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1. This is the usual one that everybody kind of believes is that you are sent here to learn something you’ve picked your life and you come down to learn whatever that is and gain knowledge and then leave it’s like your soul picked its path to learn something and it’s always wanting to learn And then you get reincarnated

2. We were sent here nine times in each life, your soul grows wiser. It’s kind of like the numerology one to nine life paths. Life path nine your soul is wise and humanitarian, and you have gone through all the different life paths. You should graduate start a new cycle somewhere else.

3. We exist beyond, but we don’t have consciousness as we think it is we don’t think but we are still us. So we have consciousness, but not as we think it is we don’t have a brain, but we still would have the knowledge that we are who we are and exist somewhere else do something else for whatever reason.

4. This is a simulation and we are all part of a game. We have been placed here and picked here. Our souls are part of a simulation to play whatever the greater part is this there’s NPC‘s. We are souls that’s why there’s glitches we literally are just a simulation and Where you’re not looking doesn’t exist the point of the simulation. I have no idea.

5. You stick together with the same souls and you all go down to earth around the same time and find each other and build lives together over and over again.

6. We are in a trap when we die. We’re supposed to go to the light but there’s a false light that we go to that literally tricks us to go back down here. We are stuck in the loop and this is our punishment is coming down here and having to do it over and over and over and over again cause we get tricked every time we go out this is just a fucking Loop that we are tricked into

7. We graduate to a higher or lower dimension, dependent on how we do in this life.

OK, tell me which one you think !!!

There’s so many rent and rave posts in here that I thought I would give everybody a little chuckle and a laugh. So this is a true story.
I’ve been talking to this guy is met on a dating app for a while. I had been married for a long time. I have little kids. I never actually do this, but the thing that caught me about this guy was that he was a plumber and I was redoing this one part of my house and my laborers were just like so disappointing and it was a nightmare to get done.

Anyways, I was so annoyed with how things were going. That my inhibitions had kind of just disappeared and I was just gonna kind of be silly and sexual at the same time. I just need to like blow off some steam so we started talking about countertops and how hot it would be and how if he came over and plumbed something I would do them on the countertop or something like that and I’m like it’s so hot whatever Something like that

Well, in the middle of my Airbnb guests had just checked in and they were asking me about something. I can’t remember really what
But either way I accidentally sent them my messages that I was writing to this guy lol

Then I realized it and I was like oh no, so I went and deleted the messages right away

And I was like oh my God oh my God I hope they don’t see that. I hope they didn’t see that.

So then I wrote to them Did you guys see that weird text that just came through that thread and then disappeared or am I the only one?

And the lady was like uuuuummmmm ya

Thinking that they would just drop it and we would move on, but they certainly didn’t

She then continue to say well how would something like that get on there? I was like I don’t know. Technologies is weird.

She’s like well this means somebody’s hacked your system and they have all of our credentials and we know they’ll know that how to get into the house and they’ll know where we are. This is becoming a major safety issue.

I was like I don’t think that’s a possible thing….

She was like it was just so vulgar and raunchy. We are just so feeling uncomfortable because somebody’s gonna have our information.

Hahahahah
Oh my God thinking about it. That was just funny. That was not what I was expecting somebody to react like anyway anyways they ended up checking out and I had gave him a full refund. !

Whoops, that stupid text message and I never even sent stupid text messages like that ugh !!!!

Whoops

So embarrassed
So funny

It is what it is

And I like never even talk like that or send messages of that message or even talk to anybody online and it was like the perfect storm for that all the play out

Airbnb support aka manipulation, gaslighting, minimizing, dismissive, invalidation and deception

A year ago I had 2 listings in disputes. I submitted the evidence for both and they both failed

One was for a Lakeview house that was going to be de listed.
The other was for a one star review on a house in the city that was a stupid blackmail revenge I didn’t refund them review.

They both failed because they had submitted the disputes to the wrong one. The lake house went to the house and the city in the house and the city went to the lake house I got denied and I said why explain and they came back with we need you to submit This kind of evidence.
And what they were asking for made no sense
I was like why would I need to submit anything about keys when this house had a flood

It just seriously, it was boggled my mind forever because I knew my evidence on both. This things were very ironclad so it was impossible that this was the outcome.

Finally, I was on the phone with an ambassador and she kept on saying the wrong listing when I was giving her the ID. We finally realized they had swapped the listing numbers on the listings, and the whole system was glitched.

Of course later, I was like can I actually have a real chance to submit a review for that one star
and somebody told me all I have to do was send one picture of this particular, I didn’t think much of it. I thought they were being nice because they had glitched the first time

so I submitted it
Can you guess what happened?….
That’s right I got denied

So there are my two chances gone

So I thought because they had seriously glitched their system and never taken any accountability for doing that but maybe just this one time they would help me.

My daughter is in the ICU getting her breathing tube taken out I just needed some security with the super host status turn over is July 1 and it’s June 29.

The superhost turnover is July 1, I called and said if you can help me get rid of this review. So that my my algorithm could be higher it would cause less stress for me as I’m unable to work so I’m now dependent on that.

But I said if this is going to be a run around I don’t have time and told them my situation. But I said if you can actually be a support when I need support let’s get this taken care of so that I have a safety net for us. I said it a couple times over so that they would get the seriousness of my situation.

They actually promised me they would help me
I know I was shocked too
So I was like well it’s a very very rare case for somebody actually helps you and I thought my situation I was in May have actually been the thing to finally get some help. So I fell for it.

They said they had opened it up to let me submit my documents again to get the dispute going and get that review gone

so I submit all my documents and I thought well you know this is my one chance I’m just gonna spend some extra time it just make it like so there’s no way that there’s anything possible they could even catch possibly say no to me.

And I thought what I’m doing now will really help us in the long run so just get it done. I told them again please don’t take my time away from me. I don’t have time for this. I kept on saying that I don’t have time for this. I don’t have time for this, but here you go like I’m just gonna do it like this is my only opportunity.

I submit all my documents and not only 30 seconds later did I get declined

I was like got that stupid script that they send out after careful review and consider consideration. We are upholding our original decision, blah blah blah that stupid thing.

So I emailed Back and I said how the hell could you even careful consider anything when I haven’t even submitted all of my evidence yet and you just received that 30 seconds ago

So they kind of like panicked and said oh there’s a bunch of threads open we meant like just send it over here so they asked me to send it to a different thread and while I was doing that, I said listen I don’t want to hear that script that you just sent me and I if you go over all of this and you think that it’s still not in my favor, I would like you to tell me exactly why because I had hard proof that literally every single thing that he claimed was a lie

So I would like to know what didn’t pass and if you need something more, ask me because I can submit it

So then I got a email saying that they’re still working on it like a couple hours later and I was like how can you still be working on it? It’s pretty black or white.

And then at 2 o’clock in the morning, I got the same script saying that I was denied

Then it clicked that I was never even doing a third review because I didn’t even submit this stuff through the app. It was all just submitted to the email.

So they pretended to give me another review because they knew they had to, but for some reason, nobody can unlock this stupid thing

They then call and say I only want to talk to somebody who can unlock the system. They put me on hold. Keep me on hold for 10 minutes telling me they’re getting me a supervisor and then hang up so I called the second time they did the exact same thing.
I would get emails that would be like we’re sorry this decision frustrating but we are only allowed to give two disputes and then it locks

I’m like that’s interesting and why did I get a third dispute so like did you guys lie to me about a dispute or are you lying to me about it that it locks?

Then they would come back with there is no glitch and I would show an email and they would be like no there is no glitch and then when I finally prove that it would go to something else eventually, the end result was

I got an email from them telling them that I was becoming too aggressive, and they might have to remove me. lol.

I just think them said thank you for all of this evidence of your corporation being so corrupt you actually provided me with quite a bit of great stuff and you’ve also kind of included some life or death shit that you just don’t even care about lying to grieving people about so

That’s where I’m at

Hi there, I am looking at what would be the best therapy or what you guys think works the best at the beginning stages of a severe TBI as well as D AI

So these are my choices that I can use these are the doctors that are available. These are the treatments that I can get into the hospital better close by so please please help me with what has worked the best store for you guys

1.Personalized Repetitive Magnetic Stimulation

2. MeRT (Magnetic e-Resonance Therapy

3. DBS. Electrodes implanted in the brain helps for Stone and brain.

4. TMS

5. Neurofeedback practitioner

6, neuroplasty with neuropsych** **

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I can get any of those with no problem. !!!

They’re very local.
Please give me your opinion on what you think would be the best fit. I’d love everybody’s opinion on what they feel like has worked or would work in this case
My daughter did start out with some pretty bad dystonoa so I’m kind of interested in those has she started off with very bad symptoms and she still has the inability to control her moving arms and legs

OK people let me know what we should pick !!!!

My 10-year-old is I can’t I don’t know all the acronyms quite yet but I think it’s like DAI it’s Oliver everywhere except for the brains down and then it’s a severe TBI like her head got hit four times each time very hard and from a distance so we have been in like acute ICU dealing with like like breathing again and you know getting the brain swelling out and dealing with the you know then the brain started misfiring and she went into stoic episodes where she was ripping her muscles apart it was just awful

But now we seem to have the meds where we want it and she’s very low level of conscious and I have never been around anybody with a brain injury. I’ve never had anybody in my family. I don’t have any friends like I know nothing about brain injuries and I’m really really really really wanting to understand so that I can Not like. I don’t want her to wake up with me saying all the wrong things I like I wanna understand how you guys feel and dumb. I guess I just have some questions, but I would love if you guys could explain it to me.

I know everybody’s totally different but like I still I just I don’t I would love to like hear your own personal journey too

1. Usually if it’s a traumatic thing like a car crash like she was in by I assume the accident is wiped from your mind. You do not remember the accident. It’s like that’s like my like how far back from before the accident do you remember like do you remember a couple days before a week before two weeks before like Wear does murder in average does the mind Last memory before the trauma because I keep on talking about the stupid game we went to but there was like two days before accident so I’m wondering if I should shut up about it

2. I have already accepted that the old version of my gone like that was one of the first things I accepted and it seems like that something that Except when I read these things like she’s a cool kid and whatever this new person will be she will be cool like that’s just who she is. I don’t want her to try and be who she was like. I don’t want that pressure but I guess I’m just trying to understand so when you say like like you’re really pressured to like think and whatever

I guess I’m trying to think like like do you remember what it was like to have like the brain fully functioning and then you try and think the way that you used to ?
How are you cognitive of the factioned like? Like are you sure that you even remember it the right way like maybe you guys all look at it with Rose colored glasses. I prefer the injuries to the brain did any of us really like look at our brain closely I don’t know or is it just like how you feel like connect like do you feel differently? Is it the misfire is like physically motor skills like I just so curious, ??

I guess what triggers you guys when you think that your mind isn’t working the way that it should and where you seem to get frustrated and eventually depressed like where and why like what is it? The other people expect like what is it in your brain? Is it keeping up with the language? Is it like like long-term short-term memory? Is it just like the speed is it?
Or don’t know going outside and having a walk or is reading comprehension hard is watching a screen bothersome are background noises annoying do you have trouble concentrating more so now do you need more stimulation less stimulation lighting brightness?

Sorry, I’m hope this doesn’t come across as rude or inconsiderate or anything like that like I just can’t talk to my daughter we spend a lot of time just staring at each other

I just wanted to say this as well as the the really common tread is how badly how hard you guys are on yourselves. I mean, you’re all functioning on amazing levels I like comprehending all this stuff and I mean and then like obviously you have the emotions and you should be able to express those and don’t feel like you shouldn’t

The trend is everybody feels guilty for them, not being a certain way and or depressed because they don’t expect themselves to be a certain way and I’ve heard this from a lot of people and you know what I don’t be right. Why do you have? Why do you think you have to be that way you can be whatever you wanna be like if Makenna if my daughter makes it anywhere close to how miraculous all of you are like I’m gonna go to Bali and she can go talk to a bush if she wants to like I’m not like you know what I mean like it’s life is different now so it’s time to change it like I know we’re not going back to what we used to do, we can’t it’s for something new now it’s a whole new experience Because I don’t wanna sit there and try and remember an old life we used to have that we don’t have that’s like onto the next onto the new and it could be way more exciting who knows and the
All of you don’t be so hard on yourselves you’re all amazing and your voice matters so if you’re not feeling it, just tell them how you feel. I know some people won’t get it but still just try. It might make you feel better

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You think this can never happen to you.

Every parent's worst nightmare has happened to my family.

My 9‑year‑old daughter's best friend lives one block up the street from us. They have been friends since birth and grown up together since it's the son of my best friend of 30 years.

They have a sleepover once a week.

On Friday night she was invited for a sleepover.

She packed a bag and walked up the street as she normally does.

She called me before bed to say goodnight.

I got an update from the parents that she was eating lots of breakfast in the morning, and told them to send them down to my house when they leave for the wedding they had to attend later that afternoon.

At around 1:30 p.m. I got a phone call from a social worker at Royal Columbian Hospital saying she’d been hit by a car and was in critical condition. They told me to get there now.

My heart dropped; I didn’t know what to expect.

That drive seemed like the longest drive of my life. My friend and her two daughters were staying at my house at the time and I was with my part‑time boyfriend, who drove me there. I left my son at home with my friend, as I had no idea what to expect.

My bf dropped me off at emergency and he went to park the car. I walked in alone and just ran through admitting to trauma and said my daughter got hit by a car.

They told me to stand right there and they would get the social worker.

While I was waiting, the first person I saw was the dad () of the friend she was with. My friend and he had broken up years ago so I hadn’t seen him in a long time. He was sobbing and hugged me.

They put us in this room to wait for the doctor to talk to us.

At this point it didn’t even seem real.

This old lady outside the door said she had put prayers out for our children at her church. Then she asked if she could say a prayer so I said sure and we all just sat in this room and prayed. Max had shown up at this point. So it was my bf the dad and I

They told the dad he could go see his son. So he left. Then he came back and the doctor came in.

He started off with her friend injuries.

Basically his leg was super mangled, broken bones and fractured arm and leg, nerve damage, and he needed surgery ASAP, but he was conscious and talking.

Then they switched over to my daughter . I still hadn’t been allowed to see her at this point so I knew it wasn’t going to be good.

They said she was stabilized for now, but she’d hit her head with no helmet on quite significantly. She was not conscious, they didn’t know if her spine was broken, she was on a breathing tube, and she needed to be transferred to Children’s Hospital immediately.

They kept asking me for her medical card through all of this because they had no info on her. The kids came as Jane Doe, and the only reason they were able to tie her to me was because her friend was awake and could identify her.

They asked me if she was pregnant at one point…. I’m like, she’s 9. And then that’s when I realized they had no idea about anything. So I gave them my son’s info by mistake at first. And they came back saying that number was for a 7‑year‑old boy. So they still didn’t have info because I had given Hudson’s. Finally I got the correct health number to them and then they finally said I could go and see her.

I went into this huge room. It must be the trauma room or something. I think there was a patient at the very far end of the room, then her friend in the middle and my kid to the far left. Like, this is a huge room. They have those privacy stands that don’t block anything. But I just remember the room being massive.

It was super bright and it was chaos. Paramedics, doctors, nurses, first responders, surgeons, social workers — just a million people in this room running around.

I walked up to my kid and while I was seeing her I could just hear her friend screaming in pain from across the room. The paramedics were the ones working on her and stabilizing her. She had a tube down her throat and a neck brace on. Black and blue bruising and bandages were everywhere. There was a pad under her head, like those puppy pee pad square pads. And it was just soaked in blood.

I sat beside her with all this chaos going on around me and it took forever for the paramedics to get her ready for transport. I said I’m riding in the ambulance and told bf to meet me at Children’s and take my car. So he left.

While we were getting wheeled out of there, we kinda got stopped. And this head guy yelled at everyone in that room, “Everyone shut up and listen right now!!!” The chaos stopped and about 30 people were all quiet and listening. The person continued to shout, “We have a car crash coming in right now which consists of child badly injured, mom injured and dad is deceased.”

So as soon as we were leaving the room to get in the ambulance, they were scrambling to deal with this trauma that was coming in hot right after us. I remember thinking, I guess it could be worse…

They put her in the back and I wasn’t allowed back there. I had to sit up front with the driver and two people in the back with her basically keeping her breathing pump going, etc. They had to move her so carefully because they had no idea about the spinal cord.

So I sat up front with the buddy who was driving. We left and as we pulled out the driver started driving and then goes, “Is that a median?” I’m so blind I’m like, I’m not sure. So he keeps driving as we get closer. I tell him, “YES THAT’S A MEDIAN.” and he’s like, “Oh shit,” and then tries to steer away from it but still hits it. And we go offroading for a bit and the guys in the back are yelling “WHOA!!! Careful.”

So in my head I’m like great, we probably killed her just getting out of the parking lot.

That was my first time riding in an ambulance when they are really ripping. He kept driving in the oncoming traffic lane weaving in and out.

He taught me about trauma hospitals and said only VGH, Royal Columbian, and Abbotsford are the only three hospitals that treat this level of trauma. And then went on about how he basically transports all of Surrey to Royal Columbian all the time.

Before we pulled up to Children’s the driver warned me that there’s a trauma waiting for us in there and it would be overwhelming.

So they unloaded her and I had a smoke. I took a deep breath and headed through the doors…

About 40 people were waiting all masked and gowned up. We went into another big room, but it was just her in this room and all those people were for her only.

They laid her under this light to do a full checkover.

It was silent and one person was in charge telling who could talk.

The paramedic started talking. He read off all of these numbers and stats that I couldn’t even comprehend, and then told them that somebody did CPR on her on site and that she was thrown quite far from the car. She also smashed into the windshield and all of this without a helmet. They said no helmets on site.

(They were wearing helmets. They just got flung off when they got hit, but this is what I was told initially — that there were no helmets — and I was like, what the fuck.)

They sat me in a chair while all this was happening with a warm blanket. I just watched and listened in disbelief.

I’m basically holding my breath as they check her over. After he was done his announcement, the person in charge then got some of the doctors to start the check. As they went they were yelling back what they found.

I’m holding my breath hoping that this isn’t where we’re going to find out she’s a quadriplegic or just a vegetable. They started with the head, which was a time of shattered glass in it. They checked her eyes and they dilated. That was my first breath of good news. Then I held it again as they were going over all lacerations that needed plastic surgery to help close up, and it was only on her hand and hip (and head of course). That was my second breath. They got her arms to move when they put pressure on them. Next breath.

And finally the legs. They couldn’t get any movement out of them. They were trying. Next thing you know they were stabbing her feet with full force over and over and finally there was a tiny movement. I was like, OMG, thank God.

So then they wheeled her off. I went into the hallway and the cops wanted to talk to me. They put me in a room and told me they couldn’t tell me anything but that this hits home for them.

I was like, that was useless.

We got admitted to the PICU right away. And honestly I don’t remember the first few days in there.

I know the neurosurgeon said it’s a severe head injury; we will know more when we get the MRI, but as for right now they need to relieve the swelling. If this doesn’t work, we may need to look at more invasive surgery in the brain and take off a piece of the skull, but we’re not there yet. Let’s start with the bolt. The bolt is what they call the hole in her head to just let the brain fluid drain out. So they cut a hole in her head to release the pressure and let it drain. And I think they had her on ketamine, morphine and fentanyl. She was on heavy, heavy ketamine for the first week and a half.

So we had to wait until she was stable enough to get the MRI and get X‑rays.

So now I can’t remember what came first — the MRI or taking the breathing tube out — but it all happened roughly around the same time.

So about five days into it, they said her breathing was stronger than the machine and they wanted to take it out. If you leave it in too long, it’s super damaging to the body. So they wanted to get it out as soon as possible.

That was one of the scariest things I’ve ever watched.

They took it out and she was gasping for air and her breathing sounded like it was on an amplifier — the loudest gurgle noises I’ve ever heard. I’ve never actually heard anything like it before. I thought it was a fake sound. They told me it was her breathing. And we all watched her twitch trying to get air. Her heart rate sat at 240 for almost two hours after. I just remember the vitals on the big screen flashing red nonstop.

They had to suction all her thick secretions in her throat. She didn’t know how to cough, so to clear her throat they would have to violently shake her chest while the other person suctions.

That went on for weeks and weeks because the breathing tube had of course given her aspirated pneumonia.

Then she got a staff infection so she was on vancomycin.

She had a couple blood transfusions.

For that week and a half I didn’t know if she was going to make it. My ex husband told everyone she was doing great. But realistically, the odds weren’t in her favor to overcome all that just to get to the stable point.

And then she was finally stable enough for an MRI and X‑rays.

Wow this is a lot to write out. I’m only halfway into week two at the hospital. And I’ve been here for two months.

I remember feeling so nervous to get the results because I knew it wasn’t going to be good. And once we officially knew, all the hope that maybe it’s not as bad as we think gets taken away.

The MRI came back and every part of her brain is damaged. There’s grey matter everywhere. Lots of shearing which means dead brain and tons of internal bleeding. The only thing that wasn’t damaged was her brain stem. The brain stem controls the basics, like the ability to breathe or heal a wound— that type of thing. But everything else is damaged. That being said, they still can’t give us an answer of what her outcome will be because the brain is so unknown and the only thing they say is she is going to have to show us what she can do.

There’s also a ton of fluid in her spine and we were going to have to wait to see if that means impairment of using her legs.

But miraculously she didn’t have a single broken bone or fracture. That’s when they finally removed the neck brace and could start moving her so she didn’t get bedsores. I think around the same time they finally put a feeding tube in through her nose.

Her legs have lost all muscle; they are toothpicks.

She has to wear foot braces so that her ankles don’t lock.

Then they started bringing her off the ketamine.

Her brain was misfiring so much that she was stuck in this fight‑or‑flight mode called dystonia.

This is when her eyes are open super wide with the most scared look and super dilated, and she can curl toward her body into a position that is so messed up and every muscle in her body is so stiff and she sweats nonstop and her heart rate goes to 200. That gets off by any little irritant.

While we are shoving a suction down her throat every second because she doesn’t know how to cough, and a feeding tube in her nose, she’s constantly irritated, so this went on for about four weeks, and if you don’t break the cycle, the brain will rewire itself to thinking that this is normal.

What happens when she’s in that state is she starts tearing apart all of her muscles and then her blood starts getting high enzymes and then her kidneys shut down and we have to do dialysis.

So now we have her super medicated.

I remember at one point I asked the doctors, “Is this what awake is for her?” and they told me to try to not look at this as awake.

Finally the episodes weren’t as severe anymore and they moved us out of ICU after being there for a month. She had learned to cough and her heart rate was finally not spiking at these crazy numbers.

Her last big episode was her birthday on begging of june

So now we are up on the 7th floor. That’s where they try and get her strong enough for rehab — trying to get all the medication just right, etc.

They say after a brain injury you’re supposed to stimulate it right away. The sooner the better. The cases where people are in comas for long periods of time have way worse outcomes.

It’s now been over a month and we’re still not able to stimulate the brain and get it going because we have to heavily sedate her because of the dystonia.

One day I looked over at her and she was making a sad face. I was sooooooo happy. This was the first sign of consciousness. Very, very low level. But I’ll take it. This means she can cry and has tears.

But what this also did is open up a whole new can of worms to figure out and deal with. She cried for a week straight. I don’t know if it’s emotional or pain. But she can’t tell me what it is. She has no control of any motor skill. We scanned her whole body over and over again and never found out what was bugging her.

I was convinced it was the feeding tube in her face, which eventually I fought hard and got her surgery booked to get it moved into her stomach.

She had that surgery and everything went well. Had to put her under general anesthetic and then basically stab a hole in her tummy for the tube to come out. The tube is a lot bigger than I thought it would be. Then the recovery room where we have to wake her up every 15 minutes for six hours straight — ugh. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

We could never locate the pain. It was frustrating. Then I played a voice note from her best friend and she smiled.

That was her first smile. So that tells us there’s memory there. She loves it when friends come to visit.

She laughs at me when I tell her I have a fat ass.

But I would say a joke and get reaction time was super delayed. Not sure if she can see, but she can hear and understand everything that’s going on and seems to know who everyone is.

Now we’re still around the same spot. A lot more smiling, not as delayed reaction. Still can’t communicate as she can’t move anything voluntarily or speak.

She had to get turned in the bed every two hours because of bedsores. We have to stuff her in a sling and make her sit in a wheelchair four times a day.

We have to see if she can track or recognize anything like grab the ball or look at the cup, which she can’t really do.

Still haven’t medicated for the dystonia and now need meds to pop more consciousness into her.

They want us to start planning for home. So I will have to get lifts and wheelchair stuff built in my home. I’ll have to get a car that has a car seat that can support holding her head up.

I have to have a 24‑hour care aide live in.

And no one can tell me how far she will come back or if this is it.

I’m starting to realize that my daughter I had is gone. And that is a pain that I can’t describe. Whatever this new version of her is, I’m here to love and support it. I don’t even get the chance to mourn my daughter. And she was amazing.

Every day I have to get up and do rehab with her and OT, the PT, the speech pathologist. Then I have to carry her in a chair and sling three times a day. Read to her. Keep her spirits up. Watch her vitals. Change her feed bags. Watch her temperature.

As well as try to keep a normal life for my son.

The hard part about this is you watch everyone fall apart. My mom bawling on the floor outside my room.

My son hitting himself and hurting himself and this weird stuff.

My ex going into denial.

So not only do I lose my daughter, I watch my entire family fall apart.

I can’t do my job. I can only manage my long‑term clients. I gave away almost 30 contracts because the last thing I can do is have any patience for the issues I have to deal with. But I need to work or I can’t afford to live so I’m just holding onto the bare minimum and gave away all my income. I just can’t do it.

Nor do I have the time. My life consists of parenting two completely traumatized children, living in a hospital during rehab with one daughter all day long every single day for the next four months: not being able to be home or do anything at my house, not being able to work, not being able to have one second where I can just sit down and not have anxiety riddled in my brain because when I have a quiet time in my mind, all I do is miss her

And all social media has to say is negative things about the kids crossing a crosswalk when ot was to late and saying I should learn my lesson.
This could happen to anyone, who are these people that say shitty things when a child’s life gets taken.
This is my first post about this and I’m nervous to leave it. But I need support so bad. Not to be trolled