing VERY frequently this last month. Even when im not panicking, my body just feels unsafe I guess, shaky, heavy and tight, I also have trouble breathing often, like I can't take a deep breath.
I just finished my last exam this semester, and am finally going on summer vacation, but I dont feel relaxed at all, I still feel really really bad. What should I do? reduce my workload next semester? any other tips to manage stress before it gets so bad?
I just completely blanked during my statics exam, I’m not even sure if most of my answers made sense honestly. It’s my own fault for not studying enough for it, and falling for the false sense of competence trap. I have a make up exam in two months, but I feel real bad rn, please tell me someone else has been there and gotten better at it
cause that’s sure what it feels like, like I’m high arousal almost 24/7, very prone to panic attacks, meltdowns, shutdowns ect. it fucking suuuuuuuucks, cant I just rip it out and get a new one lol
I feel like when people picture an “autistic“ person they picture a non-verbal, severely delayed person, or think they think autism equals intellectual disability, or think it means someone will need someone else to take care of them for the rest of their life. It feels very uncomfortable to be put in that same category as a person who has always been intellectually well off, and who is functioning somewhat normally in daily life. I’m a full time engineering student, living on my own, taking care of everything myself. I never had any speech delays, ect.
Like yeah I’m sensitive to sound, struggle with some executive dysfunction, gets tired easily, and get nervous in social situations and especially group settings. but I don’t like those traits being put under the same umbrella as people with the cognitive function of small children. I just got this shitty label slapped on me as a 16 yo. when I sought out help for my depression, suicidal thoughts and eating disorder, not a fun thing to get told at a vulnerable age “hey you’re socially stupid and we think you’re on par with severely delayed people“ (not what they said but that’s how it felt).
I’ve read many horrific posts from parents of autistic kids, like kids and adults with minds of kids being violent, disobedient, not comprehending the world around them, smearing shit, running away, toilet training in their late childhood or teens, and sorry if it’s ableist to say, but I feel extremely uncomfortable being put in the same diagnostic category as that. Not that they don’t deserve support and love and all that, that’s not what I’m saying at all. And I understand that they have comorbidities of intellectual disability ect, but I still feel uncomfortable sharing a diagnosis with them.
sorry that I’m not allowed to feel this way but it’s how I feel.
er diagnosticeret med panikangst så er mere tilbøjelig til panik anfald generelt, men har alligevel aldrig fået et panikanfald til en eksamen før. Dog fik jeg det mega skidt til min første eksamen på uni i går. Sådan at jeg blev nødt til at gå ud to gange, en af gangene i 40 minutter ish hvor jeg bare rystede i hele kroppen og var mega svimmel og kastede lidt op. Flere fra mit hold spurgte bagefter om jeg var ok, da de kunne se at jeg så meget bleg ud.
de to gange jeg gik ud, tog jeg mine høretelefoner med, og glemte selvfølgelig at de var koblet til min computer, så den spillede min white noise mega højt ud i eksamenslokaket (fik jeg at vide efter🙃).
Er bare mega pinligt berørt i dag, har moralske tømmermænd uden at have været fuld lol, og er lidt (meget) bange for den næste eksamen
as far as I’ve gathered, people in general seem to have these reasons to live:
-family and friends, forming connections and bonds, making memories
-passion, and a drive for leaving a mark or making a change
-power and money
I just… don’t really care about any of that. I dont have any passions. I don’t care about leaving a mark, i don’t care about power or status. I don’t care about my ”achievements“.
but in the end it seems like its social bonds that weighs the highest for people.
Im bad at forming bonds with people and it takes so much energy, I fear I’ll never get out and have a family of my own, I never feel seen. I just feel uncomfortable and tired all the time. I don’t care about life, i don’t wanna be here I was never meant to be here. I just feel like a shell of a person, like im watching everyone through a glass wall
I feel pretty anxious, i dont know what to do
How do I fix myself? I sleep too much or too little, I spend hours upon hours on my phone or iPad, I don’t do my coursework often, I get stressed out and cry so easily, I get severely anxious in social situations, I have a hard time keeping a schedule, my habits never stick, i have a hard time initiating and completing tasks, my social life is dead, I become overwhelmed so easily, I have a low frustration tolerance, I feel little joy in life, my body often becomes heavy with tiredness.
im 24, so its just embarrassing at this point. My teen years were pretty rough, with coke/weed/alcohol abuse, an eating disorder, and suicidal ideation. While I’ve come a long way, I still feel so behind in life. I burn out to easily and have a hard time keeping up in uni right now, and just a hard time living in general, i don’t know how to fix all those problems listed above. I’ve been sober for 5 years, and I do exercise and eat healthy when I’m not completely wiped. I don’t know what else to do, besides kicking the phone/ipad habit I guess.
How do I fix myself? I sleep too much or too little, I spend hours upon hours on my phone or iPad, I don’t do my coursework often, I get stressed out and cry so easily, I get severely anxious in social situations, I have a hard time keeping a schedule, my habits never stick, i have a hard time initiating and completing tasks, my social life is dead, I become overwhelmed so easily, I have a low frustration tolerance, I feel little joy in life, my body often becomes heavy with tiredness
i don’t know what to do