▲ 0 r/swans

This is the stupidest thing I've ever written in my entire life

start making your mau mau mau's

start making your mau mau mau's

roll around on the floor and steal all the oxygen, Alden

can you be kind? can you be kind?

Alden if you could start screaming "Amen" and "brick house" that would be so beautiful

Cry for me. Crawl in the belly of woman and cry like just a little boy

Can you do that, Alden?

Can you cry "I need love" like a little boy? F- for the album? That would be so beautiful

Crawl over there, and cr- and bring the sun like a toussaint l'ouverture

Bark real loud, can you do it? Can you do it?

Mau and Woof like a baby. Alden

Do some things we do, that would be so beautiful. That's kind, like that

Can you make mau's?

Keep saying "fuck"

Make- make some- some dog noises some, some hallelujah dog noises

Don't be forever lazy!

Don't be forever crazy!

Roll around and be- yknow- be... here, now. Roll around and breathe, now

There you go, that's kind.

Roll back the other way, roll back the other way, same guitar riff roll back, roll back!

No no no no, that's too kind.

Roll the synth sound again. Get over there and drum i- in pain, really in pain.

That's kind.

Scream like you're in my lung. Can you scream like you're in my house, Alden?

Scream out like you're in a brick house! A skin-tight brick house, scream out!

Scream out at the dog man at the door!

("Lynch talks to kids")

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u/Elerlilul — 4 days ago

I don't feel pain. I never escape. I never dream. This isn't real.

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u/Elerlilul — 9 days ago
▲ 45 r/NtBtS

Nirvana The Band The Show The Fanart

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u/Elerlilul — 12 days ago

Responsibilities Falling Out Of My Hands

Hey, I'm new here.

About a week ago I started talking to a girl that I met at a concert that I eventually went on a date with. I don't want to get into details but long story short: It was the first time I fully unmasked my ADHD around someone on a date (impulsive behavior, apologizing a lot, being awkward and having a huge sad mood swing / decision paralysis moment). I think ever since then, things have been going well.

What I want to talk about is how embarassingly atrocious I've been at remembering my adult responsibilities: cooking, making phone calls and budgetting. Geico have been fucking me over by suddenly charging me $500+ a month out of nowhere, but I was paid $500 for a commission so I legitimately believed I have enough money for a concert ticket, eating out and some clothes??? Turns out, I did not. Now I have 200 bucks in my bank account and rent is due. I had to beg my mom for more money and I feel completely pathetic and worthless.

I make mental notes, I write down lists, I even set up an alarm to remind me to call insurance companies, and yet it feels like the passage of time completely slips under my feet and, before I know it, it's 12:45pm and I need to leave for work. Then I tell myself "I'll call Geico when I'm on my 15min break, or my lunch break". Then my breaks come up, and it's like the Men In Black have completely wiped my memory. Then I have my day off on the weekend so I try to call then, and the offices are closed.

What I'm seriously struggling with right now is that I deeply care about this girl I'm talking to and severely worry over whether or not things will work out, and that's been causing me to stay up late at night talking to her, which means sleeping in, which means messing up my entire morning routine, which means making my ADHD worse.

I guess I just... I have no goddamn clue what to do. I think my job pays me enough to afford my needs and leisure (somewhat), but it's nearly impossible to consistently meal prep / cook cheap meals, avoid too many outings and to drive 2 hours to meet this girl. I'm exhausted and I just want to be financially responsible. It feels like no matter how great I seem to be doing with my chores or that I'm doing well at not buying things, I treat myself ONE goddamn time and everything falls apart. Don't even get me started on the horrendous dogshit economy, the cost of living, low wages and how ridiculously expensive everything is.

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u/Elerlilul — 16 days ago
▲ 235 r/Vinesauce

Kooper Dollar (oc)

I've been seeing a lot of people posting their Red Vox fanart for their tour, and I totally forgot to post the art I made for Vinny right before the Cleveland show!

This is based on my favorite Vinesauce stream of all time: Shitty Super Mario World ROM Hacks (Chaos Complexx). I've been watching Vinny's streams since 2012 when I was in highschool, and he's been a huge inspiration for my art and sense of humor. He's gotten me through some really rough patches of my life with his entertaining videos.

At the end of the show, I tossed this postcard on stage hoping that maybe they'd catch it before walking off. It landed up against the curtain, Joe (I think?) saw it, picked it up, asked me if I wanted it back and I pointed at Vinny. Vinny looked at me and I told him "it's for you!!" and he took it.

I'm still in complete shock. I legitimately can't believe it. I hope he likes it : )

u/Elerlilul — 17 days ago
▲ 75 r/Redvox

Postcard (Red Vox Cleveland Show)

I've been seeing a lot of people posting their Red Vox fanart for their tour, and I totally forgot to post the art I made for Vinny right before the Cleveland show!

At the end of the show, I tossed this postcard on stage hoping that maybe they'd catch it before walking off. It landed up against the curtain, Joe (I think?) saw it, picked it up, asked me if I wanted it back and I pointed at Vinny. Vinny looked at me and I told him "it's for you!!" and he took it.

I'm still in complete shock. I legitimately can't believe it. I hope he likes it : )

u/Elerlilul — 17 days ago
▲ 4.7k r/Deltarune

Everybody gets a big shot, baby (Full)

Reupload that includes all 13 characters

u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Suddenly no longer able to drag and drop images onto my canvas ("Could not complete your request because of a program error")

Up until recently I’ve been able to drag and drop images onto my canvas perfectly fine, then it suddenly decided to start giving me this error message: “Could not complete your request because of a program error”. I opened Adobe Creative Cloud to update Photoshop, it’s using the latest version. I hid all layers and saved the file under a different name, then saved them one layer at a time, same error. I tried renaming my Photoshop folder to “Adobe Photoshop 2026.old” (I do not have an “Adobe Photoshop Beta” folder like the article described) and restarted my computer, same error. I renamed my “com.adobe.unifidedpanel” folder to “~com.adobe.unifiedpanel”, same error. I have no idea what to do.

The “Learn how to fix” button under the error window doesn’t even direct me to an article on this particular issue. It sends me to a page about saving files.

If anyone has a fix please let me know. I'm trying to create an image collage for my friend and this is extremely frustrating.

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Everybody gets a big shot, baby

Art Instagram: crunchiest_elia

Art BlueSky: crunchiestelia.bsky.social

u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Documenting my ADHD anxiety in my diary during a slow shift

For context: 26M, I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD about 2 months ago and have been working at Walmart since last October. I'm not really friends with any of my coworkers because I have nothing in common with them, and during shifts I'm so spaced out and depressed that I don't want to talk to anyone.

As of right now, I have zero effective coping skills to help me remain mentally sane during a very long and boring shift at Walmart.

If I try to keep myself busy, I slip into perfectionism and continuously work faster until I get overwhelmed with anger. Anger towards Walmart, towards my coworkers not doing their job, towards my friends not responding to me, towards my weight. Literally anything I can possibly imagine that slightly bugs me, all at once.

If I try to take it slow, I become severely depressed and start wishing I wasn't alive anymore. One shift start to feel like it's multiple days long, while a crushing amount of emotional weight sits on my shoulders. I get so exhausted from masking and trying to keep working that I become socially distant from my friends for absolutely no reason. I start feeling like this is going to be my life forever: a waste of oxygen working retail jobs until I'm old and dead.

Any other men with inattentive ADHD struggling to get through shifts, please help me. Please share your advice and what has helped. Thank you.

u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

"White Cadillac" and "The Kockroach" are so damn amazing.

"White Cadillac" sounds like a Frankenstein's monster of that Puzzle and 3l3d3p song from General! ("TvT") combined with their 80s hardcore punk aesthetic, mixed with an amazing flow by Fletcher!!

"The Kockroach" has so much going on in terms of bizzare samples, abrupt cuts between phases and an overwhelming chaotic vibe. It got me hooked immediately!!

This album is so interesting.

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

"Down Doggy" is fucking hilarious

I see such a clear mental picture of Fletcher getting ganged up on by a pack of Australian hounds, biting down on his arms and swinging around, like it's a skit from some 70s comedy movie.

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago
▲ 557 r/Petscop

Postcard for my penpal (oc)

I like Petscop quite a lot. I kinda regret how I drew Marvin's face but oh well!

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Someone seriously please help me (bug / glitch?)

I'm reposting this in hopes that someone will see it and be able to help.

I can't log into my Instagram art account that I primarily use for commissions and networking. Two days ago, it randomly signed me out because "someone tried to h*ck my account", so I requested a code through SMS to verify my identity and... nope! It said that it cannot send a text to that phone number (and yes, it is the correct phone number)!

I cannot log into the Gmail that this account uses because I haven't used it in a long time, I don't remember the password, and I can't change the password because I don't have a secondary sign in method like a phone number or other email (and it does not allow me to set one up because I can't verify my identity). Instagram does not allow me to change which email my account uses.

I have the correct password written down for my account, but it's telling me that it's an incorrect password. I did get through to the reset password screen once two days ago, but when I tried to change it to something completely new, it told me "Something went wrong. Please try again later". Now I can't even get to that screen because it won't accept my SMS code.

Currently, I request an SMS code, it comes through instantly, I enter it and immediately receive an error message that says "This code is one time use and only valid for 10 minutes. Please request a new code". I waited for 10 minutes and requested a new one, it was immediately texted to me, I immediately entered it, and it gives me the same error message.

So... what do I do?

Is this it? Am I completely fucked?

Is there no fix to this?

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Seriously, please help me.

So,

I can't log into my Instagram art account that I primarily use for commissions and networking. Two days ago, it randomly signed me out because "someone tried to h\\\*ck my account", so I requested a code through SMS to verify my identity and... nope! It said that it cannot send a text to that phone number (and yes, it is the correct phone number)!

I cannot log into the Gmail that this account uses because I haven't used it in a long time, I don't remember the password, and I can't change the password because I don't have a secondary sign in method like a phone number or other email (and it does not allow me to set one up because I can't verify my identity). Instagram does not allow me to change which email my account uses.

I have the correct password written down for my account, but it's telling me that it's an incorrect password. I did get through to the reset password screen once two days ago, but when I tried to change it to something completely new, it told me "Something went wrong. Please try again later". Now I can't even get to that screen because it won't accept my SMS code.

Currently, I request an SMS code, it comes through instantly, I enter it and immediately receive an error message that says "This code is one time use and only valid for 10 minutes. Please request a new code". I waited for 10 minutes and requested a new one, it was immediately texted to me, I immediately entered it, and it gives me the same error message.

So... what do I do?

Is this it? Am I completely fucked?

Is there no fix to this?

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Seriously, someone please help me (bug / glitch)

So,

I can't log into my Instagram art account that I primarily use for commissions and networking. Two days ago, it randomly signed me out because "someone tried to h\*ck my account", so I requested a code through SMS to verify my identity and... nope! It said that it cannot send a text to that phone number (and yes, it is the correct phone number)!

I cannot log into the Gmail that this account uses because I haven't used it in a long time, I don't remember the password, and I can't change the password because I don't have a secondary sign in method like a phone number or other email (and it does not allow me to set one up because I can't verify my identity). Instagram does not allow me to change which email my account uses.

I have the correct password written down for my account, but it's telling me that it's an incorrect password. I did get through to the reset password screen once two days ago, but when I tried to change it to something completely new, it told me "Something went wrong. Please try again later". Now I can't even get to that screen because it won't accept my SMS code.

Currently, I request an SMS code, it comes through instantly, I enter it and immediately receive an error message that says "This code is one time use and only valid for 10 minutes. Please request a new code". I waited for 10 minutes and requested a new one, it was immediately texted to me, I immediately entered it, and it gives me the same error message.

So... what do I do?

Is this it? Am I completely fucked?

Is there no fix to this?

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago

Seriously, please help me.

So,

I can't log into my Instagram art account that I primarily use for commissions and networking. Two days ago, it randomly signed me out because "someone tried to h\*ck my account", so I requested a code through SMS to verify my identity and... nope! It said that it cannot send a text to that phone number (and yes, it is the correct phone number)!

I cannot log into the Gmail that this account uses because I haven't used it in a long time, I don't remember the password, and I can't change the password because I don't have a secondary sign in method like a phone number or other email (and it does not allow me to set one up because I can't verify my identity). Instagram does not allow me to change which email my account uses.

I have the correct password written down for my account, but it's telling me that it's an incorrect password. I did get through to the reset password screen once two days ago, but when I tried to change it to something completely new, it told me "Something went wrong. Please try again later". Now I can't even get to that screen because it won't accept my SMS code.

Currently, I request an SMS code, it comes through instantly, I enter it and immediately receive an error message that says "This code is one time use and only valid for 10 minutes. Please request a new code". I waited for 10 minutes and requested a new one, it was immediately texted to me, I immediately entered it, and it gives me the same error message.

So... what do I do?

Is this it? Am I completely fucked?

Is there no fix to this?

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u/Elerlilul — 1 month ago